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I open his belt a little, letting a part of it hang out loosely and grab it yanking him in my direction, pressing our bodies together.
“Admit it, you just can’t without me.” I whisper and tag the belt a little more. He just moans in return as I start licking his collarbone, “y-yes.” He chocks out between his moans when I start rubbing our lower halves together. I loved it how I made him such a moaning mess, I always seemed to have that affect on him.
“Stop.” He says all of the sudden and I take a step back frowning, “what?”
“What about Mark.“
And then I wake up.
“Hey Tanner?” I come up to him at school, luckily I’ve been pretty busy all morning thanks to the math teacher. And I meant to keep my day like this, busy busy busy, no time for thinking.
“Mm?” He says not looking at me, because he’s too fucking busy with his phone.
For the love of god. “Tanner!” I scream in his ear and a few people stare at us in the halls, I used to be this loud all the time, why did they get so surprised this time? It’s not l-
Oh.
“What?! You’re acting like my mums now! STOP SCREAMING WOMEN.”
“Last time I checked I had a two balls and one stick down there, and last night I used it with your mum in bed.” I raise an eyebrow at him and he finally puts his phone away and we start walking again. “Oh really? Cause last time I checked my mum was gay.”
“Double check that. You might find wonders.”
“You’re a dick.”
I open my mouth to argue but then I remember the real reason I called him in the first place.
“Tanner, do you talk in your sleep?” I ask as casually as possible.
” Yeah, my mother told me so once. Why? Did you hear something strange? Oh man I’m sorry I-“
“Yeah last night, you blamed yourself for something. And I think someone died, what did you dream?” I cut him in the middle and start digging in my locker as we reach it.
“Uh… I actually can’t remember.” He looks troubled. Huh.
“Weird.” Is all I say as I shut my locker and we both start walking to his locker, “hey, at least I’m not the one that has wet dreams!” He laughed and I frowned at him, “where did you come up with that idea?”
“You moaning in your sleep. Boner first thing in the morning. Being awfully loud trying not to think of it, was it with Mark?” He winks and I just stare at him in disbelief. This is so the last time I sleep over at his house.
“Uh.. I don’t know actually, it wasn’t really a person.” And then I blush realizing I just confirmed having a wet dream.
” Oh.. its okay if you like fucking dogs or something, just not my dog.” He laughed and I pinch him playfully, “not funny! And you don’t even have a dog!” He shuts his locker and we head off to the cafeteria.
” Used to. He died when I was like 5, my mums cried over it a lot. I always say they’d have cried less if I died.” He chuckles, and smiles happily to himself. He loved his parents a lot, and like them he had a hard time showing it too. And I can understand why, I knew from Mark that as a kid in elementary school kids made fun of him a lot because he had 2 mums. His only options were to let himself be the victim, or join them.
He joined them. However he did make sure to inform his mums about the problem and let them know he’ll be a dick for a while. They didn’t like the idea, but they loved Tanner too much to tell him no and see him suffer.
Since then their relationship was never open again.
By the way, he did really use the word dick back then. I didn’t just add it.
“What can I get you?” I snap my head up at the lunch lady and frown, I didn’t even notice we got in line.
“I don’t w-“
“He’ll have a cheeseburger please.” Tanner orders for me and I glare. Though I’m somewhat thankful, first because he cared and second because I did get pretty hungry.
I grab my cheeseburger and pay for it walking to on of the tables and sit down with Tanner.
” So, wan’ ang out toay?” Tanner says with his mouth full of Mac&cheese while I just started to take tiny bites of my burger,
“Translation: wanna hang out today? Answer: no, because Tanner is with me today.” His friend appears out of nowhere.
“Hey! Maybe I wanted to answer that myself. Rude.” I glare at him but he just ignores it and sits next to Tanner who nods as a Hi since his mouth is once again stuffed with food.
“I’m Devin by the way,” I smile at him trying a different approach.
“Hey I’m Gabe and I don’t care, now go fuck yourself.” He smiles at me sarcastically and I frown, what his problem?
You used to be just like that.
“Shhh!”I shush my small voice inside my head out loud by mistake. I think I might be crazy.
“Don’t shhh me you ass-“
“Gab. Calm your balls, his Mark’s boyfriend, he’s an okay guy.”
Pfft okay guy? I’m an amazing guy.
“Oh.” He seems to calm down but he still doesn’t like me. Pfft. Like I cared, fine grumpy pants! Stay grumpy!.
“So what is it we’re supposed do anyway?” Tanner asks Gabe and they start having a conversion about some kind of essay they need to do together, so boring I end up zooming out.
I lied, I knew who the person was in my dream, speaking of the angel.. pop.
I glance down at my phone under the table, You’ve got 1 unread message,
From: Taylor Manuel
Oh my god! That was amazing, but it can be such a waste of time, I always end up saying ‘one last video’. He’s good.
I smile at the text, I just send him some of Onision’s videos to try and he apparently loved it.
It has been about a month and a half now, me and Taylor met every week, exchanging our days and seeing how our deal was working.
Well, I started eating again, but not really, not us much as I did with Taylor, and I finally hit anorexia. So I had to spend two days in a hospital and got forced feed a lot lately. Which made me even more depressed, and eating even harder. But for now that didn’t matter, because I was too exited knowing today after school Taylor would pick me up, he was the only one who never forced fed me, he threats, but never really does it.
While Gabe and Tanner argue about the essay I kept on texting Taylor, about a month ago I just informed him how I couldn’t kiss Tanner because surprisingly enough, he never had his first kiss yet, and I couldn’t bring myslf to steal it, not yet. So for now my plan was to get him to kiss me.
You can see how well the plan went, his still a lips virgin.
As for Taylor he said he stared to ask out one of the girls that work with him but she apparently wasn’t ready to commit to him yet. I had a feeling Taylor wanted to give go on the agreement at some point but he quickly pulled himself together again and insisted its okay.
I glance over at Tanner as he talks to Gabe, god, Tanner really is attractive. I really have to find a way to get him to kiss me. But his so oblivious! I gave him countless clues by now! Retard.
And that’s when the bell explodes and we all get up grabbing our bags and leave. Just a few more hours and I’m gonna be hanging out with Taylor.
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“I mean, you don’t really have what to lose, if his straight he won’t count you as his first kiss anyway. I just thing you should get it over with, its getting unhealthy for you.” Taylor finishes his long speech and I swallow down a bite from one of the sandwiches he made for us, I loved the way he looked at me when ever I ate, hiding that smile of his, it made me want to eat. Or force myself to do it at least.
“I know I know. Ugh this is so annoying. People should like label their sexuality, so I can know which guys are out of the picture.” I sigh. Okay, that came out wrong, people shouldn’t label themselves, I just wished I knew if Tanner’s gay or not.
We talk a bit more, he tells me how his schoolwork is so overwhelming, but the good news is he might soon be able to get a small apartment and move out of his parent’s house finally.
I smile, he looks exhausted yet so happy.
“What are you smiling at? Did I stain my shirt or something? ” he looks down at himself trying to see if something is wrong.
I chuckle, “no, you just look really happy that’s all.”
His head snaps up and he stares at me for a bit before cracking a smile, “I sure am.”
The meeting, or whatever I should call this, ended up to fast in my opinion.
As I hugged him back as a goodbye I tried to shake off the burning feeling on my skin, but just couldn’t.
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