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Chapter 3:
Felix’s P.O.V
It was weird. I’ve never felt like this before, well, I’ve never kissed anyone like this before, sorry, correction, I’ve never kissed anyone at all! Jake’s lips were pressed to mine and they were moving lightly, my own moving in return. It baffled me how we were going this, but we were doing it, and I wasn’t hating it.
Soon, the time came when the bell rang and we had to pull away. The weird part about that is that it meant we had been kissing for almost twenty minutes. How the hell did we manage that, because I am pretty sure we didn’t pull away at all?
“We need to go,” I muttered and Jake nodded, resting his forehead on mine, his breathing laboured. My body rang with tingles and I felt so excited. I wanted to keep kissing Jake, but I both knew that was wrong, and almost mostly hormones speaking.
“Yeah—” Jake leant in and kissed me again, snatching my breath away with every touch. I sighed lightly, nipping at his lip lightly causing the taller boy to pull away.
“I—” I wanted to say something but now, I couldn’t find the words. Jake sighed and kissed me again, and continued kissing me in between every word he uttered.
“Felix—” “I—” “Just—” “Don’t—” “Want—” “To—” “Leave—” “You—” “Alone—'” I smiled I smiled at his words and leant in, pressing my lip to Jake’s,
“So, is this it?” I asked, confused about the events that were about to unravel. Jake frowned at me, at my words.
“What do you mean?” I frowned and jumped off the table, Jake moved back to give me space but kept a hold of my hips. I honestly didn’t want him to let go of my either, but deep down, I knew this was just hormones. Everything about this situation was, there was nothing real to it.
“I mean, we aren’t anything right. We are just two guys that kiss right? I mean we can’t be anything else right?” Jake’s face looked crestfallen. It was just an act, he didn’t think he would lose the boy toy he teased so quickly. He had to know that I had a brain, that I wasn’t stupid.
“Yeah— of course, why would it be anything else, right?” I nodded. What was with the ‘right’? I knew I was hurting him, but it was the truth. He didn’t want anything serious from me, and this was mostly against my will at the start of it.
“I mean, we aren’t even friends Jake, how could we be anything else?” Jake frowned, dropping his grip. Where were my words coming from?
“We could be friends.” I froze, my eyes widening. He can’t actually be serious? I shook the thought of his actually planning this out from my head. There was no way, this was just a one-time thing and it will never happen again because he hates me and I hate him.
“Now is not the time to talk about it, or we are going to be late for class.” Jake nodded and followed me as I left the room. No one noticed because they were all too busy getting their things for class. I let out a breath of relief but hid it when I saw the hurt look on Jake’s face. Did I just hurt Jake’s feelings by saying we weren’t even friends, we were just two people that kissed, for long periods of time? Did he really like me? Oh god— what have I done?
Jake’s P.O.V
He doesn’t really like me— why— I told him my feelings, did he not believe me? My chest hurt— was he lying to me? Did he just not want to get close to me? I need to talk to him— no I don’t, he hurt me— I just need to stay away. That’s all I need to do, then maybe he won’t hate me. Yeah— that’s what I’ll do, just disappear for a few days, keep my distance from Felix, and maybe he won’t hate me. That’s all I have to do, just stay away.
With those words, my choice was made. I left school after break and went home. I sighed looking around the house to see Mum wasn’t there. I frowned, she works too much, why can’t she just have a day off? Oh well, at least I won’t get in trouble straight away, I won’t get in trouble until she gets off work, which is at six, and it’s only eleven now. I sighed, collapsing on the couch.
“Why me?” I frowned, before rolling onto my side and falling asleep.
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“Jake, wake up sweetie.” I moaned and opened my eyes to see my Mum, Sarah, sitting on the couch next to my body. Crap, how long did I sleep for? Does she know I cut class? She isn’t acting like she knows.
“Mum— what are you doing home?” Mum smiled weakly down at me, a sad look in her eyes. Oh, I think she knows I cut class. She never has that look unless she is having a really bad day, but that’s when she tried to hide it from me.
“Works finished, and I came home straight away because I got a call from your school saying you weren’t in class.” I frowned and sat up. Why isn’t she yelling at me? I cut class, I did something bad, why isn’t she mad? She just looks— sad.
“Yeah— look, Mum, about that. I can’t go to school. Just for a week or so, but I just— I—” How do I explain this without sounding creepy? Yeah, Mum, I like this guy at school, but I used to be his bully, but then today I kissed him and he kissed back, but then he went and broke my heart? I sighed. That is so not coming out of my mouth.
