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Chapter 31
Eli’s pov
“Thank god, your finally here.” I sighed with relief once Carter opened the door and slaked into my room, closing it behind him softly.
“Miss me?” He smirked and we walked over to each other, as soon as we met I wrapped his hands around his waist.
“Pshh no.” I scoffed rolling my eyes but we both laughed.
“Mhm.” He murmured. Right now he was so… dreamily, happily, and so content. I loved it.
I smiled softly and kissed his lips, pressing my lips onto his.
“I love you.” I murmured slightly then chuckled a bit.
“What’s so funny?” He asked confused.
“Nothing it’s just… Less then a month ago I was completely Afraid of ever dating a guy. And now…” I trailed off.
“Now?” He asked stepping back a bit.
“And now..” I sighed grabbing his hands and holding them.
“Will you be my boyfriend?” I asked anxiety still hinting my words although I knew what he would say.
He laughed a bit and walked closer to me, cupping my cheeks.
He stared in my eyes for a long time. “Of course.” He whispered and tilted my head up slightly, leaning in.
I felt his warm breath on my skin and bit my lip slightly.
He leaned in, pressing our fore heads together and our nose brushed against each other.
“I love you.” I breathed and connected our lips.
The kiss was short and less passionate then the others but I didn’t care. In this moment I was so in love.
In this moment I know I would do anything for him. I would risk anything for him, I didn’t care what people would think but I would tell the entire world about us. I loved him so much I knew that I could tell my Parenst right now.
I had no doubts. I knew someday we would end up married, with kids, and a family and we would have a life together and all the pain that came with that life would be worth it because we would be together.
He was my world, my everything.
And in this moment I was completely, care free, and utterly in love.
I was so in love and it was as simple,
And complicated,
As that.
Chapter 31
Carters pov
“Do you ever think about the future?” Eli asked.
I was curled up on the bed with him, my head laying on his chest, and my hands wrapped around him. It was well passed midnight.
“Sure, everyone does.” I shrugged.
“Well yeah, but I mean our future.” He said.
I thought for a moment.
“Yeah of course I do. Do you?” I asked.
“Yeah, but it’s kinda hard for me to think about sometimes.” He admitted.
I looked up at him confused.
“How?” I asked.
“Well being with you is definitely the one thing I want to do, but that means I have to come out and that…” He trailed off.
“It’s scary.” He admitted.
“Yeah… I know. But the people who don’t accept you, they don’t matter.” I said curling up again.
We were quite for s while.
“Will you come out to your parents soon?” I asked.
He didn’t awnser.
I sat up again looking him in the eye.
“I understand if you don’t want to right now but… Don’t you want to tell them?” My voice was strong and quite.
“Not really…” He sighed, “You don’t understand… My parents won’t accept me. They will disown me, kick me out and I don’t know if I can handle that right now. I just… I’m not looking forward to the day that I throw away my life for nothing.” The last sentence struck a chord in my heart and it wasn’t a good one.
Nothing…? Was that what this was to him.
I looked down and pulled away from him.
“Wait no, shit I didn’t mean it like that.” He apologized quickly grabbing my hand. “I didn’t mean this was nothing I just Ment that-” I cut him off quickly.
“It’s okay I understand.” I said cleaning my voice from emotion. I understood that he still cared about other people’s opinions more then our relationship.
“Hey… Look at me.” He said softly tilting my chin to look in his eyes.
“This is so much more then nothing.” He said and I tried to see a doubt in his eyes but I only saw love.
In his eyes I saw that he truly did love me, I saw how much that scared him and I saw how he hated how he was scared to tell everyone about us.
“I know.” I nodded and we curled back down onto the bed.
I fell asleep wth my head on his chest, his heartbeat echoing in my ear.
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