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Here’s a synopsis of my weekend, after blocking Silver everywhere she showed up to my house multiple times begging to talk to me, but I already told my parents not to let her in. Deciding to climb the tree she tries to come in through the window, but I locked it and ignored her, I haven’t said a word to her yet because I’m not even sure what I want to say. I’m tired of her betraying me and I know for a fact that I’m completely done with her, the problem is convincing her of that.
Monday morning I walk into school unprepared to see either of them, it feels like I’m going to spend the rest of my high school life avoiding these people. It’ll be hard staying away from Silver because she knows all of my hideouts, and wouldn’t you believe I see her standing at my locker waiting. Groaning I turn before she sees me and just go to class without my books.
“Good morning class” my teacher starts, “before we get started why don’t you guys pass up your homework so I can collect them,” everyone starts opening their bags including me.
As I’m pulling out my homework the classroom door opens and in walks Silver, “can I help you Silver?” The teacher asks
“Yes, can I borrow Baz for a minute?”
“No!” I quickly answer before my teacher can, “leave me alone”
“Baz please I just need one minute” she begs
“He already said no Silver maybe you should get to class.”
“Not until he listens to me” she turns back to me, “Baz there is no good enough reason for why I did what I did ok, it was a mistake and-“
“Wait every single time you did it it was a mistake?” I laugh in disbelief “do you hear how fucking stupid you sound?”
“All right either you guys take this out of my classroom or I get security”
With an already ruined mood I pick up my bag storming out, following me into the empty hall Silver says “Baz I’m sorry”
“FUCK YOU!” I bark turning to her “and fuck your I’m sorries! God, you’ve spent this entire friendship apologizing to me and for fucking what? To do the same shit over and over again. Am I a fucking joke to you?” She doesn’t answer “AM I?” I yell
“No, you’re not…”
“Then why do you treat me like one? Why am I always the last person you think about when I always put you first?”
“That’s not true Baz-“
“Yes, it is! When you decided to leave home who helped you find a place to live? And when you couldn’t keep an afternoon job to pay your rent, who started selling papers to help you pay it so your roommates wouldn’t kick you out? I risk so much for you and you don’t even give a shit about me.”
“Yes I do” tears run down her cheeks “I didn’t mean-“
“You didn’t mean to what fall for the guy that bullies me? You didn’t mean to watch him torture me every day and not do shit about it? Or did you not mean to keep fucking him after he humiliated me?” With her head down Silver doesn’t answer any of my questions “I really hope Eddie was worth it because I’m done with you, and I don’t mean done for now or I need some time. No, I mean fucking done as in never talk to me again, stay away from me and act like I don’t even exist because as of this moment you are dead to me.” Leaving her in the hallway I go back into class and the teacher continues with the lesson.
It’s lunchtime and I can finally go to my locker, opening it I start putting my textbooks in my bag when- “you should thank me” Damien comes next to me saying.
Sighing I stick my head in my locker saying “I don’t have the energy for this.” Taking my head out I ask, “I should thank you for ruining my friendship?”
“What no you should thank me because I won the tournament for us last night”
“You won?” I turn to him shocked and he nods
“No thanks to you but yeah I did, it was touch and go for a while and I did come in 5th place but still we’re going to the final round so you’re welcome.”
“Do you think we could actually win?”
Before Damien can answer my question Georgia walks up to us “hey Baz, Damien Allen.”
“Hi Georgia” I greet but Damien says nothing
“You left homecoming so fast on Friday you didn’t get a chance to meet my brother, but no worries Silver and I talked you up all night and she showed him a bunch of your pictures and he told me to give you his number” she hands me a piece of paper. Looking over at Damien who watches me take it he doesn’t say anything and Georgia adds, “anyways I’m heading to lunch feel free to call or text him but don’t say I didn’t warn you.”
“Yeah thanks, Georgia” she walks away and I turn back to my locker.
Before either of us get a chance to say anything someone else walks up to us, and this one is the reason Damien and I never talk in the halls until he decided to break that agreement today. “Yo, why are you talking to this freak? Matter of fact why do I always catch you talking to him, you gay or something?”
“Eddie, do you ever shut the fuck up about him or anyone else being gay? Like seriously out of this entire school you’re the only motherfucker with a problem with him and for what? You’re so worried about him you don’t think that shit might make you gay?”
“Fuck you I’m not gay”
“Ok then give it a fucking rest! You complain every day about getting Silver back, yet the only person that can actually help you get her back you treat like shit. I don’t fucking get you” I stand there listening as Damien tears his own best friend a new one… for me, something I never expected to see. “Oh, and by the way in case you forgot I don’t take orders from you all right? I can talk to whoever the fuck I want to and that includes him, if you got a problem with that then you can go fuck yourself because I really don’t care.” Clearly angry but with nothing left to say Eddie walks away. Damien turns to me while I stare at him stunned “what?” He asks nonchalantly
“What the fuck was that?”
He shrugs “someone’s got to have your back” he taps my back after saying that. “Now come on let’s go get lunch, I need a burrito” he walks away and I shut my locker following him.
Sitting across Damien in a booth at Burritoland I say, “I didn’t ask you to ruin your friendship for me” as I watch him eat.
“Who said I ruined anything?”
“You and Eddie are still cool after everything you just said to him?”
“I’ve said worse things to him ok, Eddie will get over it. Doesn’t mean he’ll stop bothering you though”
“It’s more than Silver’s ever done”
“That’s not true” he replies with a mouthful
“What?” I ask curiously
“Silver always stood up for you any time Eddie said some mean shit, you didn’t see it but she did. I mean it clearly never worked but she did try”
“And that’s supposed to make up for the fact that she was still with him, or the fact that she kept seeing him after what he did to me.”
“I guess not” he eats
“Why’d you never tell me anything? You knew the entire time she was still messing with him behind my back and you said nothing.”
“It’s not my business Baz, what happens between you, Eddie, and Silver has shit to do with me”
“Then why did you stand up for me?”
“That was more for me than it was for you, Eddie can’t tell me who I can or can’t talk to and I needed to remind him of that.” Are you laughing at me as much as I’m laughing at myself on the inside? Every time I think there might be a chance this guy actually cares about me, I’m proven wrong almost immediately.
Maybe my feelings will go away if I act as careless as he does, “so about that thing with Georgia earlier before Eddie showed up…”
“You mean her trying to fix you up with her brother?” I nod “what about it?”
“She wanted me to meet him at homecoming because she thinks we have a lot in common, and I might be his type” am I exaggerating to get a reaction out of him? Of course, I am
“You gonna call him?”
Shrugging “dunno I might”
“Why are you unsure?”
“Well he’s in college and Georgia says he’s kind of a player, he uses guys just for sex.”
“Maybe that’s what you need, can’t be a virgin forever Baz.” Are you fucking kidding me? Here I am trying to make him jealous and he’s just insulting me, why do I even bother?
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