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“Thanks for backing me up. Our team was about to lose too.” This male avatar said to me.
“No problem. I am a pro at this point.” I typed.
“Teach me your ways. I am Ryo by the way.”
Ryo. The name sparked at me. I remembered hearing that name around the high school I went to. “Do you happen to go to Goh high school?”
“I do. Do you?”
“Yes.”
“Nice! Meet me at the gate tomorrow.”
“Alright!”
That was the first time I spoke to Ryo. It was geeky, but I would never forget it. I saved his team from losing in an online RPG.
~~~
I waited by the gate the next day as he wished. I looked down at my watch. It was 8:30 in the morning. He didn’t say what time. What a guy. I sighed.
“Hey! You must be that avatar with the blue hair.” He blinks, and looks confused.
“Yes.” I smiled.
“Let’s meet up at lunch to talk. I got to get to class!” He runs off.
I watched him run. I’ve seen him around the school multiple times. I was invisible to him.
What a beautiful human. He looked so intimidating yet nice. I bet he could get any girl he could ever want. I was envious of the guy. At least he is willing to be my friend.
~~~
Lunch time was my favorite subject in school…if that was even considered a subject. To me it was.
“Hey…” I felt a hand on my shoulder. I saw it was Ryo.
“Ryo, what’s up?”
“May I sit?”
“Sure.”
He sits in front of me with his tray of food. He smiles. “So I suck at that game. How do you beat five people in a row? I get jumped instantly if I pull that stunt.” He laughs.
“The trick is walking away slightly, and doing a counter.” I chuckled.
“Whoa I see. Teach me. I’ll bring my laptop next time.”
“I will.” I took a bite of my sandwich. I looked up to see him smiling at me. His eyes were bright, and he looked so peaceful.
“Ryo Ryo!” A couple girls, and guys went to greet him. I was in awe to see how popular he is. He begins chatting with them as I watched.
The conversation with them lasted quite long for him. I decided not to interfere so I sneakily creeped up, and walked away.
I went outside to sit on a bench. It was a beautiful day out. Normally I would be talking to my friends, but secretly, I skipped a class to be at this lunch period. I won’t even see my friends until my designated lunch period.
Every time I made a new friend, I would get so excited. I would do anything to chat. The best part about Ryo was that we can connect by talking about the RPG we both shared a similar interest in.
“Hey you left. I’m sorry.” Ryo walks over to me, and sits down. “I feel bad.”
“No it’s fine. This isn’t really my lunch period so I don’t know anyone.” I shrugged.
“Oh, I can introduce you.” He smiles with his suggestion.
“Nah I’m okay.” I dismissed the idea.
He smirks. “You are a strange one you know?”
“I know.” I laughed out loud.
We started to talk about school, life, drama, and all that jazz. By the end of the chat we exchanged names, phone numbers, and addresses. It was a beautiful start to a new friendship.
~~~
It was one morning in school when Ryo stopped me from going home. He takes my wrist. “Hey, don’t go on the bus. I wanted to take you somewhere.”
“Huh?” I was confused.
“This lake…it has frogs. So many!” His face was of a child’s. So happy, and fruitful.
“Okay?” I wasn’t fond of frogs, but Ryo was my best friend at this point, and he always had great ideas.
“Come on, we can walk.” He leads me.
We walked on the sidewalk together. I looked over at him. He was popular. I can’t get that stupid word out of my head. “Hey Ryo.” I spoke up.
“Yeah?”
“The spring dance is coming up. I want to ask a girl out to this dance. How do I do it? I know you had girlfriends.” I laughed.
He doesn’t laugh. I instantly stopped laughing. “What?” I questioned.
“I actually never had a girlfriend. What gave you that idea?”
“I mean you have a lot of friends….that are girls..” I began scratching the back of my head feeling embarrassed for my weird assumption.
“Do you think I am attractive?” He looks at me.
I backed away. “W-what?! That would be gay to say.”
“It isn’t gay for a man to compliment another man. I mean…Johnny Depp is handsome, and I’m not gay.” He laughs.
“Yeah, but he is a celebrity, he doesn’t count. You are my friend, and yeah…it’s different.”
“So am I ugly?” He chuckles.
“No! I mean…you look good. Yeah..happy .” I face palmed my face.
“It makes me happy to hear you say that. I think you look kinda good too.” He chuckles, and slaps my back.
“Kinda? You trying to say I’m kinda busted too?”
“Maybe if you would stop wearing that mask.” He points to the air mask I wore all the time.
“I tend to wear this outside of school since I catch colds easily.”
“But it makes you look sick.”
“Well yeah, but it is a weird habit.”