“Is it someone at school?” I nodded stiffly, wondering how she knew. Mum smiled down at me,
“Okay, do you like them?” I nodded again and looked away. She knew me too well, now I know why she was my mother.
“Is it a he or a she?” My eyes widened and looked to Mum. What the hell happened while I was asleep?! Who the fuck did she talk to when the school called her. As far as I know, Felix and I were the only ones that know I like Felix and there was very little chance of Felix telling anyone, he wasn’t up for more bullying. Maybe that’s why he rejected me because he thought I was fucking around with him.
“Why would you ask that question?” Mum laughed, her face a light red. I suddenly grew concerned.
“Because I am pretty sure no person would name their daughter Felix.” My eyes widened again. Oh shit—
“How do you know that?” Mum smiled at me, sitting her hand on my shoulder, her face darkening even more. Her touch was different from Felix’s, this made me relaxed. Felix’s woke me up and made me feel alive. Mum made me feel like a child again.
“Because you talk in your sleep, it’s something you have always done, and so when you have those dreams— you tend to say his name— a lot, loudly.” I blushed deeply, the memories of wonderful blissful dreams and annoying bullshit to deal with in the morning returning to my head.
“So you know? And you’re okay with it?” Mum smiled at me and confused look on her face.
“Of course Jakie, I’m so happy you’re growing up.” Mum’s smile grew and I smiled lightly at her, my face flushed.
“Does that mean I can stay home? It will just be for a few days,” Mum nodded while sighing lightly.
“Of course, I just— I am hoping you don’t get hurt.” I smiled weakly at her, “And you can’t stay from school too long. You have to go back next Monday, or Friday if you can, okay?”
“I’ll try not to get hurt, Mum.” A memory from something suddenly came into my head. “But Mum. Doesn’t it mean if it hurts, you’re really in love?” Mum froze at my words, but nodded sadly, seeing the meaning in them.
“I hate that you know that son. Now— how about take away tonight since it’s too late for normal food.” I nodded at her, worried about what she was going to do. Can she even afford to buy takeaway tonight?
“Sounds good Mum,” Mum smiled at me and stood up and started moving out of the room.
“Now why don’t you go have another sleep and I’ll go get tea.” I nodded, as I stood up to follow her as she left the house. Once she was gone, I walked to my room. I felt tired again. Once I reached my room, I fell on my bed and fell asleep instantly. Damn, this day took more out of me than I thought it would.
“Jake, wake up.” A voice interrupted my sleep and I almost screamed. I jumped at the sound of his voice. I knew it anywhere; I opened my eyes to see Felix sitting on my bed, next to me.
“Felix— what are you doing here?” I was so confused. This wasn’t possible, did Felix even know where I lived? Felix smiled down at me,
“Your Mum let me in. I came over to see if you were okay, you disappeared after the break.” I frowned, sitting up. Why would he care that I left after break? It’s not like he cared for me or anything.
“Yeah, I know. I left on purpose; I left to get away from you.” Felix’s face skyrocketed from happy to sad and confused. Why was he acting so oddly?!
“What? Why? Did I do something wrong?” I shook my head, trying to get the pounding thoughts away from my mind.
“No, it was me. I thought I needed to get away from you so you could get used to me being around you. I thought you didn’t want me around you.” Honestly, I think I was mostly planning on giving up. I knew there was no use in a relationship like this and I knew Felix was never going to feel the same about me. Felix looked happy and sad at the same time— honestly, I don’t know how the boy looked like that. But it didn’t stop his from looking beautiful.
“Oh Jake, I love you,” With that Felix leant forward placing his lips on mine. I smiled moving my hands to his neck to pull him closer. I know what’s going on now. Why would Felix ever come and visit me? Felix pulled away, smirking down at me.
“Nope, my turn.” I frowned and cocked my head at him. Felix then proceeded to grab my wrists and pin them to the bed. Felix then climbed on top of me, so he was straddling my hips, as he reconnected our lips. Felix bit down lightly on my lower lip, causing me to moan lightly in the back of my throat.
“Felix, what are you doing?” Felix pulled away smirking,
“I’m taking care of you.” He then proceeded to move his lips to my neck, to the exact spot I hate bit him earlier and started sucking. I moaned and moved my hips up, feeling Felix in his sexy black jeans— which were now gone— the same with his shirt and my shirt— oh crap— I knew it was too good to be true. I yelped as Felix bit down hard on my shoulder,
“No getting distracted Jake, pay attention to me.” I nodded and gulped— what is he going to do? I closed my eyes as I felt Felix slowly kissing down my chest, getting lower and lower, before moving back up. I growled at him and he laughed,
“Oh, Jake— I wouldn’t do that if I were you. Now just relax and let me take care of you,” I nodded and did as he said. I had suddenly entered a world of bliss when I was awoken,
“Jake, wake up.” My eyes shot open against my pillow, and I launched up, almost knocking mum over in the process,
“Oh— Mum, sorry. You back already?” she smiled at me.
