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I’m sorry if this chapter is a bit crap but I’m fighting a large case of an illness that we writers call writer’s block, so I’m doing my best to fight it!
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Love
Fighting Depression
Chapter 12
A Break
~{</>}~Eden~{<\>}~
Sleeping was not entirely peaceful, I was back at the mansion, but the guy, Azure, was not there. Instead Auburn was here, dressed in a fancy red dress and black heels, looking at me curiously.
She just stood there, eating a sandwich, staring at me as if I was some sort of exotic animal. She was just getting on my nerves. I DID NOT WANT TO GO HOME TO DEAL WITH A CRAZY GIRL.
I sighed and slumped in the magical appearing bench I made. It’s my dream, if I want a bench I get a bench, it’s the least thing that can happen in my life.
“Why you just sitting there?” She asked through a mouthful of bologna, I gritted my teeth at the annoying voice she exhibited. I really wanted to slap this girl.
“I’m waiting,” I said through gritted teeth, she noticed and shrugged. She sat down next to me, putting her elbow on my shoulder, I glared at her.
“He’s not here you know, he went off somewhere,” she finally said after about an hour.
“And you didn’t tell me until NOW?” I asked, my voice continuously getting louder, she looked at me with bologna hanging out of her mouth, “Yep.”
The piece of meat fell on me and I just about had it, “FUCK YOU AUBURN!”
I slapped her and I was zipped back to reality. I woke up with a start, the warm body of another next to me, who was this? I turned slowly to see none other than Jay, but his appearance was of course unexpected, so I screamed and flew off the bed.
“What the fuck!” I yelled, my back sore from the fall, he ran over, “Oh my god I’m so sorry!”
He helped me up and I saw his face, he was about to start laughing, that little-
“Get ready, we’re going on a date,” he said quickly before rushing out of the room, he leaves before he can feel the wrath of Eden?! AGHAST.
Wait a minute, a date? Did I agree to this? I don’t know, but as long as Jay will be happy about this, then I’m fine with it, as long as he doesn’t take it too far.
I changed and walked outside, rubbing my eyes from the drowsiness I still had. Why did we have to go so early again? I mean seriously Jay, did you have to wake me up so damn early?
“Do we have to go so early?” I asked, irritated by his decisions, I mean I just came out of the hospital… FOR THE THIRD TIME. He grabbed me, picking me up and walked out the front door, I guess he doesn’t want to answer, WELL FINE THEN.
“I’m taking you somewhere for the day, decided you needed some time to relax a bit,” he said focusing his gaze on the road before him. It was quiet for a bit, before he asked nonchalantly.
“Who’s Auburn?” I flinched at the name, how the- Did he read- Damn it, I really need to stop talking in my sleep don’t I?
I looked out the window, the memory of Azure and Auburn was too fresh, they seemed to… Real to be real. I was beginning to think the worst, but I feel absolutely normal… I think.
“I… I can’t say,” I said quietly, he sighed and turned to me, I could feel his stare.
“Eden, if you don’t want to talk about things, just tell me. I will understand, I may have not been through things like you have… And I probably never will, but if you don’t, or can’t, talk about something, then I won’t bother you about it,” he said, and instantly I felt relieved again.
“Thanks, now where are we going?” I asked, breaking the tension, he smiled and said, “It’s a surprise.”
I smiled and said, “Please? Can I know where you’re going to take me for this oh so wonderful date?” I tried using my sweet voice, I swear if this doesn’t work I’m going to flip.
“Nope, you’ll see when we get there. Took me a good while to get this ready for us,” he said, smirking and facing the road completely again. HOW DARE YOU NOT TELL ME!
“Fine then,” I pouted, crossing my arms and turning towards the window, he chuckled and kept on driving. Have you noticed how fluffy clouds looked? And how pretty the sky is?
Well after noticing these simple things I started to drift off back to sleep, falling into my dream world again, at least this time Auburn the Crazy wasn’t here to pester me again. I was with Azure instead, who was just standing there drinking tea.
“Oh, youre here,” he said, smiling with a smile that reminded me of Jay’s, which scared me a bit. What is Azure doing with Jay’s smile?
“Are you real?” I asked bluntly, he almost choked on the tea. He turned to me and inspected me, I actually haven’t seen dream me yet, I was shocked by how battered and dirty I was compared to reality.
“You’re soul is so broken… I’m sorry,” he said as if everything that happened to me was his fault, how would it be his fault?
“Um, I kinda asked you a question, so could you answer it?” I asked, ignoring his previous comment, which was a bit weird.
