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I sat in the room with David. Listening to the machines around him tell me that he’s alive, he’s here. But he’s not. He’s not awake, not moving, not talking to me. I miss him so much, just the way that he would hold me. Speak to me. I don’t know what I’m going to do if he doesn’t pull through.
I stood up and stared out the window. Waiting, waiting for something to happen, a miracle. I need him, I can’t loose him this way. Kaydence had called the cops and I would have to speak with them and everything. I didn’t want too, I didn’t feel like it. Apparently they had arrested Ralph last night. I didn’t really see anything since I was in the ambulance with David.
“Johnny?” I turned around and Kaydence was stand there with a man in a tan suite. He had a clip board and a serious look on his face. He seemed upset but at the same time completely in control. I’m guessing he was the detective on the whole thing.
“This is the district attonery,…David’s Dad.”
I froze where I stood. I couldn’t really wrap the concept of David’s dad being here to interview me, David’s boyfriend. I just kept a straight face and tried to breathe but it wouldn’t come out. He didn’t change his facial expression at all. He point me to sit down in the seat by David’s bed and took a deep breath.
“I know everything, so don’t be nervous. I’m Mr. Navarrette. Nice to meet you.” He held out his hand and I shook it. I didn’t have that much strength but I tried hard to keep myself from breaking down. He opened his clip board and began writing some stuff down, even though he hasn’t even started asking questions. I grew more nervous and nervous the longer I had to sit here and wait to replay the night I wish I could just erase.
“I’m going to ask you a few questions. Just answer truthfully, your not in trouble.”
I nodded and he continued on. I really didn’t want him to but I had to. If it was going to put Ralph away it would make me feel a whole lot better that David woke up after the whole thing.
“What was David doing at your house that evening?” I felt my hands tighten and my throat grow a knot. I swallowed and began to explain. “It was a date, my dad was going to be gone for the weekend so I asked him to come over.” He started writing more things down. He didn’t seem to change expressions or anything. He seemed calm with the whole situation.
“How did Ralph kidnap David?” I cleared my throat. I don’t want to go any further. “David and I were laying down and he got up and ran out of my room. I followed him out and Ralph got ahold of him. He held a knife to his neck and told me if I did anything he’d kill him. I wasn’t going to let that happen.”
His facial expression changed, not so much but a feeling of relief I can only guess. He seemed content with my answer, like he accepted the fact that I saved him son. I guess this gives me points with the parents. But I really just need him to wake up. Just wake up David please.
“Last question,” he put his clipboard down. He closed it and set it down and crossed his leg. I stared at him and Kaydence seemed tense as well. “do you love my son?” I was taken aback by this. Was his father really asking me this? Right now? I felt tears try to form in my eyes but I pushed them back. “Yes, I love him.”
He took a deep breath and padded me on the shoulder. He smiled at me. “He’s going to wake up, I promise.” He walked out of the room with his clip board and the door closed. Kaydence had a smile on her face but I didn’t. I felt the tears come out. They just ran down my face, like racecars trying to get to the finish line. Kaydence walked over to me and hugged me. What am I going to do without him?
Kaydence dragged me down to the cafeteria in the hospital even though I don’t want too eat. How could I? “Please eat something, for David.” I ate an apple and sat there just depressed. I miss him so much, I just want to hear his voice. She looked at me worried but just ate. I wonder how she’s taking it so well, how can she act like everythings going to be okay when there’s a great chance nothing will.
We could love David at any second and she’s sitting here comforting me and eating. “How are you so calm about the whole situation?” I stared at her, I wanted a straight forward answer. She looked at me and a tear escaped her eye. She quickly wiped it and cleared her throat. “Your falling apart, someone has to keep you strong for when he wakes up. I know that your the only person he’s going to want to see as soon as he wakes up.”
I felt alittle better. She was being strong for not only David but for me. She’s truly a bestfriend to David. I sat here thinking, imagining his touch, his breath. Just the way he would hold me and calm me down. I miss him. I don’t know how many times i’ve said it and I’ll say it countless times till I get him back. I’ll give anything up to have him here and safe. I imagined his voice, the way it sounded.
A bunch of nurses began running out of the cafeteria and towards David’s room. Kaydence just looked at me, that would be a good sign to some people. I didn’t take it as one. As we ran closer and closer too the room I felt my heart enclose itself in a shell. I heard David screaming and grunting in pain. We pushed through the doctors and he was in pain, extreme pain. His screams were so terrifing, I just wanted him to be okay, I wanted to hold him and clam him down.
His face was red and full of tears, he couldn’t stop screaming. He looked around and saw the many doctor’s and nurses trying to calm him down and find out what was wrong. He kept screaming in pain and begging them to help him, to stop the pain. The doctor finally took a needle and gave him a shot. He quickly grew calm and silent, till he fell bad down and appeared to be asleep.
My face was covered in tears and I only felt pain strike through my body. What was wrong with him. Why is this happening to him? The doctors quickly but him on a transporter and started wheeling him to surgery. Something was wrong and they have to find out before he wakes up.
“What happened to him?! Someone please tell me!”
I was screaming and grabbing doctors and nurses but none of them would listen, non of them would answer me. One nurse pulled me into the waiting room and sat me down. She sat next to me and waiting for me to calm down. I sat there, numb and motionless. She looked down. “He’s going to be fine, they just need to stitch up his stomach. That’s why he was in pain.”
I saw Kaydence walk back with tears in her eyes and I hit the floor, I fell harder than I’ve ever fallen. I can’t find myself getting up, moving. What was the point of me being here if he was gone. The nurses can tell me what ever they wanted but I wasn’t going to believe them, not till I knew for sure.
After four hours of sitting her numb and lifeless. I wished my existence would fade if David would be okay. He could exist and be happy without me, but I can’t handle losing him. I don’t care about anything else but him, what good am I without him?
“David Navarrette.”
I looked up and found the strength to pull myself up. The walk over to that doctor was slow, life felt motionless and timeless. Nothing existed, nothing was real, this was just a dream.
Then everything sped up and I felt myself standing in from of the doctor. He looked at me and I nodded. He took off his hat and took a deep breathe.
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