“Jakie, I’ve been gone an hour. You were asleep— and having a dream. Now tea is in the lounge, come out when you’re ready.” I nodded confusedly about what she meant. Once she was gone I stood up and I noticed it— I looked down to see myself— I was seriously? I— but how— it was a dream— I thought it wasn’t possible. I blushed as I realised I just dreamt about Felix coming onto me— I had never dreamed like that before, it had always been the other way around. I blushed even harder at the thought,
“Oh god, I am so, so, so, so, so screwed.” I laughed bitterly throwing my head back and groaning. How the hell am I going to put up with this?
Felix’s P.O.V
Jake wasn’t at school for the rest of the day. I frowned, was it something I said or did? God, I hope not. I went through the day, as per normal, but with no one annoying me, and no one to hang out with. I sighed as the final bell went dismissing everyone from class. Finally free for the day.
I thought I was going to see Jake at school the next day, so I could apologise, but he didn’t show. All week he was a no show, and I was worried. Did I really say something that could have hurt his feelings? Did he even have feelings? Well of course he did, he said he liked me right? So that means he must have feelings.
I sighed slamming my locker shut. It was finally the end of Friday which meant the end of the week. I smiled lightly but frowned remembering Jake wasn’t at school. I sighed, why was this affecting me so much? I just need to drop it, and forget all about it. But how can I? I mean come on; the guy took my first kiss. Plus we made out— like a lot. I growled,
“Seriously Felix just get it out of your head.” I hit myself on my head for good measure. I sighed before looking around the halls finding them empty; I banged my head on my locker a few times for good measure.
“I would stop if I were you. We wouldn’t want to damage any more of those beautiful brain cells of yours do you?” I instantly stopped as my head lashed up to see Jake leaning against a locker a few feet away from mine,
“What do you want Jake?” both anger and happiness were bubbling in my stomach. Jake frowned,
“I wanted to see you,” I rolled my eyes,
“Yeah— well it only took you four days.” I was mad. I frowned and leant my head against my locker, not really wanting to look at Jake, who was acting like nothing over the past week has happened. “Did I do— something wrong?” Jake gasped and ran over to me, grabbing a hold of my shoulders and shaking me lightly, trying to capture my complete attention. Well, it was already on him, so what’s the use?
“God no Felix— it was just me and my brain being all stupid. I just, made a mistake with something— no— I— ugg— why is so hard to talk to you?” I smiled at him.
“You’re cute when you stutter,” I muttered. Jake froze and I gasped, my brain finally realising what I just said. “Oh my god— I am so sorry, I didn’t mean to say that— at least I don’t think I did.” Jake smiled lightly at me, a sad look in his eyes. Just how much did I hurt him?
“Oh, Felix— you are much cuter than me.” I smiled, grabbing a hold of Jake’s shirt and pulling him close, confidence suddenly pouring from me. I smirked at him,
“Say ‘I’m cute’ again?” Jake looked resistant. I raised an eyebrow at him,
“Say it, and I’ll let you go.” Jake frowned, not understanding where this situation was going. To be honest, neither did I.
“But I don’t want you to let me go,” I rolled my eyes. My face flushing at Jake’s bluntness.
“Just say it!” I yelled, getting slightly annoyed at the game Jake was playing. Jake smirked; happy he made me lose my cool and I growled lowly, frowning at Jake.
“You’re too cute,” I smiled, using one of my hands to grab the back of Jake’s head and pulled him in for a kiss.
I almost moaned at the contact. I felt like I had been missing this for years. I had never felt anything like it— oh Jake— why didn’t we do this sooner? Oh yeah, because I’m an asshole and Jake was AWOL. I smiled at my question and blushed as Jake’s arms moved; one came up to hold my cheek, and the other moved to my lower back, right above my butt. I squeaked as my back arched in attempt to move away from his hand, but all the happened was my chest crashed into Jake’s, causing the taller boy to laugh at me,
“Not funny— why would you do that?” I asked causing Jake to shrug in response.
