Array
(
[text] =>
Cameron p.o.v
Love was a complicated subject for me. Specially when Isaac asked me how I know I’m in love. Or am I fine with us actually be together.
I ended up telling him everything about my relationship with Elliot. He understood the reason why I’m so sacred of love an people yelling or simply something around that.
Isaac was an interesting man if I ask myself. Never much cared about knowing someone besides Blake. But when Isaac spent the night at the hospital that morning we spent talking to each other about one another. I woke up Like hours before he did but that only gave me the time to look an learn every detail of his face.
Isaac was a extremely beautiful man. His jawline was perfect. His adams apple was showable. His face structure was perfect to. Sorta became jealous of how he can look like a boy with his adams apple muscular structure.
Me on the other hand you could tell in many ways I was indeed born with a girl structure. I have no adams apple my face is far from boyish and I have no sharp chin line an shit. My voice was girly to. Some reasons why I don’t like talking to people. They can tell. They will know. Misgender me. Call me a freak.
School was hard about me being a transgender. Specially this one guy named Kevin ever since I came out to the school(witch was a complete accident.) He was trying to make my life a living hell since I ‘broke his heart’. Truthfully I didn’t even know who the hell he was till the day he asked me to go out with him. Elliot was by him when this all happened. Soon figured out Kevin was the one who dared Elliot. Kevin wanted to get ravage on me for doing tever I did.
“Babbbbeee” Isaac winned
“Yes clingy Emeralded eyed cutie?”
Isaac wasn’t really clingy actually he knew when to give me space an when I wanted affection. In my words he obsserse me to much in his words he’s just learning about me. I’m not so much used of this much attention so this was all sorta knew to me. Isaac knew that so he didn’t try to push me past my limits.
“Were you even listening to what I was saying?”
Clearly he was saying something but I was to into my thoughts to know. Well Shit I’m a bad boyfriend.
“An the worst boyfriend award go’s to Cameron Blue Vince” I joked.
Isaac laughed at what I said while he sipped on his coffee. We were at some breakfast place at 10 I’m the morning today because I was aloud to actually leave from the hospital today for like a few hours so Isaac toke advantage of it an toke me here.
“I was saying how Xander was in love with someone.”
The make me feel weird yet excited that Elliot fell for someone finally. Weird becasue well Elliot loves someone now an not me. Did he ever love me?
“Who?”
“Well I don’t exactly if he many it when he said it but awhile ago when it was Blake Xander and me at my house. As you know they act weird around each other maybe you didn’t know that but they do. Anyways that night Xander fall asleep on my shoulder and started moving around so I sorta pushed him over to Blake. Lets just say Blake was a tomato but didn’t move whatsoever. That morning I woke up to Xander playing a movie. Weird thing is he was still cuddling up on Blake while he was asleep. Few minutes later Blake won’t up. Xander played it off as why am I sleeping here kinda thing. Blake up and left because he was flustered. Xander stared off into the air and then said I wish he knew. I questioned with knew what? Then Xander said that I’m madly in love with him. Next thing you know has back in reality said he wasn’t and walked out of my house”
Elliot in love with Blake? Wouldn’t really doubt that to be honest Elliot always seemed like he was into him an how they act is kinda like that. But Blake isn’t gay or bi pan? Or maybe he is an didn’t tell me..
“Wouldn’t doubt it. It’s just Blake that’s the problem”
“Actually I think Blake likes him back. Just won’t see it himself. Like hes in denial about it or something. Or maybe I’m just looking into this all wrong.”
“Who know really? God knows what people think about or think.”
“Of course you would know that.”
“What’s that supposed to mean Isaac?”
“You loved mistories so much you became one.”
I looked at him confused at what he was getting at from that statement.
“It’s a phrase Cam. Like I’ve said a time before your a mistory sometimes.”
Oh. Now I kinds feel dumb. Was I really a mistory though? I guess to people that I didn’t talk to or even looked at. Blake and called me a mistory before to. Was I really a mistory?
