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“All right I’m sober, ready to go?” Silver asks as I’m standing alone and the party dies down, I nod and she asks “what happened out there with Damien?”
“Nothing we started smoking a second time but his friends called him and I haven’t seen him since”
“Damn I’m sorry Baz” she rubs my back
“No, it’s fine let’s go.”
Silver and I leave after she tells everyone goodbye, when we get to my house she slows down “think they’ll be mad you’re an hour late?”
“I don’t think so my mom already sent a long paragraph about the importance of curfew”
“Seriously?” She laughs
“Yeah” I take out my phone showing her, “I’ll see you Monday?”
Silver nods “thanks for coming with me”
“Sure drive safe ok?” We hug
“I love you Baz,” she says as we’re letting go
“Love you too” I get out of the car walking to my gate.
As I’m digging in my pockets for my keys I hear “hey” behind me
“Holy shit!” I jump quickly turning around “Damien?” It’s dark but I see him very clearly
“Sorry didn’t mean to scare you”
“It’s fine” he stands with his hands in his pockets “what are you doing here?”
“I don’t know” Damien shrugs “I left the party with the guys but didn’t really want to go home”
“Oh I waited for you at the curb, but you never came back”
“You did?” I nod and he looks away, I can tell he feels a little guilty. We stand outside in front of my gate and I have no fucking clue what to say, should I invite him in? Fuck just say something “why’d you stop talking to me?” He beats me to it
“What? You stopped talking to me”
“Because you ended things, I didn’t know I still could”
“Shit Damien, of course, you still could’ve talked to me, even if we’re not doing the other stuff we could still be friends.”
“That’s the thing Baz I don’t want to be just your fucking friend… but I don’t think I can get what I want with you.” Well fuck, what do I say to that? He looks so sad and cute
“What do you want?” He shrugs again coming up with no good answer, so I continue “look I’m sorry I ended things all right, I was mad at everyone for what happened and I thought ending it was the right thing to do because I never wanted to blame you for the shit Eddie did.”
“I thought you didn’t blame me”
“I did a little bit” I smile admitting, “but I’m over what happened”
Closing the space between us Damien slowly moves closer until his face is mere inches from mine, “are you over it enough to give me another chance?”
Nodding “yeah I am”
After I answer he takes it as an ok to lean closer, and as he is milliseconds away from kissing me Damien stops and asks “wait what about Eddie?”
“Fuck Eddie” I reply and he smiles then tilts his head bringing his lips to mine, standing outside my gate we kiss each other like our first time almost 2 months ago. Oh my fucking god I didn’t know how much I missed his lips, how easy it was for his hands to make their way to my waist and he pulls me closer leaving no space between us. The kissing becomes too good for both of us and Damien moves me against the gate, but instead of my back hitting the gate it hits the buzzer “shit” we jump. “Fuck that’s gonna wake them up” I start to panic trying to find the key to unlock the gate. Before I can put the key in someone buzzes me in “oh god” I sigh
“Ewan?” My dad walks out the front door in his robe
Quickly shoving Damien away so my dad won’t see him I walk in the gate, “hey dad sorry didn’t mean to ring the buzzer and wake you guys up” I apologize as I’m walking towards him.
“Don’t worry about it” we walk inside the house and I drop my keys by the door, “how was the party?”
“It was good”
“Did you have fun?” He follows behind me asking as I walk to the kitchen for a drink
“Yeah dad I did”
“Your mom’s kind of mad you missed curfew”
“I know I got her thousand texts about it, I just lost track of time”
“I told her you’re responsible not to worry, but you know how your mother gets”
“Yeah, she’s nuts.”
“I’m going back to bed, get some sleep all right”
“Night dad” he goes back to his room and I quickly take out my phone texting Damien asking if he’s still outside.
Waiting for a reply I leave the kitchen walking to my room, as soon as I walk in I find him already in there waiting. Quickly shutting the door I turn back to him smiling, “I forgot how much I hated that fucking tree” Damien says making me chuckle.
“You climbed it at night good job”
“It’s second nature by now” as we’re talking Damien and I take small quiet steps until we’re close enough. I know I missed him that was pretty obvious, but it didn’t hit me until this moment that maybe he might have missed me too. The way we just stand there and Damien rests his forehead against mine and I feel his fingers make their way through my hair, grabbing a handful he gently tugs it. As our lips are finally about to touch Damien whispers “you smell fucking awful” and I laugh pulling away
“It’s the milk” I walk away taking off my jacket, “I’ll change.” Damien watches as I take off my shirt throwing it in my laundry corner… never making it in the hamper, opening a drawer I pull out a fresh shirt. Bringing the shirt over my head I begin putting it on and even though I can’t see him, I hear Damien’s light footsteps moving closer to me. By the time I pull my shirt down completely, he’s standing next to me staring at me. “You know you can get comfortable too,” I say as I grab his hoodie by the shoulders pulling it off him myself.
Running his fingers against my neck Damien pulls me close, shutting my eyes I don’t respond until his lips touch mine.
I’ve kissed a total of 3 people my entire life, this boy in middle school which became the reason I knew I was gay, Silver who wanted to confirm the moment I told her I was gay, and now Damien. But I can tell he’s experienced I mean it was always obvious, the way his lips took control, how he isn’t afraid to touch me even though I’m always second-guessing what to do with my hands, and he’s just so smooth with it whether it’s kissing my lips or face and neck.
Making our way to my bed we lay on our sides facing each other never breaking our kiss, how’d I think I wouldn’t catch any feelings for this guy? Who the fuck was I fooling? Maybe it’s easy for him but I’m in way too deep and now that we’re back, I’m pretty sure I’m screwed.
“Can I spend the night?” Damien asks when we finally pull away and I lay my head on his arm
“Sure” he smiles at my reply.
My house is quiet and most of the lights in my room are off, Damien and I lay next to each other talking and he asks “did anything happen while I was gone?”
“Yes actually” I get up going to my desk grabbing my computer, sitting back in bed I open it and begin explaining. “I didn’t really have anyone to play with so I joined a COD online tournament for fun, and got second place on the first round.”
“No shit?” He sits up excited coming next to me to see the screen, “how many rounds?”
“5 and I’m only on the second”
“When’s the next one?”
Typing I look it up “next Wednesday, if I keep making it in the top 5 I could actually win.”
“What’s the prize?”
“25,000 dollars” I answer with a grin
“Holy shit!” He barks as his eyes grow
“Ssshhh” I cover his mouth signaling at my parents
“Sorry but I mean that’s a lot of fucking money”
“I know” I grin, “want to help me win?”
“Can I get 12,000 dollars if you win?”
Chuckling I reply “sure”
Damien looks at me not believing me, “you serious?”
“Yeah I mean I didn’t join for the money I was just bored, but if there’s a chance I could actually win of course I’ll split it with you.” After I finish talking Damien stares at me’ then I watch him take the laptop from me shutting it and putting in on the floor beside the bed. Pulling me to him Damien lays back with me on top of him and we begin kissing again.
Damien finally falls asleep after a while and I’m too freaked out to sleep, the first time a boy is spending the night in my bed and you expect me to sleep? Why do that when I can stare at how peaceful he looks, no toughness or excessive swearing just Damien Allen looking so fucking good sleeping next to me. In the midst of his sleep Damien reaches over pulling me to him by the hips and wraps his arm around my waist holding me against him.
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