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“Yes.” I whispered and looked up at him from behind my bangs. Zayn grinned and stood up, walking over to me he leaned down and kissed me softly.
“You won’t regret it. I promise.” He mumbled and I smiled.
“I better not.” I got up and smiled, kissing his cheek and grabbing my bag. “I should go… I’ll text you.” I said as I walked out of his room and out the door, hoping back onto my skateboard I quickly raced home and dashed inside, sprinting to my room I picked up my laptop and began trying to Skype Justin… I can’t wait forever…
JUSTIN’S P.O.V
I sat with my arm around Amy, my laptop flashing with the Skype call from Darren. Hesitantly I leant forward and shut the laptop, cuddling closer to Amy and kissing her forehead with my finger slowly twisting my promise ring from Darren.
You see when I got here I had no friends. Then I met Amy and I realised, I’m not completely gay… I started to have these amazing strong feelings towards her that I couldn’t control. And now… Well she’s my girlfriend… And wait, before you throw eggs at me or try to murder me with an axe or some crazy shit like that just hear me out.
A boy gets horny. And Amy, well damn, she satisfies my needs. And as much as I love Darren, long distance is a lot harder than I thought. And when I was skyping with him he was always so distant, so… Distracted I guess you could say. I think he’s moved on, so I have too. But I can’t tell him, I can’t break his heart if he hasn’t moved on…
“You ok baby?” Amy’s voice broke me from my thoughts, I looked down at her and smiled, nodding slightly.
“Fine.” I whispered and she nodded and cuddled closer to my chest, tilting her head up and placed a soft kiss to my collarbone, no doubt leaving a lipstick mark. I leant down and kissed her cheek then turned my attention back to Netflix, my fingers still twisting my promise ring around on my finger as thoughts of Darren flooded to the back of my mind.
The kisses.
When I told him I loved him.
Or first time.
His embarrassed smile and how red he’d go if I called him beautiful.
Every single thing he did used to set my heart on fire… And now I’ve betrayed his trust… And the worst part is…
I’m okay about it.
DARREN’S P.O.V
I sat crossed legged on my bed staring at my phone. Should I call him? Or should he call first? I mean I’m technically dating him now but should he call first? Should I call him babe?
I sighed, giving up and getting off the bed I walked down the stairs and into my kitchen, grabbing a glass and filling it with water I said a brief hello to Max as I passed his room on the way to mine and he nodded in acknowledgement then went back to his laptop.
I walked into my room and took a large gulp of my water, trying to mentally calm myself down. Ok Darren, just chill. 2+2=4. 4+4=8. 8+8=16. 16+16=32. 32+32=64. 64+64=128. Maths always helps me focus and calm down. I took a deep breath and sat down. Just as I heard music. It sounded so familiar until I realised the song. It was Sweet Child O’ Mine by Guns ‘n’ Roses.
It was coming from outside so I walked to the window and pushed it up to see Zayn standing in the middle of my yard holding up his phone with a grin plastered on his face. He was bobbing his head to the music and I rolled my eyes but smiled none the less.
“Darren! You’re looking stunning tonight!” He called up to me. I smirked and fixed my hair so it was completely out of my eyes so I could see him properly. He put his phone in his back pocket and began climbing up the tree next to my window then stepped across so he was perched on my windowsill, still grinning like an idiot.
Smiling back I leant over and kissed him softly, stepping aside so he could jump into my room he turned the music off and smiled at me even wider.
“Hey babe.” He said and kissed me again. I smiled and tousled his hair teasingly.
“Good evening Zayn.” I said in an overly posh accent, he chuckled before pouncing at me and pinning me to the bed.
“Don’t ever become posh and snobby. It doesn’t suit you.” He whispered before placing a kiss on edge of my collarbone then trailed his tongue up my neck, causing me to moan and shiver. My hands clutched at his shirt as I squirmed beneath him. He kissed along my jawline then pecked my lips softly.
“Deal, but only if you promise me something.” I countered. He nodded and motioned me to go on. “You can touch me, you can love me, but don’t use me.” I whispered and he smiled at me, leaning down and trailed his tongue to my ear and whispered softly into it.
“I’ll never use you my darling. And that’s a promise.” He then placed a kiss below my ear and sat up, leaving me bright red and deeply aroused. Which was obvious by the pole that was sticking up from my jeans, he smirked and leant back down so his cinnamon scented breath brushed against my cheek as he spoke into my ear yet again in that low sexy voice of his.
“May I use my privilege to touch you right now to help relieve your… Issue?” He practically growled in my ear. And as hard as it was for me to do this I decided I needed to show him how strong and resistant I could be.
“No thanks. I’ll just do it once you leave.” I replied with a wink causing him to pout and begin to palm me through my jeans. I bit my lip to refrain from moaning.
