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Cameron’s p.o.v.
Most days here was boring. There was absolutely nothing to do here besides play cards with Conner.
The staff tried to force food down my throat most days. An if I do actually eat it comes right back up even if I try to stop it. Food just doesn’t go well with me.
They have me hooked up to a Damn machine to feed me even then I throw it back up most of the time. Carrie says I’m sick. I don’t like her very much she thinks I’m something I’m not half the time.
She has no clue who I am or what I’m going through neither does my Damn counselor he’s the dick out of everyone here. He basically trys to force me to talk about my problems. Witch I never do though.
Haven’t said a word to the asshole since I was forced to do counseling. Noah is one of my least favorite people right now. He forced me to go here forced me to take pills forced me to do counseling. An when he comes to visit me I won’t talk to him Like right now.
“Cameron please just talk to me this is for your own good”
He’s being trying to get me to say anything to him for the last 10 minutes. I looked around the room to who everyone was here. Then I spotted someone that I only seen once here making me think I was just imagine they were here that day.
“Della”
“What?” Naoh questioned.
I pointed to where Della was sitting with some girl with Blond hair. At the other end of the room.
“Holy shit.” was All Noah seemed to be able to say.
I turned back around where I was facing Noah again then rested my head on the table.
“Why is she here?”
I shrugged. I may have said one word to him but it was only becasue I was in shock he still wasn’t forgiven.
“Has she tried to talk to you yet”
Nodding my head Noah looked like he was thinking really hard.
“Oh God”
“Hm?”
“She seen us.”
Oh fuck the means she’ll probuly come over here an try to talk to us. God how worse can my day get today?.
“Noah” Dellas voice said behind me.
“Della”
“Nice to see you”
“I wish I could say the same.” Noah joked.
I couldn’t see her reaction beascuse she was standing behind me an my head was still facing down at the table.
“Stop being so rude to your sister.”
“I have a sister? That’s new.”
“Noah stop it already.”
My mind was flooded with questions I wanted to ask her. I wanted to understand why she left why she got mad why she’s here.
“Why’d you leave” was all I said.
She sighed an sat down by Noah I looked up at them. You could tell I was related to them by are appearance. We all had light blue eyes They both had Brown hair I had black hair now with Brown roots. Are facial features were similar to. All three of us had only a few freackles by are noses.
We were like tripples. All three of us had a scar on are forheads the matched perfectly to. It was from accident our mother put is threw. Are hights weren’t all the same. Noah was around 5’9 Della was 5’3 I was 5’6. Are ages were different to. Noah is 20 Della is 18 I’m 16.
“I left because mom told me I had to before dinner. She hated how I was depressed and kept having to be hospitalized she apparently spent a fortune will the pills care and everything. So once you said you were transgender I toke that as a excuse to leave so no one would question why I left.” She looked down at the table
“Still the perfect child Noah?” She turned to Noah.
“What do you mean Della?”
“He is.” was All I said making then both look at me.
Before Della left we were like best friends. We all always called Noah ‘the perfect child’ because he didn’t have any problems got good grades did what was told. He was a goodie to shoes in our eyes. He even want off to college. Our parents attention was always on him.
“What do you mean the perfect child?”
Della called me the unknown child becasue no one knew if I was going to be fine or have some meatal thing. Or that I was in fact transgender. I didn’t tell anyone before Blake till that day when the whole family had Dinner.
“You don’t have an illness like me and Cameron. You did everything right. Our parents loved you and probuly still do. You were perfect in everyone’s eyes. I was the emo kid from what mom put it as and Cameron was the annoying kid as dad put it.”
I remember our mother calling Della emo or a freak half the time when they were yelling at each other. Dad always called me annoying because I never really talked to anyone in the house they all scared me an when I did talk it was something smart. I threw fits a lot to when I was younger.
“That isn’t true” Noah was in denial about it.
I laughed making Noah look at me an growl.
“See even he agrees with me Noah.”
