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((Hello (waves hand). How’s everyone doing today? So here is the second chapter as promised and it pretty long, hope you guys don’t get bored. Well then enjoy and leave a comment or a vote.))
– Haru POV-
Shock and surprise overwhelmed me as Rin threw his huge, muscular arms around my neck and mumbled my name. Different emotions surged within me, happy that I get to see him again, sad because of what happened in the past , angry that he never contacted us for a year. I spotted two crimson bags waiting for their owner to drag them in; it then clicked in my head what he wanted to do.
“Can you please get out,” I said firmly. Rin pulled his bulky arms from my neck and looked at me his eyes wide open, shocked. “Why?” He asked, furrowing is eye brows.
“Just please get out. I don’t want to see you,” I demanded. I wanted him to stay but there is nothing between us now. Nothing at all.
As Rin left the house, dragging both bags that were filled with God-knows-what, I leaned on the wall that was closest to me and slid down till my knees met my chest, placing my hands on them. “You broke me once; I don’t want you to break me again.” I whispered to myself. Why can’t I face him?
It was about 7 years ago when Rin first came as a transfer student.
“Children we have a new student here, please welcome him properly!” Said our teacher with her irritating high pitched voice.
“Hi! My name is Rin Matsouka! I have a girly name, but I am a boy. Nice to meet you!” I heard a cheerful voice, filled with happiness. My head was resting on my hands showing as if I were asleep so I couldn’t see him. I heard the wooden chair of the empty seat next to me clatter. My head was still against my arms and I did not even bother to lift my head. It was worthless and useless.
“Hi! I’m your new partner, Rin Matsouka!” Said the boy with the same voice as before, which pissed me off. To my curiosity I lifted my head only to be dazzled by his sparkly, red eyes that were filled with kindness and happiness that would welcome people, his crimson hair that would fall perfectly in place and finally his beautiful pink lips that were curved into a perfect smile that warmed my heart. I stared at him for almost a minute, until I realized his face turned from a happy one to a confused one and a tilted head that made his hair effortlessly follow and fall sideways. I snapped out of my trance. “Hi. My name is Haruka Nanase.” I said with my emotionless voice and face that showed no interest, yet I was so happy on meeting this boy. My heart was warmed and I felt a fluffy feeling in my heart that I’ve never felt before.
During lessons he kept asking me questions about the school and how was it organized. I hated people, who would ask me irrelevant questions, but his voice soothed me and I allowed it to pass. School was so boring and I couldn’t wait until we were allowed to go to our club activities. I had chosen the swim club when I first came. I loved swimming and feeling the water as it crashes against my skin.
After those boring classes got over I rushed out of the class room, and headed straight to the swim club and waited for the rest of the students to arrive. When the coach came and called out the names for attendance check he read out “Rin Matsouka is here?” I was shocked and happy to find him joining the same club as mine. Seeing him talk to Nagisa made me jealous for a while, but I shook it off and continued swimming.
Days have passed by and he kept talking to me and asking me questions. One day after the swim club activity when Makoto and Nagisa were heading home and asked me to join them, Rin stepped in and told them that we both had other plans. I was surprised by what Rin said when I realized there was something pulling me towards an unfamiliar direction. Rin lead the way to a path I have never taken. “Come. I want to show you my house!” Hearing that from him, made me more curious to what he was up to, so I followed. Reaching a nice, beautifully built house made me wonder in awe, I did not expect him to live in such a house and he was living alone, like me. He opened the door and ushered me into the living room. The table was set in the middle where there were many books stocked on the book shelves around the place. It was neat and tidy and everything was in perfect place. I was amazed to see a child like him having a house as clean as this. He turned to me with a soft smile. “So? How’s my house?” He asked gesturing with his arms around the house. I nodded slowly looking around once again. “Want to live with me?” Rin asked in a weird tone. I froze by that statement. My eyes wide open and my brain stopped working. He stepped closer towards me and planted a kiss on my lips that made my heart throb, skipping a beat. My mind was numb and couldn’t process what was going on, not even expecting any of this to happen.