“Fine… We, as in Auburn and I, are real only to you,” he said, thank goodness because that clears things up. He smiled weakly, “We’re kind of your conscious, I would say, except with the abuse you took in, you almost completely destroyed one section of your mind, the part where you keep all good emotions and feelings,” he said, he looked as if he was about to fall apart saying that.
“Okay? That… Kinda clears things up?” I said, he just sighed.
“Just follow your heart, and don’t follow the path of destruction okay? Do it for me, for us,” he said almost begging.
“Who’s us?” I asked, before I was ripped out of the world, leaving me with another question… GREAT.
“Come on, we’re here,” Jay said, opening my door and giving me his hand, oh wow what a gentleman. I took it and I stepped out, seeing the amazing surprise he set for me.
Classy Jay, classy. Bringing me to a fancy ass restaurant, eh? You’re lucky it’s spring break, means we can stay late. I smiled at Jay and he blushed, you little-
“Well, anyways before we actually go to the restaurant for dinner in like nine hours, I think we should go to an amusement park,” he said as he walked to me and put his hands on my hips, resting his forehead on the top of mine.
“Deal,” I smiled, and we headed off, holding hands, my heart feeling light but scarily pounding in my chest. His hands were warm compared to mine, pale and cold from the time in the hospital.
The time at the amusement park was fantastic, and when we got to the restaurant Jay made everything so… Perfect. I don’t know how he did this so well, he must like me a lot if he went to these extremities.
After stuffing myself full on an amazing assortment of foods and desserts… Mostly desserts, Jay drove me home, yeah we had gotten some odd looks by the way we acted towards each other, but who cares about that when you’re hanging out with the guy you want?
I finally felt like the looming shadow of death that had followed me for the last few years was finally fading away. I felt… Free, free from the horrors of my past. Relieved from the heart break. Healed from the abuse.
Jay dropped me off at home, walking me to the door before grabbing my cheek and pulling me in. Our lips crashed and I felt my heart explode, his lips were warm against mine and I had to say I felt a bit happier.
He pulled away before hugging me, he looked at me and smiled, “I’ll be back tomorrow, okay?”
I smiled and said, “Okay.”
I walked into the house, feeling giddy, something that definitely never happens. Everyone else was in their rooms, except for Kary, who insists I call her mum, but I don’t, because that would bring terrible memories back.
“Eden! How was your day with Jay?” She asked, sounding very happy that I actually came home safe and sound for once. Seeing smile made her jump and clap in glee.
“Jeez you act like a 18 year old girl,” I joked, she laughed and hugged me.
“I’m just glad that you’re finally putting most of this behind you. I still am sorry for everything, I failed you at about just every bad turn, and I’ve been such a crap parent and-” she was beginning to cry now, I hugged her back, resisting the urge to cry myself.
“I can’t even control myself,” she said between sobs, I just stood there, knowing that she had to get over it before I could actually speak to her. And in a few minutes she did stop, I smiled at her.
“Kary, you took me away from 4 years of torment, and that’s more than I could ask for, yeah things have happened, but I’ve been through worse remember? All I can ask for now is for you and the others is to stay strong for me. Things happen for a reason, and this is my life, if I don’t go through with it and hide, then I’m never going to grow up with the knowledge I need,” I said with words I thought I would never say. Come to think of it, that didn’t even sound like my voice.
“Alright, but I am getting Jay and Summer to watch you for me 24/7!” She announced after marching off to the kitchen.
I began to head up the stairs when Oliver showed up, looking solemn like Kary had.
“Hey, I’m… I’m sorry Eden, for all that you had to go through. I know I don’t interact with you like Kary but-” I cut him off, hugging him too.
“Shut up and hug me like you should,” I demanded, he chuckled and hugged me back. Good foster father!
“Same thing I said to Kary, now go!” I said in a joking commanding voice. I don’t care if you can’t talk to me much! JUST GO AND KEEP ME IN THE STUPID HOUSEHOLD!
Things were starting to get ridiculous, so I headed up the stairs, into my room, where Cylvia and Kaelen were sitting on my bed playing with… A… A cat.
Oh my god.
“I’m going to kill you two,” I said before screaming and running to them, hugging them both. Jeez, after all this NOW I GET THIS STUFF?! UGH!
“See, told you,” Kaelen said to Cylvia, sticking his tongue out at her. She just pouted and crossed her arms, but ended up jumping around with me. Kaelen just sat there like the loner he was, so I dragged him up to jump with us.