Della called me a he an Cameron. It made me happy she actually accepted me for who I was.
“Anyways Off the topic of Noah. Why are you here Cameron?”
“He has anorexia, bulimia, depression, bipolar.” Noah answered for me.
I still didn’t believe I had everything these people were saying. I wasn’t crazy. But yet I wasn’t normal to others either.
“Damn he got both genes” Della joked.
“I’m not crazy. I don’t have any of that.”
Della gave me a weird look that I couldn’t understand.
“He’s in denial Della don’t worry about it.”
I hated people saying that. I didn’t have anything like that I was perfectly fine. Wasn’t in denial about anything. The conversation needs to change.
“Why are you here Della?”
She sighed like she knew I was going to ask.
“I tried to kill myself for the 16th time”
She wasn’t joking about it being the 16th time. When we all still lived at home together she tried to kill herself around 9 times. She was only 16 the 9th time she tired to.
“Wait your on level 4. Did you um try” she trailed off.
She wanted to know if I tried to kill myself.
“Twice” the comment made Noah take a double take.
“Twice?” he questioned.
“After the whole Elliot thing I tried to kill myself Blake found me. We never told anyone becasue well it wasn’t anyone’s businesses to know what I tried to do. I got out three days later.”
“Elliot?” Della questioned
“Alexander.” Noah said in a quite tone.
Dellas face light up for some reason.
“You dated Noahs fuck buddy oh my God” she went into a laughing fit.
“I wasn’t much of a fuck buddy more of trying to figure out what my sexuality is” Somehow Elliots voice appeared behind me.
I sat up an turned around to see Issac Elliot an someone I didn’t want to see at all today.
Blake fucking Anderson.
He looked scared an akward standing there behind the to. They were standing in front of him like they were trying to hid him from me.
Blake was once a nice loving kid. Last time I seen him he was about to hit Isaac.
In all this drama he was the only person who actually understood me an toke time to get to know me. He was just as fragile as I am. Just in different ways.
“Move”
Elliot an Issac exchanged looks then moved looking a little scared. Probably wondering what I was going to do.
Walked up to Blake an hugged him. I missed his hugs. Just missed him an our friendship More then anything.
At first he seemed shocked then started hugging me back. I looked around the room to see if any staff was looking but there wasn’t so I kicked Blake in the balls.
He fell to the ground hold his privates.
“That’s for hurting Isaac an Elliot other then that were even. I think”
Turned around to see Noah an Della trying not to laughed. Elliot having a shocked expression Isaac just stared at me.
“What?” I questioned them all.
My siblings broke out into laughter.
“Nothing just never thought you were a violent person love.” Elliot said.
I was going to be a dick in what I was about to say next.
“Why becasue I never defended myself when you were hitting me?”
His expression changed into pure sadness.
“Don’t give me that look Elliot it’s fine.” I have him a reassuring smile.
The two idiots that were my siblings stopped their laughter once I said that to Elliot.
“He did what?” Della questioned quite angry.
Elliot looked scare out of his mind at her tone of voice.
“Della drop it. Its the past things happen. Life happens.”
Than I hugged Isaac when he wasn’t paying attention.
“Okay thats Alexander Blake who this.” she point to Isaac while Elliot cringed at the name Alexander.
He still seemed to hate his name still.
“Wait that’s Della?” Blake qustioned while he stood up.
I nodded.
“They all look like tripples. Well if Cameron had Brown hair.” Isaac pointed out.
“Everyone says that” Noah mummbled.
Della laughed.
“But seriously who’s is this?”
“Isaac” I said
We stopped hugging an I pulled him over to the table. He sat down so I toke my chance an sat on his lap like nothing.
“Is he your boyfriend?”
“No”
Isaac answered for me.
“But don’t they look like the cutest couple though.” Conner magically appeared out of no where sitting by Della.
Blake and Elliot sat down on the side of the table where Isaac an me were sitting.
“Who are you?” Blake questioned.
“Conner. Cameron’s best friend.”
