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I wrote the prologue in third person then wrote the entire story from Baz’s POV so I’m sorry for any confusion that causes.
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“To commemorate us getting back together I’m going to do you a huge favor,” Silver says rushing up to me as I’m unloading my bag into my locker.
“We’re together?” I ask
“Not like that Baz, as friends! We’re friends again and I want to celebrate that.” I can already feel the determination
“Oh god, celebrate?” I zip my bag putting it on my back
“Listen you, me, tonight, huge party at it doesn’t matter’s house, I pick you up and we go have a fucking blast!”
“Uh…” fuck that, “no but thanks,” I turn to walk away but Silver grabs me turning me back
“Baz please it’s one party it won’t kill you,”
“I know that and I don’t care, I’m not going.”
“Why not?”
“Because I know you! If I go to a party with you I’ll be left alone, while you have all the fucking fun with your other fucking friends.” That came out of nowhere and Silver frowns clearly offended, “look you’re it for me all right? But I know I’m not for you and that’s fine I’ve made my peace with it-“
“Baz stop that’s not true” she moves closer grabbing my hand holding it, “you are everything to me all right? Never forget that, no matter who else I’ve got you Basilton are it for me too.” She smiles and I can’t really help but join as we’re standing in a hall full of people, and she’s still holding my hand. “Now cut the shit and come to this party with me tonight,” sighing I let go of her hand already annoyed with the topic “look you won’t have to drink or do any drugs.”
“Oh great I’m glad that I don’t have to do drugs,”
“all right I see that I have to resort to begging so here we go” I watch her about to get on a knee, “please Baz-“
“Stop” I yank her up before her knee touches the floor, “I’ll go to your stupid party Silver.”
“Yes! Thank you” she hugs me, “it’s gonna be fun I swear”
“No it won’t be but whatever,” I walk away leaving her.
I just agreed to a party that I know I’m going to hate, Silver thinks she won’t leave me but she will, your only friends always leave. But damn her words and me deciding to forgive her, no remorse means no remorse, I have to move on and maybe showing her I can do something to make her happy will be proof that I’m over the Eddie thing.
“Hey!” I hear barked at me when I turn into a different hallway, slammed against the wall Topher grabs me by the chest “what the hell is this?!” He holds out a packet and I look at it
Staring at the paper covered in red ink I answer “red ink on paper?”
“60 bucks! This is supposed to be a B paper, so why the fuck did I get a D?!”
“At least it’s a D plus,” I smile
“Stop fucking with me Baz! Explain” he shoves the paper at me
Reading the first sentence I scan it again confused, “wait I didn’t write this” I look at him
“What?”
“Get the fuck off me Topher” I shove him off, “I didn’t write this”
“Yes, you fucking did! I told you I needed a paper on the Zika Virus for my biology class, and you wrote that garbage.”
“Topher I wrote a paper on the Zika Virus but this wasn’t it, this isn’t what I gave you!” I continue reading some of the words “the Zika virus was created in the Nile River… Jesus” I shake my head, how’d he even get a D on this shit?
“Wait” he takes it back going through the pages, “shit this is the paper I wrote! Before I asked you to write me one”
“Are you fucking kidding me? So you thought you’d find me and beat me up because I wrote a perfect paper, and your jock brain can’t even process the simple task of not mixing your shit paper with my B plus paper.”
“Calm down I wasn’t actually going to beat you up” that’s most certainly not fucking true but all right, “fuck I can’t believe I turned in the wrong paper!”
“Well, where’s my paper?” Taking off his bag he unzips it ruffling around until he pulls out a very ruffled up packet, “what the fuck Topher, do you know how hard it was to write that?” it wasn’t hard at all but let’s make him feel bad for fun.
“Damn it I can’t turn this in, I need another copy”
“Yeah, that’s gonna be a problem…” I never save a file after I give a customer their paper, I delete the entire thing from my computer.
“You deleted it?! Fuck Baz!”
“Dude I’m the fucking vice principal’s son, what do you think will happen to me if he ever goes on my computer and sees a bunch of files with other peoples names on the first page? It’s not my fault you fucked up”
“Ok well, what the fuck am I supposed to do now?”
I shrug walking away “figure it out man.”
Seriously with idiots like Topher, I’m surprised I haven’t been caught yet, I need to start evaluating the people I write for because that dickhead shouldn’t be one of them.
Most of the days feel wasted now, I mean things were good for a while and then they just weren’t, I can’t complain though my life was shit before and it’s shit now. Just classes, lunch, and writing papers for lazy high schoolers. Maybe Silver’s right, maybe I do need this party. I’m a fucking sophomore in AP classes, everything is just passing me by and I’m watching it all happen.
“I need to live,” I say sitting in front of Silver who was waiting for me
“What does that mean?” She questions as she’s eating baby carrots
“Tonight I’m gonna have as much fun as possible, I’m tired of feeling like I have to be this one fucking person for everyone else.”
“I love this” she grins, “and we are gonna have fun trust me I’m taking care of everything!”
“Ok and I’m gonna drink” she nods agreeing “like a lot, I want to be fucking dead by the end of the night.”
“Woah all right” she laughs “where is all this coming from?” That’s a good question and as I think about it my eyes wander the lunchroom until they land on him, I linger for a second and Silver turns looking behind her. She catches on “How long has it been?”
“Almost a month” I answer looking back at her, “he doesn’t talk to me at all and I know I ended it but I didn’t think I’d feel like this.”
“Like what?”
“Like I’m the only one being affected by what we were doing, and now I feel like I’m just fucking waiting around for something that’s never going to happen. So fuck that”
“Do you have feelings for him Baz?”
“We spent 3 weeks in my room just getting high, playing video games, and making out. I mean it was kind of inevitable… but it doesn’t matter because we promised we wouldn’t catch feelings.”
“Well, who makes a dumb promise like that?” Dumb teenage boys who think they meant it, “look Baz if Damien won’t talk to you then I say you talk to him-“
“Uh no” I chuckle at the thought, “he’s always with that one” Eddie, “and I just need to get over it, we’ve been apart longer than we were together-”
“You have to fix this” Topher drops next to me as I’m talking to Silver
Groaning I reply “Jesus Topher you know what I do is supposed to be discreet right? Between the hall this morning and now it’s like you want me to get caught”
“I don’t care” he places the crinkled up pages in front of me, “fix it”
“No, go figure it out”
“Look I can’t all right, what the fuck am I supposed to do with this?”
Sighing annoyed I turn to him “I have to do everything, Topher take this and get on a computer and type it out word for word, then turn that in.”
“Oh” he laughs “that’s a good idea” fucking duh!
“Hey Toph” Silver smiles at the hot football player sitting across from her
He smiles back “sup Sil” he greets back before getting up, “thanks for the idea” he pats my shoulder really hard before walking away.
“Yeah what the fuck else am I good for” I reply rubbing my now wrecked shoulder
“You’re good for a lot” Silver smiles as she continues eating her carrots
“You think so?” She nods “thank god I thought I was useless” she laughs throwing a carrot at me.
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