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(A/n this chapter sorta just revolves around Cameron’s thoughts in the morning. An has some violent scenes. So yeah…)
-Trigger warning-
Cameron’s p.o.v
Last night an the night’s before we’re mostly all a blur to me.
Besides the fact that I had feelings for someone once again…. last night I have no could what I was thinking.
How can I trust Isaac? Will he hurt me like dare I say Xander?
Alexander Elliot Bloomer.
The one an only person I have actually ever been with. An let me freaking tell you. Well tell myself. I mean I an the one that’s talkin yo myself in a closet at like 8 in the morning.
Xander didn’t really much like his full first name so he got everyone to call him Xander. Or in my case I called him Elliot. He hated his first name an wanted me to call him something else. Oh memories….
-FLASHBACK-
It was a bright October day birds signing people walking around swimming talking just simply hanging out in the beautiful weather. Today was the fourth day Xander an Cameron hangout.
Xander planed this day out a little. He always had his eyes on this adorable little frighten boy with black hair and sparking blue eyes.
With a smile that always seem to appear making Xander feeling warm inside. Cameron just wanted a friend since him an Blake had a really big fight. He wasn’t much friends with people so when Xander asked to hangout Cameron said tever.
“Hey Cam?” Cameron blushed at the nickname Xander called him.
No one has called him Cam or even Cameron much since he came out as trans a year ago.
“Yes Alexander?”
Xander was looking at the sky and once he heard his actual first name his noise twitched an he had the look of disgust on his face.
You see Xander didn’t much like his first name for various reasons. But his main reason was that is was his father’s name. The father that would drink everyday and come home to yell at his kid and wife. Beatening them without caring with anger I’m his eyes.
Till one day he met this slut and walked out of those twos lives. Leaving Xander as the father figure around the house. No one knew but about Xanders pasted nor did anyone find out. He was popular an tended to keep it that way.
“Can you call me something else then Alexander” once again Xander had the look of disgusted on his face
“why? It’s such a beautiful name. I wish I could have such a beautiful name” Cameron said with the brightest smile Xander has seen on him. How could someone be so happy?
“It’s just past stuff. But can you like give me a nickname or something?” Cameron looked as if he was in deep thought.
“Well…everyone calls you Xander. But I want to be different. I want my own name for you. Hmm. What’s your full name?” Xander didn’t see much if a problem telling him.
“Alexander Elliot Bloomer. What may yours be handsome” Xander said with a big smile lifting up Cameron’s head with his finger so he could see Cameron’s face.
“Cameron Blue Vince. Also. I think I’m just going to call you Elliot. I actually like that name to. But not as much as Anthony though.”
Cameron rambled on about why an how he love those names..While Xander looked so interested in the conversion they were having..
–End of flashback-
Those were the days I actually thought he cared for him. Like he actually loved me or something. Later I found out that wasn’t the case. He was using me because of a dare.
The days we hangout made me more happier each day. By the min every time I seen Ell-Alexander I feel happy. He obviously seen it in me as well. He acted like he wanted me an liked me for the first 4 months we were hangingout.
I didn’t take much time into anything else around me. Just if I listened to that one girl…what’s her name… uh. Oh yeah Dalsin(D-all-son). She was from the school he used to go to…
-Flashback-
It was a white snowy day. But not to snowy.
Xander was in his own thoughts. While Cameron was huddling up to him for warmth. Xander didn’t really mind.
But yet this wasn’t part of the dare. He always thought of the dare. That one awful night at a dance party him and his friends played truth or dare. It was the last persons dare before everyone was going to leave. The last person was Xander.
Kevin was his best friend so Kevin knew what to do to hit him hard for fucking around with his ex-girlfriend. Xander was dared to date the transgender at school.
Make the poor kid fall in love with him then crush the poor kids life. But with all this dare he thought it was simply but it really wasn’t. Xander started to become actually fond of Cameron.
Like he actually started to feel for him. Xander didn’t know what to do. But he put his thoughts away and did his act. Xander toke Cameron an him to a movie.