In a way you could say he was my best friend. I told him a lot about my life an he did the same. We knew so much about each other. We talked every day. Carrie even let him sleep in my room at night sometimes.
Blake have a confused look.
“What?”
“Oh Blakester you became a asshole and I became his best friend.”
Blake didn’t look to happy at what Conner said.
“Conner stop it.” I said annoyed.
“Fine Blue”
“Why don’t we all just call each other our middle names?” Elliot joked.
“Not everyone knows each others Middle names”
“Mines Marie” Della said.
Della Marie Vince.
“I have two. Leo Lee”
Noah Leo Lee Vince.
“Mines blue.” I mummbled.
Cameron Blue Vince.
“Mines Anthony” Isaac said as he wrapped his arms around me.
Isaac Anthony Red.
“Daniel” Conner said.
Conner Daniel Harley.
“Michael” Blake said quietly.
Blake Michael Anderson.
“Elliot” Elliot said.
Alexander Elliot Blommer
“Wait doesnt blue already call you that?”
“Conner his frist name is Alexander.” I pointed out.
Conner shut up. He knew everything there is to know about the relationship I had with Elliot. Everything that happend what was said every momnet. Everything. No one else Knew anything much of it as Conner did. Well besides Elliot of course.
Conner gave me a ‘are you okay with him being here’ look
Elliot obviously seen the way he was looking at me like.
“You told him” Elliot said quietly.
Everyone looked at me. I felt very uncomfortable. One time I promised Elliot I wouldn’t tell people some of what happened. He broke that promise first.
“Stop staring at me. I did nothing wrong. He know everything yes. Hes the only one who knows everything about.”
“About what?” Della questioned.
“About everything I have ever done to him and everything else.” Elliot respond before I could.
“Everything” Blake questioned.
“Absolutely everything there is to know my dear Blake.” Conner was just being himself.
Blake hissed at Conner.
“Conner stop it”
He rolled his eyes.
“Cameron” I hear Carries voice behind me.
“Yes Carrie?”
“Consuling.”
I rolled my eyes.
“Fuck me” I mummbled.
“Will do” Conner winked at me an left the table.
“That kid is something thats for sure” Noah said.
Della got up an walked away.
“I’m going to say this now. Fuck you Noah. I blame you for all of this”
I got really angry all of a sudden. I hugged Isaac an walked away from everyone.
This sure will be fun.
Isaac’s p.o.v.
Conner was being flirty with Cameron today and quite himself.
Blake didn’t seem to much like Conner and how he was acting. Or how Conner and Cameron just met and Conner knows everything there is to know about Cameron.
Everything about Xander and his relationship.
I mean I would be upset about it to since Blake was Camerons best friend first and He didn’t tell Blake anything about what happened in their relationship.
Then out of no where he meets this cocky kid and tell him everything about his life.
Could Cameron like Conner?
Did Conner like Cameron?
Do they like each other?
To many questions right now. I need to stop overreacting.
Cameron didn’t seem to happy seeing Blake there today. Blake only came becasue he begged Xander and me to let him come with us. Even went down on his knees and begged us.
It was hilarious that He did that. But Xander said whatever to shut him up. I didn’t say anything to him. I have no words for him right now still highly mad at him for what he did to Xander and me.
Xander wasn’t usually that nice to someone that wasn’t his friend though. So it caught me off guard when he told Blake that. Xander seems to have a soft spot for Blake. Blake gets all flustered around Xander when they’re to close to. I’ve never once seen Blake stummble over his words as much as he does when he’s talking to Xander.
I remember Blake saying he was straight as one gets. He even has a super hot girlfriend in his words. He loves her more then anything to he once said.
Blake blushes a lot around Xander specially when Xander calls him beautiful. Xander calls everyone that or love so it doesn’t mean much to me when he calls me those names. But Blake turns into a tomato when he calls him them.
Does Blake like Xander?
Della is a pretty interesting girl.
