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Isaacs p.o.v
Its been four months almost five. Tomorrow will be the fith month Cameron has been in a coma.
September 28 Wednesday is the date today. I haven’t went an seen Cameron ever since Blake stopped talking to me.
We were really great friends he always tried to get me to talk to him and to eat. I felt like I had the world’s greatest best friend. Till one day when he start hanging out with this girl named Sally.
He completely up and left me and everyone else in his life for that girl.
Somehow in this time while Cameron was like he was I become friends with Xander.
Shocking yes it really was in so many ways. But he was the only person who kept an eye on me and made sure I didn’t do something stupid.
He knows of my cuts. He trys to get me to stop but I can’t always stop myself. I mean I haven’t done it in a month though. I feel proud of myself a little for lasting this long.
Xander tought me ways to handle myself during the times I want to do it. Lets just day I have to basically scrub marker off my arms a lot though. And I draw, Xander loves my drawings.
Right now I’m in class. Math class yay. Great for me. The teacher kept talking about God knows what truthfully I could care less what the teachers say now. Their all annoying with their speeches and homework.
School has been going for about a month now. Xander and me only have like 3 classes together but not this one though. I have classes with Blake as well to but we never talk to each other. Or even look at each other for the matter of fact.
I’m scared he’ll hit me or kill me of I tried talking to him. He became a really popular kid and a bully to a lot of kids in this school. It actually was kinda stupid how we turned out since the whole Cameron thing.
I became best friends with the person who used to abuse the boy I fell in love with and became a full blowned outcast at school and Blake became a bully with a lot of friends.
He only gets friends because he brags about having a girlfriend who’s way older then him and in their catagory ‘hot as hell’. She has a good paying job and lives in a really big house. I only know this becasue I’ve met her once before Blake stopped talking to me. I blame Sally for how he turned out to be like.
In many ways it makes me want to throw up. He became a hypocrite and then blames me for being fake.
The bell rang telling me school was over. Finally this day was just dragging along. Once I let everyone go out the room first Xander was by the door waiting for me.
Xander has pink and purple hair now. He has freackles on his face and he’s as tall as I am. He wears a lot of rainbow stuff now a days. He’s gay and he loves it. He popular to but not in the group Blake’s in. But everyone loves him. He only actually hangouts with me and this girl named Stella. She’s a girl with dark blue eyes Brown long hair. She’s like 5’4 to. So she’s short to me and Xander.
“Where’s Stella?” I asked Xander looking around.
“The gym teacher is harrassing her about not running again. Want to go wait for her?” I just nodded my head.
I talked just not a lot. Talking wasn’t something I liked doing. Blake once told me how annoying my voice was to. Hurt to hear someone who was your best friend once before say something mean to you like that.
Then bam I pushed into a locked and looked into the eyes of Blake’s.
“So fag boy we have the same math class. I don’t feel like doing my homework. Do it for me or I’ll beat you up and your little rainbow fag over there” he pointed to where Xander was being pinned to a locker as well.
I nooded my head.
“Sorry I didn’t hear you?” Blake said in a pissed off voice.
He changed a lot become a lot meaner emotionless to. His hair is short and spiked up. His like two inches taller then me now two.
“Yes.”
“Yes what?” Damn he’s being cocky today.
“Yes I’ll do your homework”
“Good” he said then pushed me to the ground.
“Lets go boys were done”
Then they were off. Walking out the doors like they own the place. What happend to him?
“Fucking hell. Are you okay Isaac?!” Xander said as he held his hand out for me and pulled me up on my feet.
“Yeah I’m fine Xander don’t worry. He didn’t hurt me this time” I forced a smile to convince him that I wasn’t in pain.
Witch my side actually hurt a lot from when he pushed my to the ground. Like it was going to bruise.
“I’m looking at it once we get your house. Issac. Also today is Wednesday I have to do my daily cheek ups”
My smile completely went away. The cheek ups where to make sure I wasnt cutting still. I hated how he would do that. But it was only to make sure I waant doing it anymore. I couldn’t really be mad at him about it I brought it upon myself once I started.
We both walk to the gym room where Stella was. She was arguing with the gym teacher.
“HEY STELLA WERE GANNA GO NOW. BYE” Stella gave a thumbs up as me and Xander walked to his car.
“Are you okay Isaac? You seen really down today. Is it about tomorrow?” I just nodded my head.
“Want to go see him?”
Do I want to see the lifeless body of the boy I fell madly in love with. No. I can’t do that again. It hurts to see him laying there doing absolutely nothing with his eyes closed. So is shoke my head no. And started twarling my fingers together.
He sighed.
