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/Oliver\
The ride back to my house, was very quiet and awkward. I kept looking over at Kellin, worried rolled around inside my head. Kellin just stare at the window not even looking at me, I saw how tight his knuckles were as they wrapped around my jacket, he looked so small with my large jacket on him, it was cute. Kellin seemed to be scared and sad at the same time as he looked at the window, just seeing buildings in the dark sky. It was already 10 and I needed to get home to do more song writing, but I just felt like going straight to bed. Kellin seemed so…blanked. I just didn’t know what to say.
“So Kellin, you prepared for tomorrow?” I asked him. I was talking about, the job interview at drop dead. Kellin seemed to be spacing out, he didn’t respond.
“Kellin?” I called his name. He shook his head and looked over at me.
“Oh am s-sorry what was that?” He said. “I said are you prepared for tomorrow?” Kellin seemed to be confused of what I was talking about.
“The interview?”
“O-oh yeah sure” he said and looked back at the window. Kellin looked back to the window, I just frowned as I parked into the drive way. I got out the car as Kellin followed behind. I got my key and unlocked the door, as I unlocked it the dogs came in running towards me.
“Wow boys down.” They always get so happy to see me, also taking a liking to Kellin. The dogs were jumping on Kellin trying to lick him. Kellin chuckled and bent down and pet them. As Kellin did that, I notice his neck there look to be a purple bruise, Kellin looked up at me and seemed to notice I saw the bruise and got up from the floor. “Am gonna head to bed now” he said.
“Alright, good night see you tomorrow” I said as he walked up the stairs.
“Same” he said, I heard him closed his bedroom door from upstairs. I sighed, and slumped into the couch. I decided, that I wasn’t going to sleep instead I would go to my music room that I have here in my house to make more music or continue with the music I was stuck making. “Come on boys” the dogs followed me as I told them to come with me. Somehow I like when ever they come with me to my music room instead of being in there by myself. We all walked up stairs and went straight into my music room, I opened the door and let the dogs in inside first,
I took a look around my music room it was sort of big. Mainly my band comes over to make music, but I only have on guitar, piano, microphone, and one laptop wasn’t much here just like the studio. I sat down in my wheelie chair and grabbed my acoustic guitar, I don’t really play guitar that much or don’t know it that much.
Cut off my winds off, come lock me up just pull the plug yeah I had enough. Sell me to pieces, sell me for parts your a vampire so here you can have my heart.” I sang, I paused as I thought of more lyrics for the song, then it hit me as I wrote them. I grabbed my guitar again and sang with the new lyrics I added.
“The worlds a funeral, a room of ghosts. No hint of movement, no sign of pulse. Only an echo, just skin and bone. They kick the chair but we, we help tie the rope. You can have my heart (x3)” I paused and smiled to myself as, am making more progress with the song. As I was a about to write, I heard screaming.
“No!” I got up quickly and ran to Kellin room.
(Kellin)
Safety. Saftey was the world flowing as I ran through a filed in the middle of the night. I didn’t know where I was going, but I didn’t care I just wanted to get away for him. “Kellin!” He yelled my name. I ran as quickly as I can, he was right behind me. I didn’t want to go back to him, as I was almost out of breath, but I didn’t give up. I turn to the left heading through a field of dead roses I ran and ran, but I ended up in a dead end.
“No! No!” I cried as I tried another way to run.
“Kellin” I turned around in horror. He was standing right in front of me, I wanted to run but he got me wrist.
“Time to go home” he said as he chucked deeply.
“No!” I screamed as I got up from the bed, I breathed as I looked around, I tried to calm down as I realized i was staying with Oliver.
“Kellin!” Oliver ran into the room, Oliver turned on the lights as he did his eyes wide as he saw me. “God Kellin, your sweating!” Oliver tried to look at me, but I pulled my knees and realized I was having a panic attack. No not know! I can’t Oliver seem me like this. “Kellin?” He called my name, but I didn’t answer back. “P-panic a-attack” I said, I just had to let it out. “Ok, Kellin listen to me am gonna touch you, is that ok?” He asked. I just nodded. Oliver grabbed both my arm pulling them away from my face as he put my legs down and laid me down on the bed. I was shaking and still breathing quickly as he looked at me.
Oliver went into the restroom, I think he was getting water as I heard him turn on the sink, Oliver came back into the room with a wet rag and put it on my head. Oliver sat on the floor as he hold me hand and looked at me.
