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(Something Something happens in this chapter that may trigger people I don’t know so I guess Ima put a warning up.)
–Trigger Warning-
Cameron’s p.o.v
What was I going to do with the whole Blake knowing thing?…I’m freaking out majorly. If Blake knew what would he do? Worry about me more be hurt I never told him? Hate Isaac more since I made him keep it from Blake. I can’t focus why did I have to become friends with Blake or Isaac.
Being alone sounded better then all this. Alone…I want to be alone I need to be alone. I need to go away from here them my mother everything. I just need to leave for awhile… Jesus It’s 4 in the morning.
Eh…I went and grabbed a bag an packed cloths an such for days. Went into the bathroom an grabbed the money I stashed under the washer.
Once I was all dressed and packed up I looked around the living room to make sure no one was there. Of course my mother still wasn’t home she never really was. I got to the front door and heard a car door. Shit she’s home.
Ran as fast as I could to the back door shutting it quietly and leaving that house as fast as I could. It was still dark out not to many stars. I loved the darkness it clams me down.
I walked for about an hour. I didnt have my phone with me I lefted it at home so no one could find me not that anyone would even try to though.
‘No one cares about you Cameron.’
Sigh..I know.
‘Your worthless.’
I know..
After walking for so long I had to sit down my bruises and cuts were hurting for walking for so long. I stopped by some woods I have never seen in my life. Maybe since I never actually lefted my hours in years is the reason I have never seen these woods or anything around me to be right.
What was I planning on doing? Where was I going? Anywhere from this. My problems the people everything. Getting away when I actually can is better then being there.
These woods were so beautiful. There was tress everywhere filled with green leaves flowers everywhere. It was a beautiful lie. The sun slowly shined through the leaves. Making the woods look more beautiful then ever. I wish I could be a beautiful lie like this.
Once I’ve noticed I’ve been in these woods longer then necessary I walked out of them to the road continuing my adventure.
Yes this is a adventure. I’ve never been one really so I’m counting this as one. I came upon this town that looked abandoned. Hmm.
I took a breath not knowing if could be my last I felt a hand over my mouth.
“Scream hit kick or anything I’ll cut your throat with a knife”
And that’s all I’ve ever wanted. To die to get away from this world to get away from everything. But I just didn’t do anything but at and there. I was to wake to move to talk let alone scream for someone. I didn’t know what this dude wanted from me or anything but I didn’t really care anyways.
“Good. Your weak so this will hurt. Follow me now!”
He shoved the knife in his pocket and grabbed my arm yanking me into one of the houses.
“Decloth yourself”
Do what? I gave him a confused look.
“Strip. Naked. Cloths off now now!”
Right then and there I figured out what he wanted to do. I can’t no I can’t no no no no no no no no!
“No!” I yelped not acknowledging I said that out loud.
“Do as I fucking say!” He said smacking me.
I can’t. He’s going to rape me I can’t do this. No no no no. I was shaking and breathing rapidly like I was taking my last breath. He looked so pissed he grabbed me threw on the floor ripping off everything. Besides my binder. He looked at me confused as shit.
“What the hell is this? Are you a fucking transgender!?” He screamed. I just nodded.
“Well I’m for both genders I can have fun with both ways” he said giving me a wink.
After about an hour of being rapped I passed out. I was wake in pain exhausted tired and wanting to give up.
Blake’s p.o.v(days before)
Cameron brought home this boy that I for one have never seen in my life. When did Cameron met here where did he meet him? Who is he where’s he from what’s he like? He better not be a fuck boy.
Throughout the whole time he was at my house the first day I didn’t really like him. You could see the way he looked at Cameron that he had a thing for him. It made me so mad. I know Cameron has only seen me in a brother way.
But ever since the day I found Cameron art he park almost killing himself I fell in love with him hard. So freaking heard it physically hurts.
I couldn’t help it or stop it. But I’ve never told him or plan on it. The last person he was with hurt him. He was so in love with him they’re always together kissing hugging holding hands.
