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Cameron’s p.o.v
Slowly opened my eyes adjusting to the light. Well burning my eyes in my own words.
“Morning prince” Isaac said while handing me a cup of something.
Rubbing my eyes tiredly then grabbing the cup with a yawn.
“Well that’s adorable.” he said walking out of the room.
The room was quit after he walked out to god knows where. Last night was actually one of the best night in my life. Everything went by so fast that it toke me till now to start smiling like an idiot.
Just in 3 days I’ll be getting top surgery done. Started T last night an woke up with the one who made it all happen. The one person I couldn’t thank enough for him being in my life. Didn’t know wither it was someone who made us like a God or something but I just simply thank everything that made me met him. If I didn’t meet him I would probably never have started my adventure of getting the body that I’ve always wanted. A body to show who I actually am. What I’ve always been.
An Isaac made this all happen. Gosh I don’t think I could ever love someone as much as I love that kid. Love is still hard to understand in many ways But all I care about it that I’m in love with Isaac and he’s in love with me. That’s the best thing about everything.
“Why you smiling like that? I mean I love your smile and everything. Just you never smile much.” Isaac appeared out of no where.
I pushed myself off the bed to where I was standing put the cup on the dresser next to the bed an went over to him an basically jumped into his arms. He was shocked or something at first because he didn’t hug me back then he did.
“Oh Isaac I love you so much I hope you know that. I’m so glad I have you in my life” I hugged him tighter.
“I love you too my Prince. But what’s got you in such a happy mood?”
“The point my life is starting to look good. Oh thinking of stuff I have to take my meds. Where’s my bag pet?”
“Pet. Still have to remember that means love Or hun in some slang. But its in the bathroom.”
“Okay thanks.” I kissed his cheek an walked to the bathroom.
Dug threw my bag finding all my pill bottles. Ant-depression some bipolar meds an another one for the voices. You see here before I was put down to level one I told Carrie about the voices. She got away with taking me to get help with it an got me pills to help me. Another reason why I was out of it for a few weeks they were the only pills I was taking while I didn’t take the others. The voices went away well sorta I still hear some of them randomly. The pills don’t fully work for me yet. but the depression was still bad since I wasn’t taking all of my pills that I had to. Carrie is a sweet lovely girl, some days I loved her some days I just wanted to rip her vocal cords out.
She was like my other best friend while I was there next to Conner. She went all professional on me a lot of the times but that just made it easier for us to get through something. Like when I was feeling bad or like gender dysphoria she would talk to me as a best friend then get all consular on me. It was funny. She had two sides the normal life caring about friends an the professional side. I don’t know witch one I actually liked better but I just liked her for being there for me in the time of need.
After awhile I stopped blaming Noah for everything he was just trying to get me help so I wouldn’t go off the rails again. If anything I blame my parents for how I turned out. They were the ones who mixed their genes together an made a kid with so many mental problems. Some days I wish my mother never met my father. He latterly destroyed my mother from top to bottom. Now she’s crazy an doesn’t know when to stop.
My aunt once told me stories about how she was when she was younger. She was a quite sweet girl that loved absolutely everything didn’t judge people an she wasn’t violent. My mother once dated a transgender as like myself. He was perfect for her my aunt said but then my mother seen him. The sperm doner of mine. She was hooked on him she watched him talked to him an everything changed her style to his liking did everything to get his attention.
Wonder what the dude she was dating name is?
Sometimes I wonder why she trys to change me from what I am. She once dated someone like me. But yunno she’s complicated like that. Everything about her is complicated nowadays.
Isaac was the only person out of my life right now that made any sense he was kinda easy to figure out sometimes. His love for me shows in his eyes when he looks at me. Elliot once told me when we state at each other we have that like look in our eyes that says we love the other one more then anything else In the world.
There was a knock on the bathroom door scaring me a little.
“Is everything okay in there Prince”
“Yeah I just got to thinking. Be out in a minute.”
