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Jacob’s POV
I walked into the cafe I worked at with an apron on heading to the back and Maria, my coworker looked at me weird.
“Jacob, you’re supposed to be on vacation still.” She said as I walked past her.
“Shawn, Jenna, and Michele went to an interview and I was all alone.” I said as I entered the back room of the cafe which had small storage areas for the employees things and Maria followed me.
“And you didn’t go because?” She asked.
“Because he’s going to lie about stuff involving me and I’d rather not be there to listen.” I answered.
“So you are dating!” She said excitedly and I just laughed.
“We can be whatever your heart wants us to be Maria.” I said as I reached the register of the cafe, where the smell of coffee and baked goods was all over, “is it bad that I lowkey miss working.”
“But you’re dating him right?” Maria asked again and I shook my head rolling my eyes.
“No, I’m not dating him and I don’t work at a cafe. Yes I’m dating him.”
“You could’ve just said that!” She exclaimed laughing and I joined along.
-=+=-
“Jacob, where are you?” Michele yelled at me through the phone, “you said you were somewhere, and didn’t say anything after that a few hours ago and then you just decide to call. Shawn is worried sick, he’s leaving tomorrow you know that?”
“I know Michele, I went to work because I didn’t want to see him pack his things because he’s going back to being Shawn Mendes, the one and only Shawn Mendes where a bunch of pretty and horny girls will be hugging him at meet and greets and I don’t want to think about it.” I explained while sitting in my car in the driveway of my house where Michele, Jenna, and Shawn were.
“Look, I’m giving the phone to Shawn.” Michele said, and my eyes widened and I started shaking my head no even though she couldn’t see me.
“No, Michele don’t!” I quickly said but then he spoke.
“Jacob where are you? I’m worried sick.” Shawn said, and I could hear the sadness in his voice but I couldn’t speak. Knowing that I’m the cause for his sadness right now hurts me, and I’m already emotional enough because he’s leaving tomorrow.
“I, I.” Was all I could get out before hanging up and throwing my phone to the back seat. I put my head into my hands and started crying.
Why am I acting like this? I have no idea. I think it’s because I feel so emotionally attached to Shawn, someone who has shown me this much kindness, someone who I have developed feelings for. Maybe that’s why. Maybe because I found someone who has shown me this much affection.
I felt the passenger side door open and I removed my hands from my eyes to see Shawn looking over at me, and I turned away not wanting to look at him. I heard him sigh before putting my hand in his own.
“What’s wrong Jacob, please. It hurts me to see you like this.” Shawn whispered to me, and I pulled my hand away from him, and left the car. I stood outside my door and crossed my arms across my chest, not wanting to move but at the same time wanting to run away. My brain is telling me to just go inside but my heart is telling me to stay. I heard the passenger side door open and close and then footsteps approaching me. I felt a hand on my shoulder, knowing it was Shawn I turned around, wrapped my arms around him and shoved my head into his chest, and I let all my emotions out.
“You can’t go Shawn, you can’t leave me I can’t handle this.” I sobbed out and I felt Shawn wrap his arms around me.
“Jacob, you know I don’t want to leave but I have to.” He spoke and I just sobbed. He lead me into the house and into my room, and I still refused to let go of him. Its only been a few days, and I am acting so clingy but I can’t help myself. I’ve never had that many friends in life, and now that I have the chance to become close with people, and I’ve spent everyday with them for a week, letting go seems so hard to me. We will continue talking hopefully, but text messages and FaceTimes aren’t the same as physically holding someone.
Somehow during that whole scene of me having a mental breakdown, I fell asleep. I woke up in Shawn’s arms and I remembered that I have only a few hours left with him before we have to drop him off at the airport.
Going to the airport with Shawn kind of scared me because fans have to know something, and after running into fans, they know I’m someone and imagine fans seeing as at the airport together. Although they could just think of us as friends and I’m dropping him off at the airport like a good friend would do but that isn’t the case. Shawn and I are dating and he is leaving soon.
I tried to get out of bed, to grab a quick breakfast but Shawn wouldn’t let me go, and kept his arms around me.
“Just a few more minutes.” Shawn whispered, groggily and I just shook my head smiling.
“I want food, you want food. Let’s get food from the kitchen.” I said and Shawn stretched his arms, which meant I was free and I took this chance to escape his grip.
Let’s just say it didn’t end up well and I was on the floor laughing at my own stupidity.
I got off the floor, Shawn tried grabbing my arm to bring me back to the bed but I quickly ran out of the room and Shawn groaned.
I went into the kitchen to make a fancy breakfast which included a half eaten box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch and milk. I placed the two bowls of cereal on the table as Shawn walked into the kitchen with a tired pout on his face.
“Shawn you leave today, and I need you to eat, shower and finish packing and then we can do whatever you want until I have to drop you and Jenna off at the airport.” I explained looking up at him with a sad smile and he grabbed my hand from under the table.
“Don’t worry Jacob, I’ll call you every night until okay? And sooner or later I’ll be back to visit you or you can come visit me in Canada!” Shawn said the last part excitedly and I laughed.
“Ask my wallet about visiting and if You can convince it to spend hundreds of dollars on plane tickets, then it’s a plan.”
