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Chapter 5
Eli’s pov
I laid on my bed on top of the covers staring at the ceiling.
It was 4AM and I hadn’t gotten any sleep.
I had to much to think about and it was killing me.
Could I really become straight? Boy if I could, I would. I don’t ever remember having a crush on a girl, thinking a girl was attractive, or even remotely being turned on by a girl. Boys were just so… I can’t explain it, but I’m just more attracted to them. Maybe I could fake it till I make it. If I could just pretend to be straight then maybe I would eventually fall in love with a girl.
Oh who was I kidding? I would never fall in love with a girl. People can’t change there Sexuaility. This is just who I am.
I guess I’ll just be miserable.
I Layed in bed for another hour, just pondering my sexuality till it was finally time to go to school.
I got ready and walked down stairs to my dad who was eating at the table. My mom was in the kitchen.
“Morning Eli.” My dad said without looking up from his newspaper.
“Morning.” I mumbled and took a seat, pouring me some cereal.
My mom walked in talking on the phone.
“Listen to me, you are my sister and you are definetly wrong about this.” She said angry into the phone. She must be talking to my aunt Molly, her sister.
I stopped eating and dad stopped reading his newspaper as we both looked up confused at mom.
There was some yelling on the other side.
“YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT!” My mom screamed. My middle aged, high class, picket fence trophy wife mom actually screamed.
The other side was silent for a few minutes till there was some talking but I couldn’t make out what.
My mom was quite for a little bit before simply hanging up.
“What was that about honey?” My dad asked confused as she sat down, looking tired.
“My sister… She doesn’t know what she’s talking about.” She said sighing.
“What did she say?” My dad questioned, I started eating my cereal again, ignoring them.
“She just told me that she was a lesbian.” My moms words hit me and I looked down embarrassed.
“A lesbian? Oh Molly was always a bit off I guess.” My dad sighed shaking his head.
“I have to go to school.” I muttered and stood up, my parents not even noticing me.
I walked to school with so much self hatred that morning.
Chapter 5
Carter’s pov
I stared across the room with a small smirk planted on my face. I was staring at the one and only, Eli.
I barely knew the guy, but from I had gathered that he was kinda jerk, way too athletic, but he also had never dated anyone, boy or girl, and had never made homophobic slurs. He could be gay, and he could be strait.
But he was definitely cute.
So far since I’d been here the only person at this school that knew about my ‘queerness’ was Wes, so I hadn’t gotten a chance to see how this school handles Homosexuailty. Im worried that once they find out everyone will judge me, including Eli.
And I knew that I didnt know him, but I felt something with the silent glances that we have been sharing. I felt something for him. And I hoped to god he felt it to.
I knew what I felt wasn’t love, not completely lust, but definitely something.
I don’t know what I was thinking, he was strait. Plus we hadn’t even had a real conversation before. I’m pitiful, aren’t I?
I really wanted to talk to him though. I just didn’t know how. Luckily Wes had a cousin (who was pretty popular here) and was throwing a party tonight.
To say the least, I had a plan.
When class finally ended, I ran up to Eli before the cheerleaders, or jocks could make it to him.
“Hey uh, Eli?” I asked, my hand running through my hair nervously.
“Oh hey Carter.” He said, a faint blush on the tips of his cheeks. I smiled at that.
“So There’s this party that my friends throwing, I was wondering if you were gonna be there?” I asked, cringing at how hard I was trying to seem cool.
He blushed a bit more. “Um yeah, sure.” He said shrugging. I smiled triumphantly and started walking out but he called out right before I walked out into the hallway.
“Can I have your phone number?” He asked causing me to turn around as my heart started to race.
I felt butterflies enter my chest and smiled. I gave it to him and we both walked out, he walked to the ‘ingroup and I walked down the hall alone.
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