“It is. Come on, we are almost there.” He starts running, and I did the same.
We ran into a park, and down a lane that lead to plenty of trees. “It’s down there.” Ryo points further down the path, and started speeding there. He looks like a kid. It was kinda cute. Kinda…
“Here!” He leads me to a lake where there was a ton of ducks, and frogs in the pond together. It was an unusual sight, but I enjoyed it.
I took out my cellphone, and took a couple pictures of the scenery. It was beautiful I must admit.
“Hey…have you ever had a girlfriend? You know, since you asked me.” He looks over at me.
“Nope never. I don’t think girls like me too much since I look intimidating.”
“Too much working out.” He snickers.
“I mean, I thought that would attract the girls.”
“Not a big old rock.” He laughs.
“Hey, the Rock is a legend. I was hoping I could be too, but I guess not.” I kicked a rock into the lake.
“So I guess no kisses huh?”
“Nah, how about you?”
“Hmmm.” He touches his lips. “Nope…never.”
“Are you gay?” I decided to ask, hoping not to offend him in any way.
“No…why would you think that?” He frowns.
“Well you have longer hair than all the other boys in school, and you look like you care for your beauty…I’m sorry if that sounds bad.” I slapped myself.
“No it doesn’t haha. Don’t sweat it. I just prefer long hair. Girls dig that in otome games…”
“Now that I think about it, they do. Maybe I should grow my hair out.”
“Haha I don’t know…”
I thought. I must be doing something wrong if girls aren’t liking me yet. “Oh! Maybe I should take off some of this muscle weight.”
“Or maybe you should take off this….” He quickly, but gently removed my face mask, and placed his lips on mine. My eyes were wide, and my face exploded a crimson pink.
He backs off slowly, and looks into my eyes. “I’m sorry. Since we are both kiss virgins, I wanted to get that out of the way.”
“A-ah uh…” I was shocked. I didn’t know what to say. My first kiss was a guy. I felt upset, but at the same time I was glad it was at least a decent looking guy.
“Sorry. Don’t be creeped out okay?”
“I’m not…just kissing a guy is weird.” I looked away.
“Wasn’t it nice?”
I blushed a bit. “In a way I guess…” I touched my lips.
“You want to do it again?” He looks at me with an appealing smirk.
“I don’t know.” I looked away mad red.
“I think that means a yes.” He chuckles softly. “Come here.” He takes my chin, and faced it towards him. I felt his soft lips once again. I don’t know why, but I always thought men’s lips weren’t soft, and gentle. I guess I was way wrong.
The kiss lasted longer the second time. We twisted our heads side to side to really get into the fulfillment of the whole kiss. I could feel his warm tongue slide into my mouth, and I did the same. Our tongues swirled together. I almost wanted to embrace him, but I couldn’t. My body wouldn’t work. Only my lips, and tongue.
We both pulled away after a couple seconds passed. He wasn’t blushing at all. This man is ruthless. I couldn’t contain my excitement. I looked down at my erection, and quickly covered it.
“Oh wow.” His eyes were wide, and his lips curled to a smirk. “Someone got into it.”
“How can you remain limp? I must be gay then.” I blushed.
“I am excited, but it doesn’t show since I am trying to keep it down by thinking nasty thoughts.” He chuckles.
“Damn it. I am not a freak.” I said while trying to explain my body functions.
“Don’t worry. I don’t think that.” He looks down smiling.
I didn’t know what it was, but I couldn’t take my eyes off of his smiling face. He looked so calm, and gentle. I guess that was when I started falling for him. Slowly, but surely.
~~~
It was summer vacation. I was excited since I hated high school. I ran out the school with a cheer. Shou was cheering with me.
“Finally! We can play Dragon’s RPG all summer. Or maybe finally get a girlfriend.” Shou chuckles as he rubs his head.
“Right. Would be nice to see a girl in a bikini.” I blushed just thinking about it.
“Hey is your friend waiting?” Shou pointed to Ryo at the gate. “Since when did you become friends with him?”
“For at least nine months ago when school started. He’s pretty nice.”
“Oh eh okay. I will see you man.” He leaves me.
“Sure.” I started to run over to Ryo. He waves, and smile. “I wanted to go by the lake. I know it’s cold.”
“Want to come over instead?” I pulled my mask up. I could hear people coughing, and sneezing already. Summer colds were weird.
“Sure!” His eyes lit up. It was cute.
I didn’t know how I was feeling. I loved hanging with Ryo. Sometimes a little too much. Occasionally we would kiss each other, but that was basically it. I enjoyed it, but at the same time I was unsure. I still wanted a girlfriend, but I felt pretty much at ease with Ryo.
