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-ASH-
I knock loudly his door. No answer. I knock again.
“Come on, Mike. Answer the door.” I shout, but still nothing.
After knocking one last time, I decide to leave.
As I’m taking my way back home, I recognize a familiar figure.
“Hey Mike! I’ve been looking for you.” I scream as I walk faster to catch him.
“What do you want Ashton? I’m tired of your apologies.” he says.
“But, I really need to talk to you.” I tell him, but as always he refuses to listen.
He turns away, and walks to the opposite side of the road.
“Stop avoiding me, Mike.” I shout.
“And why should I do that?” he asks, as I’m following him to whatever he is going to.
“Because,” I start saying but then, I realize that we’re outside of the park; and it’s full with people.
“Because I want to tell you something.” I say under my breath.
“Like what? What do you want to tell me?” he asks with an unemotional look in his face.
“Let’s just go somewhere else.” I say.
“No,” he cuts me off. “If it’s anything you want to tell me, tell me here.” he says with a sigh.
I don’t say anything at first or make any move. I don’t know how to start.
“I’m so sick of this hide and seek, Ashton. I am done.” he adds while he’s ready to leave.
“Don’t go.” I yell, but Mike doesn’t stop.
“Mike, please. I’m in love with you, okay?” I scream without even thinking.
Mike finally stops and turns around, while looking at me with wide eyes.
“Is that what you wanted to hear?” I yell once again. Many people must have heard me, but this time I don’t really care – for an unexplained reason.
“Because, here’s the truth Mike. I can’t stop thinking about you. I have this strange feeling inside my stomach whenever you’re in my mind. And I never really thought that I could ever feel like this. All because of you.” I say; all those words that I wanted him to know. This time, without screwing up.
Mike doesn’t respond, and instead he starts walking closer to me. He brings his hands close to my neck.
His lips, red; looking so soft like they’re begging for my kiss.
Eventually, our lips are pressed together. We don’t say anything, we don’t even care if people are watching.
His one hand is still on my neck, with his fingers playing with the ends of my hair; while his other hand is around my waist, keeping us close to each other. My both hands are just loosely around his waist.
This kiss really feels like forever, until we stop so we can catch our breath.
“I’m in love with you, too.” Mike says. His lips forming the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen.
Then, he starts giggling, “I never thought you’d ever say that.”
I nod and then look down. “I’m sorry Mike. Sorry for being such an ass. Sorry for ruining everything.”
“Hey, stop saying you’re sorry. It’s fine, we’re fine now.” he replies, but I keep talking.
“And most of all, I’m sorry for running away from my feelings. I didn’t want to face or admit the truth.”
Mike looks straight in my eyes with a small smile. “You just did now. And that’s all that matters.” he says before giving me a soft kiss on my lips. “Let’s go for a walk.” he says and pulls my hand to go with him.
He puts his arm around my shoulders as we’re walking, causing me to chuckle.
“People are watching us.” I say, realising that my cheeks are warm -and perhaps red.
“It’s only their problem, right?” he says with a smirk.
“Yeah,” I nod shyly.
We walk for a few minutes in silence; just observing the trees around us, the small fountain. Just appreciating our moment.
“I want you to know that I came out to Lucas and Calvin.” Mike suddenly says.
“Came out?” I wonder.
“Yeah, I told them that I am bisexual, they’re really supportive.” he replies.
“That’s nice.”
“Yeah. Have you talked to anyone about you? To your, -” he says and stops, like he doesn’t know what to say. But, I know exactly what he means.
“No,” I start. “I haven’t told anyone about me. I don’t even know who I am.”
“You’ll figure it out.” he says and squeezes my arm with his hand.
“I have to tell them about me; about us. But, I’m so scared of what they’ll think.” I say.
“I’m sure it’s going to be difficult for them, but they will support you and accept it if they really love you.”
I don’t respond, so I just move my head affirmatively. Mike pats my back while smiling at me.
I hope I won’t disappoint Ms Daria and Mr Roger. I have already been such a pain for them, since I got out of that orphanage.
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It’s been at least half an hour since I went home, and Mike to his.
Some time, my phone starts ringing.
“Hello?” I answer the phone.
“Ashton, good evening.” I hear Ms Daria’s voice say. “How are you?” she asks.
“I’m, -good.” I say sceptical.
“There’s something really important Roger and I would like to announce you.” she says, feeling her excitement at her voice.
“Oh alright, there’s something I would like to tell you, too.” I tell her.
“Okay, Ashton. You can come whenever you feel like . We’ll be waiting for you.” she says, and I’m sure she’s smiling right now.
“I’ll be there in a few minutes.” I say before we both hang up.
::
“I’m all ears. What is so important you want to tell me?” I ask impatiently, as soon as I step in Ms Daria’s house.
“I have to call Roger. We must tell you both of us.” she says and enters to a different room.
Right now, I’m so anxious. What is so important they want to announce me? And why do they have to tell me both of them?
Is it going to be something good?
Obviously. Ms Daria sounded so excited about it on the phone.