I toke my four pills an put my binder on. Looked like I had no boobs yes. I high fived the air for some reason.
That stupid smile was still on my face when I got downstairs.
“Yeah everything’s fine Mom.”
“Cameron sorta lives with me now.”
“DUDE WE HAVEN’T EVEN HAD SEX YET OH MY GOD MOTHER SHUT UP”
I bersted out laughing while he looked over at me with a disproving look.
“He just got downstairs.”
“Yes were good and no Plam is still at school”
“No she still haven’t talked to me”
“Okay bye I love you mom”
Isaac hung up the phone looking back over at me.
“You know your adorable with bed head”
My cheeks warmed up. It wasn’t normal for me to blush it was always Isaac blushing. But oh how the table have turned.
“Oh my. Look at what we have here. Cameron Blue Vince is actually blushing. I’ve accomplished something” He fist bumped the air.
“God your so weird. But I love you anyways”
“And I love you too my Prince. Also we might have company soon”
I walked up to him hugging him. I loved his hugs they seemed to make me all happy an fuzzy love feelings. They were as amazing as kissing his lips were.
“Asshole. Did Alex tell everyone?”
Still wasn’t going to let what happened yesterday go away. He knew what he said he knew what he did. Now he just has to suffer the consequences.
“Yes he did. Are you still calling him that though?”
“He knows why. Just leave it alone”
He just nodded his head an then the doorbell rang.
“OH WHERES MY DEAR BLUE BOY”
“Conner?” Isaac an me said at the same time.
“YES. now if you don’t mind me im ganna open this door now.”
He soon appeared in the kitchen where we were. He had a black eye an a few bruises around his arms.
“Shit Vince did I do that to you?”
“No. You barely even touched me remember?”
“Oh yeah because you pinned me to the ground. Didn’t know you could be so violent.”
‘violent’ that word kept going through my mind making me shiver. Was I violent? Was I like the old Alex? Did I become a hypocrite?
“Oh Camie I was Just surprised at your strength. Your not a violent person really Just when you need to be you are.”
“So I see you to are okay now.” Isaac said trying to join the conversation.
“I guess. But wait how are you even out of the hospital?”
“Carrie got it to where I was let out earlier. And I came here because your actually the only person I really know”
“So what do you say Love bird’s can I stay here till I find a home”
I looked up at Isaac wondering what he was ganna say. He wasn’t to fond of Conner at all ever since the kiss. But then Isaac isn’t that mean of a person to do that to someone. What was he ganna do?
“Sure. Just no kissing my Prince”
“Oh trust me my dear Isaacbear your precious little Prince here is all yours I don’t want him anymore my eyes are all over Ryan Mr.Hotstuff.” Conner licked his lips as he said Hotstuff.
Lets just say I almost threw up because of the thought of just no.
“Good then you can stay as long as you need. No one really lives in this house anymore.”
“Anyways. Could you to stop being all lovely dovey and hangoutttttt with me. I haven’t been out in the open like this in yearsssss”
“Sure let’s go ring up the crew.”
“Okay” I walked away from the kitchen to get ready to hangout with people for once.
That was both me an Conner’s day of being free in awhile. Well more of Conner’s then anything.
“They’re all coming and Della is to she got the today pass.” Isaac yelled to me.
Got dressed clean up brushed my hair. By the time I was done everyone was in the car waiting for me.
Today was ganna be a good day.
I hope.
Isaac’s p.o.v
The park was okay. Besides the fact it was cold as can be out today.
Conner and Cameron seemed to be loving the outside. I mean they were cupped up in a building for months days. Conner was in there for years.
Cameron was happy you could tell. His smile never left his face his dipoles showed. He was wearing a pierce the veil jacket with a black bennie black jeans and black vans. He almost never weared colored cloths.
Right now he was runing around the slide trying to get away from Conner. I think they were playing tag or something I don’t really know. I’ve been sitting over here watching him have fun.
“So he’s actually out?” Xanders voice appeared by me.
