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Liked this chapter a bit better than 6… It’s so… Emotional, I actually started crying as I wrote this. My life has been really weird for the past few days and my mind’s a mess, so I’m lucky that I could even write… Well whatever.
Anyways enough the ranting, and on with the reading! Enjoy!
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Love
Fighting Depression
Chapter 7
Forgiveness
~{/\[Three Weaks Later]/\}~
/:><{0}><:\Jay/:><{0}><:\
I walked around the school looking for Eden, I had to apologize for the confusion, he probably hates now, I’ve avoided him for two weeks. Summer left ahead of me and I was forced to walk alone, which really sucked. She was probably looking for him too.
“Eden!” I yelled, hoping he would follow the sound of his name, and not run away noticing it was me.
That was when I spotted him, across the quad walking, looking at the ground. I ran to him, both worried and relieved I had found him. He looked up at the sound of feet.
“Jay?” He said in a weak raspy voice. He looked tired, dark circles and all.
His right hand was gripping his left wrist awkwardly, and he tried to hide it.
“What happened?” I asked before he fell onto me.
~{</>}~Eden~{<\>}~
~{/\[A Week Prior]/\}~
The night was quiet, darkness surrounding me, the only light coming from the window, where the moon beckoned me. I sat near the glass door leading to my morch, staring at the stars.
With the glass reflecting some of the shinier objects in my room, the knife in my open backpack glistened, swiping my gaze from the beauty of the moon.
I crawled over, mesmerized by the blade, reaching over and touching it, flinching when I felt the coldness of it.
Should I? I thought, knowing that I had no idea what would happen if I did. Other than bleeding of course.
I felt tears bursting through as I lifted the blade, carefully tip toeing to my bathroom, where I sat on the white floor.
I raised the blade and I… I pressed it against my skin. I winced as it pierced it, but it felt… Weird. The blood rapidly began flowing out from my arm, and I rapidly stuck it in the tub and let grabbed a towel.
Now I just feel worse… I thought, feeling more tears running down my face as I realized the reality of what I just did. Blood was everywhere, on my clothes, the tub, and on the floor a bit.
I saw the knife over by where I previously was and fought the urge to do it again. I felt… Like I wasn’t whole anymore. I looked at my arm, bloody and scarred.
I muffled the sounds of my sobbing with my shirt, biting it as the amount of tears and blood filled the room, making me feel even worse.
“Damn it,” I cried as I collapsed onto the floor, unable to believe that after years of abuse, why had I decided to give in now?
The night was no longer silent, filled with my cries, mentally begging for someone to help me.
~{/\[Present]/\}~
He caught me as I fell to my knees unable to control myself anymore. A week of me doing… Doing that to myself, the emotions now pouring out like lava out of a volcano.
“Shh, it’ll be okay,” he cooed, rubbing my head as he picked me up and led me somewhere to sit.
“No it’s not,” I said between sobs, even the feeling of his strong arms couldn’t calm the despondency I had.
“Yes, it is. You’re with me and that means you’re fine,” he said with a voice both commanding and caring.
“B-But, I-I-” I started before the tears came harder. He hugged me and brought me even closer, his arms wrapping around my own frail ones, weak from the last week.
“It’s alright,” he said, trying to comfort me again. He began to rub circles on my back, which began to calm my mind.
“Feel better now,” he asked, his voice soothing, I nodded slowly, wiping my eyes from the tears, sniffing loudly.
“Okay, now if you don’t want to tell me what happened it’s okay, okay?” He said, reassuring me that I didn’t have to share if I didn’t want to.
Don’t show him, he said, his voice loud and annoying. Appearing after weeks of being silent.
I’ll do what I want, I thought spoke to him fiercely.
I looked up at Jay’s calm blue eyes, and looked down at my wrist. Slowly uncovering the scars hidden under the sleeves of my jacket, the new one still fresh. He inhaled quickly at the sight of it, but instantly calmed down and embraced me.
“I-I’m s-so-sorry,” I said, trying not to cry again. He hushed me again and rocked us back and forth. Feeling like forever, making me feel like the bell had rung and we missed classed.
“It’s fine, and… I’m sorry,” he said, regret filling his tone.
“F-For what?” I asked confused.
“This is my fault… If I had never kissed you then… Then you… You would’ve never done this,” he said, giving himself the guilt.
“No, this is my own fault, it’s not yours. I should’ve told you about what happened before you did that,” I admitted, causing him to look at me anxious for the answer I held out from him and Summer when I first came here.
“What did happen?” He asked slowly to avoid me getting angry.
I scooted closer to him and began my story, the same I told to Summer, explaining everything from Kyle to my blood related family. All the way to the present. He listened patiently, gripping my hand when I talked about Kyle leaving me.
I would’ve been on the verge of tears if I hadn’t exhausted all the crying before. He looked at me with a hardened stare, I thought he was going to hit me, when he leaned forward and kissed my cheek.
“I know what to do now,” he said before Summer decided to crash our little party of forgiveness and the spilling of a thousand beans.
“WHAT YOU TWO ARE TALKING TO EACH OTHER AGAIN?!”
Her overreaction of the situation brought much more attention than needed, cusing heads to turn and look at us
I sighed and mentally urged Jay to carry me to a land far away from other people.
“What?” She asked, confused why I looked so irritated with her.
“Nothing,” I said annoyed and with a definite sarcasm, she frowned at me and Jay laughed.
She ignored my obvious pissy mood and looked at Jay instead, “So when did you two make up? And why are you two so close to each other?”
We moved away from each other awkwardly, noticeably wanting to stay together, and Jay looked back at his cousin.
“Let’s just say that certain things have changed our minds, now let’s go shall we dear Eden?” He asked, giving me his heart melting smile.
“We shall,” I said smiling at him as he grabbed my hand and led me away.
I felt weird, like I found something I thought was dead long ago…
I think I’m in love.
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Gasp! Eden is in love! But will he ever be able to get over Kyle and his lying bitchy ass?! Oh no! I wonder how dear Justin will make this all turn out…
MWAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!!
Joking… Maybe I don’t know.
Hope you guys liked it and sorry for the long wait!
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