“Good evening Ashton. Have a seat.” Mr Roger says, as long as he enters the room with his wife.
I take a seat on their couch, while they do the same next to me. Ms Daria sits next to me, and then Mr Roger next to her.
Mr Roger holds an envelope.
“Ash, we know you since you were so little.” Ms Daria starts saying. “We watched you growing up, achieving so much.” she adds, and I don’t interrupt her.
“We love you like our own kid.” she says.
I don’t really know if I should speak, yet.
“And that’s why we want to be your legal parents.” Mr Roger finally speaks.
My jaw drops open. “What?”
“We hoped that you would agree.”
“Is this true?” I question.
“We didn’t want to upset you. We just thought that it would be a nice idea if -“
“It’s a great idea.” I cut Ms Daria off.
“Oh Ash, really?” she asks.
“Yes.” I say and fall in her arms, while she’s giving me her warm hug.
Mr Roger hugs us, too. “I’m so happy that you are positive about it.” he says.
My eyes start being watery, and before I realize it I cry of joy. “I can’t believe it.” is all I say.
Ms Daria squeezes my hands and then kisses them. “You’re my son.” she says with the biggest smile, and tears in her eyes.
“But,” I say. “Is that even possible? I mean can you really adopt me? Since I’m already an adult?”
“We thought about that, too.” Mr Roger replies. “But we searched about it. And we can adopt you, no matter how old you are.” he smiles. Then, he gives me the envelope.
I open it, and realize that there’s an adoption paper.
As I long as I sign it, I’m theirs.
“I’m so stupid.” I say.
“What?” they ask in sync.
“You were always there. I thought that I was alone and that I would never meet my parents. I never realized it since now. I didn’t have to see the papers to know it.” I say with a smile.
“What are you talking about, Ash?” Ms Daria asks.
“That you are my parents. You always were.” I reply.
Ms Daria drops some tears from her eyes, and wipes them with her fingers. She stoops down to give me a strong hug.
I can see from the corner of my eye that Mr Roger is crying.
I stand up. “I must stop calling you sir.” I say.
Mr Roger stands up to give me a hug as well.
“And I must call you son, more often now.” he chuckles.
I chuckle a little, too while I wipe the tears from my eyes.
“This is such a good day.” I say.
And I mean it. It’s so beautiful that I finally understood that I always belonged to somewhere.
I’m so glad that I have someone to call ‘mum’ and ‘dad’.
“Hey Ash.” Mum wakes me from my daydream.
Yes, I just called her mum.
“You wanted to tell us something, too.” she says.
Oh shit, they still remember?
“Yeah,” I stutter. “It’s serious, and we were so good at that moment. I don’t want to ruin that.”
“We can talk about anything, Ashton.” Dad ensures me.
Oh God, that’s so odd.
“Well, I’m going to say it right away.” I say and take a big breath before I spit it out.
“I’m gay.” I say and wait for their reaction.
Did I just ruin everything?
Mum is smiling softly at Dad.
“I did not tell her anything. I swear.” Dad tells me.
“Tell me what?” Mum wonders.
Oh God, is this really happening?
“I should have told you before.” I say. “But, I didn’t even know I was gay, until -” I stop to breathe. “I have feelings for Mike.” I admit while getting the biggest blush, that I could ever get.
They don’t say anything, which makes me even more anxious.
“I’m so sorry. I just ruined our moment, and I -“
“Ash, stop.” Mum cuts me off. “We love you, okay? Being gay won’t change that. We don’t choose who you’re falling in love with. And actually, love is not a choice but a feeling. And we love you Ash, no matter what.”
“Your relationship with Mike was so toxic. I hope you know what you’re doing.” Dad says.
“Yeah, I know we had some ups and downs but -” I say with a blush. It’s kind of weird to talk about how I feel about Mike to them.
“It’s fine. Do what your heart’s telling you.” he says.
I never imagined that I would hear those words from him, nor mum. They actually supported me. They didn’t judge me.
“Thanks for everything.” I say.
They look at me with their big smiles and nod.
“Mum?” I ask. When she hears that word she smiles even wider, and her eyes are teary.
“I wonder if I could work at the orphanage.” I say.
“But, why?” she asks.
“I don’t know. I just want to go there, and see the kids and help them. And just remind them that they’re not alone. I really want to be there for the kids.” I answer.
“That’s a wonderful idea, Ash.” she says.
“That means you won’t come at the library again?” Dad asks.
“Uhm, I don’t know. I’ll come whenever I can.” I say.
“It’s fine. You should go to the orphanage. You would do a better job there. You’re doing a lot better with little kids than teenagers.” he chuckles.
“That’s true.” I agree.
“Oh, ” I remember. “Mike’s band also want me as their drummer. I don’t even know what to do.”
“Seems like you have a lot of jobs you need to choose.” Mum says.
“Yeah, speaking of Mike. I can’t wait to tell him the news.” I say.
“Of course. And tell him that he’s always welcome here. I’d like to meet him better. I think that I have misunderstood him.” Dad says.
“I’ll tell him.”
