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(A/N I thuthfully don’t know if I’m actually doing a good job with this story or not. No one ever comments. But people read? Eh.. ALSO I will edit the chapters soon. An I change ages. Cameron is 15 going to be 16 Isaac an Blake are both 16 already. Blake will be 17 …)
Blake’s p.o.v
These days when Cameron was gone I lost it. I didn’t sleep for most of the day he was gone.
Maybe like a hour or two. My mother seen it by the way I looked most days. She didn’t understand why I was a mopping mess he was just my best friend.
Yes he was my best friend but he was also the only boy I have ever fallen for. Its been like this for years.
He never much showed any kind of connection towards me in the same way. I was going to tell him my feelings for him soon but then Isaac of all people come out of no where and becomes Cameron’s so called boyfriend. It pisses me off so much to.
Me an Isaac are friends yes but it’s only because he makes Cam happy in so many ways. I can’t just take that poor broken boys happiness away like his ex did.
Cameron never really thinks about the outcomes of the things he does. That kid can be so annoying in so many ways sometimes it drives me nuts. A buzz come from my dresser pulling me out of my thoughts. Unlocking it to see Cameron’s name acrossed it. Sigh.
“Uh. Hia Blake.” he sound shy
“Hi Cameron. What do you want?”
I didn’t mean to sound mean but I was sorta pissed at him in so many ways.
“Oh. I’m guess you still are mad at me. I don’t think you’ll really want to hear me anymore so I guess I’ll just go..” sigh
“You’ve already wasted my time by calling me so just ask me.”
I probably hurt him by the way I was talking… Hoepfully he’ll forgive me when I’m not in a bad mood.
“I. uh. Do you remember my ex Alexander?”
Ex? Alexander WAIT WHAT?!?
“Yes what about him?” I had to keep my anger down in my voice.
“You’ll probably be mad at me for this. Witch hearing from your voice seem to already. Well I got drunk last night. Because we’ll I’m stupid anywhore I called him being drunk. We talked I don’t know how long or what about. But we actually started talking. texting I should say. He asked to meet him up somewhere. I said yes. An uh. Uh. I was wonder if you could. Uh. Come with me?”
Did he. Did he really. Oh my lord Cameron.
“Sure.”
I couldn’t say no that dude is abusive. He’ll hurt my poor cinnamon roll.
“Thanks Blake. Are we going to walk or you going to drive us? He wants to meet in a hour”
“Drive” sigh.
“If you don’t want to do this you don’t have to. Ill go by myself since you seem like your still mad at me. I don’t want to do something you don’t want to..”
its cute when even if he sacred he won’t make people do things for him. But I can’t say no.
“no no. Its fine Cameron. I’ll pick you up in 30 mins.”
“Thanks Blake. really thanks. Okay. I’ll see you then.” Then he hung up.
Why does he want to see his abusive ex? what in the right mind of his possessed him to want to go see that asshat? Ugh Fuck this I need to get dressed.
“Honey your tea is done” my mother called from the kitchen.
“Okay mom I’ll be down in a min” I hurry up and go dressed.
Walking past a minor I looked at my reflection. I was too pale for my liking my eyes were red an puffy around them. My hair was a mess. What else could possibility go wrong with me today? Once I was down stairs my mother looked up from her book.
“Oh honey come here”
she stood up messing with my hair an my face. I guess she was trying to make me look better.
“Okay all done tea is in the pot. I have to go to work I love you blondy bye”
she walked away kissing my cheek. Gotta love my mother sometimes. When she’s home at least. She’s never much home besides this week. I guess she heard about Cameron and thought I needed someone even though she still was barely home for my liking least she’s trying I guess. Sigh.
Time to go get Cameron I guess. Putting on my converses and jacket I walked outside. Cameron was sitting at the end of my driveway looking down. He seemed more depressed then usual. What happened to him while he was gone?
“Cam” he turned around and sat up but didn’t put his head up he was still looking at the ground when he walked towards me.
“Uh-h-h. Um-m-m. H-h-hi.” He stuttered he hasn’t done that since well awhile ago.