“Yeah. He’s been really happy. I mean who wouldn’t with the birthday present I got him”
“His birthday isn’t till the end of next month.”
“I gave him the first part of his present. Its a two parter. He gets the first half of the second one on the third.”
“Whats the whole present?”
“That’s for him to say if he wants to. Not mine”
“CAMERON” He yelled for Cam making him stop what he was doing causing him to fall down.
He pulled himself up and walked over to where we were sitting.
“Any particular reason you called me over here making me fall on my ass Alex?”
Xander cringed at the name.
“Please stop calling me that Cameron.”
“Tever. Now what did you want?”
“What did Isaac get you for your birthday. He wouldn’t tell me He said it was up to you”
“Oh. Well the first one was testosterone shots” Xanders eyes lit up as Cameron began to smile. By this time everyone was listening the the conversation.
“The second one is the surgery witch I get top surgery done the third an we haven’t made a set date for the bottom half of me.”
Everyone gasped.
“You really did that Isaac?” Noah asked.
I just nodded in response making Noah hug me.
“Thank you for being there for my brother. He deserve the best” he pulled away.
“SO YOUR GOING TO ACTUALLY BE WHAT YOUR MIND HAS ALWAYS THOUGHT. OH DEAR IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU BLUEEE COME HUGGG MEEE” Cameron went over and hugged Conner.
Conner and Xander were probably the most hyper people I have ever met in my lifetime. Don’t know weather it was a bad thing or if it was a okay thing.
“Congratulations Cameron.” Xander finally said.
Noah Della and Conner were hugging Cameron to death.
“Okay okay I needs to breath you three.”
They all let go of Cameron. Cameron looked around for something.
He walked over to Blake who was sitting at the other end of the playground. Bent down to where he was looking into his eyes.
Cameron was taking to him and he was responding. This was the first time they actually talked together since that day at school.
“Wonder what they’re talking about over there.”
I shrugged. I didn’t know nor did I care I was still mad at Blake for everything he did to make Xander and my life a living tell while Cameron was in a coma for months.
How could I forgive him so easy?
“Oh look they’re both walking over here. Man this reminds me of school when he first came to school looking like a boy. They were always together never separated. I wish I had a friend like that”
“You have me you Asshat”
“Oh yeah I forgot you were real.”
I punched his arm but not to hard and not to light.
“Asshole” he muddered.
Cameron walked back to where we were. Blake wouldn’t look up at anyone and he stood there awkward.
“Stop being so closed up Blake. Your fine.”
Cameron lifted his chin up to where you could see his face. He didn’t meet anyone’s eyes though he just looked out to the open.
Cameron sighed sat on my lap while Blake sat down where he was sitting.
This wasn’t normal for Blake to act like this. He was a really upbeat person was talkative to. But here he is right now looking down at the ground ignoring everyone. Why’d he even come if a was going to be like this?
“This isn’t the usual Blake. I miss the old one” Cameron whispered into my ear.
“I don’t think he’s ganna be okay around is since I still haven’t forgave him yet” I respond
“Why not?” He questioned.
“Because. He used to latterly beat me endlessly. Make me do his homework completely ignored me for days when I needed support. He became a ass and I don’t think I could ever actually forgive him. Well not for a long time at least.”
“Yeah understandable. Just kinda miss the. Oh never mind it doesn’t matter” Cameron said as he sat up.
He walked over to a tree and sat down pulling out his phone to listen to music I’m guessing.
“He didn’t seem to happy about what you said” Xander said.
“Well it isn’t my fault Blake became an asshole and beat me half the time. But you forgive him in a blink of an eye. Oh I’m sorry I can’t forgive something that never happened to you” I became angry.
It wasn’t really my fault what happened it was Blake’s. He did this to himself. Then Xander forgives him to quickly. I mean he never got touch or yelled at really like I always ended up getting.
“What do you mean never happened to me?”
