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(A/N) HEY!! so i’m IN LOVE with this song and i had it on repeat and got inspiration to write this chapter!! you should definitely check it out! i feel like less and less people are readin the book and idk what to do😔😔BUT ENJOY MY LOVELIES🌹🌹🌹
SONG: ‘Angel with a Shotgun’ by The Cab
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Another week went past and the waters between Harry and me are still rough and choppy. I honestly don’t know what to do. El said to let everything fall into place again but what if they don’t just fall back? What if we never talk or look at the other without wanting to break down?
“Lou? Louis!” Eleanor yelled.
“Yeah?” I asked, snapping into reality.
“What about this one?” she asked trying on another wedding dress.
“Nah. It doesn’t show off enough of your curves.” I said and shoed her away and back into the dressing room.
We were currently dress shopping for El’s wedding, her boyfriend finally proposed to El and now she wants me to help her pick out a dress since I was her boyfriend’s best man.
“This one?” she asked. My jaw dropped, the dress was absolutely stunning on her, “El, you look.. amazing!” I gushed.
“Really? You think it’s the one, Lou?” she asked with a huge grin.
“Definitely! The dress itself is beautiful but I can’t even describe the beauty of you in it!” I smiled, getting up and getting a closer look and the material.
“Alright! I’ll go change, do me a favor and pay for it on my card?” she asked and handed my her credit card.
I went up to the register and turned to look behind me to make sure El wasn’t there, “Hi, I’m paying for a £12,000 Vera Wang wedding dress,” I told her, “my friend is currently changing out of it, I need to pay it on my credit card please.” I smiled and she rung up the dress on my card, “Thank you, have a nice day!” I said as El walked out of the dressing room and we left.
“Here, I need my card.” El said and made grabby hands towards my hand that had her card, I gave it to her and she stared at her phone for a minute.
“Everything okay?” I asked.
“Yeah, but the dress didn’t show up on my banking account, they send me notifications when I make a purchase.” she said in confusion.
“Well, that’s because you didn’t pay for the dress .” I told her.
“What do you mean, Lou? Of course I paid for the dress who else wou..” she said but trailed off, “you didn’t did you?!” she asked.
“Did I not do what?” I smiled cockily.
“Louis William Tomlinson, did you pay for my dress?” she asked.
“Yes, yes I did.” I smiled as we walked into the restaurant.
“Why would you do that?! It was too expensive!” she said as we took a seat in a booth.
“Think of it as a wedding gift.” I smiled.
“Okay, but I’m paying you back. There’s no way I can stand knowing you paid for a fucking £12,000 dress.” she said.
“El, it was a gift, no need to pay me back.” I said and ended the conversation.
“Thank you Louis.” she said and smiled softly.
“Of course, you’re my best friend. The least I could do is buy you your dress for your dream wedding.” I smiled.
“So when did you say the wedding was?” I asked and took a bite out of the sandwich I ordered.
After El came back and started to hangout with me more, I’ve started eating and genuinely smiling again.
“July 12, but I want to go ahead and buy the dress and then continue to save up money for the decorations and honeymoon and whatnot.” she explained.
“So do you need to go somewhere else?” I asked as we stepped back into the bone-chilling weather of London.
“No, do you want to go somewhere?” she asked and stuffed her hands into her coat pockets.
“No, but I don’t want to be back to my place, Harry’s been coming out of his room more and more everyday. I don’t want to walk in and him be sitting on the couch, it would just be too awkward.” I said.
“Okay, you know what. Louis you need to grow a pair and talk to Harry. He’s just as broken as you are and I know you want to and have to talk to him, but you’re getting no where this way.” she said. I looked down as we started in the direction of my house and within minutes, it seemed, we were on the front porch.
“Lou, I believe in you okay? You can do this.” she said comforting me while rubbing my back, “I’ll go to your room and wait on you if you need me.” she said.
“O-Okay.” I stuttered and we entered the house, there he was. Sitting on the couch with a blank expression on his face.
Eleanor nudged me then went upstairs.
“Uh, H-Harry. Can I-I talk to you? A-Alone?” I asked looking at the floor.
“Sure.” he said emotionlessly.
We went up the stairs and I was racking my brain for what to say when we got to Niall’s room.
Oh yeah, Oh yeah, Oh yeah
I’m an angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun
Angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun
I enter Ni’s room and waited for Harry to enter as well before I shut the door behind him. I started to pace the room and thought about what I was going to say.
Get out your guns
Battles begun
Are you a saint or a sinner?
If love’s a fight
Then I shall die
With my heart on a trigger
“I’m sorry” we said in unison.
“No. Louis, I’m the one who should be sorry, okay? I cheated on you all because my stupid ass got piss drunk and this whole thing is my fault!” he cried.
They say before you start a war
You better know what you’re fighting for
Well baby you’re all that I adore
If love is what you need
A soldier I will be
“Harry, don’t blame yourself for this. It’s my fault. I should’ve just gone with you and the lads instead of worrying about that stupid college application.” I comforted and sat on the bed next to him and rubbed his back comfortingly.
