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I just stared at her as she continued to speak. I couldn’t help but trail off to thoughts of David. All I though about was taking car of him. Which in my case wouldn’t be so bad considering I was his bestfriend. I had kissed him but I might as well shrug it off.
“Johnny…I’m sorry. I don’t want to break up with you. Its just what I was told…”
I stared at her with hate. “You shouldn’t believe everything you were told.”
She started to cry so I took her in my arms. “I’m sorry Adrianna. Look something happened with David and I sort of need to take care of him.”
She looked at me worryingly then walked over to her car and drove off. I walked back towards David and Kaydence. David was still somewhat in shock. Kaydence just sat there holding him. Why was David even talking to Ralph? Why was Ralph even here? I couldn’t help but feel rage come over me. I looked straight at him.
“Why were you even with Ralph?”
“Joh-“
“I don’t wanna hear it. Why. Were. You. With. Him.”
He just looked down and started to tell me the whole story of what had happened this morning. Everything from Ralph adding him to the picture he had sent him. I sat next to him but I was still mad.
“You didn’t answer my question.” I said coldly. I didn’t want to be mean to him. I know that he just went through alot but I couldn’t help it.
“Johnny, I’m sorry. I didn’t believe it so I had to hear it for myself.”
I just looked at him in anger and walked away. I couldn’t look at him. I couldn’t admit to my stupid past or that I was even like that. I knew this much that I liked him and I didn’t just wanna leave him there but I couldn’t face what I’ve been trying to hide. I’m ashamed of being this way and what if my bestfriend stopped being my friend because of this? I probably already lost him….only because my ex tried to rape him.
I opened my door, got in my truck, and drove away.
~David’s Point Of View~
I watched him drive away. Tears were drenching my shirt and I just looked up at Kaydence who was fuming. “Can I say the night?” She nodded and walked over to her car. I swear everyone had a car these days but because I didn’t have a full license I couldn’t drive everyday. Not to mention Johnny was the one who drove me to school this morning.
“You know he’s just a douche who can’t admit to himself that he’s gay and wants your fine ass body.”
I looked up at her and busted out laughing. She had been going on about this for about an hour now and I found myself feeling somewhat calmed at the whole situation.
“Kaydence don’t be mad at him. Besides he’s not like that. He just cares for me okay. He’s my bestfriend, bestfriends do that.”
“Yeah, bestfriends also kiss you, hold you close to then, and storm off when he finds out you’ve been hanging out with his ex boyfriend. Totally bestfriend material.”
I just glared at her but I couldn’t help thinking to myself, why did he kiss me? Why did he even get mad…. If it wasn’t true then why did it even matter.
Me and him had been texting when he left about 30 minutes after Kaydence took me to her house. He tried to convince me it wasn’t true and told me I shouldn’t believe rumors and thats why were bestfriends. I decided to let it go. I couldn’t be that big of a deal and he was scared I could tell.
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For the next few days at school me and him didn’t meet up. We didn’t talk to eachother. He didn’t even sit at our table. He sat at Adrian’s. I felt so bad. Like I did something wrong… My bestfriend hadn’t even texted me after everything. People started to talk about everything considering Ralph had told everyone. I had a feeling Johnny only blamed me. Only me.
A few class periods went by and I felt sick. I didn’t wanna be here anymore. It was friday so I guess I can just suck it up and sit through the last three periods of school.
Just then I got a text from Johnny. FINALLY, I felt my body scream with relief.
-Meet in by the far bathrooms before the period is over.
Thats all it said. I didn’t reply and I asked for a bathroom pass and went to the far bathrooms.
I couldn’t help but keep thinking the whole time what could be so important. When I opened the message my phone a warning before showing the message. ‘This message is urgent and needs a reply’
I walked closer to the bathrooms and saw him standing next to the fountains. I walked alittle closer and he looked up and me and stiffened.
“Johnny.” I said trying to hold back all the pain i’ve been feeling. It hurts knowing your bestfriend won’t talk to you. Alot.
“David I don’t wanna hear it.” My hear sank. Far below from where its even been.
“What?” I managed to choke out in a confused tone.
“THIS IS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT. YOU COULDN”T KEEP YOUR DAMN MOUTH SHUT AND NOW EVERY KNOWS.”