“I like you,” he whispered softly. I froze. He chuckled, and said, “I know you like me too; it was obvious from the ways you looked at me.” I didn’t say anything. It then dawned onto me that, whatever I’ve been feeling this whole time was actually love and I had fallen in love with him since the time I saw him.
Rin then looked at me with the same confused look that he wore on his first day of school, a tilted head. He then asked, “did I get you wrong?” I shook my head, surprised with my own response, I blushed and lowered my head.
“Perfect!” He boomed, “tomorrow, get all your things and come live with me!” He commanded, sounding more excited than commanding.
After exiting the house and him telling me bye, my hand automatically landed gently on my lips and a smile found its way across my face. I started to blush as I recalled his lips gently touching mine; his nose brushing against mine; his pretty, crimson eyes up close were the best. I could see the purity reflected on then, the love in him every, emotion that surged within him. It felt like he did not have to speak, his eyes spoke for him.
From that day on, Rin and I became what they call as, lovers and lived together. No one knew about us except my best friend Makoto. Living with Rin wasn’t tiring at all, in fact it was filled with fun things. We slept together while our hands tangled together; we soak ourselves in the bathtub, wearing out swimsuits, we would often go to the public swimming pool that was way much larger than the swimming pool back at the club, where we always enjoy our swimming time.
One day while sitting side-by-side in the bathtub, he asked, “can I show you something nice?” Excitement was written all over his face, seeing as to that, I couldn’t refuse.
“Close your eyes,” he ordered. I closed my eyes and waited for what was coming next. “Promise you won’t peep?” He asked. “Promise.” I answered, waiting impatiently.
I felt hot air tickle my cheek and within a split second felt wet, warm lips crash into mine. I opened my eyes and found him kissing me. It was something normal for him to do so as he always does it unexpectedly, but this time his tongue entered my mouth uninvited. His tongue met mine and started to play a little tango dance. Half moaning into the kiss, he pulled away only to be connected by a thin thread of saliva. He looked at me with his cheeks tinted with a shade of red that was little lighter than his hair.
“I saw them do this on T.V. They said that it’s only done to your special person!” He stated shyly. Upon hearing these word, I felt flattered and started to blush, lowering my head to hide the shade of pink that was obvious.
“We can do this in special occasions like your birthday, my birthday, valentine’s day, etc.,” he suddenly beamed with happiness.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!” He boomed all of a sudden. Without me paying attention he pounced onto me, hugging me. He was laughing and smiling like he never did before. Seeing him this happy, I felt a little fluffy inside my heart and smiled.
We got out of the bathtub, dried ourselves and went to the living room. The table was filled with chocolates and sweets, in the middle, was a large cake with a knife sitting beside it, waiting for it to be used, and two plates laying, waiting for the cake to be kept on them. I was surprised, seeing all those things kept and I did not know any of this. I felt happy and I felt really loved.
After cutting and eating the cake (not the whole cake though), I was pretty much curious about my present. “By the way, what did you get me for a present?” I questioned.
“Well, you see, your present will be given when we grow up because I don’t think I can do it now,” he said hesitantly while scratching the back of his head.
“So what is it?” I asked eagerly wanting to know what is it that has to wait for the next couple of years.
“I can’t say, or else I’ll spoil it on you,” he informed.
“Come on! I want to know, please.”
“No way. I’m not gonna say.”
“Sheesh, you’re so mean, you know,” I folded my arms, turned my head sideways and pouted to show my frustration though I hope it would work.
“Ok, ok. I’ll say it if you insist,” he said giving up. Yes! Victory for me!
“Umm… I don’t know how to say it but, I was planning on getting us a new house once we grow older, so we could live in it…” He trailed off with his face red. What is this? I felt my heart almost burst. I couldn’t control myself. I felt extremely happy. A smile formed on my face and said, “I’ll be waiting for it,” I leaned forward and kissed his cheek, as I got to my proper position, I could swear that his cheeks were darker than his crimson hair.
