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Isaac p.o.v
We got In the house. It was quite small really. He had three dogs two small ones an a hyper ass one. No one was home besides Cameron an me.
As he let out his dogs and whatever he toke off his jacket. An as me eye rapping him I noticed something…there was bumps on his chest?.. Does he have boobs. Is he a guy what is he…is he even a he…she?.
“You seem to notice the bubbles on my chest.” Cameron looked down upset.
“why-” Cameron cut me off before I could ask.
“Girl. body.”
“what?” Cameron sighed.
He-she seemed so sad like they were ganna cry.. I felt so bad.
“I have a girl body but I’m a boy.”
Then it hit me. I know what he is. I don’t care who cares. I still am I’m love with him even though he has no clue about it.
“Transgender?”
“Yes.”
“Okay. Do what are we ganna do.”
“Cheyennes my real name.”
Then it hit me again. Cheyenne Cameron Cam. His real name is Cheyenne. But I won’t ever call him that. Its Cameron the dude I feel madly in love with. He probably won’t ever like me the same way though. I’ll never tell him my feelings I don’t want to mess up the relationship we are building. Even though I haven’t known him for a day I want to be his friend or his lover but I just want to be by his side. I need affection from him I need him around…I’ve never felt this towards anyone before. I’ve never felt the erge to want someone to hug them to feel affection and to just be in their persistence. I never want to let this go…I don’t want to let him go. No matter what I will not let him my feelings for him. I just want to keep him around.
“Welp. My mother doesn’t come home till way later and my dad hasn’t been home since 2 week’s ago. No one else lives with me”
Wow. He has the house to himself half the time I would love to have that. Instead I’m stuck with a bunch of annoying girls.
“Oh. okay.”
God why the fuck to I have to sound so shy. I began to look at Cameron he seemed to like sad. Why?.
Cameron went into the bathroom an changed into a tank top he did something to make the chest bubbles go away. I examined his body a little by little taking I’m every detail. Till I hit his arms… there was cut marks..an burn marks..he wore a lot bracelets.
“could you not stare at me.” he asked
So quietly if he said it quieter I wouldn’t have herd him. He look so like insecure with himself. He grabbed him jacket and put it on sitting on the couch cuddling up with his over sized jacket. Another Batman jacket. He seems to like Batman a lot.
Cameron’s p.o.v
Once I change I walked out of the bathroom. Isacc was standing there by the China cabinet. I caught what he was looking at. He looked all over my body every inch little by little.
Once his eye meet my arms I started to flip out in my head. I felt so exposed an insecure. I didn’t like this..
“could you not stare at me.”
He looked like he was wondering why it seemed that in a way he knew by the way I was standing there an acting.
I couldn’t take this anymore I grabbed my over sized Batman jacket an sat on the couch cuddling the fuck out of it.
We were watching law in order heh it’s a good show. Isacc wasn’t staring at me anymore I was acting kinda happy about that. I don’t like people staring at me or giving me to much attention..I don’t know why but it just sorta freaks me out in a way. Its not like I’m really used to it either.
No one stares or even gives me attention half the time. I’m used to being alone in my room with my fan fictions. This is kinda new to me having someone over. I haven’t had anyone over in years since the time I moved here that was a few year ago.
I become very tired an sleepy. My eyes closed one time and pooff I was passed out sleeping…
Isaacs p.o.v
After about 10 mins of watching law and order I looked over at Cameron. Gosh he’s so cute. He was passed out on the other couch. He’s soft snores were so adorable. He was just completely adorable in every way.
Why do I have to be in love with someone. This sorta hurts, like I understand what pain Plam went through with her first love. She fell in love with him right on the spot an he did to.
They were together for about 2 years till he cheated on her with the sluttests girl in school. I felt so bad for her after that. She hasn’t dated anyone since then and that happened 3 or 2 years ago… Wow. People are such jackasses if your not happy I a relationship brake up with them don’t cheat on them.
Cheating is fucking stupid I don’t understand that purpose of it. You have a person who loves you more then anything they do anything to keep you happy an you go and cheat on them with some else. What the hell is wrong with this world?. I don’t understand this worlds logic half the time.
Soon after thinking for about 5 mins I became tired. Since I was on a couch I thought it would be okay to sleep here. Toke about 2 or so mins till I fell completely asleep.
I was in a tree house in the middle of May.
“Plam Plam come up here it’s fun” Plam was sitting on the bench while I was playing in the tree house my father built me.
“I’m tired pet…can we go home?” She asked me so softly.
“Sure. Plam I love you” she looked down.
She was the only friend I had. I loved her the most in this world more then anything. I was only 13 and she was 15. Were walked home in silence it was a little weird for me. We never not talked on the way home. Was she okay? Did something happen? Do I need to kill someone?..
“Plam?”.
“Yes Isacc?”
“Is there something wrong?” She was quiet for a moment.
“No. I’m just tired. I barely slept last night”
she really didn’t either she cried that whole night because of what happened the day before But I didn’t know any of this till after the fact of everything. I was sitting in my room while Plam was in hers I could hear her music between the walls.
-She’s says she wants to end it when she’s all alone in her room.
She crys the way she feels Inside is to much for her.
When all you have is these for walls it’s not that hard to feel so small. Or even exists at all.
How come no one hears her when she says.
Maybe I’m better off dead if I was would it finally be enough shut out all these voices in my head.-
This song made me think. She used to cut herself a lot I became very scared. I lefted my room an ran to plans as fast as I could.
