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“He’s just fine. He’s asleep right now and when he wake up he will be tired from surgery.” I couldn’t believe it. My heart, my head, everything inch of my body was beaming with life at the thought of him waking up and being able to see him.
“I’m not going to lie, we almost lost him a good amount of times but he pulled through. Your lucky he’s a fighter.” David a fighter? Never, he can only love. But I guess I’m happy he fought through everything. He’s here and he’s okay and there’s no way I’m going to lose him ever again.
“Can we see him?” I asked with hesitation. I wanted to so badly but I had this fear of being told no. If the doctor where to deny me access to my love, i’d find a way to sneek in. My love, those words make me feel so happy inside.
“Yes, he’s back in his room.”
I walked back to Kaydence with the biggest smile on my face, when she looked up she wrapped her arms around me and burst into tears. “He’s okay, he’s really okay.” She kept saying over and over again. We made our way to his room and I didn’t want to grab the door knob. I didn’t want to open it, I really didn’t know what to be prepared for.
I turned the knob and walked in. There he was but it was different this time. He was laying on his side and there were only two machines in the room, one with a clear liquid in him and the other was a silent heart machine. It didn’t make the beep noises but if anything happened to him it would alert the front desk.
I walked in that stared at him, he was breathing and seemed uneasy in his sleep. My smile was as huge as ever, the anticipation of him waking up was going to kill me. I grabbed his hand, it was warm. I felt like the life had just come back into me, it was him. He was the one for me.
I kept thinking of those lame movies where when you’d kiss them they’d wake up but at this moment anything seemed possible and I wanted to try it. I stayed silent, nothing went through my mind. I leaned forward and place my lips on his as softly as ever. I kissed him once. I felt his lips start to move in sync with mine. A smile went across his face and I pulled back.
“I missed that.” He didn’t open his eyes, he was probably weak but he was awake, he spoke. I wanted to fall over and die with excitement but I remained calm. I couldn’t really speak, I just stared at him.
“I’m fine, you can touch me and talk to me.” I still couldn’t say anything I tried but there was just too much to say, too much to let out. I just wanted him to rest and be okay. “I love you David.” I managed to say the one thing that summed up everything. He smiled and sat up. He opened his eyes and the golden brown eyes I’ve missed for too long were stuck on me. He put his arms out, “Lay with me?” I obeyed like an excited puppy.
I sat next to him and he settled his face on my chest. I wrapped my arms around him gently and felt a tear leave my face and fall onto his. He looked up at me and smiled. I felt another tear fall down my face.
“I’m here now Johnny, the only thing I could thing about the whole time during surgery and while I was in pain was you. I couldn’t leave you here alone. I love you”
That did it. He hit that nerve that has been bugging me this whole time. He wiped away the tears and made everything better like he always used too. I didn’t lose him, I still have him. I don’t know what I’d do if I had lost him.
“Do you remember anything?” I asked hesitantly. He looked off into the distance thinking. His face went pale and he looked up at me. ” I remember everything…”
I quickly took him in my arms and just held him, he didn’t cry or let anything out. When I let go he had this look on his face, he looked like he was guilty, guilty for what? I was confused but he looked down and a single tear escaped. I wiped it away and went close to kiss him. “You don’t want to kiss me.” He pulled back. I felt hurt and he looked like he was going to cry.
“Of course I do.”
He just looked down. “Not yet.” I stayed with him in the room and just sat staring at him. We were silent for what seemed like forever but was only 15 minutes.
The door swung open and his dad came in. “How you feeling son?” I watched as David was confused but relieved that his dad had came in.
~David’s Point Of View~
I watched my dad walk in with a smile, he was happy. I know is was because I was okay, but I couldn’t help but see the hurt all over Johnny’s face. I betrayed him, I cheated on him… I know I was forced but I still look at it that way… Why would he want to be with someone who couldn’t fight for themselves.
“Your boyfriend told me what happened but I need to hear it from you. You are the victim.”
I nodded and then I felt my stomach flip, BOYFRIEND?! My dad….he knew?! How?! Johnny… Well if he was okay with it then I guess there’s no hiding it. I began to tell my dad what happend but when I got to the part where Ralph had me in his truck I stopped. I looked at Johnny who was staring at me. “Son you need to tell me everything if I’m to write a report.”
I nodded and grabbed his hand. “I’m sorry…” I whispered to him. I told my dad everything. “He kept kissing me and held me down. He told me that he had something better for me to do with my mouth.. I tried to escape but he.. he..”
Johnny’s face grew red, angry. Not at me, but at what I know was going through his mind. My dad had watery eyes but he kept writing everything down. I swallowed and continued. “He pulled out his, stuff…, and forced it in my mouth…and” I couldn’t stop sobbing. I felt my heart race and I could feel all the fear and pain that I had come back into my chest. I took another deep breath. “He had a camera and kept telling me to say things that I didn’t want too say and the last thing I said before Johnny showed up…was that I loved him..”
I cried my eyes out, everything hurt. The worst part was I felt like Johnny was going to leave, like he was just going to leave because that happened. I put my head down and waiting for the goodbye. Johnny picked my head up and kissed me. He forced his tongue in my mouth and I didn’t fight back. He didn’t leave me. I sat there breathless.