“Am I still a mistory Isaac?”
I honestly wanted to know for some reason. I mean I dont care if I’m a mistory to other people Or what others think about me. But I didn’t really want to be a mistory to Isaac. He says he’s in love with me what if I’m such a mistory to him something in my life makes him want to go away once he finds out…
“Not as much as you used to be. Ive figured out a lot of you after awhile. Your a interesting person Cameron I’ll give you that.”
“Hm”
Isaac was sitting acrossed me sipping his drink. He eyes were more of a emerald color now they still had a hint of gray in them but that made then so much more unique. He was still pale and skinny as he was a few months ago. His hair was long though he didn’t seem to cut it as often anymore. He got his tongue peirced a few weeks ago an his ears. He only got his ears done because he wanted to gague them like mine. I’ve sized mine up since I first met him they used to be double zeros now they’re a inch an I have my septum pierced to my hair was still black.
“What you looking at?”
“You”
He blushed making him more cute. He blushed a lot from my little comments an cut things I said.
“Why?”
“Just admiring how Handsome my boyfriend is.”
He blushed began to grow he was like a tomato. I poked his cheek.
“How long do you have left in the hospital?” he questioned.
“If I’m good they said I can get out in January. But if I’m still bad they’ll keep my the whole time in supposed to be there. Meaning till September”
“Stay good Cameron.”
“Hmm why?”
“Because I want to actually see you out of that place. And not to be on a time limit when we can actually leave that place”
I sighed. Was he annoyed of having to come see me there? Was I just forcing him to come see me..
“Sorry.” I said in a quite tone.
“No no. That’s not what I ment. Crap. I love being able to see you. But what I’m saying is that I much rather be able to see you for the whole day without people always watching us or being on a time thing that our fun keeps getting cut off”
I didn’t like being in the hospital as much as he didn’t. It made it where we had no privacy no time to be alone. Or anything. This sad probuly the first time We got time together alone since before my whole accident.
“Want to go somewhere besides here?” I questioned getting bored of this place. Finished my drink 10 minutes ago.
“Sure just let me pay”
“Isaac…”
“I brought you here I pay.”
“I feel guilty”
“Repay it then” he winked at me as he walked away.
Was Isaac referring to something bad? On Jesus Isaac you dirty dirty boy.
I sat up an followed him out. We linked hands once we were outside. Things like this made me happy. Just holding hands out I’m the open with Isaac was when I actually enjoyed my life.
“Where to my Prince”
I smiled when he called me Prince.
Today was cold since well its November almost December. A lot had happend in the last year of my life. But everything changed for the better an I couldn’t be more glad. I snuggled up to Isaacs arm as we walked to the park that was down the road.
“Do you ever wish you could go back in time and change something?” Isaac asked out of the blue.
“Not really.”
“How so? So many things have happened in your life why wouldn’t you want to change any of it”
“Everything happened for a reason. But if I changed anything in my life it wouldn’t be the same with you. If I did have the chance to go an change something I think I would probuly make it where my parents never met” He stopped in his tracks.
“Why?”
“Well it’s simple actually. They made my life hell made my siblings life hell. Treat all of us like shit. They weren’t even the greatest couple either. My mother was actually a very nice an sweet woman before she met my father. My ‘father’ got her into so many bad drugs an made her stop taking her pills that help with her bipolar an such. He ruined her. Beat her an left her. She was perfect before him.”
Isaac wrapped his arms around me.
“I’m sorry for you having to live like that”
“I’m not. If I didn’t live with what I had to I wouldn’t be as strong an brave as I am now” I spun around to where I was facing him.
“If I didn’t live like I did I would have never went to that jail the day we met. An by the way your mother was a bitch.”
“I know.”
We stood there staring at each other. Faces started to come closer an closer. Our lips crashed together. It wasn’t like a sweet an normal kiss Isaac seemed to be all hot an Shit. Couldn’t help but laugh at him.