When the movie ended the two were outside in the front Cameron was glowing with happyness an smiling like a little kid seeing free candy. Xander loved this site.
But remember it was a dare and he hast to make him fall in love with him then crush the damn kid. Xander didn’t really want to do this anymore but. He wasn’t really much of a person to stay with someone or actually like someone.
“Hey Alexander” a familiar voice came from behind the two.
“Shit” was all Xander whispered to himself.
“Huh?” The hyper happy ass kid questioned.
“You must be the new piece of work of his. Huh? Well don’t get attached to him he’s a man whore who does a lot of stupid dares” the stupid girl said to Cameron.
“Elliot who is she? And what’s she talking about?” The cold boy that was cuddled up to Xander for once in his life look sad to the point he may cry.
“Nothing Cam Shh. she’s just jealous” Xander said running his hand through Cameron’s hair.
Things like this were the Times he wished this wasn’t a dare but that was real. But it wasn’t that. It was just stupid dare to make a kid fall for you then break their silly little heart.
“Oh that’s pathetic Alexander. You sound like your father” anger boiled up in Xander.
“Babe. can we just leave the jealous Bitch an go to my house or something” Cameron who was obviously pissed as well.
Since Xander said something to him about his stupid father and how he hated his guts.
“Cameron seriously. I’m not the one lying here. He’s going to break you once you fall in love with him” Cameron had enough of this.
Mainly because he already knew he was in love with the boy front of him. He knew it since the day they started talking.
But he wasn’t going to tell him till awhile. But Xander didn’t know such thing of this though. But if he did the dare wouldn’t have gotten as bad as it did.
-end of flashback-
I seriously wished I listened to that girl. Or at least told him right then an there that I was madly in love with him an everyday it grew stronger. I was the sacred one to tell him.
After almost two months of being with him he became violent…He was so sweet an nice caring shy towards me when we first started to be together but after awhile he became aggressive….
-flashback-
Today was just like a normal day. It was somewhere in January. Cameron didn’t simply much care what day or if the world was crashing or tever.
He just wanted to stay with his lovely boyfriend of his. They have been together for almost two months. Cameron was just sitting on the couch watching tv.
As Xander was in the kitchen sorting things out in his head. Xander found out a few days ago that he was falling for Cameron in a way he wasn’t supposed to. He didn’t want to either. The last person he wanted to spend the rest of his life would be with a guy let alone him for God’s sakes.
Xander had so much anger in him since he was so mad at him self for falling for such a freak.
“Cam?” Xander called for his- freak-of-a-boyfriend who or he walked into where the freak was.
“Yes Elliot?” His voice was beautiful an full of life and happiness.
“You know. You make this in impossible for me. So I have to teach you a lesson for what you have done.”
Xander didn’t really want to Do what he was about to. But before he could stop himself he full on punch the poor little kid he was starting to fall in love with in his face. Cameron has near been hit in his life. Or have seen a fight in person.
All the happiness cheerfulness the glow everything just like poured out of him right then and there as well as the blood coming out of his nose. That day was the day Cameron life become a living hell.
-end of flashback-
What did I so so wrong that I actually deserved everything that kid has done to me.
What if Isaac is the same? He’s all sweet an perfect harmless cute. But what if one day he actually turns on me to. Like like….Randomly hits me because I’m not doing something right or hits me because I’m just a worthless being. What if Isaac doesn’t actually like me? What if it’s another dare? Will I ended up in abusive relationship once again?…. I don’t know I can try at Isaac… or anyone at least…Xander why did you have to Fuck me up in the head so much.
The most sweetest people can become the most violent ones. An you’ll never see it coming.
Why didn’t I just walk away from him that day an never look back. Why’d I have to go an say yes to him. Why did I have to fall in love with him. Why does he mean so much to me?… Does he even actually care about me? Did he ever care about me. Or even love me when he said it before. Why was I such a stupid kid…
(Guess you could say it’s just a flutter chapter. Kinda gives you some information about Cameron an Xanders relationship that no one actually knows everything about.. But yeah.)
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