“You can’t keep doing this to yourself. What happend wasn’t your fault. It was probuly more of mine then anyone else’s but I have to get over that. There’s still a chance he may wake up. Just wait.”
Xander was positive when it came to this subject mainly becasue he knew how sensitive I was with it. He knows I’m in love with Cameron. I’ve told him so many times I think he’s annoyed of me maybe?
We arrived at my house. No one was here nor is anyone ever home. Plam goes to a private school and still has yet to speak to me since the whole Cameron thing. My parents are out on work. Dash stays with my grandma everyday now since I’m not ‘stable enough to take care of her.’ The other girls don’t usually come home till like 11 or never.
I dont really much care what they do or where they go. Once we got to my room Xander sighed and turned to me.
“Once again this is going to be another awkward Wednesday. Cloths” he poked upwards telling me to take my shirt and pants off.
Toke my shirt of slowly as well as my pants.
“Arms”
I put my arms out and he examined my body everywhere.
“Okay were done. You haven’t got any new ones I’m so proud of you Issac” he said whole he kissed my forehead
Xander is a very affectionate person. Specially to his friends. He wants to makes sure they know someone cares for them loves them. And that he’ll always be there for them. Makes me happy I have him as a friend. He seems way more different then what i’ve heard before.
I put my cloths back on. We basically did are homework and talked a little well mostly him since I dont much even to him.
Once he left I was laying on my bed listening to music wishing tomorrow will never come. But oh it did.
-Nexts day-
“WAKE UP WAKE UP” I opened my eyes to see Xander over top of me.
I yawned tuning my eyes then pushed him off of me. Him being the dick he is pulled me with him.
“Asshole”
“Dickweed”
“Cock sucker”
“You know it” He winked at me.
Pushed myself up to where I was standing.
Mornings were usually like this. I got dressed and Xander and me left for school.
“So how has your day going so far?” Xander was wearing red pants with a pink shirt and a beanie that was rainbow. Topical him.
“Nothing much really. But you really need to stop waking me up like that though it’s annoying.”
“But you loooovvvveee mmeeee. So I wont” he smiled widely
I smacked the back of his head.
He muddered “basterd” as he pulled up to the school.
We got out of the car walking into the building where Stella was waiting for use.
“Sup rainbow boy and mute boy” she said.
I shrugged as Xander hugged her tightly. I just stood there awkwardly.
“Stop being awkward Issac.” Stella said as she wrapped her arm around my wist.
Us three went on with our day of school. Blake didn’t talk to me at all today Stella only had one class with me. I was bored half the day trying to keep my mind off of the fact it’s the 29.
I hate the number 29th so much I wish I could burn it out of the world. The number was bad luck. Worst number that could’ve ever been made in the horrible world.
I didn’t seem to notice till now that I’m crying. Walked right out of the class to the bathroom and locked the stall and cried my eyes out. I didn’t care if anyone else with in the room with me or not I needed to let it out holding it in only made it worse.
“Issac schools over. Its Xander unlock the door please”
Wipped my tears away and unlocked the door. Xander opened the door and hugged me tightly and Stella hugged us as well. I felt a bit better to know I have these to as my best friends.
“Thanks” I whispered to both of them.
“Welcome” they said at the same time.
We hangout for the rest of the day at my house. They both fell asleep on my bed so I just crawled up between them and fell asleep.
The next day was basically the same as the rest. Besides the fact I was beaten during lunch by Blake and his gang. Stella want full on devil on them to it was really funny. Xander helpped me to the nurse. He wasn’t much of a fighter he liked to resolve things with talking or something.
He hates fights becasue what happend between him and Cameron. Cameron…sigh.
Laying on my bed cuddled up with Xander is how I spent my Friday night. Saturday wasn’t much of anything either just binge watching tv with Stella and Xander. Sunday we went to the park and ate ice cream.
Then Monday came. I’ve always hated Monday. Hated it more then any other day of the year or whatever.
“Come onnnnn” Xander wined.
“Fine” I said as we walked to are frist class.
It was science witch was the class that I had with Stella Xander and Blake.
The three of us sat down in our seats waiting for everyone to come in. Once everyone was in the room the teacher began to talk.
“So today students” and want on about whatever. When class was over Xander Stella and me walked out to my locker. Xander and Stella were in a deep conversation about frogs. Then out of freaking no where Blake had me pined up against the lockers.
Xander was pinned to the ground and Stella seemed to be blocked from getting to me.
“So fag boy got any money for me. I want lunch” I flinched at the word fag.
Then I heard Xander “Holy shit”
“Shut up rainbow boy before I kick your ass as well”
“That’s not nice Blake. Specially from you” and that voice is what caught us all off guard.