We dont really do anything that involved sexual touching stuff. I’ve only gave him a bj once. Then a hand job to show him how he could do it himself Like masterbate or tever. I still very much have girl parts so it makes it difficult for us to even go anything father then what we may want to at times.
Isaac was getting all excited I could tell because it was rubbing against my leg. I made a frustrated groan. The pulled Isaac with me to the bathroom to a stall.
-Naughty stuff has been written people (Not every good either. Never wrote anything like this before. Till like now..)-
Once we got into the stall Isaac looked at me with lust in his eyes. Then kissed me hungrily.
I pushed him against the wall an jumped up wrapping my legs around him while we made out. Grabbed the hem of his shirt tugging on it a bit to make sure he didn’t care about me taking it off. He just nodded so I pulled it up off him trying not to break our hot heated kiss.
After I mantage to get his shirt off I jumped off of him. I just stood there looking at his body he wasn’t to skinny nor was he even fat his happy trail went down to areas not showed yet an his v-line showed. He also had hip piercings that I thought were hot.
He looked a bit uncomfortable an lustful. If that could go together. I dropped to my knees licking from his happy trail down to where his pants were hiding places. Isaac was watching me the whole time. Stood up kissing him once more as I undid his pants he but my neck a little before I began again.
There was for sure ganna be a hickie there tomorrow.
Once I got the Damn pants undone. Witch like took forever in my mind. Started kissing his neck leaving love marks there that were noticeable. All the way down to where his excitement was. Truthfully I’ve only done this twice in my life. The one time at the hospital an one time with Elliot. We were both high. Not ganna explain.
I looked up to make sure Isaac was watching then put the thing in my mouth swarling my tongue around making him up crazy. His moans were driving me a little crazy but I knew how to get myself to clam down unlike him. Bobbing my head an licking his bluge.
I knew he was close becasue of his moans were coming more an louder an his legs were starting to tremble.
“I’m. I’m I’m…oh God Cameron.”
He basically moaned that whole sentence.
I started sucking a little faster an such. Then hata the weird salty flavor filled my mouth. Licked my lips while Isaac just looked at me weirdly.
“Hm salty.”
“That’s gross.”
“Yup now now get your cloths back on I have counseling in a hour”
He hurried up an got dressed an we walked back to his car.
Isaac’s p.o.v
Cameron has came along way from when I first met him a year ago. I honestly love this kid more then he’ll ever know.
“Isaac?”
“Yes Prince”
“If I told you I hear like. Uh voices. Would you think I’m crazy?”
I thought for a momnet no I wouldn’t think he’s crazy no matter what happened I don’t think I could ever think of Cameron as being ‘crazy’ in anyway. It was an impossible thought to me.
“I could never think of you as crazy. Why you ask that?”
“I hear voices Isaac. All the time. Half the time they tell me mean things about myself an tell me to go kill myself.” he looked down.
“Have you told anyone? Like medical wise?
“No. I’m scared they’ll keep me in that hospital longer if I tell them. Only you an Noah know.”
Would they keep him longer if they knew that? What would they do If he told them. What about Carrie she seems nice and does things for Cameron. How about his consular?
“What about Carrie? I don’t think she would do that.”
“Maybe” Cameron sorta mummbled.
I toke one of my hands off the steering wheel and put my hand on his thigh to let him know it’ll be okay. He sighed and locked our hands together.
“Why am I so messed up Isaac? How can you love me?” at this point he began to cry so I stopped the car.
“Cameron your not messed up things like this happen to the best of us. Its what makes you strong in so many ways. Battling your mind not knowing what’s right or wrong sometimes. But your here right now that’s all that really cares your getting better your emtions aren’t everywhere anymore you aren’t as depressed anymore. Now with the how me loving you thing Cameron. You may not see what I see but your the most beautiful boy I have ever seen your sweet funny lovng caring adorable your personality is one of the best your band taste is awesome. You’ve changed me in many ways that I’m glad you have. Days went by and by through my life that I thought I was broken. I never felt so much for anyone at all in anyway. Romantic or sexual I never liked anyone in that way. I thought I was some kind of freak for being incapable of attraction to someone. But then I met you Cameron. You made me see I wasn’t a freak or that I was broken. I just didn’t find the right person at the time till I seen you. Cameron I love you so much more thing anything in the world to the moon and back even father then that. Way father then that to infinity truthfully. I always find a new reason to love you everyday were together. Your my everything I honestly don’t know where I would be in life without you.”
