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Justin lay under his thick blanket not moving since he woke up an hour ago. He just got back from the hospital last night and he straight away went to his mother’s room. He couldn’t set his leg back to his room that has hold so many traumatize incident that he wish to forget. Pattie and Jeremy understand his situation and didn’t even question their son. Justin may be released by the hospital because his physical wounds are recovering but not mentally.
“Justin baby?” His concern mother enter his room slowly but Justin didn’t answer her and that make Pattie frown because she knows her son is up and she knows Justin didn’t really get a peaceful sleep. She make her way to his bed and pull out the cover gently not wanting to scare her son. Justin didn’t put up a fight, he just stared at the ceiling blankly. Pattie tried to smile staring at her son with love even though she could feel her heart breaking inside. “I’ve cook your favorite today. I know you must be really hungry aren’t you?” She frown more as Justin didn’t say anything. He used to get so annoyed when Pattie speak to him that way, it’s like his mom talking to a toddler.
Pattie wait patiently not wanting to pressure her son. Justin finally nod his head and got up from his bed slowly. Pattie smile holding his sons hand. “Okay baby, you go brush your teeth or something first alright. I’ll be waiting downstairs.” She said grinning slightly as she make her way out of the room. Justin sigh and made his way to the bathroom washing his face and brushing his teeth. He let a couple of tear slip as he watch himself in the mirror while brushing his teeth. He couldn’t believe what he’s staring at. He couldn’t even recognize himself anymore.
“How’s your food honey?” Pattie ask his son who was eating his favorite pancakes but not with his usual bubbly looking face. Pattie frown as she didn’t receive any answer. She took a seat beside her son. “Are you alright baby?” she ask softly. She thought Justin would just ignore her again but this time he shook his head but his face shows no emotion. Pattie sigh ‘at least he won’t lie about his feelings anymore’ she thought. She took his hand with her gently. “Why don’t we go and seat at the living room baby?” Pattie said knowing Justin didn’t want to finish the food anymore. He nod this time. Pattie walk her son to the living room and sat with him on the comfy sofa.
She looked at him lovingly. She didn’t even realize how much her baby boy had grown. Losing Justin for those horrible weeks was something Pattie never want to experience anymore. She misses him. Truthfully, she misses her son. Still am. She didn’t realize the tears that was escaping her eyes as she caress her sons face. “I love you so much, you know that..” she whisper suddenly. Justin didn’t respond as he was still trapped in his sorrow. “I wish I could take away all the pain you’re going through right now. I wish I could bring back those beautiful smile on your face.” She whisper again as she tried to hold her sob. “I’m sorry baby..” she sniffles. Justin couldn’t help but shed his own tears thinking he caused his mom to cry again. Pattie wipe away the tears on her son’s cheek.
“Just know I’m always here for you.” She said kissing his forehead. “Always.” And that all it took for Justin to break down in to sobs as he hold his mom closer, not wanting her to ever let him go again.
Justin POV
I stare at the TV trying to just get my mind of everything but nothing is even interesting on it anyways. I sigh for the 10th time today. After my breakdown in front of my mom yesterday, I’ve been feeling a bit better. She practically hold me for the whole day until I fell asleep. I felt so safe and loved. I know everyone around me is trying so hard to help me recover, trust me even I want to just move on from this nightmare. I miss performing and my beliebers but I also didn’t want to come outside. I’m not ready. Call me selfish but I’m just not ready to face anything that’s coming. I know the whole world knows what had happen to me and I just want to forget whatever had happen. I know a lot of them have their opinions and I don’t need all that.
I don’t even know when I will be ready to face the world again. I still get nightmares every time I closed my eyes. My body still feel disgusting and sometimes in pain. There still scars that haven’t fully recovered or some of them will never disappear and that will always be a constant reminder to those horrible memories. I’m glad that I’m safe though. I’m glad that I’m finally with my family and loved ones. I guess God give me a chance. He send an angle in the time I needed the most. Jason.
That thought brought a smile on my face. Jason. I never really talked to him after we were saved. But he’s always there for me. He would be at the hospital every day. But he didn’t come visit me yesterday though. That brought a frown on my face. Did he forgot about me already? Or did his grandparents didn’t want him to associate with dirty little slut like me? Maybe both. I started to think all these negative thoughts, I can’t help it. All of sudden I heard my mom yelled my name. “Justin honey, Jason’s here.” She yelled and seconds later she appear in front of me with Jason. Oh my, I didn’t even realize the doorbell. I look up at Jason and mom. Jason give me a small shy smile which I didn’t return. I don’t know what’s going on with me, it’s like I can’t even control my emotions anymore. It’s just numb. “Okay boys, I’m gonna continue with the laundry. So Jason, make yourself at home alright.” She said smiling widely at him. He just chuckle at nod politely. He made his way and took a seat on the couch beside me but giving me space.