“We have the video, I haven’t watched it and I won’t. The doctors are going to release you in an hour.”
My dad walked out stunned. Tramatized. I couldn’t help but feel like it was all my fault.. “Johnny..i..I..-” He put his hand over my mouth. “shhh,” he looked down then back up at me. “I know it wasn’t your fault and I love you, I always will. Don’t feel sorry about anything.”
I felt relief. I burried my head into his neck and waited for the doctor to come in. I finally calmed down by the time he did. It was alot of time to think. The only reason I felt guilty was because I loved him. That’s the best part, I knew I loved him. He loved me and that’s all that mattered.
“Okay, Mr. Navarrette, your free to go.” They pulled out a wheelchair and Johnny wheeled me to his car. My dad had to go back to work and left me with Johnny. I felt alittle nervous about my dad knowing but its for the best. Atleast there’s no secrets now.
“My dad seems to like you.” I smiled at him. He smirked and went around and got in. “He told me that he approves of me because I pratically risked my life to save you. He thinks I’m a hero.” I looked at him and smiled. His facial expression fell and he turned the key in his car. As we were drving off I could feel that something was wrong.
“You are a hero. Your my hero.” I stared at him.
“I wouldn’t be a hero if none of this wouldn’t of happened. This happened because of me.”
I looked down. That was somewhat true but only to a certain extent. Johnny had no intention of getting me sexually assaulted or hurt. He didn’t plan on killing me or having his ex come after me. It wasn’t his fault at all and I felt bad that he thought it was.
“Your my hero, plain and simply.” I said and he smiled. When we got to my house I stepped out of his car but he ran around and stopped me from walking. “I can walk you know.” I said to him, he smirk and picked me up and carried me inside. I felt like such a girl and it was bugging me alittle. It’s fine though, if my man wants to carry me around so be it.
He carried me up to my room and laid my on my bed. I smiled at him and he closed the door. As soon as the door closed I sat up and walked over too me. For about two seconds, our eyes made contact and I could see the hunger in his eyes. The craving he’s been having. He kissed me and I pulled him forward on top of me. He kissed down to my neck and began sucking on my soft spot. I moaned and failed keeping it inside. He picked up my legs and I straddled him.
“Johnny..” I moaned out of breathe from what he was doing to me. He pulled off his shirt and mine. Our bare chest rubbing against eachother was so hot. He bit on my bottom lip and I let how a soft moan. He entered my mouth and I sucked on his tongue. I didn’t fight for dominace but I knew I had control. He pulled me up and I could feel his hard on from his jeans rubbing against my ass.
I moved up and down making friction between them. He let out a moan and pushed me down on the bed. I put my hands in his pants and grabbed his member. He moaned and bucked his hips. I smiled and pulled my hand out and pulled him down kissing his neck. I was in control now. I pushed him down and sat ontop of him. I pulled off his jeans and smiled. I’m a huge tease and he knew that, its a game of war with me.
He pushed me down and pulled off my jeans and claimed back dominace. He kissed me and began thrusting against me. I moaned and that drove him crazy. He started kissing down my neck, to my chest. He kissed all the way down to my stomach then stopped. I looked up and saw him staring at my bandage. The one that was covering my stab wound. He laid his head down on it and took a deep breath.
“I can’t do this yet…I’m sorry.” He looked up at me with tears in his eyes. I pulled him up and held him in my arms. It was getting late anyway so I threw our clothes off the bed and pulled a blanket over us. We held eachother trying to fall asleep.
I remember a song by Avril Lavigne, the artist I was obsessed with and I rubbed his back while I sang to him.
“Darlin, your hiding in the closet once again, start smiling.”
He tightend his grip on me and he stopped sobbing. He calmed down alittle. “I know your trying real hard not to turn your head away, pretty darlin, face tomorrow, tomorrow’s not yesterday.”
He smiled and that made my heart jump. He sat up and stared into my eyes. I couldn’t help but stare back. “Your voice is so beautiful.” I didn’t know what to say, I really just froze at that phrase. He wrapped his arms around me and closed his eyes. “Keep singing to me, please.”
I took a deep breath. “Pretty please, I know its a drag. Wipe your eyes and put up your head. I wish you could be happy instead. There’s nothing else I can do but love you the best that I can.” His breathing went calmer and he kissed me. I knew he was drifting off. Could my voice really calm him down that much?
“Darlin, I was there was awhile ago. I know that its hard to be stuck with people that you love, one nobody trusts.”
His breathing was completly calm. I closed my eyes and finished the song. “I just want you to know, its not your fault, its not your fault….”
We both drifted off and were fast asleep. “I love you Johnny.” I whispered and I was out.
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I did it! I finished this chapter O__O
If any of you are wondering, yes i have an obsession with avril lavigne and yes I can sing xD
The song is Darlin by Avril Lavigne.
Okay, so tragedy struck….the guy I based this story off of in my life, he has a boyfriend and has been leading me on… -____- yadayada. anyways! I’m trying my hardest to continue with this story becasue I’m so freaking hurt and over it xD
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