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A/n please listen to the lyrics to this song carefully. It will explain a lot about this chapter and will hit you in the feels. I love this song.
Gray’s P.O.V
“What do you mean he might be brain dead?!” I yelled.
“Please Mr.Fullbuster lower your voice” said the nurse.
I can’t believe this is happening. This can’t be happening. I’m not losing him, I’m not, I can’t be. He can’t be going.
“Mr. Fullbuster we found something in the blood tested and we found something we never seen before. The thing you guys were fighting about two weeks ago, had this type of poison and it has spread to his brain. That is why he hasn’t woken up and why he is still in his condition. We got as much out as we could, but we don’t know how much is in his brain. He might not wake up” said the doctor.
I was currently sitting outside the hallway. I had my head into hands just crying till I couldn’t cry no more. It was embarrassing to have the doctor to see me like this but I don’t care.
“Okay what is exactly i-is brain d-dead” I choke on my tears. My voice was dry and my eyes were puffy from crying and my face is wet from the tears.
“Brain dead is when the brain shuts down but the organs are still living. Like the heart and lungs are still moving. The body is alive but not the brain” said the doctor.
“Wait if he is still breathing isn’t he still alive?” I said.
“Well yes but the person you knew isn’t. It’s like with a zombie. The body is still moving but the person you knew is gone” he explained to me.
“Can’t you save him?”
“We are doing the best we can but if he is brain dead, there is nothing we can do. He might have passed a long time ago and we didn’t even know”
Knowing that just broke my heart. I literally felt it snap. What happens if he did pass away and I didn’t even know. What happened if it happened when I wasn’t around him.
“We will give him a couple more hours. If he doesn’t wake up we are turning off his ventilator and see what happens”
“Do you mean the machine that helps him breathe?”
“Yeah”
I shook my head. I tried to wipe the tears away but they kept coming down. I looked up at the doctor.
“Can I spend his last two hours with him, please?” I pleaded.
“Yes, you can”
I got up and slowly walked into his room. I leaned against the wall unsteady of my legs. I looked down at him. This can’t be true. I can’t be losing him. Not now, not ever.
I look at him and remember what has happened in the past 2-3 weeks.
“How could you Natsu”
“Gray please is not what you think it is. I love-“
“Don’t even finish that sentence”
“What”
“He was going to ask your hand in marriage, he was going to ask you to marry him, Gray”
“NATSU!!!”
“I love you, Gray. And I always will”
“No please don’t leave me…please…Natsu!”
“Please someone help me!”
“He’s losing blood, quickly take them in. Sir, you must stay here”
“Please save him”
“He’s in a coma”
“Who are you?”
“I’m…his boyfriend”
“Please don’t let go”
“Natsu would have wanted you to have this”
*hums Natsu’s song
“Gray-sama really loves Natsu-San, does he?”
“I do, I really, really do Juvia”
“Don’t let go, okay”
I held his small hand between my big ones for the hundredth time. Still have the rings on our fingers. It’s our engagement rings but when they glow they are our wedding rings.
Sadly they will only glow when we say our vows. With everything going on, I don’t think that’s ever going to happen. I felt more tears coming down. I then got an idea of saying them now. I took a deep breathe and started saying them.
“Do you, Gray Fullbuster take Natsu Dragneel to be your awfully wedded husband?” I said choking on my tears.
“I do”
“And do you, Natsu Dragneel take Gray Fullbuster to be your awfully wedded husband?” Crying harder.
“I do”
That was not me. I jump and looked up to see Natsu awake. More tears came down my face. “Natsu!”
The rings started to glow. He took off the mask on his face and smiled at me.
“You may now kiss the groom” he said it in a quiet voice.
I was so over joyed I wasn’t thinking straight. I was just so happy to see those beautiful green eyes again and to hear his voice.
I leaded down and kiss him gently. I missed these lips so much. I didn’t want to leave. I pulled back a little to see his face and his eyes opened half way.
“I love you, Gray”
“I love-”
Then his eyes closed and the machine went to that sound that I never wanted to hear. It was that long beep sound. I looked up to see a straight line on it.
I looked down at Natsu. He wasn’t moving. I screamed for the nurses.
“HELP PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!”
Three nurses and the doctor came running in. “My heavens what’s going on. Doctor come here quickly”
“Sir please you need to go into the hallway now, please sir”
“No Natsu please…no!”
The two nurses try to push me and calm me down. They finally got me to the hallway. I was screaming Natsu’s name the whole time.
More and more tears came down my face. The nurses locked the door so I couldn’t get in. I was right up next to the door trying to see Natsu through the little window.
The doctor and nurses are everywhere doing so many things. The machine still had that one straight line. Natsu still has his eyes closed and he wasn’t moving.
Then the nurses and doctor put their heads down and shook their heads. No what’s going, what are they doing, they should still be saving him.
Then the doctor put the blanket over his face. No this is not happening. He opened the door and was facing me. Please don’t say those words.
“I’m sorry Mr. Fullbuster, but Natsu is gone”
“No no no!” I cried into my hands. I fell to my knees and cried like I never cried before. “Natsu please no!”
“Tell me that this is a lie! Please”
“I’m sorry Gray, but he’s gone”
“No!…I never got to tell him that…*sobs* I love him too!”
“No!”
Then I woke up.
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