My eyes follow his movement as he look at me with a smile on his face. I use to smile like that all the time too. “How have you been Justin? Sorry I didn’t come yesterday, my grandparents brought me shopping again.” He chuckle slightly. He bite his lip and scoot a bit closer to me. “Are you alright?” he ask and this time his voice was full of concern on sincerity just the way used to when we’re with Mark. I shivered at that thought. I look at his face who were waiting for me to answer him patiently. I nod a bit and look down at my hand. “You’re a bad liar you know.” He chuckle again. It’s kinda cute. What? Did I just thought that? I frown at myself. I guess he noticed that as he gently put his hand on my shoulder making me flinch a bit. I cant help it.
He retreat his hand and look at me with sad expression. “Sorry.. I didn’t mean to scare you.” He whisper. I shook my head. “Not your fault.” I said softly. He smiled at that. “What are you watching anyways?” he said turning to face the tv. I shrugged my shoulder. He shake his head chuckling. “Why don’t we watch some movie, I mean you’re probably bored to death now and I have nowhere to be anyways.” He explain as he stood up and went to look for some movies that we can watch. “Ho..how about.. your grandparents?” I stutter pathetically. “They made plans and besides I told them I want to spend time with you today and they’re fine with it.” He answered. “Do you mind with Titanic?” he ask turning to me and I just nod, don’t really mind. He put it on and came back and sit beside me. This is quiet peaceful and calm. Just me and a friend watching movie. Somehow I feel normal again but will that feeling stays?
Jason POV
The movie credit appear as the movie finally ended. That movie is somehow still make me emotional every time I watch. “Jus…” I stop myself as I stare at the beautiful boy beside me who had his head lie down on the head of the sofa but his body was sitting straight. He look uncomfortable. He might have neck pain when he wakes up. Suddenly he groan a bit and move his head a little and end up putting his head on my shoulder as he sigh in content. I froze for a second but smile looking down at him. He’s so precious. I let him be, moments later Pattie appear at the living room. She smiled at the site. “Why don’t you bring him to his room Jason? I mean if it doesn’t trouble you.” She softly. “Sure Pattie, bit wont he woke up if I move him?” I frown. She laugh a little. “Nope, he’s a heavy sleeper, I mean ..” she sigh suddenly as her face lose all her smile. “That’s how he used to be before …” she stop and I know she couldn’t continue. “Hey hey.. Pattie, he’s save now. I’m just gonna take him up okay.” I said softly as she smile and her eyes. “Than you so much Jason, you’ve done so much for us.” She said thankfully. I chuckle. “It’s nothing Pattie.” I said as I carefully cradle Justin in my arms. He was a lot smaller than me and he weight nothing. I frown at that. As I brought him in my arms, he immediately snuggle closer to my chest.
I awe at the site. I walk slowly with him in my arms and make my way upstairs following Pattie who was already leading the way. We passed a door that has ‘JB’ written on it making me look at them confuse. Isn’t that Justin’s room? I decided not to say anything as I just followed Pattie to the other room. She opens it revealing a very simple looking room, definitely doesn’t look like a young 17 years old boy room. “Here it is.” She said smiling at me. I nod giving her a smile and gently bring Justin to the bed that was located in the middle of the big room. He straight away snuggle to the pillow as I pull up the blanket to cover his fragile little body. I stare down at him admiring how content he looked. “He never wants to go back to that room anymore.” Pattie suddenly said making me turn to look at her confuse. Her face was sad and I know she was on the verge of tears. “I guess it happens in there too. How could I be… be so so stupid to not know about it, it happens in my own house and I didn’t even know about it..” she choke up holding her hand to her mouth as tears falls down her cheek. “I’m sorry..” she whisper as I was about to approach her. “I’ll be downstairs alright. Call me if you need anything. Just stay with him for awhile.” She said with shaking voice and closed the door. I sigh. Mark has not only broken Justin but his entire family.
I cannot imagine what they’re going through right now. I turn back to look at Justin and took a seat on the bed beside him. I stare down at him. His eyelid were moving indicates he was having a nightmare. Seconds later he whimpered in his sleep making me stroke his cheek softly. “Shhh.. Your alright..” I whisper in his ear. He open his eyes slowly revealing his red glassy looking eyes. I smile at him. “You’re okay Justin. You’re okay.” I told him softly. “Lay down with me.” He said above whisper. I smile widely and nod as I open my shoes and climb up the bed beside him. “Come here.” I said and open my arms for him. He shuffle slowly and put his head on my chest as he sigh in content. “Go to sleep now. I’m not going anyway.” I said caressing his back. And that’s a promise.
Hello Lovelies!!!
Omaigod Justin is finally 21 !!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN DREW BIEBER!
Do you hear me screaming??!! I still can’t believe our baby boy is officially a man now but who am I kidding, he’s still our baby. Hahaha.
I’m so glad that I stayed through all the bad and good times and it was worth it. What matters he’s happy and smiling and laughing. He deserve all that. I cant wait for what more to comes. Especially his music. WHERE ARE U NOW is just flawless and I love it so much!
Okay, I’m emotional now. Sorry. Hehehe.
Anyways, this is basically Justin’s birthday update and I know it’s not that long but this is like a filter. I mean, I wanna take Justin and Jason’s relationship slowly. It’s not just about their relationship but Justin’s recovering. Justin is obviously not stable yet.
Thank You for reading.
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Love you guys!
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