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Hearing the doorbell I sigh relieved heading towards it, as soon as I open the door Silver gasps “oh my god!” Her jaw drops and she grins “you look so good Baz!”
“You too”
“Oh I know” she walks in, “if this dress doesn’t get me the attention I want tonight I’m gonna set it on fire.”
“Hurry and let’s go before-“
“Picture time!” My mom walks to us holding her phone, “oh my god you guys look so cute get close”
“Mom we have to go we’re going to be late” I roll my eyes annoyed, she’s been doing this since I got dressed.
“Just one picture please it’s not every day I get to see my son going to homecoming,” yeah and it’ll never happen again.
I know what you’re thinking, why would I ever agree to Silver’s stupid ass plan? It won’t work and I’m just wasting my time, well it’s not much of a waste when you have nothing but time, and I’m tired of sitting around I need to start making shit happen and this is how. At least that’s how Silver put it when she explained her plan.
“Trust me there’s no way Damien’s gonna be ok with you hooking up with Georgia’s brother” Silver starts as she drives us to school, “I mean what guy wouldn’t have something to say?”
“Damien Allen” I answer, “he doesn’t care about me Sil-“
“See I don’t think that’s true, I think he cares and he just doesn’t know how to admit it”
“Wanna know what he said when I told him about tonight?” She nods and I relive the conversation
Couple days before homecoming
Sitting alone in chemistry lad working on my project, Damien texts me asking where I am, a few minutes after I reply he shows up. “What’s up?” He asks
“Nothing working on my chemistry project for class tomorrow”
“What are you doing?” Damien stares confused watching as I work
“I’m growing crystals” I answer and he looks at me even more confused, “with these materials I’m using 3 methods to figure out the best way to recrystallize pure crystals.” I explain and his eye glaze over “want to know the methods?”
“Fuck no” changing the topic Damien asks, “what time should I come over on Friday?”
“For what?”
“Round 4 of the tournament genius, it’s this Friday remember?”
“Oh right… um I can’t Friday”
“Why not?” Yeah, why not Baz?
“No reason I just can’t”
“You can’t tell me why?” Shaking my head I continue to work and Damien says, “whatever but if you don’t play this Friday then you’re out and we’re so close” shrugging I pretend not to care. “Seriously Baz? What the fuck’s going on with you?”
Just tell him! “I’m going to homecoming with Silver on Friday”
“Homecoming?” Damien asks “fuck are you going to that for?”
“Silver asked me to be her date and I said yes” it’s kind of true
“Seriously Silver can go by herself it’s not like she was gonna leave alone anyway”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I turn asking him
“Forget it, you’re choosing a dumb dance over me and the tournament?” No, but I need to stand my ground and stop giving him whatever he wants. Not answering I focus on my crystals and Damien adds “fine then I’ll play myself”
“You will?”
“You don’t think I can beat a bunch of middle schoolers at COD?”
“Not ones who do nothing but play, but whatever be my guess I’ll text you my login”
“Thanks for nothing” he leaves my station walking away, “hope you find whatever the fuck it is you’re looking for at homecoming.” He actually has no idea how ironic his snarky comment is, because I’m actually looking for something and god knows I might actually find it.
At the dance Silver is enjoying Georgia’s hot brother on stage as I try to keep my cool, Damien was right why the fuck am I here when I could be with him? You’re here because of him stupid! Damien Allen does not appreciate you and maybe Georgia’s brother will, even if you meet him and he just wants sex that’s more than Damien wants from you.
We’ve been here 40 minutes and I already lost Silver, she’s so slippery that one, but thank god my social anxiety only flares up around strangers. I don’t give a fuck about being around these people since I see them every day anyway, if anything being here is the real waste of my time.
“BAZ!” I hear Silver scream my name then next thing I know I’m being tackled, practically throwing me off my feet Silver grabs me “look who’s here!” She points at the entrance
We watch Damien walk in alone looking around “oh my god”
“I know right”
“Why is he here?” I continue to stare until his wandering eyes land on us
“Oh shit” Silver averts her eyes to not make it obvious we’re staring but I don’t, we look right at each other then he looks down at his phone. After he’s done he looks back up at me
Feeling my phone vibrate in my pocket I take it out, opening the text from him it reads ‘hallway now’
“Are you in trouble or something?” Silver asks reading the text too, watching him leave the gym I’m about to follow but silver grabs my arm, “you’re not actually going are you?”
“Yes I am”
“Baz do you know why we’re here? You can’t make Damien jealous if you’re just running to him every time he asks.”
“I know ok I’m not doing anything, I’m just going to see what he wants” leaving her behind I exit the gym. Staring at Damien who’s standing there waiting for me I admire how well he cleans up, I mean it’s just a button-up tucked into dark jeans, but god they look so good on him. “You clean up well” I comment and he turns
“Yeah and you don’t look so bad yourself, but we need to go the tournament starts in 20 minutes.”
“That’s why you’re here?” Am I the biggest idiot for thinking maybe he came to be with me? Yes, yes I fucking am.
“Look I know I said I’d play but I underestimated those little assholes, they’ve won every practice round I don’t stand a chance alone.”
“Damien I already told you I wasn’t going to play, I want to be here with my friends”
“You have one friend” he corrects, “and I’m not going to let you fuck up our chance at 25 grand for Silver and a fucking dance, so let’s go we’re leaving.”
“No” I’m done letting him walk all over me, “I don’t care about the stupid money, this was supposed to be for fun remember?”
“Baz stop fucking around let’s go” he comes to me grabbing my wrist
“Stop” I yank myself away before he gets a chance to drag me, “I’m not leaving with you okay? Silver needs me and I-“
“Silver doesn’t give a shit about you Baz!” Damien barks, “I stay out of people’s business but I’m sick of you doing shit for someone who is clearly fucking you over, and you can’t even see it.”
Nothing he just said makes any sense, “what?”
“She’s still fucking around with Eddie… behind your back”
Shaking my head “no she’s not you don’t know what you’re talking about”
He smiles “god for a smart person you’re kinda fucking slow, he’s my best friend not only do I get all the fucking details but I’ve seen her sneaking out of his house multiple times.”
“Baz come on! Georgia’s brother is taking a break perfect time to introduce you,” turning behind me I see Silver calling me over.
Damien could be lying to get me to leave, Silver would never do something like that to me, but I need to know for sure. Walking to her with a serious look I ask “are you still hooking up with Eddie?”
Stunned by the question Silver’s eyes move from me to Damien who’s standing far behind me, “he told you that?”
“Just answer the question Silver and I swear if you lie-“
“It’s true” she quickly answers, “I am.” Staring at her she sees the hurt across my face and quickly frowns, “but Baz I can explain” she reaches for my hand but I pull away.
“Seriously Silver?” My voice cracks, Jesus fuck I’m about to cry
“Baz please let me explain” tears start to fill her eyes
“I’m going home” I say quietly walking away.
“I’ll drive,” Damien says as I walk towards him
“No” I stop, “I’m going alone both of you stay away from me.”
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