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Vic’s POV
I sit on the front step, waiting anxiously for Kellin to get here. Tay took him back to her house to get his things then she was going to bring him right over.
God, I miss him.
I can’t believe we’re married now. He’s my husband. I thought I’d have to wait years for that to happen. Even though we got married under special circumstances, it’s still everything I ever wanted. Custody battle aside, I married him because I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Tay’s car soon pulls up and I wait patiently but I’m super excited. She gets out and goes around to the passenger side. It’s a long five minutes until Kellin gets out of the car. He looks anxious and upset for some reason. I stand up and the second he sees me, he begins running towards me. I grin at his enthusiasm but much to my confusion, he runs right past me and inside.
“What’s wrong?” I ask Tay as she walks up the steps.
“I don’t know.” She frowns. “He seemed very reluctant to come here.”
Worried, I decide to go find him. I go into the house and up the stairs. The bathroom door is closed so I approach it. I try the handle but it’s locked. I then knock softly.
“Kell, are you okay?” I ask him.
“Vic.” he sniffs but he doesn’t say anything else.
“Why don’t you come out of there?” I suggest but he says no.
I slide down the door and lean against it.
“Well I’m not going until you come out. I’ve missed you.” I tell him.
“I missed you too.” he whimpers.
“Then why don’t you come out and kiss me?” I suggest.
“I want to. I can’t. It’s safe in here.” he says.
“What are you safe from?” I frown confused.
“The people. They’re going to take me away again. They can’t get me in here.” he tells me.
“Kell, bub, no one is going to take you away again. I promise you.” I explain. My heart aches for him. He’s obviously been traumatized by the whole experience.
“This is exactly like my dreams though. It’s too good. Good things come to an end. This is amazing. They’re going to take me away. And they’re going to put me back in that horrible place. I don’t want it to end.” he rambles, getting more emotional as he talks.
“Kellin, they can’t take you away. And they’re not going to. You’re never going to go back to that place. I promise. Just come on out.” I urge.
He’s silent for a little bit.
“We got married today.” I state.
There’s more silence followed by the door unlocking. I stand up and he cautiously opens it. He doesn’t say anything though, he just looks down at me. His cheeks are puffy and his nose is red.
“Do you want to watch Aladdin?” I ask him.
He nods and wipes his face. I try to take his hand but he yanks it away. I feel hurt but I respect his boundaries, for whatever reason he has them.
There’s about two feet of space between us as we go downstairs into the living room. He sits on the sofa and I go find Tay. She’s talking to my parents in the dining room.
“Hey, how is he?” Tay asks.
“He’s worried he’s going to be taken away again and he won’t let me touch him.” I mumble and she looks at me sympathetically. “Do you have Kellin’s things?”
She picks his backpack up from beside her and hands it to me. I fish through it for the DVD then go back into the living room. I put the movie on and sits next to Kellin. He moves away from me but I pretend not to notice, even though it feels like a knife through the chest.
The movie starts and I watch bored. I’ve seen this movie a thousand times and all I want to do is hold Kellin and talk to him.
I run my fingers through my hair then drop my hand down beside me, feeling stressed. I feel Kellin’s fingers link with mine. My head snaps towards him but he’s just watching the movie. I feel his hand shaking in mine and his jaw is clenched. There’s something wrong. He’s scared.
I pull my hand away from his and he looks at me terrified.
“Don’t do anything you don’t want to do.” I tell him.
He nods and pulls his hand away.
“D-do you want to?” he stammers out.
“Do I want to what?” I ask confused.
“Do you want to hold my hand?” he mumbles.
“Yeah, of course I do.” I murmur.
He looks down at my hand and shakes his head.
“I don’t think you do.” he whispers.
“I do, why wouldn’t I?” I frown.
He doesn’t answer my question. Instead he asks one of his own.
“Do you love me?” he whispers.
“Kellin, I fucking married you. Of course I love you!” I exclaim, very confused as to why he would think any different.
“Why?” he chokes out. “Why did you marry me?”