“Why are you stuttering?” He finally looked up.
“Can we just go” he said quietly.
“Sure Cam.” We walked to my car.
“Where are we exactly meeting this. Person.”
I couldn’t say his name. I hate him a lot. Never actually seen him much or talked to him but what I’ve heard he wasn’t really much of a person to want to be around.
“The. The. The.” He toke a pause.
He seemed really scared right now. Why’d he agree to this if he was scared?
“Cameron why are you doing this. You seem terrified out of your freaking mind.” He sighed.
“I need to. I need answers closer something. Anything. Just. I Don’t know Blake. Please can we just go. Also its the park” he sounded so unsure of himself but yet persist.
Like he was battling with himself.
“Fine.”
The park we go. Wait the park. The PARK?!? Of all places?
“The park.” I said quietly.
“Don’t think about it.”
He probably knew what I was thinking. The park. The same place he tried to kill himself. The same place I found out I was in love with him. The park that I hate so much.
“Were here.” I said softly.
He sighed. “Let’s just go.”
I parked the car and we both walked to the picnic tables. He was there sitting. He seemed terrified scare you name it.
“Alexander” Cam said.
He finally looked up. And holy hell. He was hot. His red hair witch you can tell was dyed the freckles on his nose and around his cheeks the beautiful grey blue eyes. Holy hell…
“Blake?” I heard the whisper in my ear.
“OH. Cam. Heh. What?” He gave me a ‘why are you acting so weird look’.
“Um. Ok. This uh. Um.”
“Xander” the freckle one said.
“Hi.” Is all I could manage to say.
“Heyo”
“yeaaa”
“Weird. But Elliot you know why I’m here. Answers now” Cameron got right to the point.
I couldn’t concentrate with Xander here. His voice was like. Was like a drug to my ears I could listen to him all day long. He seemed nervous as well as me but probably for a different reasons.
“Yeah. That’s what were here for. Well as you know dating you was just for a dare”
Cameron made a ‘mhm’ sound. I was shocked I never knew it was just a dare.
“As I’m taking it your fellow friend here didn’t know that.” Cam sighed.
“I didn’t tell him about anything of out tever you want to call it. Didn’t seem to care to. Now back to what you were saying.”
“Oh. Ok. Well the dare was to make you fall in love with me then break your heart. After awhile of whatever we were I started to actually fall for you. And we all know that I have bad ways with dealing with my anger or emotions in general. I didn’t want to fall in love with you in anyway at all. But that certainly didn’t happen. I falling in love with you. I toke my anger out on you because well it was you who I was falling for of all people I fell for the one and only Cameron Vince. I’m stupid for everything ive done I’m sorry for everything I have done as well. It never ment to go where it did. I’m not asking for forgiveness because I certainly don’t deserve it at all. But some good news is I got medicine to control my anger and I have anger management things I go to. So thanks for coming today. If you don’t want to see me ever again you don’t have to.”
I just sat there wondering what Cameron was going to do. He had a expression on his face that was unreadable.
Then he got up and lefted met here with the freckled freak.
“Sooo. Your Blake?” I turned my head back to him.
“Uh. Yes?” I said in more of a question way.
“Hmm. Your cute” here comes the blushing.
“I. Uh. What?”
Why can’t I freaking talk today. Why do I think Xanders hot? What? I like girls not boys. No no No boys. I’m straight. No boys. Cameron is a exception. No one else.
“That blush makes you even more cute.” He smiled.
“But I have to go.”
He grabbed a marker out of his pocket and grabbed my arm. I flinched. He has hit Cameron. IS HE GOING TO HURT ME?!
“Claim down Blondie. Im not going to hurt you.” Sure you aren’t.
Then he wrote something on my arm. Winked at me and walked away. I looked at my arm.
‘Call/Text me soon. 😉 Xander’ and it had his number under it. Weird. I smiled.
Cameron’s p.o.v
Today was probably one of the worst days in my life.
