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Let me share a sad love story:
Last november of 2014 I met this amazing guy in a party held at a condo in san juan and we started gazing at each other and realized that we are falling into a deep spell. The next morning I found myself sleeping in the same room as he and woke up feeling in love. He started showing me the love I have not felt before and let me into his life exploring the depths of him and recognizing his strengths and weaknesses. As we go along at what we so called affair. We went into the more serious stuff and talked about our future. Getting a house, meeting with his family and practically going abroad and get married. But things did not turn out as planned since there were people who were bitter and insecured of our relationship. One cold night while he was fetching me from work, he decided that we go to a quiet place for a quick convo. before we talked, I cant help but notice that there was something thats boggling him. We reached a park in pasig and he hugged me. I was still in a puzzle and asked him what was wrong. He let out a heavy sigh and began asking me “nakapag HIV test ka na ba?”. That time I wasnt quite sure of my status yet and I told him that I was clean. He nodded with disappointment and continued “may nakapagsabi kasi sakin that you are into partee and play”. I was shocked at this, and said “sino nanaman ba yan? Baka sinisiraan lang tayo”. He replied “forget it hatid nalang kita sa inyo”. After that night things had suddenly change. The boy that once was sweet had turned into a cold blooded reptile. He kept on ignoring me for days and did not even bother to reply to any of my SMS or chat. After a week of depression he texted saying “Im sorry billy, I need to be honest I cannot continue this relationship if you cannot provide me a paper that states that you are Negative of HIV”. I was scared and hurt all at the the same time. I was afraid to know that I might be reactive that time that I choose to accept the fact that I can never have him. And up to this day I could only recall those bad memories I had when I shoulve have known my status. Right now Ive been stalking him and checking on his facebook. He is doing good actually with his new cars. Getting his 3rd condo. Finishing his house in cavite where we built our memories together and seeing him completely happy with someone else. And I am happy too. And if given the chance I would still get back to him and say in front of his face that yes I am REACTIVE or should I should I say POSITIVE with HIV but hey I am still capable of Loving and be Loved by anyone else.
Goodnight.
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