His face turned red and I sighed, sending out Cylvia so I could talk to him. Seriously I’m like the parent in this house. Just a bit more sad with all the things I’ve gone through.
“Look, Kaelen I-” I started, but he just covered my mouth his his hand.
“It’s fine. I’m fine. I just need some time to think before I really move on,” he said, still looking sad. I hugged him. Damn it Eden! Why do you do this to some people?! ARGH!
After he let go of me, which took a while, he smiled and said, “Thanks. Um, I’m going to go now, before Summer suffocates in your closet.”
I frowned at the last part, what-
“BOO!” She screamed, jumping out of my closet and knocking me down, Kaelen quickly walking out, as if Summer was crazy or something… She probably is.
“Heard you and your boyfriend had a nice date,” I flinched at the word date, and she frowned at me.
Then she suddenly remembered, making an “o” with her mouth, and she patted my head. As if a pat on the head would help.
My new cat leaped onto my head and curled up, making me look like I had a cat hat. Summer giggled and we talked for a bit, talking about what would happen next, how we would deal with the past and such.
“Don’t worry, everything has been fixed,” she assured, as if she knew something I didn’t. Because no one ever tells me jack shit, like literally, they could be having a court war with my old-
“Your parents won you know, they got your piece of shit family a crap load of shit, so they won’t bother you anymore,” she said, as if reading my mind… Wait they had been in a court war? Okay, I either forgot like the ignorant person I am or they really didn’t tell me.
At least there was one thing that happened that wasn’t going to cause me hell… Hopefully. Summer now was apparently staying for a few days because she has just dragged her suitcase out of nowhere.
“Surprise! Sleep over! Lemme go drag Cylvia’s sorry ass in here,” she said, skipping out the door to drag Cylvia’s poor butt here, poor thing. It has to deal with the attack of a Summer.
Cylvia, Summer, and I sat there, eating Nutella and Oreos and watching tv shows with hot guys, acting… Normal for once. Ignoring the fact that I’d just gone through about twenty thousand sharp needles in my life.
Everything was fine until I decided to go downstairs, finding the door open with a very unexpected person to be there.
I stared for a moment not able to put the pieces together, why was he here?
My thoughts were jumbled, before quickly turning into rage, destroying any hope for forgiveness.
“Get out,” I growled, he flinched at my anger. The amount of pain I went through, and he dares come here? HOW THE HELL DID HE GET HERE?
“Eden I-” I grabbed the nearest object, a very large workout ball and threw it at him. Screaming in a rage, I chased him out, off the property, becoming for infused with anger by the second.
I then proceeded to walk into the house again, slamming the door shut, locking it firmly, and walking upstairs, proud I had dealt with the situation properly. No cowering in a corner, no ignoring him, simply driving him away, with the force needed.
I found Cylvia and Summer passed out with Nutella all over their faces and Oreo crumbs on their shirts. I laughed and cleaned them up, putting them under the makeshift fort we created.
I sighed, trying not to laugh at the sight of them. Passed out by over eating oreos and nutella.
I decided to sit on the porch, walking out and shutting the door behind me. Wondering why he had come back, but quickly forgetting him. I have a choice to start over now. I have to start over now.
If I want to really start over, I’m going to have to forget, yes there will be times where the memories will set in and it will be too much to manage, but this is how I’m going to have to live.
Avoid anything that will remind of the past Eden, keep away from all that. Leave the path of destruction and enter a new haven. Give in to love, I could basically hear Azure speaking to me.
I sighed, sitting there, allowing the moon to comfort me. This endless war has not been with the people I have experienced, it has been with myself. My own mind had been raging with itself, these events only showed me this. I have to act on my own now.
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Eden sat there reviewing the life he had been given. Finally deciding his choice to stay and heal. Allow everyone into his once shut mind. After years of torment and abuse, all he needed to do is sit on a porch and think.
He entered the room again, calling Jay over, and kissing him when he arrived. Asking one question that would make Jay cry.
He said, “Jay… I love you, so I want to ask you a question… Will you be my boyfriend?”
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Awe, how sweet. But lol Eden asked Jay, not vice versa. Like what I had planned as I started writing this book.
Eden finally understands! As well as me! Wow, I never thought I would learn so much from writing a book on my own… This is the second to last chapter! Agh, I feel so sad finishing, but it must be done! I can’t just keep it going forever… Maybe… Joking, but anyways.
Hope you guys enjoyed, and be ready for the epilogue! I’ve had so much fun writing this and I hope you guys enjoyed reading it!
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