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Sitting at home in a real bind Harris pours himself some liquor to drink while he contemplates, Sarah being back is triggering for him. Sarah Stiles knows too much about Harris to be in his current life, one he’s tried so hard to build outside of her. Hearing a knock on the door Harris looks at his watch not expecting anyone at this hour, so it is easy to detect who it might be.
He gets up opening the door to Tan “hey what are you doing here?”
“Just needed to talk”
“Sure come in”
Harris walks away expecting Tan to follow but Tan stands near the door after shutting it, he looks very uneasy. “Are you ok?” Tan shakes his head afraid to speak “what’s the matter?”
The words are harder for Tan to say than he expected “I don’t think we should see each other anymore” his low voice carry towards Harris who isn’t standing close.
“Why? Did I do something wrong?” Tan doesn’t look at him in the eyes afraid he’ll see Harris’s heart breaking, he’s really not ready to lose Tan.
Tan tries to find a way to let him down that doesn’t involve admitting his friends found out because that could cause a lot of trouble. “No you didn’t this is just nothing I want any more”
Hurt and not wanting to hear any more of what Tan has to say, “you should go” Harris demands
“Harry-“
“Go!” He yells and Tan grabs the doorknob reluctantly “Tan wait” Harris moves closer when Tan turns.
Rushing in he kisses the boy holding him tightly “Harry I’m sorry” Tan feels the anger Harris is omitting.
“Shh don’t talk” he continues to kiss Tan pushing him against the front door. Holding both of Tan’s hands above his head by his wrists, Harris kisses his neck biting it. He is angry with Tan and he doesn’t want to yell or hurt him, this is all he can do. Telling himself he’s ok with having angry sex with the man in control, Tan gives himself up to Harris. He drops to his knees but Harris pulls him back up “no”
Turning him around Harris unbuckles his belt and pulls his jeans and underwear down, holding his ass in place Harris enters him. Tan gasps as his body shivers after Harris makes contact. Harris has his way with Tan then afterward walks away leaving him to pick up his pants, Tan leaves.
A week passed and Tan has not made any contact with the people mad at him. He’s more alone now than he’s ever been, but weirdly thing aren’t so bad at home. “Are you ready?” His mom walks to his room as Tan finishes getting ready
“Yep,” He stands. Shiela’s been helping Tan practice for his road test, they get in her car with him behind the wheel.
Tan drives to school and he’s doing a good job “if you’re this good why did you fail twice?” His mom grins asking
“I told you I was nervous, clipboards make me nervous”
“I think you’re gonna do good this time”
“Don’t jinx it mom” he pulls up to school and they get out of the car
“I’ll pick you up your dad’s working late” Tan nods. As he’s putting his backpack on both him and his mom sees Lin, Erica, and Ronnie walking and talking to each other. “Hey there are the girls” she points about to wave
“No mom don’t-“
“Hey girls!” She calls out and they turn seeing Tan and his mother
“Hi Mrs. Milton” Lin greets and the rest wave
They walk in and Shiela turns to Tan “what was that? Why didn’t they wait for you?”
Sighing “they hate me”
“What happened?”
“Mom I have to go I’m gonna be late”
“Tan you can talk to me” they stand in front of her car
“I lied to them about something… I’ve been lying to everyone and no one’s speaking to me now” he gets sad
“Oh honey I’m so sorry” she hugs him
“I’m sick of lying I don’t want to anymore” they let go of each other. “Jackie said that I have to come clean and start being honest when I spoke to her about it.”
“Then come clean, Tan”
“I’m trying but they won’t give me a chance”
“Don’t give up”
“I won’t, I’ll see you later.” He walks into school avoiding his locker, knowing exactly where Sven would be before class Tan walks to the gym. Hiding by the bleachers he watches Sven play basketball with his friends, he misses Sven and the texts and calls he’s been sending weren’t working.
After his quick game, Sven and his friends head toward the locker room when he sees Tan waiting in front of the doors. “I’ll catch you guys later” his friends walks in and he stops in front of Tan. Sweaty and out of breath he avoids eye contact even though Tan can’t help but stare at his beautiful glistening face.
“You always look so good on that court” he tries flirting to lighten the heavy tension
“What do you want Tan?”
“A minute to explain”
“Well I don’t have that, class is about to start and I have to shower, and I don’t want to hear whatever lie you’re about to tell so.”
“Sven if you could just-“
Backing up as Tan moves closer “I have to go” he pushes through the double doors.
After his first few classes, Tan sees his friends standing by Lin’s locker which unfortunately is right next to his. Awkwardly walking up next to them they quiet their talking as he opens his locker. They watch him shuffle in there feeling very uncomfortable, having had enough for one day “how long?” He asks turning to them
“What?” Erica asks
“How long are you guys going to keep being mad at me?”
“Till we feel like it” she replies and they walk away. Heartbroken Tan goes to class, Sven doesn’t show up for math and he didn’t expect him to. He really messed up.
“How’d it go?”
“It didn’t, they were mean and ignored me”
“Give them time, you’re an amazing person they’ll remember that.”
Tan does really love his friends and no matter what his heart will always belong to Sven, but his lies to protect Harris just ended up hurting everyone.
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