I’m an angel with a shotgun
Fighting till the war’s won
I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back
I’ll throw away my faith babe
Just to keep you safe
Don’t you know you’re everything I have
“No, everything is my fault Louis! I had sex with a girl for Christ’s sake and I’m gay! I was happily dating you and I had everything until I messed it all up for us!” he cried harder and I pulled him into my chest.
And I wanna live
Not just survive
Tonight
Sometimes to win
You’ve got to sin
Don’t mean I’m not a believer
“Harry, it’s my fault that we didn’t talk about it or get back together. I thought you lied to me when you said you were gay and I was scared, no, I was terrified that this whole thing we had was just a joke or a prank. Because, I mean come on, the jock falling for he nerd? Give me a break.” I laughed a little and pushed my glasses up the bridge of my nose.
And major Tom
Will sing along
Yeah, they still say I’m a dreamer
They say before you start a war
You better know what you’re fighting for
Well baby you’re all that I adore
If love is what you need
A soldier I will be
Harry laughed a little and it made my heart melt, I missed that sound, “Louis, I’m just.. so sorry.” he repeated and looked into my eyes, “I never meant to hurt you, mentally or physically.” he said and gently placed his hand on my, now, scarred thigh.
I’m an angel with a shotgun
Fighting till the war’s won
I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back
I’ll throw away my faith babe
Just to keep you safe
Don’t you know you’re everything I have
And I wanna live
Not just survive
Tonight
“I miss you, Boobear.” he spoke softly, still staring me down.
“I miss you too, Hazzabear.” I croaked as tears and a lump in my throat started to form.
“What’s wrong?” he asked.
“I-I just.. need you.. more than ever.” I said and let the tears overflow my water-line.
Ohh Ohh Whoa Whoa Whoa
Ohh Ohh Whoa Whoa Whoa
Ohh Ohh Whoa Whoa Whoa
[I’m an angel with a shotgun, shotgun]
Ohh Ohh Whoa Whoa Whoa
[I’m and angel with a shotgun, shotgun]
He stared at my eyes, then my lips, then back up to my eyes. He bit his lip, thinking.
I’m an angel with a shotgun
Fighting till the war’s won
I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back
I’m an angel with a shotgun
Fighting till the war’s won
I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back
“I’m so sorry, Haz.” I whispered.
“Kiss me you fool.” he smiled and I laughed a little. I lunged on him and crashed our lips together for the first time in three weeks.
I’ll throw away my faith babe
Just to keep you safe
Don’t you know you’re everything I have
And I wanna live
Not just survive
And I’m gonna hide, hide, hide
My wings tonight
They say before you start a war
You better know what you’re fighting for
Harry pulled me into his lap and licked and prodded my bottom lip, wanting entrance. I part my lips and let his tongue explore the familiar space of my mouth as mine did the same.
Well baby you’re all that I adore
If love is what you need
A soldier I will be
I pulled away from his, now, swollen, red lips and pressed my forehead against his when the need for air became too great.
“I love you, Louis.” he whispered.
“I love you, Harry.” I smiled then pecked his lips.
“Will you be mine again?” he asked, looking nervous and scared.
“Yes. As long as you can put up with me, I’ll always be yours.” I smiled and played with the hairs at the bottom of his head.
“I’ll ways be able to put up with you, Lou. You’re too valuable to me.” he said and kissed my cheek.
“Let’s go downstairs, yeah?” I asked.
“Sure.” he said then lifted me up with him, earning a yelp from my mouth, he laughed, “Aw, that was cute!” he said.
“M’not cute! I’m manly!” I said and puffed out my chest.
“Whatever floats your boat, babe.” he said and put me on my feet with his arms still around my waist, “I missed your beautiful eyes, smile, hair.. everything.” I smiled looking in his eyes.
“I missed yours too.” he proclaimed and we went down the hall, “Wait I have to do something right quick.” I said and let go of his hand and ran into my room.
Eleanor jumped when I suddenly bursted through the door, “El! You’re a genius and I love you!” I yelled and pounced on her and hugged her.
“Thanks, it’s a gift.” she laughed as she sat up, “So you’re back together?” she asked.
“Yes.” Harry answered as he leaned on the doorframe. He walked over and wrapped his arms around me from behind and buried his face into my neck.
“Aw! You guys are too cute!” she gushed and we all went downstairs to watch the telly with the rest of the boys.
The night consisted of Liam and Niall cuddling and kissing, Zayn and Perrie talking and sometimes watching the telly, and Harry, El and I all just were talking about anything and nothing. Harry got on with Eleanor perfectly, it was a huge relief on my part since El is my best friend and Harry is my boyfriend.
To say that the rest of the night went perfectly would be an understatement.
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(A/N) so there’s chapter 16! hope you liked it! please keep commenting/reading/voting! i’m startin to lose inspiration to continue with the book😔😔 but ilysm!😘💋💜
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