“Because I want to spend my life with you. I love you.” I urge.
“Why though?” he whimpers.
“Kell, I’m confused. Why wouldn’t I?” I ask.
“B-because I did things…”
I instantly know what he’s taking about.
“Do you mean those boys did things?”
“I’m sorry.” he chokes out.
“Hey, why are you sorry?” I coo.
“Because I cheated on you.” he sobs.
“Kellin, you didn’t cheat on me. They raped you.” I tell him.
He looks to me, hysterical and confused.
“What does that mean?” he wails.
“It means they forced you. You didn’t want them to do it, right?”
He nods and looks confused.
“That wasn’t your fault and I don’t blame you. I love you and I’m not upset with you. I’m sorry you had to go through that, baby.” I tell him.
“So I didn’t cheat on you?” he sniffs seeming relieved by my words.
“No, of course not. I love you so much, okay?” I tell him.
He wipes his eyes and nods before he grabs my hand and kisses my cheek.
“Whether you want to talk about it or not, I want you to know that I would really like to listen. Don’t ever be afraid to come to me.” I mumble.
“I really missed you.” he chokes.
“I really missed you too, Kells. I don’t ever want to go without you for that long again.” I tell him.
He drops my hand and climbs onto my lap. He wraps his arms around my neck and stares at my lips.
“They, uh, they kissed me.” he tells me.
I take his face in my hands.
“I don’t care.” I whisper.
He grins and pushes his lips to mine. I kiss him softly and lovingly, smiling into the kiss.
He pulls away and buries his face into my neck, squealing happily.
“I’m so happy that I’m back here and that things can be normal again and that you love me and oh my God you’re my husband now.” he rambles.
“You want to have a wedding?” I ask him, my cheeks sore from grinning at his cuteness.
“Can we? That would be so nice.” he asks.
“Of course. I’ll talk to Mama and Papa.” I smile.
I take his hand and smile down at it, running my fingers across his knuckles.
“I think you need a ring.” I tell him.
He giggles and nods.
“Wait, does this mean that I’m Kellin Fuentes now?” He asks.
“Sure does.” I chirp.
He squeals again and hugs me tightly.
“God, I missed your smile.” I murmur.
Mama and Papa walk into the room with Tay following behind.
Kellin pulls away and climbs off my lap before he runs over to my parents. He engulfs them both into a hug and they squeeze him back. I can see they’re both relieved and as grateful as I am to have him back.
“We missed you so much, Kiddo. It hasn’t been the same around here without you.” Papa murmurs.
“I missed you both so much.” Kellin sighs pulling away.
“Kellin, we want to discuss something with you.” Mama says softly.
Kellin nods, looking worried and confused. He sits back in my lap and I hold him tightly as my parents and Tay sit down.
“We think it’s best if Tay and Jenna adopt you.” Mama says.
“But you’re my Mama.” Kellin says anxiously.
“I am, and I always will be. That’ll never change. You’ll still live here and nothing will change. We just want Tay and Jenna to be your legal parents.” Mama explains.
“Why?” Kellin frowns.
“Well because we don’t ever want to risk losing you again. It’ll also make things like getting your drivers license a lot easier if someone were to adopt you, and Papa and I can’t adopt you because of your relationship with Vic. Jenna and Tay love you very much, I trust them. Besides, you’ll be eighteen in a few years and you’ll be independent. It’s just a precaution that’s all.” she says. “But it’s totally up to you. We don’t want to make a decision you’re not comfortable with.”
“So nothing will change?” Kellin asks.
“No, nothing will change.” Mama clarifies.
“Okay,” Kellin agrees, smiling brightly.
My parents decide to go make dinner and Kellin turns around on my lap.
“Can we go shower?” he whispers, grinning at me.
“You want to shower?” I ask him.
“Yeah, with you.” he mumbles, leaning in kissing my neck.
The tender action makes me go crazy. I’m too goddamn sensitive. My hands fall to his hips and he smirks at the action.
“Please.” he begs. “I missed you.”
“Okay.” I sigh.
