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((Hello!(waves hand). I am really sorry for not updating in a long time, but I had school things and many other stuff that you just can’t get rid off in life. In any case, here’s the third chp and I hope you guys enjoy it. As always, please leave a vote, comment, or you could share it some where. No more talk and enjoy! :p))
–Rin’s POV–
“Hello. My name is Rin Matsouka.” I said. “I have a girly name but I am a boy.”
It felt nostalgic saying these words, reminding me of the first time I met Haru. Finding Haru wasn’t tough as his head shot up from the far end of the class when I said my name. The crimson eye met with the blue. A smirk formed on my face directing it to him. He thought I would give up just from kicking me out of his house. He blushed and lowered his head making it unnoticeable. The teacher ordered me to sit down and luckily my seat was next to Haru.
“Yo. My name is Rin Matsouka, your new partner.” I said, giving him my look of victory.
“Hi! Nice to meet you! My name is Haruka Nanase.” Was what I thought he would say but he just looked away, looking outside, as if there was something very interesting. Oh wow! Now he’s ignoring me. What the hell did I do to make him act that way, though he did act cold towards me yesterday but what now? He really pisses me off.
I grit my teeth and sat on the chair. Waiting for the boring lessons to start. I may not have come after him all these years when I was in Australia, but I still love him. I can never know what goes through his mind at all, making an emotionless face that can never be read. I saw the brown haired boy approach me.
“Hello Rin, welcome to this school.” He said. With his usual calm voice and a fake smile on his face, “I did not expect you to come to this school and quit going to Samezuka.” I smiled back at him and said, “Well, you can never know what the future is in store for you, and I just ended up here, probably trying to get something back.” I took a quick glance at Haru and he was still immersed by the scenery outside pretending like I never exist.
Our first class was History, boring and the worst subject I ever took. I never paid attention to the teacher, as I was thinking of a way to get Haru back to me. Yesterday, after Haru kicked me out of his house, I returned to my old house that was filled the sweet memories of Haru and I. It seemed that Haru did not even check the letter that I left behind 7 years ago.
The lesson past fast and the next teacher came for Math; it was even more boring than History. Yet I haven’t come up with a plan to get Haru. Wait, he’s probably doesn’t like me anymore. SHIT! OH SHIT! I’m definitely gonna get him today after school, but if I stare at those beautiful blue eyes of his that glisten like the water, makes me not want to take my eyes off them and makes me want to kiss him. Worst thing is, I get tempted to do things that would probably make him hate me. As time passes I find myself staring at Haru uncontrollably and that totally pisses me off. He has defiantly occupied my whole brain.
School ended (Thank God) and good thing I came up with the perfect plan that is probably reckless. “Rin-chan!” I heard a voice call me as I was about to leave the school building to get Haru, and upon hearing that voice I knew to who it belonged, you can never mistake it to someone else’s. Nagisa came running towards me with his dark blue haired lover tailing behind him. “How was your first day?” He asked.
“It was good. Now I have to go because I am in a hurry.” I said firmly trying not to sound mean and frustrated
“But it’s been a year and we haven’t talked to each other.” He said in his childish voice that was so childish to the top.
“Sorry I have to hurry.” I repeated and ran to catch up with Haru, but he was nowhere to be found. Shit! He must’ve gone with the brown haired boy. Out of frustration, I kicked the sand below my feet. All because of you Nagisa I may lose him.
I went back to the empty house that was once filled with laughter, but now filled with silence and emptiness. Lying on my bed, just thinking about him when I’m supposed to do my Homework. Tomorrow for sure I’m getting him back.
The next day had already come without my realization. I just didn’t want to go to school, but I had to, for Haru’s sake. Reaching school was even more boring. When Haru and I lived together, we would go to school together laughing, dancing and singing joyfully. Oh, how I missed those days. Hopefully I will execute my plan successfully today without Makoto in the way. Seems today will be a long day for me, especially waiting for the lessons to end. I reached school and waited for classes to start and how much I wished for them to end.
Finally lunch time arrived and I couldn’t wait to eat my bento. I started rehearsing what I plan on telling Haru that was when I spotted Haru and Makoto walking together towards the door of the roof top, as Nagisa and Rei tagged along with them. A wave of jealousy washed over me, but I shook it off and proceeded with taking out my bento. Now I have nothing to with them if Haru rejects me. My sister sure is pretty helpful at times. Gou Matsouka: My sister; currently in this school and is the one who encouraged the four boys to participate in the tournament, and is the only family member who knows about me and Haru. “Oniichan!” I heard her squeal from afar. I looked up and found her running towards me, with her crimson hair, that was tied in a ponytail, swaying left and right like a something to hypnotize you. She abruptly halted right in front of me. “So, did you tell Haruka-senpai yesterday?” she asked eagerly. Ashamed of myself, I lowered my head and shook it slowly. “Will you do it today?” She questioned.