“The days are a death wish. A witch hunt for and exit. I am powerless… The fragile, the broken. Sit in circles and stay unspoken. We are powerless… Because we all walk alone on an empty staircase. Idle in the halls and nameless faces, I am powerless..” I calmed down a little as I heard Oliver’s voice, he was a really good singer.
“Everybody wants to go to heaven. But nobody wants to die I can fear death no longer I’ve died a thousand times.” Oliver finished singing as he looked at me with a small smile. “Kellin you alright?” He asked me. I wasn’t breathing quickly as I was before, I was ok I didn’t feel like having a panic attack.
“I’m ok. Thank you so much, Oliver” I said. Oliver squeezed my hand as he let go, I didn’t feel his warmth of his hand anymore and I made me sad.
“Did you make that song?”
“Yeah I did it’s called hospital for souls” he said as I nodded
“What happened did you have a nightmare? Or was it something else that almost made you get a panic attack?” He asked me, as he sat on the edge of the bed and took off the rag on my forehead.
“It was just a dark nightmare, but I forgot what it was thanks to you” I said with a smile. Oliver chuckled and blushes a little. “Do you ever get rid of these dark nightmares?” He asked me, I just nodded.
“What is it?” He asked. I laughed.
“It’s kinda stupid”
“Why? Just tell me, Kellin I wanna help you” he said with those big’o brown eyes of his.
“The only way the nightmares can go away if…someone sleeps with me a-and cuddles with me” l said quietly and looked away from him.
“It’s stupid” I said. Oliver chuckled once again, I knew he would also think it’s stupid, but it does really help me.
“Move over” he said. I looked up at him.
“What?”
“Well like you said, someone needs to sleep with you and cuddle with you I could be that someone” he said as I blushed. I go into the covers and moved to the side so he would sleep with me. Oliver turned the light off, and got to the bed.
“Kellin do you mind that I sleep with my shirt off, I like to sleep without it.” That made me blush even more, “s-sure go a-ahead.” I said as he took off his shirt and I just admired his abs and I couldn’t stop looking at him, but until he coughed. Oliver looked at me as I looked down,”sorry” I said quietly.
“It’s ok, your not the only one just amazed by the fact I have abs” he said as he go into the covers. Oliver go in and pulled me over to him, I put my head to his chest as he put his chin on my head.
“Oliver?”
“Yes Kellin?”
“Am sorry if I woke you up when I was screaming” I felt bad that he was doing this, also bad that if I woke him up, when I woke up screaming.
“It’s alright, I wasn’t actually sleeping I was writing some music for my album.” He said as I just nodded. Oliver was so warm and everything, I just had the urge to put my hands all over Oliver’s chest….wait what?
“Hey Oliver”
“Yeah?”
“H-how did you figure out to calm me down, when I was about to get a panic attack?” I wanted to know. Not most people who I know, know how to get me to calm down when I have a panic attack or they would always make me take my medication.
“Let’s just say, from my high school years I was always bullied and would just constantly freak out or I couldn’t take it anymore. Then one day I lost it and had a panic attack, it happened when I was home it was just my brother and I. Tom saw me and somehow did the stuff, that I did to you to calm me down.” Am guessing his brother name is Tom as he told me his story, but still got to me how Oliver looks so strong and just hearing this made me think, why would people do that to Oliver? Oliver is so kind and gentle, but why?
“You have a brother?” I asked.
“Yeah, he’s everything to me. I still thank him to this day for saving me. If I weren’t for him, I wouldn’t be making music right now, but thanks to him I am.”
Everything Oliver said, just made me wanna cry he said those kinda words that I would say about my twin sister, but one day I made a mistake and never got to see her ever again. If I would have never agreed to the deal, but I had to for the sake of my sister. “Wow you really care about him” I said, as I looked up at him.
“Yeah of course I do, he actually owns drop dead with me”
“Cool” I said as he looked down at me.
“Maybe you’ll get to see him in the store one day, right now he’s in Arizona looking at new designs for our clothing line.” He said.
“I would love that” I said as he smiled.
“Well let’s get some sleep, you have and interview to do tomorrow” he said as I nodded and put my head on his chest and he put his chin on top of my head. I heard light snoring coming from Oliver, which meant he was asleep. Something in me made me realize something as I was still awake, something that I don’t know what would my mind think.
I was developing a crush over Oliver….wait what?!
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Am so sorry for long update. Been very bipolar, and my orchestra concert is tomorrow so I’ve been stressing over, but am a little ok. I can’t wait! Gonna play all the songs from corpse bride my favorite movie! So yeah all see if I will update the video tomorrow
Along with a chapter :D!!! Okay bye
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