Blake dropped me and everyone was looking over the the blue eyes boy standing at the end of the hallway. We were all shocked.
“Cameron” was all Blake could say.
I didn’t know if I was dreaming or not. But Cameron was right in front of us. Alive standing there.
“My brother was right you became an ignorant asshole.”
Blake’s eyes held hurt in them. For the frist time in months you could see emotion in his eyes.
“Elliot what is all that about?” Cam point to Xanders cloths.
“I uh. Cameron.” was all he said
“Blake do me a favor an go away from here.”
Blake looked shocked hurt and many different emotions at once. I didn’t even know how to feel right now. Or what to do. Or anything. I’m was in complete utter shocked. Then Blake walked away and so did his gang.
“What that asshole is gone.”
Cameron walked closer to use. Xander was standing next to me now and Stella seemed to have ran off as well to. Once Cameron was right by Xander and me he hugged us.
“I’m so sorry” he said while he started crying.
Cameron’s p.o.v.
My eyes felt heavy an I heard many voices that I couldn’t understand what they were saying an such.
My hand was warm like there was someone else’s hand in mine. I squeezed my hand to find out there was another with it.
“CAMEON?!?”
the voice belonged to my brother that haven’t seen in years. Why is he here? Where even am I? I opened my eyes to see a man with light blue eyes and chocolate Brown hair with a nose peircing.
“Noah” He began to cry.
“Naoh don’t cry please don’t. Please.”
He stopped crying then hugged me.
“You’ve been gone for five months”
Five months holy Shit. Wonder how Blake is or Isaac..
“How’s everyone?”
He looked into my eyes.
“Blake’s dating a rich girl and he’s a dick now bullys everyone even your old friends Alexander and Isaac a lot. Isaac become mute sorta Alex is a really gay person who wears a lot of rainbow. And well Alex and Isaac are best friends and Blake doesn’t talk to them hes just complete dick now.”
Blake is a dick now. Isaacs mute.
‘its all your fault’
“No no.” I whispered to myself.
“No?” Noah questioned.
“They keep saying it’s my fault” I said quitely.
“I’m ganna go get a doctor now okay?” I just nodded
I spent that rest of the Saturday getting asked questions an got out on meds. They said I could go to school but I would have to come back here right after. This is a hospital to make sure im fine or tever.
Monday came around an I got ready for school. Today was going to be weird for me. I haven’t seen anyone since April or at the end of the school year. Now I’m going back to school.
“Want food?”
Noah was signed to take me everywhere so I wouldn’t do anything again.
“Yeah sure”
We ate our food an missed first peiord making me nervous once I got to the school.
“You don’t have to if your aren’t ready Cam.”
“It’s now or never Noah. Love ya bye”
I walked up to the school into the high school hallway to see what looked like Elliot pinned to the ground some girl being pinned it restricted an Isaac pinned to a locker by Blake.
I didn’t want to believe Blake was an asshole when my brother told me or that He was a bully to Isaac and Elliot. Blake was never like that around me. He loved people an hate violence or so I thought.
The first person to see me standing there was Elliot. He looked right at me in sure of himself.
“Holy shit” was all he said as he stared at me with wide eyes.
“Shut up rainbow boy before I kick your ass as well” Blake said in a voice I didn’t recognise at all.
“That’s not nice Blake. Specially from you” that caught everyone’s attention.
Blake dropped Isaac an everyone was looking at me with shocked faces like they seen a ghost.
“Cameron” Blake said.
It hurt to know what Blake become like.
“My brother was right you became an ignorant asshole.”
Blake’s eyes held hurt in them the first emotion I seen in them since I was here. Then I looked over at Elliot. I had to know.
“Elliot what is all that about?” I said pointing to his cloths
“I uh. Cameron.” he was still shock
“Blake do me a favor an go away from here.”
Blake had so many emotions held in his eyes when I said that then walked away with his ‘friends’
“What that asshole is gone.” I shrugged and walked closer to Elliot and Isaac that girl seemed to run off somewhere to. Once I was right by them I hugged them something I’ve been wanting to do since I woke up two days ago. I missed them. An I feel bad for hurting them. They probuly hate me right now.
“I’m so sorry” I tried saying Then broke out in sobs
They both hugged me back. Tightly like they wanted to make sure I was actually here. We stopped hugging an I looked at Elliot again.
“Seriously what’s with this?”
He laughed an so did Isaac. I loved hearing his laugh. So much. Then the bell rang.
“Can we hangout after school?”
“Only of you guys come to where I am I’m not aloud to go anywhere else then school an the hospital.”
“Yes” Isaac said quickly.
“Yeah sure.”
Then we went on with our school day.
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