Cameron Della and Noah all look very alike. If Cam had Brown hair you could say they were like tripples. Their genes are weird.
Right now I’m sitting in my living room watching some show while Blake is sitting on the ground and Xander is resting his head on my shoulder.
Blake looked back over to us. A flash of what looked like jealousy went through his eyes till he changed his expression.
“I’m ganna go get a cup of water.”
I have to ask him. I’m curious about it.
“I’ll go with you. I want a sandwitch”
“Uh okay.” Blake said in a quite tone.
We walked into the kitchen together. I sat on the counter while he grabbed a cup to put water in.
“Do you like Xander” I questioned.
“What no. I’m not like you Isaac I don’t like guys. I’m not gay. I’m straight I have a girlfriend who I love” he said the last part more quitely.
I could tell. I have all the reasons and the answer to believe what I think is true.
I just have to get Blake to see it. Or maybe he really doesn’t like Xander? Or I’m just thinking things. Whatever.
I walked out of the kitchen back to the living room where Xander was half asleep. Once I sat down he layed his head back on my shoulder fell asleep instantly.
Blake soon walked back into the living room sitting on the other end of the couch closest to the end as he could.
The movie we were watching was a scary movie. Movies like this don’t really scare me though. I’ve seen worse in reality then in this filmed stuff.
Xander began to move around in his sleep so I slowly pushed him over to Blake making Xander switch positions laying his head on Blake’s shoulder and wrapping his arm around Blake’s stomach.
Blake looked all flustered blushing like crazy.
It was funny I couldn’t help but laugh. He gave me a death glare.
Today was October 28 Friday. Tomorrow would be the sixth month since Cameron tryed to kill himself. Still hated the number 29.
Cameron to pushed down to level 3 the other day Noah told me today. Conner is going to become his roommate soon to. I don’t know how to feel about those to sharing a room. Jealousy was crawling upon me again today.
Conner flirts with Cameron. Cameron doesn’t do anything about it though. Kinda hurts. At least Cameron doesn’t flirt back.
Will he though?
Does he when I’m not there?
Do they have a sercet little thing going on behind my back. I mean were not actually together.
Were not together.
He has the right can do whatever he wants to. Kiss who he wants to hug who he wants to flirt with whomever. I have absolutely no control over him.
Conner and Cameron huh?
Cute I guess.
-Next day-
I woke up to a tv being turned on. Xander played a movie.
Weird thing is he was still cuddling Blake while he was asleep. I gave him a weird look.
He just shoke his telling me no to ask. Oh but I will later Xander.
The show we were watching was something about global warming. Didn’t much care about what we were watching I was way into my own mind. Staring at a wall.
“Isaac?” Xander question me in a quite voice.
“Hm?”
“You okay?”
“It’s the 29th Xander”
“He’s alive though.”
“He still tryed to kill himself though.”
He just sighed as Blake started moving. Blake’s eyes opened and they stared at each other.
“Why am I laying on you dear Blake?” Xander was using Conners phrase.
“I-i-i I Don’t know. Oh um Uh. I’m sorry I uh. I’m ganna up to the bathroom. Wait yeah bye.” Blake quickly sat up and ran to the bathroom.
“I wish he could see it.”
I turned my head over to Xander.
“See what?”
“That I’m madly in love with him.”
That caught me off guard. He didn’t even seen to notice he said that at first.
“Wati what. Pffff not in love with him what are you talking about. I’m ganna go home love bye” he kissed my cheek grabbed his stuff and ran out the door.
Five minutes later Blake came back.
“Where’s rainbow boy go?”
“Home I’m guessing.”
“He’s weird”
“Your weird”
“Maybe” he shrugged.
That day wasn’t really much of anything till later.
It was around 8 o’clock I came to see Cameron by myself today.
Carrie told me He was in his room with Conner.
Of course he was…
Once I got to his room the door was opened I looked into the room.
I was completely shocked yet mad at the same time.
I just seen Cameron Kissing Conner…
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