I looked over to Cameron to see what his reaction was. He began to bawl his eyes out.
“I’m sorry was it something is said?”
“It has everything to do with what you said. Isaac over never been told anything like that before I’m sorry for being so emotional. Its just so unreal.”
He unbuckled his seatbelt then crawled on me. He was sitting on my lap hugging me for dear life.
“Isaac I hope you know no matter what happens I’ll always love you. I say stupid things that I don’t mean an make a fuss about stupid things but I’ll always love you more then anything. Your my everything anymore. You’ve helped me get over Elliot an forget about the past. Made me realize life shouldn’t be about dwelling on the past it should be focusing on the present an how I want my future to be like.”
We were both sobbing messes but it was perfect. We needed this talk to talk heart to heart conversation. It what made us never want to let go of each other. What we felt for each other wasn’t something we thought was going to happen it wasn’t planed or thought of well for him. But it happened and we wouldn’t change it for anything in the world.
After sitting like that for awhile my phone went off. Someone was calling me.
Cameron ywaned and moved back over to his seat as I answered my phone
“Isaac. I thought I told you what time to have Cameron back”
“Oh Crap sorry something distracted us and we lost track off time be there soon I promise.”
“Okay”
She hung up. Cameron was passed out snoring a little. It was cute.
After dealing with Carrie and leaving Cameron I found myself looking through my laptop for something to watch. Having my earbuds in.
Something poked my neck making me jump punching them in the face and my earbuds going out of my ears.
“Shit Isaac didn’t know you could do something like that” Blake said holding his nose.
“Don’t scare the hell out of me then. In any other words why are you here and why were you poking my neck?”
Someone began laughing by my door. I looked over to see it was Xander.
“Well that question was answered.”
“What question?” Xander asked.
“Why Blake’s here. Wait why are you here?”
“Well I was a little mad to find out Cameron has outside privileges today and you were the only one who got to take him out” he pouted.
“Yeah yeah. Now Blake why were you poking my neck?!?”
“Dude have you seen your neck?”
“Truthfully no I haven’t I’ve been watching Netflix.”
“Whats on his neck Blake? Xander asked coming closer to where we were standing.
“See for yourself” Blake laughed to himself.
“Let me see let me see let me see LOVVVVVEEE I WANNA SEEEE” Xander basically screamed throughout my house.
I walked away to the bathroom to see what Blake was talking about. Once I got in there I looked at my neck.
Jesus Christ Cameron.
“Fucking Cameron” I said to myself.
A whistle noise came from the doorway of the bathroom.
“Damn didn’t know you were Geting there.”Xander winked.
I wanted to know if I had anymore then on my neck. There was like five around my neck. Slid my shirt off finding more leading down to places that shouldn’t be said.
“Well Shit he is getting busy” Blake joked.
“Who even did those to you actually Isaac?”
My face started to heat up as I put my shirt back on.
“Cameron my Prince ya know that kinky mother fucker of mine” I said walking past them into my room.
“Cameron? Seriously he did that.”
“Hard to believe?”
“Yes actually. Cameron isn’t well sexual with anyone.”
“He was with you Xander but you were both high so nevermind”
“Wait how do you know that?”
“Cameron tells me things. Also this Is the second time this happend”
Xander didn’t say anything else he just layed on my bed. Blake layed on the floor I just layed on my bed.
“Netfix?”
Xander nodded his head as Blake crawled up on the bed with us watching some movie on my laptop.
Soon we all call asleep cuddled up together.
Just if Cameron could be here.
Sigh.
[text_hash] => 019c26b3
)