It has been 2 months since that day. Rin said he wanted to swim in a relay race that our school was holding against other schools. He invited Makoto and Nagisa to join him and of course he asked me, but I refused. I only swim free and never thought of competing. I swim for my own pleasure, just to feel the water crash against my skin. It was an amazing feeling for me.
Standing in front of a huge Sakura tree where we wrote our statements.
“I really wanted to swim with you,” he said facing me, “since I’ll be gone to Australia after the race,” smiling like we have nothing between us. “To Australia?” I gasped. He nodded his head. What the hell is he thinking? Why didn’t he tell me about this before? He never thought how I would feel? Questions and doubts ran through my mind like a race, competing and deciding who the winner was.
“Come Haru, I will show you a sight that you have never seen before,” he said, extending his arm towards me. I did not hesitate and took his hand in agreement. Swimming with him for the final time, huh? Though I really wanted to shout at him and tell him what for going to Australia, but I knew he would just shake it off and not mention it. Sometimes I really don’t know what’s going on in his head. I felt my chest tight with sharp pain stabbing at my heart.
Days past and I wasn’t even anticipating the race. Things got pretty much heavy and boring, as Rin kept practicing for the race and never bothered about me. When the day came for the race, all I was thinking was to win for him and he would be proud and consider staying here, but that definitely did not happen.
After the race that was won by us and after digging the trophy under the soil next to our swim club, Rin and I returned home so he could get his things and leave. He did not even tell me that I did well or not. I waited in the living room that was once filled with our smiling faces and celebrating birthdays. I just watched him, still not believing that my life would go back to the old, boring days when I lived alone after he leaves.
Getting his luggage did not take time, as he was heading towards the door, he turned and started to walk towards me and kissed me. He pulled away quickly then said, “I left something in the drawer next to the bed. Please check it.” After that he just left without a goodbye. I felt my heart tearing into pieces as I saw him walk away, slipping between my fingers. He was just toying with me and my feelings, so he hated me so much, huh? I gave him all my love but he never loved me back. I felt hot tears sting my eyes. I did not even bother checking whatever he left me and never returned to the house hoping it would rot just like how I will soon.
Every time I saw the sakura tree, where he told me to swim with him, I always felt a sharp pain in my heart, like a killer satisfying himself by stabbing someone who is already dead. I will never forget the promise he made to me when we were celebrating my birthday. When will you fulfill it, Rin? Everywhere I went, I kept finding myself remembering the days we spent together. I kept daydreaming, hoping he would come soon, looking for me, and his voice echoing in my head. I kept convincing myself that it was alright and he would come one day, but I knew it was never going to happen and I just kept deceiving myself. I just wanted us to go back as we used to be and tell him I love him.
I just could never forget him, nor could I pretend as if we never lived like that. Will he come back and get me? I never felt this way before, but right now I can only rely on fate. I kept deluding myself with all these thoughts, watched every season go by, yet he never came.
I had so many questions. Why did he go to Australia? Why did he not tell me from the beginning? But I was just talking to myself; I knew he could not hear me anymore. I had so many things I wanted to tell him. The longer I stood under the sakura tree, the louder the silence, I know that he is not here anymore with me, but sometime I could hear his voice when the wind blows and I would just pour my heart out to the shadows thinking and hoping he might be listening, because I wanted him to know how much I missed him and how much I love him. What absurd thoughts I had? Very laughable indeed.
It was like reliving these moments and even trying my hardest to forget about it, the scenes kept rolling in like a never ending sad movie that would haunt me for the rest of my life. Waking up for school was even harder, I couldn’t sleep last night just thinking about him.
I went to school with Makoto, and tried to forget what happened yesterday. The road was silent, boring just like my life. We reached school and it was a pain, I went to sit in my seat that was in the far end of the class next to the window where no one was sitting beside me. I sat down waiting for our homeroom teacher to come. “Good morning students. Today we have a new transfer student,” she said with excitement, though I did not see any excitement in having a student come. My head was down so I did not know who he/she was. I heard Makoto gasp at the sight of the person.
“Hello. My name is Rin Matsouka.”
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