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A brand new week, everything’s all the same. I’m doing fine at school, nothing’s changed at the Fuentes home and Vic’s still not talking to me, in fact he’s avoiding me completely.
I walk downstairs to the dining room where breakfast is already being served. Vic’s already eating his toast and my favorite cereal, Reece’s Puffs has already been poured into a bowl. I go and sit down next to Vic but I don’t even glance at him. It’s not like he’d be looking at me anyway.
“Morning Kell.” Mama smiles but I’m too upset to smile back.
“Morning.” I mumble quietly.
I notice Papa give me a worried look but I ignore it and just eat my breakfast. He leans over and whispers something to Mama.
After Vic and I had finished eating we stand up and begin to leave the room but Mama stops me.
“Kellin, can I talk to you for a minute?” She asks and I nod, gulping. I hope I’m not in any trouble.
Vic leaves the room, leaving me with Mama and Papa.
“You seem a little down these past few days. Is there something you want to talk about?” She asks and I feel tears build up in my eyes.
“Vic’s not talking to me and I’m not sure what I did wrong.” I sniff.
“Oh honey, did you two have a fight or something?” She asks and I shake my head.
“No. We were all okay then he just started ignoring me.” I explain.
“Like we said Kell, he gets like this sometimes. It’s no ones fault.” Papa says in a calming tone
“But it feels directed at me.” I mumble.
“Even if it is directed at you, don’t worry too much about it. It’s probably nothing. He’ll come good.” Papa explains ruffling my hair.
I smile and nod.
“We’re going out of town to see some family so we won’t be home when you get back from school. We’ll be back around dinner time. If you need anything, I’ve left our numbers in the fridge and you can use the landline to call us.” She explains and I nod.
“Okay.” I murmur.
“Okay, you have a good day at school Honey.” Mama smiles before kissing my head.
I say goodbye to her and Papa then go out to the car where Vic is waiting. I get in the car and we begin driving silently. The silence is what starts my stream of tears. I look out the window and let them fall. I miss talking to Vic and I miss him talking to me. I don’t feel safe without him constantly comforting me and it’s putting me on edge.
I feel Vic’s hand slide over my thigh making me look towards him. He’s watching me sadly as he rubs my thigh comfortingly. I let out a shaky breath and wipe my eyes.
“Stop crying, you’re too gorgeous for all these tears.” Vic mumbles and my stomach does a really big flippy thing.
“Gorgeous?” I sniff.
He doesn’t reply and he drives the rest of the way in silence, though he doesn’t stop rubbing my leg, not once.
No one has ever called me gorgeous before. Not many people have even complimented me before, let alone someone as…attractive as Vic. I shouldn’t be thinking of him as attractive. He likes girls.
When we get to school, we get out of the car and Vic says goodbye. He walks off and and I go into the hall where my locker is. I only have one class without Vic’s and that’s art. I have that class right now. It’s a pretty easy class so I don’t have to worry about Vic not being there. I enjoy it but I tend to miss Vic a lot. I guess it is a good thing because I should learn to rely on myself a bit more because it doesn’t seem like Vic cares about me anymore.
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As I’m walking out of the classroom, I spot those kids that hurt Vic. They haven’t bothered me since but right now they’re looking at me with grins on their faces but something tells me they’re not friendly. They come storming towards me and I back away scared but then hit a wall.
“Hey Fag, your boyfriend’s not here to save you now, is he?” Says the leader of the group, who I learned is Alex.
I don’t answer him and just stand there trembling. I haven’t been this scared since I was living with my parents. I don’t know what these kids are going to do to me. How bad are they going to hurt me? I begin to cry just thinking about it. Everything’s been so great lately and I never want to go back to the way things were.
“Fuck, Alex look. The kid pissed himself.” One guy says, who’s name I remember to be Ben.
I look down at myself, seeing a large wet spot and I start panicking. The shaking won’t stop and I slide down the wall, landing in a puddle of my own urine.
I let out loud sobs just wanting to be anywhere but here.
“Alex, what the fuck did you do?” I hear Vic’s voice shout.
“Nothing.” Alex sniggers. “He just pissed himself.”
“Because you’re scaring him! Move out of the way!” Vic’s growls then he appears squatting down next to me. “Come on, I’ll take you home.”
He tries to touch me but I push his hand away.
“N-no don’t t-touch me. I’m gross and w-wet.” I choke out, too scared to even move.
“I don’t care. You’ll feel a lot safer at home.” He says. “Can you stand?”
I shake my head and he slides his arms around me and lifting me up. I bury my face in his neck so I don’t have to see all the people who have gathered around to watch. Vic takes me out of the school and to his car. He gets a towel out of the back seat and places it on the passenger seat. He then sits me down on it and pulls my seatbelt over me before clipping it in. He then gets in the car and drives off towards home.
“Kellin, don’t feel bad about this, okay?” He whispers softly.
“I-I’m gross.” I sniff, a little more calm now that I’m safe.
“No, no you’re not. With what you went through with your parents, I’m not surprised that your body reacted that way. It’s not your fault.” He explains and I nod but then start crying again.
“Everyone’s going to think I’m gross.” I cry.
“Hey, there’s one thing you should know about high school; whenever something happens, you give it a few days and people will have forgotten it and moved on to the next thing, I promise.” Vic explains and I nod, sniffing. “I’ll talk to Mama tonight and get her to let you stay home tomorrow. Then it’s the weekend and by Monday, everyone will have forgotten.”
I nod and wipe my eyes.
“How are you feeling now?” He asks.
“Tired.” I mumble.
“We’ll get you showered then you can sleep. I noticed you haven’t been sleeping lately, why’s that?” Vic’s asks and I roll my eyes.
“Because you’re mad at me and it makes me…what’s that word?” I huff.
“Anxious?” He asks and I nod.
“I’m not mad at you. I told you that.” He sighs.
“Then why are you ignoring me?” I yell, not meaning to raise my voice but I couldn’t help myself.
“Because.” Is the only answer I get from Vic.
I sigh and lean my head against the window.
“It’s not you, I promise.” He breathes.
He reaches over to rub my shoulder but I whimper and flinch away.
“Hey, it’s okay. I’m not going to hurt you.” He assures me.
I nod, feeling a little better and he runs his hand along my shoulder comfortingly. He soon pulls up in the driveway.
“Can you walk?” He asks and I nod, opening the car door and getting out.
He does the same and he comes around, grabbing the towel off of the seat then taking my hand with his free hand. I’m still shaking and Vic notices so he gently runs his thumb across my knuckles. We walk inside and go up to the bathroom.
“You go shower and I’ll bring you in some clothes.” He says and I nod.
He then wraps his arms around me unexpectedly.
“I’m so sorry this happened.” He whispers. “I’m sorry about Alex. He hates me and you’re paying for it.”
“Why does he hate you so much?” I question and he pulls away.
He gives me a light smile.
“Shower then you can sleep. I’ll even lay with you.” He then walks away without having answered my question.
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