We decided to take the bus to my house since walking would have taken forever. Luckily there was nobody home.
“Wow you have a balcony…” He looks up at it with awe.
“No big deal. Just a small balcony.”
“I’ve never seen one before in person. Weird, I know.” He chuckles.
“Well now you can even stand on one. It’s located in my room.”
“Oh? Nice.” He winks.
My heart skipped a little. I hated this feeling. I didn’t want to believe that I had feelings for another guy. I peeked at him. He was still looking at me with his cheerful smile.
“You smile a lot.”
“I’m sure you do too under that mask.” He chuckles.
“You are right.” I said as the smile on my lips got wider.
“Let’s see.” His index finger pulls down my mask. He moves in to kiss me.
“Hey.” I gently moved away. “We are out in public.”
He laughs. “Sorry, I just got so used to kissing you. It’s weird isn’t it.”
“Do you like it?” I asked as the misty breeze blew my mask away. His eyes looked at mine, and his pupils got enlarged as he stared at my mask-less face.
“I love it. I want to always kiss you.” His lips whispered.
“I feel the same…”
“Will you be my muse so my heart can be obtuse?” He goofily said.
“I will be mute or else I can’t contain my heart of acute.” I said with a delighted smile on my face.
That was when it was official. I called him my boyfriend. It was weird. I had never been in an relationship before. This was going to be a complete turn for me.
~~~
The days, weeks, months, and years went by. It was fun. It was a blast. I was at the peak of my happiness. For once I didn’t have to try so hard to impress. He enjoyed me the way I was.
“Happy anniversary.” He hands me a box. “I hope you like it as much as I like you.” He chuckles.
“Three years eh? I wonder what you got.” I slowly untangle the velvet lace that sat perfectly on the golden box. I began lifting the box up to find a locket attached to a golden chain.
“Locket…” He says.
“I know. Isn’t this a bit too girly for me to wear?” I held it up. It was golden with floral designs, and a pink crystal in the middle.
“It is, but you can wear, and hide it under your shirt.”
“Thank you. I will.” I secretly loved it, but my pride didn’t want me to act upon impulse. I embraced him, and he does the same. He kisses the nape of my neck.
As the hug ended, I tried to open it, but it wouldn’t budge. “Hm? Why is it stuck? What’s in it?”
He smiles. “It will open at the right time. Just a picture of us.”
“This is…really nice. Thank you Ryo.” I pinched his cheek, and he laughs.
“This may sound a little corny, but I hope you stay around for a long time.”
I almost felt the tears of happiness when he said that. “I will be here Ryo as long as you want me here.”
“I will never be the one to break up with you. You would have to be the one.” He chuckles.
“I promise I won’t break up with you. I don’t think I can honestly.” I smirked. “I have a hard time letting anything go. Especially you.”
“I just don’t have the heart to.” He looks away.
His phone starts ringing, and he quickly answers it. “Hello?”
His expression went serious. I wondered who it could be.
“Okay? I will. I will. Be there in a few.” He hangs up, and looks at me. “I’m so sorry, but my mother needs me. She’s at the hospital right now. Nothing too serious, but my dad is away on business. I will have to resume this another time. I’m sorry.” He kisses me, and hurries off.
I didn’t really get a chance to ask him what was up, but I knew talking about it might bring him down.
~~~
“Want to live together? I have the money….” Ryo holds out his credit card.
“Really?” I was beyond shocked. It was the final week of being a senior in high school. It would mean we can be dorm mates after in college.
“Yep. I can’t stay in my household any longer.”
“Why is that?”
“Well my family is dull. I want to live on my own or with you.” He smiles, and places his hand on mine.
“Of course…I would love that.”
“Still say I am your girlfriend. I wouldn’t want people knowing.”
“I will. Did you want to attend the same college?”
His face went sour. “Ah I wasn’t planning on going.”
“Why?” I frowned. I was looking forward to being classmates again with him.
“I mean..I just don’t like school. My brain hurts, and I am not good.”
“Neither am I, but I want to try. At least try one semester out to see how you like it.” I pushed him. I didn’t want him to pursue nothing. What kind of boyfriend would I be?
“Maybe one…” He didn’t seem too fond of the idea. I didn’t blame him. I hated school just as much as he did, but it could be fun with him again.
“Why so hesitant?”
“Well my grandma is sick, and I want to make money to help her out.”
“Where is she?” I never knew much of his family life. He kept that a secret from me.
“A nursing home since my parents moved. I’ve been visiting her, and taking care of her while I’m not with you.” He smiles.
My heart crumbled. I hope Ryo is okay deep down. “Are you okay? If you are sad, you can always confide in me.”