He climbs off of me and takes my hand. He pulls me along and we go upstairs. I turn the shower on when we get into the bathroom and Kellin leans against the door biting his lip.
“Come here, cutie.” I purr.
He skips over to me and pushes his lips to mine. He kisses me hungrily and slides his hands up my shirt. I step away from him and pull it off over my head. I throw it on the floor and Kellin kisses my chest. I take his chin and tilt his head up so I can kiss him.
“Is this okay?” I ask him, pushing my hand up his shirt.
He nods and starts unbuttoning his shirt. I take over and push my lips to his neck. I pull his shirt off and he starts unbuttoning his jeans.
“You sure this is okay?” I ask him.
He frowns and stops.
“You don’t want to.” he mumbles, seeming embarrassed.
“No, no, no.” I take his face in my hands. “I do, I really do, I just want to make sure you’re okay.”
He smiles and takes my hands from his face, just holding them in his own.
“You’re so sweet. I’m okay. I think.” he says.
“Let me know if you’re not.” I murmur and he nods.
We finish undressing each other and go back to making out. I push him into the shower and against the wall. My hands fall back to his hips and I can’t feel him hard against me.
Fuck he’s so hot. I missed him so much.
I kiss his neck feverishly and grasp his erection. I stroke him quickly and he seems to be enjoying it, until he’s isn’t. One second he’s hard and the next he’s not.
He whimpers sounding like he’s in distress so I step away from him.
He wraps his arms around himself and looks away.
“I’m not comfortable, can you please go?” he asks.
“Kell, baby, are you okay?” I ask worried.
“Yeah, I’m okay. Can you please stop looking at me?” he whimpers turning away from me.
I know I’m making him uncomfortable so I just decide to leave.
“Do you want me to bring you in some clothes?” I ask, stepping out of the shower.
“Um, leave them at the door.” he whispers.
I wrap a towel around my waist and leave the bathroom. I go down to my room, get dressed and fall down onto my bed.
I can’t help but to feel like I did something wrong. Did I not ask him enough if what I was doing was okay? Did he tell me to stop and I didn’t hear it?
I feel sick. I hope I didn’t hurt him. I’m not like those assholes and I don’t want him to think otherwise. I would never hurt him, not meaningfully.
He comes into the room, a towel wrapped around his waist and his arms still wrapped around himself.
“I thought you were bringing me clothes.” he mumbles and I smack my forehead.
“I’m sorry. I’m an idiot.” I apologize.
“It’s okay.” he smiles weakly. “Can you turn around?”
I nod and turn so I’m facing the wall. I hear shuffling around then the bed dips down. Kellin’s arm drapes over me and he kisses my shoulder.
“Did I hurt you?” I whisper.
“No, you didn’t. I’m sorry.” he whispers back.
I turn around and stare at him.
“What happened in there?” I ask him softly, as I play with his fingers.
He takes my hand and brings it up to his lips.
“Do you still love me after seeing that?” he whispers, tears filling his eyes.
“Seeing what?” I frown confused.
“My body. I’m damaged now. I’m sorry you saw that.” he says, looking down as tears spill over his beautiful cheeks.
“Baby, your body is as beautiful as it always is. What do you mean you’re damaged?” I ask him concerned, wiping the tears from his face.
“You can’t see that? What they did to me?” he sobs. “I feel dirty. I feel broken. I feel like my whole body has changed.”
I pull him closer to me and hold his head against my chest as he cries. I want to cry too but I have to be strong for him.
“I love you, and your body. You’re so beautiful. And those guys didn’t ruin you, you’re not damaged. I promise you, and I’m sorry that happened to you. But I’m never going to see you differently. You’re still the same guy I fell in love with.” I tell him.
He chokes out a little laugh through his sobs as he pulls away and takes my face in his hands.
“I’m so lucky to have you.” he grins then he kisses me.
I wipe his tears away and hold him close to me.
Mama calls us down for dinner and we eat and laugh. And Kellin holds my hand under the table and I play with his fingers.
Everything finally feels okay again.
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