The door was locked an no one was answering I don’t care. I busted it open to find my sister laying on the floor with both of her wrists cut wide open and her foaming out the mouth.
I woke up screaming. Cameron was over top of me pinning my arms down. He began to blush when he noticed my eyes were opened.
“So you get nightmares?” That was all he had asked me.
“Y-y-y-yeah.” God damn this studder.
“Also. why are you like on top of me.”
He looked at what he was blushing a bit more an got off of me. Awh I still want him to be that close to me.
“You were screaming an moving around a lot. I was trying to wake you up but you wouldn’t wake up. So I pinned you down the the couch so you would stop moving. That sorta worked but you didn’t stop screaming till you woke up” he said while looking at the ground.
“O-oh.” After I said that a door swinged open.
“CHEYENNE!” he jumped.
“Yes mom?”
“Clean the house up were having people over tomorrow make something worth eating. Something that isn’t as worthless as your dumbass.”
What the hell kind of person does his mother think she is. I was so about to open my mouth to say something but Cam put his hand over my mouth like he knew I was ganna try and say something.
“Don’t say a word to her” he whispered into my ear.
A shiver went through me and once again I started to blush..Cameron’s mother walked outside and smoked a cigarette.
“Sorry about that.” he trailed off.
“Is. Is this how she is all the time?.” I asked so shyly
FUCK..I’m never like this with someone wtf. I looked over at Cam he looked like he was about to cry or something.
“Yes.” Was all he said before he lefted to his room.
I didn’t know wither to follow him or stay here. But as so on as I seen his mother get up from the chair she was sitting in I went to his door and knocked on it. The door slowly opened. And what I seen killed me.
Cameron’s eyes were red and puffy he still had tears falling down. He looked so broken in many ways I felt so bad and it upset me to know that this person right here lives in a broken home. I couldn’t help myself I hugged him. He was a little bit short then me.
I didn’t mind he had his head in my chest I like being this close to him. The feeling the warmth the butterflies everything that I was feeling at that time…I just loved it.
Cameron’s p.o.v
I can’t believe my mother said that in front of a person I just met. Isaac didn’t seem to like what she said at all. I knew he was going to say something by the way his eyes looked. His green eyes. The were so beautiful. I wasn’t the one to like green eyes I for some reason liked Brown eyes in stead of any other color well besides red or black.
But his eyes I liked them a lot. Hopefully he doesn’t notice I’m staring at him right now. Wait what was happening? Oh yeah. I put my head over his mouth before he could say anything he didn’t seem to like that either. So I whispered in his ear
“Don’t say a word to her” He shivered a bit.
Its kinda funny how I have this affect on him. Heh.. My mother went outside and Isaac was trying to talk to me. I barley remember the conversion besides that is was about my mother. I felt tears wanting to come out of my eyes.
I ran to my room hoping he wouldn’t follow and he didn’t. I don’t think he knew what to do. Till a few mins later I heard a knock at my door. I knew it wasn’t my mother she never knocks. It was Isaac.
I opened the door about to tell him I want to alone right now he hugged me. This..this much attention from a guy I just met today…why was he like this. Maybe it’s just in his nature. Maybe being nice is something he doesn’t with everyone he meets. And probably to all the girls or guys he probably gets…This is going to happen. He isn’t going to be like this for ever it’s just the first impression from someone ya know…
This hug was actually calming. I wasn’t shaking anymore or crying. His sent was heaven I just want to keep smelling it. The warmth of this hug was…It was just something I haven’t felt in years.. Shit..I better not be falling for this idiot. I can’t I won’t..I don’t want it to happen again. I couldn’t deal with it for a second time. He’s probably straight and doesn’t date transgender people either.
I was so zoned out I didn’t notice we were hugging longer then necessary. I let go of him and he let go. In his eyes he sorta looked hurt. Welp shit now I feel bad.
“Your mother kinda scares me.”
“Understandable”
“well. I’m tired I’m going to sleep
so either you sleep in here with me or in the living room..” he blushed when I said in my room.
Heh.
“Which one do you want…”
was…was he really asking me that. Like he was really considering both if the things I said.
“…uh…I don’t know…”
we both just stood there. Know what FUCK it. I grabbed his head and I layed down on the bed as he did next to me. That blush if his never left his face. The whole time I was awake. He was almost half way off the bed so I pulled him closer to me to the point my head was by his chest. I didn’t care anymore. I latterly snuggled up against him and we were now cuddling. I haven’t cuddled with someone in so many years I forgot what it felt like. I haven’t felt this much attention…or being simply closed to someone.
I wish this moment could last but he’ll probably never like me…probably doesn’t know what to since we first met. Probably will yell at me in the morning but for now I’m just going to enjoy this and let sleep consume me. I fell asleep mins later.
Isaac p.o.v
Holy mother of shit…were cuddling and he’s asleep. I didn’t latterly think he ment it when he said in his room with him to sleep.
But honestly I don’t really care right now. I just wanted to enjoy being this close to him it was heaven to me. I loved it being so close to him. I was getting butterflies again and my face is heating up once again.
Why does this keep happening to me? He has such a affect on me I wonder how someone could have such affect on someone. I hope after this we can be close in someway again. He looked to peace full. I kissed his forehead
“Goodnight Cam..” I said softly and went to sleep mins later.
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