He smiles. “I am okay silly boy.” He chuckles, and kisses my cheek. “She’s doing exceptionally well, and is happy.”
“She sounds like a wonderful grandmother.” I smiled.
“She is!” His face lit up. “Me, and her used to pick roses at this huge field, and press them between books to preserve it. I remember there was one time I found a pink, and white rose. It was mixed, and so beautiful. She told me to keep it since it symbolized our bond. I cherished it ever since.” He blushes, and smiles.
“Oh? Is it in a special book? An album perhaps?”
He looks at me, and chuckles. “Something like that. I placed it somewhere special, and when I’m sad I would just look at its beauty. Silly I know, but that is me.”
“I think it’s cute Ryo.” I hugged him. He looked slightly shocked, but hugged me back tightly.
“I’m happy to have you. My second family.” He whispers.
Second family? I blushed. That means he had the intentions of marrying me one day. That warmed my heart up.
~~~
I woke up looking at Ryo. That dream sure brought back memories. My eyes were wet, and my breathing wasn’t in sync. I miss the old Ryo….
Ryo woke up from my shuffling in the bed. He looked at me oddly. “Why are you crying?”
“Bad dream.” My mind was screaming out for him to comfort me. Please comfort me I screamed.
“Don’t we all? Heh.” He lets out a weak chuckle.
I felt sad. Why doesn’t he hug me like before? Why can’t he see me hurting? I need my companion. “I dreamt of when we got together.” I held the locket I was still wearing on my neck at all times. I never had the will to take it off. It was real material, and didn’t rust so I saw no point.
“That’s nice. I bet it was.” He replies with a dull expression.
“Don’t you miss it?”
“I do….”
“Why can’t we go back?”
He bit his lower lip. “Because the past is untouchable once it’s played out.”
I touched his hand. “We can be happy again together. What’s wrong? Why have yo-“
“Not now okay?” He tugs his hand away.
“Okay, I’m sorry…”
“Today my parents are coming to visit. They will be visiting my grandma so I’ll be out today.” He rubs his eyes, and turns away.
“Ah…okay. Today I am just going out with friends.”
“Have fun okay?” He looks back at me with a small smile.
My heart ached just watching him. He smiles at me, but with no life. Was I ugly to him now? Was I too needy? What was it?
“Maybe we should hang out. I never met your parents or grandmother.” I suggested.
“No. My parents would flip if they knew I liked a guy.”
“Then say I am your friend.” It hurts to be hidden, but I was hiding him too.
“My parents would ask me why I am living with a guy for so long…or stuff…” He seemed to not want me around his family. His excuses were poor. No one cares if he lives with a guy. It seemed normal to me.
“Fine.” I got up, got my mask, and went to the bathroom to get ready.
I stopped myself before I went in the bathroom. My body had the urge to just try to seduce Ryo. Maybe it might help him. I turned back, and went to hug him from behind.
“Hmm?” He looks at me.
I began kissing his neck, running my hands down his chest. I pushed him down on the bed, and licked his chest.
His eyes closed, and his mouth slightly parted. I could tell he enjoyed it. It has been months since we’ve tried anything. I felt rusty.
I tugged down his boxers, and saw he was already erected with a slight glisten of pre-cum dripping out. My mouth instantly hovers over it, and he lets out an almost non-coherent moan.
I pushed his legs apart, and ran my tongue along his entrance. He arches his back, and grips the sheets. “Nnhhh…” He softly moans. I swirled my tongue gently, teasing his opening that was pulsating with my touch.
I love you Ryo, I love all of you. If the only way I can connect with you is this, I will take it.
I moved up to kiss his neck, nipples, and collar bone a couple times before I slowly inserted myself inside him.
He wraps his arms around me, and I started moving my hips slowly. I could feel him biting down on my neck as I began increasing my speed.
So tight…so tight..so warm..yet so sad…and empty.
I moved quicker. Taking out my sadness, and frustration with every thrust. The bed rocked like no tomorrow as soon as I went at maximum speed.
“Ahh ahh!” He would cry out. “Not so rough.” His eyes shut tightly as I disobeyed, and went even rougher.
“Stop it!” He shoves me off roughly. “That hurts.” He glares. His glare sent chills down my spine. I’ve never seen him stare at me this way. I didn’t like it.
“I’m sorry..”
“I’m done here.” He gets up, pulls up his boxers, and left the room.
I wanted to cry as he left. I felt bad. I didn’t know what to do. It felt like I was using him when I wasn’t. I can’t even do that correctly.
I looked down at my erection, and it began hurting as well as my chest. I cried. This mental pain is slowly spreading in me. I don’t want to be here if the only person I need dislikes me…I don’t want to be here.
To Be Continued
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