“Johnny, What ar-“
“You know exactly what I’m talking about. Some bestfriend you are. I can’t believe you. Honestly.”
I felt tears come over my face. I didn’t know what he was talking about. I was so upset.
“Please explain…”
“Like I need to. Because of you everybodys been talking about me having a secret double life. I knew I couldn’t trust you. I’ve had to deal with it and try to clear my name. ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT.”
I just looked down and couldn’t find the words to say. I hadn’t said anything. Nothing. I haven’t even said his name. I felt my heart break alittle. I just wanted to run. I slide down the opposite side of the wall and started to cry.
“I don’t even know why your crying, you brought it upon yourself.”
He walked away from me and left me there. I couldn’t breathe and I didn’t wanna go back to class. I didn’t wanna be there and let everyone see me broken. I haven’t exactly been me the past few days. Knowing that my friends are protective of me, which is an understatement, I couldn’t let them see. I ran into the bathroom and spent about 15 minutes fixing myself before returning to class. Just one more period to go.
*DING* The final bell rang and I ran. As far and as long as I could. I ran out of the school and straight to the parking lot. I didn’t want to talk to anyone or even see Johnny. I had to get out of there. I turned on my car and drove off. Maybe I can just get home and sleep it off. One of the perks of having no homework.
~Johnny’s point of view~
*DING*
Finally I can get out of here. What a long day….
I walked out of the class and went straight to looking for Adrianna. By the time I had found her she was standing at the same place I had been standing when I bitched out David… I felt horrible for that and watching him cry was worse but hey he did it to himself.
“Johnny we need to talk.”
I went to wrap my arms around her but she pushed me off. She just looked down.
“Please let me talk.”
I gave her a worried look and just stood there waiting for an explanation.
“Are the rumors true?”
“Adri-“
“Johnny, I have proof now. I sort of want you to tell me the truth.”
“I swear if David has anything to fucking to with this..”
She gave me a confused look and continued to talk as she pulled out her binder from her bag.
“Why would David have anything to do with this? Me and him don’t even talk that much.”
What did she mean what does David have to do with this? He had told everyone, it was his fault.
“He told everyone those rumors.”
She looked at me again but this time serious.
“No he didn’t. Ralph did.”
“Ralph?”
I gave her a confused look trying to play it off but she didn’t believe me.
“Yes Ralph. He basically added the whole school on facebook and IMed everyone and told them. But yesterday he had sent me a message with a link. I didn’t wanna click but he said since your his girlfriend and only David had seen it to look. It was a picture of you guys kissing.”
I can’t believe this. David had nothing to do with it….I had basically disowned him for something he never did… Great. Just fucking great.
“Johnny I can’t be with you anymore.”
“What?!” I looked at her shocked but she remained straight face.
“You obviously are gay. err bi. But I can’t be with you. You lied and I can’t over look this I’m sorry.”
“Your…Your leaving me. Adri-“
“Yes I’m leaving you. Bye Johnny.”
She walked off and I just sat there wondering what had just happened. Within a matter of 2 hours I had lost my bestfriend and girlfriend. What am I going to do? I really hadn’t lost Adrianna as a friend but David….. Thoughts of him flew into my mind and I pulled out my phone. I went to him name and texted him the longest message in the world. I felt tears run down my face while I was typing.
-Recipient has Blocked all incoming texts from this mobile phone
He had blocked me…. I can’t believe this. I’d have the whole weekend before I could see him. Or even talk to him. I can’t explain myself and I can’t apologize. By that time I’m sure I’d have lost him…. I texted Adrianna.
-Hey…Your right about everything… can we talk about it? I sort need a…..friend.
I waited about 5 minutes and my phone buzzed.
-Sure, ill be outside the school in 5. and if im right about this then im right about you being in love with david. 😉
I didn’t reply. Was I in love with David? I got up and walked outside waiting for her.
Love. Did I love my bestfriend…..that I have lost because of my own fault..
“I’m sorry David…” I whispered into the wind.
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Worst chapter I’ve ever wrote D; aaahk. But it makes sense and im sort of really tired. I hadn’t slept the night before so SORRY! Next chapter will be better 😀
Some of you probably hate Johnny….But this had to happen. This is what Highschool does to friends. (Personal experience) -.- anyway….
ENJOY!:D
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