“You never for touched or even Yelled at you to be exact. I always the one getting punched in the face randomly while you just stood there watching doing completely nothing. So guess what I can’t forgive the freaking asshole for everything he did to me. You on the other hand of course you would forgive him with blink of a eye. Have fun with him.” I said in a angry tone.
Everyone was listening to out argument. I couldn’t stand this anymore. So I just got up and walked away without caring what happened next.
Cameron’s p.o.v.
I wasn’t so much mad at Isaac I was mad at myself for basically making them all like this. That turned out this way because I was gone. Now Blake’s being quite it’s so fourine to me with how hes acting now. Its just not him an I don’t like it.
Isaac on the other hand. I could careless if he forgave Blake or not as long as I don’t have to pick sides I’ll be fine. It’ll ended badly if they all make me do that. I’ve thought about it if it came down to that. Don’t really think I could choose one over the other. Probably just end up choosing neither an leaving.
Right now I was Just listening to music while the others did well I don’t know I didn’t really care. Well that was until Isaac started walking away. Why the hell is he leaving? UGH. I leave for one fucking minute an they make my boyfriend pissed off or something.
I stood up walking behind him I wanted to know where he was going before I interrupted his little walk off from people.
He continued to walk as I continued to stalk. That rhymed heh. He basically just walked into the woods somewhere into the middle of it where there was a lake waterfall flowers an shady. Gosh it’s beautiful. Maybe I accidentally gasped a little causing Isaac to turn around to see what it was.
Me being a sneaky little Shit I am hid behind a tree slowly making my way behind him while a frog kept hopping by me every steep I toke. Damn frog ganna blow my cover. Sooooo just wanted to scare the Shit out of him right now. An I had a chance so ima do it.
Slowly an quietly walked up behind him then HATA. Jumped on his back.
“HATA I DID IT. FUCK YOU FROG I ACCOMPLISHED SOMETHING TODAY!”
“Yunno I almost punch you in your face Cameron” He said in a annoyed tone.
Shit…I’m just making everything worse.. Fuck..
“Oh. I’m sorry. I’ll just um. Get off your back an like get a life.” I said shyly.
“No don’t. Your fine. I’m just a bit angry that’s all.”
Still jumped off of his back. Grabbed his hand an pulled him over to a rock in front of the waterfall. An sat down.
“Sit” patting the spot next to me.
He looked at me with a expression I could really read. Kinda scared me in many ways. But he sat down next to me anyways.
“What go you in a angry mood pet?”
“Everyone.”
Okay that kinda hurt. What did I do.. Probably just being annoying. Fuck..
“Oh. I’m sorry.” I looked down.
“Well not really with you. I mean it seemed like you didn’t like that I’m not forgiving Blake so like yeah. Me and Xander had a fight before I walked off”
“Truthfully Isaac I don’t care what you do about that. Forgive him or not I don’t care. As long As you too don’t make me pick sides do tever you want to with that relationship. I walked away because sometimes I just need some alone time. I’m still not used to a lot of people being around me. Kinda scares me.”
“Okay. I’m sorry.”
“Why?”
“Assuming things. Then yelled at my only best friend I have left.”
I put my hand over my heart acting like I was hurt by that comment.
“What about me. Glee thanks.”
He laughed. An it we the most beautiful sound I have heard in a while.
“Your my boyfriend. I was meaning friend wise.”
“I an be your boyfriend an your friend bish. IM YOUR TEVER YOU WANT ME TO BE. MY WISH IS YOUR COMMAND AN HATA. I’ll even become a frog for you.”
“Wanna do something for me?”
“Yeah sure. What is it”
“Kiss me. I’m lonely.”
Couldn’t help but laugh or more of a giggle but still.
“That’s attractive my Prince. But my lips are getting really lonely over here.”
“Keep talking like that an I won’t kiss you. Ya asshat”
Still kissed him anyways. It was probably the most romantic thing ever. It want dark or to light Sun shined on is in different areas making is look like we were glowing with love or something. On a rock in front of a waterfall. It was what I like to call a beautiful lie.
But this wasn’t a lie it was love. It was our love.
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