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*next morning*
To !mike! : ‘something really important for me happened yesterday’
From !mike! : ‘like what?’
To !mike! : ‘ah i cant tell you through the phone, can i come to your place?’
From !mike! : ‘dude i just woke up’
To !mike! : ‘i’m coming’
From !mike! : ‘you’re impossible’
And with that, I just put on my black jeans, a shirt and my shoes and head to his house.
It’s not that I just want to tell him the news. It’s also that I want to see him. I want to see his eyes, his smile, and hear his laughter.
I hate to sound so goofy, but that’s how I feel now and I won’t deny it.
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After knocking on Mike’s door for five times, he finally answers it. He’s only wearing a shirt and his boxer. His purple hair looks so messy, but of course I don’t mind.
“Will you come in, or you’ll keep staring at me?” he says sleepily.
“No it’s just, how can you still look good with such messy hair?” I ask.
Mike just chuckles and closes the door, as long as I come in.
“So tell me,” he says while we’re going to his room.
I take off of my shoes as we both lay on his bed.
“Ms Daria and Mr Roger are, -” I start saying. “They’re my parents.”
“What?” Mike asks like he didn’t understand.
“They adopted me. I’m officially their son.”
Mike’s mouth is open.
“That’s amazing.” he screams and squeezes me so hard in his arms. “I’m so happy for you.”
“And I told them about the other thing, too.” I say.
“What other thing?” he asks, and I give him a look.
“Oh, you told them you’re bisexual?” he says.
“No, I told them I’m gay.” I correct him.
Mike smirks at me. “Cool.”
Then, he gives me a kiss. I longed for his kiss, and finally our lips met together again.
But, this time it feels different. It’s more passionate. His lips move so fast, and I’m trying to keep up with him.
His body has turned to me, and he lays on top of me. His whole body starts rubbing on mine, and I want to feel him all over me.
His lips move down to my neck, making a moan come from my mouth. I can feel his lips forming a smile while he keeps kissing my neck.
My hands move to his shirt until I finally take it off. He looks at me with his smirk, until he decides to take off of my shirt, too.
He continues kissing me, with his hands all over my chest.
While we’re still kissing, I just can’t resist the urge to take off of my jeans. As soon as they’re on the floor, Michael’s body feels closer to mine.
This time I hear him moan my name. “I want you so bad.”
I don’t answer him with words, so I just continue kissing him.
I can feel his hand going inside my boxers, and then taking it off. He manages to take off his, too; before I do it.
At this point I can’t really help the amount of my moans, so I don’t try to hold them back. Mike now starts moaning really uncontrollably, as well.
At first, his hand are caressing my entire body and he manages to kiss me cheek. “Do you really want this?” he asks in a really turned on voice.
“Oh shut up, and let’s just do it.” I say, making Mike giggle a little.
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-MIKE-
He’s so damn beautiful. He’s even more beautiful while he’s sleeping. I can’t believe what just happened a few hours ago.
That was so marvelous.
I never thought that he could ever moan like that.
And now, I just can’t take my eyes off of his sleeping face, and playing with his messy long hair.
Finally he starts moving, until he opens his eyes.
“How long have you been awake?” he asks with a sleepy and deep voice.
“For a while.” I answer. “You look so peaceful when you’re sleeping.”
“Well, of course since I’m sleeping.” he says sarcastically.
“No, I mean it. You’re so beautiful.” I dare to say.
Ashton blushes. “Thanks. You know I really liked it today.”
“I know right? I loved it.” I say.
“Yeah, well … ” he starts saying nervously. “I want to tell you that, tonight was first time.”
“Yeah, mine too. I’ve never done it with a guy before.” I say with a chuckle.
“No, I meant first time -ever.” he says all serious, making me quiet.
“Really? But aren’t you like twenty?” I ask.
“Yeah? You forget about the fact that I spent nineteen years inside an orphanage.” he says.
“Yeah, you’re right. Sorry.” I say and caress his cheek with my fingers.
“So?” he starts saying, while resting his hands on his elbows. “What would you think if we would play some music together later?” he asks.
I look at him with an excitement. “Like in a band?”
“Maybe.” he raises his shoulders.
“Of course, Ash -Ashton.” I try to correct myself, and give him a kiss.
“Call me that.” Ashton heads back to avoid my kiss.
“What?” I ask him.
“Call me Ash if you want.” he says.
“Really? Can I?” I question as I know that this is a really sensitive thing between us.
“Sure,” he replies.
I give him a soft smile, and now he finally kisses me back.
“I’m so glad you fought with me that day.” I whisper through the kiss.
“What?” he chuckles.
“If you hadn’t noticed that I was staring at you that day, we wouldn’t be doing this right now.” I say. “So thank you for fighting with me, and thank you for having all these countless fights and misunderstandings, because maybe now we wouldn’t even be talking to each other.”
“Thank you for helping me find myself, Michael.” Ashton tells me.
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and there you have it. finally an update. it took longer than i thought but i hope u liked it. i didn’t make it smut because i didn’t want it to be rated r
its the final chapter, but wait for an epilogue, too/
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