“I don’t know, I guess I felt like it. Now— how about we go back to your place and hang out? Just as friends I swear— and it you want there will be no kissing— or if you want kissing then us— I um— I forgot where I was going with this.” I smiled at the boy, lost for words. I quickly pecked him on the lips,
“Sure, just as long as you promise not to do anything weird.” Jake frowned, and looked at me confused,
“What do you mean by weird?” I sighed and pointed to my neck where a fading bruise of Jake’s crazy ass bite resided all week. Jake let out a laugh, before quickly blushing,
“Yeah— about that— sorry.” I shrugged at him, the bite not really concerning me too much anymore. If I were being completely honest, I wanted more.
“Eh— let’s go, it’s finally the weekend and I am sick of this school,” Jake laughed at me,
“How come?” I shrugged. Why was he asking why someone hated school? Doesn’t everyone hate school?
“Just sick of it, Ellen’s been acting like full on weird and is now avoiding me all day everyday— kinda like you were— you were avoiding me right? That’s why you didn’t come to school all week.” Jake sighed and I knew I hit the nail on the head. I knew I fucked up.
“Almost correct, it was more for your safety than of you doing something wrong. I uhh, was scared I had scared you when I bit you on Monday, so I guess I just wanted to give you some time away from me. But it was too hard to wait to see you until next week, so I came to school at the end of the day, and I had the feeling you were going to be the last one here aside from the teachers, so I waited till every student was gone, before finding you and seeing you smash your perfect head on the locker.” I instantly blushed at his words,
“You like my head?” Jake laughed as we walked,
“No— I like everything about you. As creepy as it may sound, I mean everything.” I blushed hard and bit my lip.
“By that do you mean my—” I gestured downwards with my eyes and Jake nodded. My eyes widened and I couldn’t control myself as I grabbed Jake’s neck and pulled his lips onto mine.
He moaned lightly, grabbing my cheeks and opening my mouth, sliding his tongue in. I moaned as his tongue slid against mine. This was the first time we have done this, and it was fucking awesome! I raked my teeth over Jake tongue, then forcing it out of my mouth, and forced my tongue into his mouth. It was Jake’s turn to moan. Things were just getting heated when we heard it— footsteps close by. We pulled apart and quickly hid in an open classroom. We both watched as Mr Bates walked past, without a care in the world. I get the feeling if we were to continue standing out in the hallway making out, Mr Bates wouldn’t even notice.
“That was close,” Jake muttered in my ear. I groaned, turning around and placing my lips on Jake’s again. Jake quickly kissed back before pulling away,
“We need to go unless you really do want to get caught,” I frowned at his words, a part of me wanting to get caught. But then, I wasn’t stupid. I was going to fuck up here. If someone else was to know about the two of us kissing, I would deny everything and hurt Jake again. But, all these emotions bubbling up inside of me made me happy and I didn’t want to lose this feeling. I haven’t felt this alive in years.
“As much as I don’t want to get caught, I really just want to stay here and make out with you.” Jake groaned and I smirked knowing that it was what we were both thinking.
“Hey, I had to— now come on, before someone else walks by.” Jake nodded as we both stood up moving out of the room cautiously. I fixed my bag on my shoulder as we ran, laughing lightly.
At this rate, we were going to get back to my place quickly— is that what he wants? Well, I guess that two of us being seen together in public would be pretty weird to anyone that knows us. I shook the thought from my head. Once we were away from the school we slowed down to a pace where we were both walking next to each other,
“Twenty questions?” Jake asked. I nodded, suddenly confused about the sudden game.
“Sure— it would be nice to be able to get to know the schools bully,” Jake frowned, as the words left my mouth in a tease.
“Please don’t call me that,” I frowned,
“Sorry, I didn’t mean it like that. I was just joking,” Jake sighed shaking his head,
“Yeah I know, I didn’t mean to snap sorry. So you go first,” I laughed, at his enthusiasm. Hmm, what do I want to know about Jake? Let’s start with something nice and easy.
“Okay— um— favourite colour?” Jake laughed and smiled brightly at me, his knuckles slipping past mine every so often, causing my face to redden.
“Brown or green I guess. I don’t really know,” I smiled, at his answer. It was such an odd answer.
“Those are cool colours, your turn.” Jake thought for a moment before asking,
“When’s your birthday?” I laughed and blushed,
“24th of July,” Jake stopped and thought for a moment,
“So it’s still a few months away?” I nodded and start to cross the road, eager to get back to my house and be alone with Jake.
“FELIX, LOOK OUT!” My head lashed up, and suddenly— everything was a blur.
*Just so you know, Felix doesn’t have a birthday in the show, but he does have possible dates since the elements are based on star signs, I just can’t be bothered checking what star signs are fire cause I’m a lazy little fuck. Enjoy guys.*
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