He opened up to him told him every thing there was to tell. I wasn’t really Cameron’s friend at this moment. After a few months of them being together Cam looked hurt and sad.
Everyday he looked like he was in pain like he wanted to give up. I was the stupid one who didn’t do anything we got in a fight that caused us to not talk to each other for awhile.
After days and months of seeing him like this I felt like the worst person in the world my friend Cloe had to help me see myself differently though. She thought it was working but it really wasn’t.
Throught those days Cam and Xander were together I heard rumors about them. Apparently Xander hit Cameron or that Xander rapped him, Xander never let Cameron eat, Xander made Cameron his bitch, Xander has control over Cameron.
Everything I heard about them killed me. One day after hangout with my friend I wasn’t in the mood to go home so I went to the park near me.
Once I was there my heart dropped Cameron was by the slide with a bottle of pills in his hand and a cut from his hand up to his elbow bleeding out.
At this moment I made a promise to myself that I would always be there for him for everything I will protect him in every way no matter what. And at the moment I feel in love with him some how. Of course I tried stoping the bleeding with my shirt as I called an ambulance. Cameron survived thankfully.
Once he woke up he was scared to see me there next to him. I told him I was sorry for whatever I did and that I will always be here for him forever.
Cameron broke down in tears he was so hurt and didnt know what to do. Till he told me almost everything. Xander did hit him, made Cameron do everything he wanted like he was a slave, Cameron was not rapped by Xander but Xander did touch him sometimes. Xander broke them off by blaming Cameron for him cutting himself and over thinking.
I wanted to kill that dude so much right then and there. I hated Xander more then anything I have ever hated. I wasn’t aloud to hurt him I promised Cameron.
Cameron was still in love with Xander no matter what he did to him Cameron would always love him.
That’s why I’m so protective of Cam. I loved and wanted to protect him more then anything. Isaac isn’t someone I wanted around. He seemed to sweet and quite. Xander was like that at first.
But Isaac made Cameron happy I couldn’t drag him away from him. Felt happiness for once and I wasnt going to take it away from him. I told Isaac thank you for being here but yet I don’t really think I ment.
After days of hangout with them Isaac went home an so did Cameron. Cameron ended up back at my house upset I said something wrong to him that set off a panic attack. I felt so stupid and mad at myself. I had to ask Isaac if his heard him but it ended into a conversation of self harm.
Isaac was acting weird to. What we’re they hiding from me? It makes me so mad madder then ducks being runned by the government. Why would Cameron hide something from me? I’ve known him for years he barley knows Isaac.
What the hell? I’ll figure out in the morning…after the hours of sleep I had I woke up. I always had a set time for everything I guess you could say. I didn’t like it but my mother taught me it when I was young and it just set.
8am the morning I have to do chorus. Wash dishes for 30 mins cheek clean the rest of the house for about 2 hours cheek.
Now it was 10:48 by the time I got done. Cameron never texted me Once that was usual.
I called him ring ring ring
‘Ayee there it’s Cam leave a message after the beep.’
I didn’t leave one. I have to make sure he’s okay. im so hoping his mother isn’t home…. After getting dressed I walked over to his house. Shit his mother’s home nooooooo. His mother isn’t nice she’s hit me Once before and I see what she does to Cam she terrifies me. Sigh breath Blake…clam down.
“Knock Knock”
The door slowly opened up and there she was.
“Oh look who it is.”
“Where’s….Cam?”
“Who?”
“Ch-h-h-Cheyenne”
“Studder much loser. But no she wasnt home when I came home” I cringed at the word ‘she’
“what time?”
“Like 5 or 4 in the morning”
That’s all she said then shut the door. I grabbed my phone and called Isaac.
“Hey blake”
“Have you heard from Cam is he over there?”
“Nope haven’t talked to him since last night I’m sorry”
“omg…”
“What Blake?”
“I think he ran away” then I heard nothing and the phone went silent.
Isaac p.o.v
“I think he ran away”
Was all Blake said. I was so shocked I stared blankly at my wall as my phone dropped from my hand….he ran away…He’s going to kill himself…Cameron I love you…
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