I nodded. “Good! I believe in you, you can do it, for sure.” She said cheerfully. I looked up at her; she had her widest smile that made me smile. Just thinking that my sister, the one who never experienced love, is cheering me up. “Thanks.” Was all I could say. Lunch time ended and I finished my bento and telling Gou about yesterday and why I couldn’t tell anything to Haru.
School ended faster than yesterday and I quickly ran outside the school building. Adrenaline welling up within me as I saw Haru and Makoto walk off. I ran as fast as I could and grabbed Haru’s wrist roughly, before the brown haired boy could react. I lead the way to where my house was. I could feel his hand struggling and pleading for its freedom but I gripped firmly, not wanting to break him. He’s still as delicate as last time I lead the way. I thought to myself. I stopped in front of my house that Haru once lived in. I opened it, dragged Haru inside, and shut the door. Still speechless, I slammed his fragile body to the wall next to the door, and held both his arms with my right hand above his head. Haru’s usually empty, blue eyes, that glisten and sparkle like the sea, were suddenly so full of emotion that I couldn’t even try to look away. They were so mesmerizing and so alluring, I saw my reflection clearly. I snapped out of my daydreaming and forced a kiss onto his lips. I began licking his lower lip and begging for entrance, but it seemed that he refused. I pulled back in frustration and started kissing his neck, a soft moan escaped his lips. I smirked and met his blue eyes, exploring them. I leaned my head on his shoulder and whispered, “I love you.” I looked at him and saw his eyes swelling up with tears that had lost its spark, like a fairy that had lost her dust.
“You toyed with me and now you’re going to repeat it.” His voice came half whispered, half sobbed. I loosened my grip as I saw two tear drops run down his cheeks, as if racing to see who drops down from Haru’s chin first. His hands clasped on his face as he slid down and started sobbing. I didn’t know what to say, I looked at him in confusion, yet I felt pity. All I wanted to do was to embrace him in my arms.
“A-all y-you did was just t-toy with m-me and then threw me away. You never l-loved me. You wa-wanted m-me as a s-stepping st-stone to become the world’s greatest Olympic swimmer. Whereas I loved you and gave you all my affection.” He stuttered in half tears. Upon hearing those words, I felt frustrated, angry, happy, annoyed, and many other emotions. He loved me, yet I was greedy. But he thought so little of me and never believed in me, thinking I never loved him? What bullshit! Don’t Bloody Fuck with me!
“You’re an idiot.” Came the words without thinking of what to say. His head shot up, shocked by my remark.
“What?” He asked, blinking several times.
“I said, you’re an idiot. You thought I never loved you? Hah! Don’t kid with me.” I said with frustration shown in my voice. “In Australia, there were so many people flocking around me, and name, male and female confessed to me, but I told them that I had a lover waiting for me in Japan, and I meant YOU!” I shuddered at the memory of the different people who confessed to me, as I told Haru all this information in one breath. “Wherever I was, I could never forget you. I always thought of you, even in a faraway land that was foreign for me. I worked hard just to finish school, get good grades and go back. I couldn’t wait until I grow up and be able to see your face again and see how much you grew up.” I said calming myself from the adrenaline rush I just got. Haru’s mouth was wide open, he blinked several times. This is the first time I see him like that. I thought to myself that.
He regained the sparkle in his eyes that made me happy. I bent down and embraced him with both of my large arms. I could feel his steady breaths that made me comfortable. I can live on them forever.
“I’ve always loved you.” I whispered in his ear, rocking him back and forth. He lifted his head up looking at me as I saw my reflection in his pure, innocent eyes. Our eyes met and we kept on gazing into each other’s, where I felt the time stop. His tear-stained face filled with embarrassment.
“You know, during classes was tempted to jump and hug you.” I said in a whispered, that made him blush like crazy. He looked so cute that I couldn’t help myself, but lean forward and plant a kiss on his pink, cheery lips. I saw his eye lids drop as my tongue entered his mouth and met with his. Adrenaline rushed within me. We are kissing again. It felt so nostalgic. Just being with him, reminded me of our happy days together. We pulled away and smiled at each other with grins from one ear to the other.
“I love you.” He said. I hugged him tighter, knowing that this time we wont be apart anymore. My greediness and following my father’s dream has all gone. In my head, there’s only this greediness that will never leave me: The greediness of wanting Haru for me and only me.
“Me too.” I whispered.
The next day after school, Haru came with his bags behind him. I made a little ‘welcome back’ party and settled down and unpacked his bag, where he kept all his clothes in my wardrobe.
Weeks passed and our life was just as fine as ever. The other three boys got to know about me and Haru and made a mini-celebration during lunch break.
On a bright, sunny day was when everything came down. Haru and I were coming to school when we saw Makoto, Nagisa and Rei standing together with confused faces, surrounding a boy who looked like a replica of Haru. We approached them when Haru suddenly spoke up, “Hiroki? What brought you here?” Everybody’s attention averted towards Haru as he spoke to…
“wai-. What? A second Haru? What is going on? Haru please tell us.” Makoto asked.
“well… he is my twin, Hiroki…” Haru answered, scratching the back of his head.
Yes his twin brother, who I knew of.
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