I woke up to a hangover not that it surprised me vodka does that to me big time. But I did something while I was drunk that I really really really really fucking regret. I called my freaking abusive ex. In a way I was actually glad in another way I was totally an utterly pissed at myself for doing something so stupid.
He texted me this morning as well so I started texting back. He wanted to talk an I want closer or something. So I said yeah tever.
I called Blake to take me there since I’m still scared of being around him more then anything. Blake didn’t seem to happy about me calling him or the fact I was going to see the ex that made me see reality an that ex that he truly hated more then anything.
Blake said yes so we went to see Xander.
Once we got there the first time I have ever seen my beat friend so nervous. He couldn’t even really talk. He seemed to be staring at Xander as well. What the hell? Tever that.
Xander of course explain part of what I wanted to know But not everything. I guess he was falling for me as well and I was falling for him. He also has really bad anger problems. He has medicine for that an such. Good he’s getting better.
But me. What about me? I’m getting worse by the minute. When my ex who looks so much different now is getting better. He toke my happiness the innocent boy that I was an turn me upside down.
Now Now of all times he’s getting better. I’m glad he is. But.. I don’t know anymore.
I walked away from the whole situation leaving Blake there. He’s mad at me anyways so I don’t really even think he cares that I left..
My mind is a mess. What do I do now? forget everything Xander has done an befriend him once again. Forgive him for everything he has done? Or should I not. Just stop talking to him. He doesn’t deserve to be able to talk to me. Or even see me to. He deserves to feel the pain I’ve felt for the past year. The pain he made me feel… But he doesn’t really. The pain I’ve felt was because I’m stupid I’ve fallen in love with him that was my fault. The pain I’ve gotten was my fault it’s all my fault.
He may have token my happyness away but I’m not going to take his. I’m better then him. I’m the one who been threw hell an back. I don’t want to make him go through that as well. I need to get better as well.. Maybe I actually don’t. Maybe I’m supposed to end up alone in pain without anyone there for me.
The life of pain. The marks. The rape… Oh God. I’ve been raped who would want to even be near me?!? The person who wast touched in so many ways that he shouldn’t have. The one who was abused who would want such a broken boy like me? No one. I don’t deserve anything nothing. No one.
I felt a hand on my shoulder. I jumped falling onto the ground curled up into a bowl. Saying ‘don’t hurt me don’t hurt me’
“Cameron it’s just me.” A very familiar voice said to me.
“What are you doing out here.” I looked up to make sure I was hearing right.
The tear were coming down my face.
“Isaac”
Isaac the one who I haven’t talked to since yesterday. The Isaac I seem to be falling for the Isaac who suddenly came into my life one day an changed my way of life a little. The Isaac that was broken like me.
“Isaac” I said once again.
“Cameron” was all he said before he hugged me.
It was a hug that made my thoughts disappear. A hug that made me feel all warm inside. A hug that said ‘you have hope’ if that made any sense. I was shorter then him. By a few inches.
He smelled like strawberries an vanilla. It was a smell that made me happy. My tear stopped an I laughed a bit.
“What are you laughing at” Isaac said as we stoped hugging.
“You smell like strawberries an vanilla.” He smiled.
That smile was beautiful. So I returned one.
“You should smile more Cameron” I laughed a bit.
Then looked at his lips. They made me remember that last time I was as his house. We had some unfinished business.
“An you should kiss me more” he looked at me a little shocked.
Since he didnt seem to catch my drifted. I grabbed his jacket an pulled his head down.
Then kissed him. He seemed surprised at first then he started moving his lips with mine. I was basically on my tippy toes trying to kiss him. He licked my bottom lips asking for entrance witch I happily granted. Our tongues sorta just danced together perfectly. He tested sweet with a hit of mint.
Our kiss last little bit longer till I heard someone clear their throat behind me. Isaac an me both looked who it was.
“As much as I like to watch you two mouth rape each other. My mother wants me to come home.”
Isaac just stood there awkwardly. I laughed.
“Okay Okay.” I peaked his cheek an walked away.
‘Text me’ was all I said to him till I ran off to Blake’s car.
Maybe I deserve happiness?
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