“Oh come on Darren, you know you want to…” He whispered and groaned in response. He’s right. I do want to. I want to a lot. I shook my head through and sat up, wiggling out from beneath him and gesturing towards the window.
“Maybe I do, but if I let you do it or not is my decision. And right now I’ve decided that I am tired. So good night.” I said and he smirked and got up, kissing me as he pressed me against the closet and every ounce of my body wanted from me to just let him do whatever he wanted to me on every piece of furniture in this room. But my mind fought back and won as I smiled and kissed back then pulled away.
“Night baby.” I said and pecked his cheek as he climbed out the window and leapt across into the tree.
“Night my love.” He called over to me then shuffled down the tree and leapt over the fence with ease when as when I try to scale the fence I end up looking like a seal that got washed ashore and was left to die that was struggling to get back to the ocean. And because of my lack of upper body strength I can just about do it without dying. Which is a plus… I suppose…
I closed my window and my blinds before stripping off and crawling into my bed, switching off the light and snuggling down into my pillow I sighed softly, my mind fading between Justin and Zayn as I drifted off to sleep.
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JUSTIN’S P.O.V (Sorry for all the switches)
I groaned as my alarm blared and rolled over, whacking it until it shut up. A whine came from next to me and I smiled, rolling over to see Amy curled up with her nose scrunched up. I smirked and kissed her nose softly, wrapping an arm around her and holding her close.
She nuzzled into my chest and mumbled against my shirtless torso. “Hmm?” I asked, not being able to make out a word she said. She groaned and tilted her head up slightly.
“I said, let’s just skip school today, it’s a Friday.” Her morning breath hit me instantly and smacked me right across the face. I pulled a face but nodded, holding her naked body against mine securely as I remembered last night. Good thing momma wasn’t home.
Smiling to myself I closed my eyes as I yawned then rubbed them and sat up, getting out my laptop and addressing an email to Darren.
To: darrenxjones203@gmail.com
From: justiefellow110@hotmail.com
Cc: We need to talk.
Darren,
There’s something you need to know, and I’m sorry I didn’t tell you as soon as it happened but to be honest. I’ve been scared shitless when it came to telling you.
I have a girlfriend. Her name is Amy. We’ve been together since a few weeks after I moved here. I get it if you’re mad or you never want to talk to me again. But long distance is hard, and I don’t think either of us wanted to go through that. So I’m making it easier for the both of us by saying that I’m sorry; but we’re over.
Don’t think I didn’t love you or that I never cared, because it isn’t true. I was head over heels in love with you. And part of me still is, but I can’t expect you to wait for me and waste a chance to have a normal high school experience. I’m not saying that after graduation we can’t get back together. I still want that to happen but I think that right now this is what both of us need.
I hope you agree with me when I say that I’m miserable not being with you, and seeing you through a screen just makes it harder for me knowing I can’t be there to hold you. So right now, I suggest you find someone else. I have.
And please don’t think I never loved you, because that month that I had you all to myself was the best month of my life and I’d give anything to still be there with you.
I love you Darren. That’s all you need to know. All we’re doing is taking a break to see other people until after graduation. And then if you’d be willing to move out here to be with me it would make me that happiest man alive.
I love you. I really really really do. Please remember that. You are beautiful, inside and out. And there is not one thing about you that I would change, and don’t think that because I moved on you have to change yourself to get someone to love you because you are absolutely perfect just as you are.
If a guy can’t see how amazing you are then he isn’t worth your time. I hope I won’t lose you because of this but I think it’s what we both need. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. And my heart will grow fonder until graduation with everyday I have to go without you I will still love you.
I always will.
I know I’m being a douche sending this in an e-mail. But I can’t bear to look at you and see the hurt in your eyes. Just please do me a favour. Keep your promise ring on.
I’ll be keeping mine on until after graduation. Until I see you again actually. So please do the same for me.
I love you Darren, you’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met. And I wouldn’t change anything I’ve experienced over the past month with you for anything.
All my love,
Justin.
I pressed send then rested my head back against the headboard with a deep sigh. God I miss him, I can still hear his giggle, still feel his lips against mine, I can still smell his heavenly scent and I remember just how amazing his body felt against mine. Amy’s great, but she’ll never be my Darren.
I set my laptop next to my bed then rolled over, cuddling close to Amy and kissing up the back of her neck softly them closed my eyes and yawned softly, going back to sleep…
Hey hey hey! Little update there for y’all and I hoped you enjoyed! So yeah… I kind of feel proud of this chapter but horrible for breaking up dustin! Why am I so torn?!
This chapter is dedicated to RandomBookLover16 and to flaggler for being amazing little fans and supporters of Don’t Go! Thanks you guys so so so much! We love and appreciate all our followers (though there aren’t many of them) but these two have just given us so much extra support and we really appreciate you guys for it.
Anyways! Have a great day! I love you!
Bye!
Meow!~
Darren from therandomkellicfan xx
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