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{{HELLO. Sorry I haven’t updated in forever, but my friend have me this nice idea, so here it is. It’s a weird one, you have been warned. Oh, and if you don’t know about the colors I’m referring to, I’ll put a picture in the top. Song used, I’m pretty sure everyone on earth knows it.}}
Rated PG13 I guess..
My lover’s got humour
She’s the giggle at a funeral
“can I come over? My dad’s being a fucking transphobe.” You type, already walking.
Your binder had been hurting more than normal,
Your dad reminded you more that “you’re going to hell”,
And everyone ignored you.
What an amazing day.
Knows everybody’s disapproval
I should’ve worshipped her sooner
You didn’t even wait for a reply. Only 10 minutes ago your dad had been yelling at you non-stop, now you were here.
If the heavens ever did speak
She’s the last true mouthpiece
You walked straight through the unlocked door. No one seemed to notice you among your way through the place and upstairs. {A/N, I’m probably the only one who hates using the word café..}
Every Sunday’s getting more bleak
A fresh poison each week
You knocked hard on the door, “Tadashi–Can I come in?”
‘We were born sick, ‘ you heard them say it
Hiro yelled “Tadashi, your gir– boy– friend is here!!” Before he walked off laughing like he knew something you didn’t.
My Church offers no absolutes
She tells me, ‘Worship in the bedroom. ‘
“Hiro!!” Tadashi yelled, chasing after his little brother. You knew somehow he didn’t get that text. Oh well, too bad.
The only heaven I’ll be sent to
Is when I’m alone with you-
Hiro walked out of the room, like normal. He…wasn’t so accepting. “Eh–er, Hola.” Yu tried to ignore that he might’ve gotten that text after all
I was born sick,
Nope, clueless. He smiled, and you knew for a fact he hadn’t gotten it. “What’s the matter?” He thought for a second. “Family? School? ” He didn’t want to mention the other problems. Hiro probably listened in.
But I love it
He was hesitant on the last one. “Boys?”
Yeah, sure. Something along the lines of family and boys. You thought. Your binder was slipping. {trust me, that’s not a good thing.~Ryan}
“Something to that effect..” You said, hearing a slamming door hoping it meant Hiro wasn’t around and you could be yourself. He was your friend and all, but things changed since you were transgender. People left you..
Command me to be well
“Okay, who, what, when, where, why, and how?” He hadn’t gotten the message.
Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen.
“Well, open your eyes. Family problems, a lot of them! Boy problems? You could say that. I mean, I’m a boy, for some people there’s problems with that.” You blurted out. Being his friend was easy, but it was too easy to blurt things out around him.
Take me to church
“Y/N, why is that a problem..?” He asked, clearly noticing bruises and cuts.
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
“Learn the meaning of the word ‘transphobe’. Maybe you’ll get it, I don’t know. Just.. Parent problems.” You couldn’t explain. He was the kind of guy to call the cops when he knew something like this was happening.
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
“Well you’re always going to be a boy to me.” He replied.
Just another boy… You thought.
Offer me that deathless death
You sighed. “It’s not that simple. I mean, look today’s just not going great with my dad. He’s gotten himself mad about stuff at work, and me being me doesn’t help. Tadashi, people say I have his personality. That terrifies me.”
Good God, let me give you my life
“Do you hate on people like you? I don’t think so. You’re not like him if he’s like this.”
He doesn’t know half of it.. You thought.
Take me to church
“Yeah, I guess so. Can I just stay here for a while..? Until he’s..well..hot home?” You asked. That meant not being there all night, going back in the morning. Tomorrow was a Sunday, morning, but church didn’t matter.
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
“Better than letting that happen.” He put his arm around you. You knew he had the “rainbow powers”, so you tried not to crush on him. But now..things were different.
Offer me that deathless death
You’d been out of the closet with him for a while. Almost a month. Your dad claimed he had figured it out on his own. He didn’t want you with your friends because they didn’t have a black and white world. I man, technically you were a boy. You were a transgender. That’s a boy. Maybe..don’t thing about that, don’t convince yourself that.
Good God, let me give you my life
This was it. You couldn’t take it anymore. You couldn’t breathe. The ace bandage had piled up, making it like a rope around your lungs. You had to fix it. “Uh–heh–I-I was wondering… Can i..uh..” You didn’t know how to explain to him, but he understood.
If I’m a pagan of the good times
My lover’s the sunlight
He backed off, turning around while you took your shirt -borrowed from him, might I add *creepy wink*- and unwrapped your chest. Normally, this would’ve been weird. you didn’t hear footsteps at you started re-binding.
To keep the Goddess on my side
She demands a sacrifice
He giggled, wrapping his arms around the bonded breasts. He was gay as fuck, you knew it. Honestly you knew his brother was more shocked than anything, not unaccepting. He just had known you as a boyish girl your whole life, not a boy in a girls body.