Once we finished our breakfast, I forced Shawn into the bathroom so he can shower and I walked into the guest room, where his luggage was open full of unorganized clothes. I walked into my room and grabbed a teddy bear off my bed and went back into his room and placed it in the luggage. I smiled to myself as I started to clean up his room.
I don’t know how long I was cleaning his room but soon enough Shawn came in, hair still wet and he was in jeans and had no shirt on.
“Oh, I forgot here’s a clean shirt.” I said handing him a shirt smiling. He grabbed the shirt and put it on and I smiled. I got up and pinched his cheeks.
“My child is all grown up and knows how to put on clothes.” I said and he just groaned prying my hand off his face and I smiled again. He pecked my cheek and pulled me into a hug.
“I can’t believe I have to leave, after getting you.” He mumbled into my shoulder.
-=+=-
This time has come. Michele and I parked at the airport and we were currently dropping off Jenna’s and Shawn’s luggage, and this is something I’m not excited for because I am one step close to saying bye.
Shawn and Jenna came back to us and we made our way started making our way to security, where I would have to say bye. I kept my distance, and kept looking down at the floor, not wanting to look at Shawn.
He grabbed my hand and intertwined our fingers and I looked at him concerned.
“Shawn, what if fans see us?” I whispered just loud enough so he can hear me, pulling my hand away from his.
“Jacob, I don’t care about them right now. I just want to hold your hand as long as I can before I have to leave.” Shawn explained and I heard the sadness in his voice. I leaned on him while we were walking, and he wrapped an arm around me.
Once we arrived at security, I pulled away from Shawn to hug Jenna.
“Jenna, text me and send photos. Take good care of Shawn okay? It was so amazing to meet you!” I said as I embraced her and she laughed at me.
“You too Jacob, and I’ll be sure to text you and take care of Shawn. Wouldn’t want to see my best friend’s boyfriend dead now would I?” She said and I laughed at her pulling away from the hug. Michele went over to hug her after hugging Shawn and I turned around and looked at Shawn, tears already brimming my eyes. He smiled sadly and I opened my mouth to say something but no words came out.
“I-I.” Was all I could say.
“Come here.” Shawn said quietly opening his arms which I gladly accepted.
“I’m gonna miss you so much.” I said into his shirt crying again, and he rubbed small circles into my back with his knuckle I comfort me.
“I’ll be back Jacob don’t you worry. I’ll FaceTime you every night, text you goodnight, and we will work out trust me. I know long distance sounds scary, but know that I have strong feelings for you Jacob, and I will not let go of them so easily.” Shawn explained kissing the top of my head.
I pulled away, and he leaned in to kiss me, and I was the one who closed the distance.
It lasted for a bit, because we both know we won’t be able to see each other face to face in awhile and I was okay with that.
He pulled away and I smiled, he smiled back.
“I’ll be back before you know it.” He whispered and I nodded and hugged him again.
“Have a safe trip both of you.” I said as I pulled away.
We finished saying our goodbyes and they entered the line for security check. I watched them go through the scanner and Shawn and Jenna turned around one last time and waved at Michele and I and we waved back smiling. They turned away to make their way to their gate and I pulled out my phone.
Jacob: Bye Boyfriend♡
Shawn: ♡
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Word Count: 1,874
Updated: 10/17/2017
A/N
Hello, it’s me. After a million years.
But okay I will explain what’s been going on in my life and what’s been happening so buckle up. It’s not that bad tbh I just suck at life I really do.
School started back in August and this year I am a junior in high school and I am taking 2 AP Classes this year, and I’m also in NHS and a service club so all of that adds up.
I’m the type of person to procrastinate so I would stupidly save my hw for the night before it’s due and finish it and be able to sleep for a few hours a night but you know:
“Pain is temporary but GPA is forever”
So writing hasn’t really been a priority because my life atm is no where near in check because I’m kind of everywhere at the moment.
Some days I’m studying, doing homework, or I’m watching YouTube or Netflix. And writing has sadly not been in the list of things I’ve been doing but I plan on changing that.
I’ve been getting into writing before going to bed recently because it helps me calm down and the only way I can do that is if I do my homework as soon as I get home, which is what I’ve been trying to do.
Not only will it help me, but it should be able to get more updates out!
My current plan is to *try* KEY WORD TRY I DONT WANT TO PROMISE SOMETHING I CANT KEEP and update at least once a month with my new hw plan and life plan so we’ll see how it turns out.
Also, I feel like such a shitty person to you guys, I haven’t updated in so long, and I keep saying I’ll update soon but soon never comes and you are just left hanging. I will do my best to try and update at least once a month so you’ll get something which is better than me being dead for like a million.❤️❤️❤️❤️
Also, I’ve been getting into K-Pop and specifically BTS so just a little update.
Thank you so much for your understanding and hopefully I can keep updating at least once a month from now on and know that if I’m unable too, I’m not giving up on the book, it just means that I’m focusing on school because that is my number 1 priority at the moment!
As always, your votes and comments are always appreciated and until next time, I don’t have a sign off’!
-Jacob
PS:
Thank you so much for 50+K Reads and 2K Votes❤️ With my as an author I don’t deserve all the support you guys have been giving me and it means the world to me so thank you thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart❤️❤️❤️
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