Drain the whole sea
Get something shiny
You spun out of his arms, pulling the shirt back over your head and brushing h/c hair in your eyes. Not like you were exactly straight in that moment, either. You actually..liked it. It sent hot and cold across your back, made your pants seem tight.
Something meaty for the main course
That’s a fine looking high horse
Don’t be creepy.. Anything but creepy! You were going to have to stay here tonight. Your dad wouldn’t notice, he just wouldn’t have someone to hate that evening. Or remind a I the inevitable hell, even though the world was hell for you.
“Tadashi! Do you realize your aunt could’ve walked in, right then, like 10 seconds ago?”
What you got in the stable?
We’ve a lot of starving faithful
“But she didn’t! And you’re a handsome boy, but trust me I’m not a pedophile or something and well..” He trailed off. He’s gay, but he’s been single forever. You’re single too, but this was…creepy. This wasn’t normal for him. Maybe since you were technically a boy…?
That looks tasty
That looks plenty
This is hungry work
He continued, “and Hiro’s staying at a friends tonight, so you’re lucky. He can’t keep a secret.” He said blushing. That was what the ‘gir- boy- friend’ thing was about. But you had a feeling that this was something along the lines of what Hiro has said.
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
//time skip motherfuckers// \\ 1:00 am\\
You screamed, waking up with tears streaming down your face. He was right, Hiro was with a friend. You had been sleeping in Hiro’s bed. You were alone, that was sort of a relief.
I’ll tell you my sins
“Everything was true…” You choke out, not noticing Tadashi sitting up. You had been in hell. All because you wanted to give yourself the right body. That, was why you were crying. Dreams can be terrible things.
So you can sharpen your knife
“H-hey, Y/N, are you okay? Do you want to come over here?” A voice asked. You knew it was Tadashi. Something felt wrong and something felt right about going with his idea, but you walked over. You still had your borrowed shirt from yesterday on, same with jeans. You noticed he was shirtless once you pulled his blanket over,
Offer me that deathless death
He breathed heavily, like he was trying to control himself. You could feel his body heat rising.
Good god, let me give you my life
“Are you okay?” He asked again. No, a definite no, but thats not the right thing to say.
“Yeah, fine. Just a dream.”
“Are you sure?” Well, you were sure of one thing. His aunt would find you two. You were paranoid about this, just like everything else.
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog
“Very sure.” You settled, wrapping your arms around him. Yep, this wasn’t gay at all. He didn’t seem like he didn’t like it, that was good, right…?
At the
You bit your lip sleepily. He smiled. At least he didn’t get that text.
Shrine of your lies
You were melting. Not literally, but it felt like it. He rolled onto his side, you doing the same to face him. He had a red, blushy face. He had a sexual look in his eye, but he didn’t do anything the two of you might regret. As far as his aunt knew, this was actually just two boys having a sleepover. Nothing rainbow about that, right?
I’ll tell you my sins
You two stayed up talking for hours. Life, toast, blenders, normal stuff. Eventually it started getting light out. That’s when you did something significant instead of being a baby.
So you can sharpen your knife
You grabbed him by the shoulders, your hair hanging in your eyes.
Offer me that deathless death
He smirked, leaning over for you. You had been waiting for his moment since the day you met him.
Come on, good god, let me give you my life
If you were going to hell for doing this, heaven must be pretty empty. How many people wouldn’t do this? You wondered.
No Masters or Kings
When the Ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin
You pulled his face closer to yours, him doing the same.
In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
It was hard to let go when you had to. It was only the early morning, you were both a mess, but neither of you cared.
Only then I am Human
Only then I am Clean
Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen.
The thing was, you didn’t pull away. For at least 5 minutes, you stood, trying to make yourself taller. {{just another A/N, you don’t sleep in a binder. Ever. So that means Y/N doesn’t have his on.}}
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog
“Why haven’t we done this before?” He asked, pulling his dusted red face away from yours to speak.
At the
You shrugged, knowing it was something involving you both being “sinners”.
Shrine
You slid another arm around the taller boy. Your binder was off, clearly anyone who would’ve seen this scene at a glance would think it was straight.
Of your lies
You pressed your head up against his chest.
I’ll tell you my sins
So you can sharpen you knife
He breathed heavily. You knew exactly what he wanted to do. He wasn’t going to let you out of an intense cuddle-hug. You’re never going back. Ever. Your dad hates you, so what? You have a Tadashi, who’s not a transphobe and is just all around awesome.
Offer me that deathless death
You knew coming here was a good idea. It hadn’t backfired like you thought it would. Too many things backfired, you were too paranoid. This was fine, perfectly fine. Just a rainbow bro hug.
Come on, good god, let me give you my life.
You almost didn’t hear the footsteps coming from outside the door.
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