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“Fuck!” Shiela rushes down the hall as Tan eats his bagel “why didn’t you wake me up?” She sees him dressed and ready for school
“You didn’t ask me to”
“Well we’re running late and I have a meeting in 20 minutes”
“Responsibilities am I right?” Tan jokes as his mother collects her stuff and looks for her keys
“Can I trust you to get to school by yourself?” She looks over at him sitting at the counter eating his bagel and drinking his orange juice.
“Yes mother I’m not a child”
“All right I’ll probably be working late so your father will pick you up, make sure you eat dinner Tanner!” she leaves shutting the door.
Getting a better idea Tan picks up his phone calling Sven, Not expecting him to pick up Tan’s eyes grow when he hears “Hey”
“Hi didn’t think you would answer”
“Why wouldn’t I?”
“You’re mad at me and are ignoring me”
“Do you need me for something Tan? I’m about to drive to school” Tan called as he was climbing in the car
“That’s why I was calling, I need a ride to school and was wondering if maybe we could carpool and talk?”
Taking a breath Sven answers “sure I’m on my way.”
“Okay thanks” they hang up and Tan smiles, he has a devious thought in his head and it does not have to do with going to school.
Finishing getting ready Tan brushes his teeth after breakfast and impatiently waits for Sven to arrive.
Walking up to the door and ringing the doorbell Sven stands tall waiting for Tan to come out, but when the door opens something else happens. Pulling Sven in Tan shuts the door “are you ready to-” before he could finish his question Tan’s lips were already on his.
Tan kisses him expecting to be kissed back but Sven doesn’t “why won’t you kiss me back?” He asks still kissing Sven’s lips
“Because I don’t know what you want Tan”
Breathing heavy against Sven’s lips as his fingers massage his hair “I want you” he whispers pecking Sven’s lips waiting for some kind of response. Unable to hold anymore Sven starts to kiss him back, holding Tan tight as their kiss deepens. Tan pulls his lips away “skip school with me we can stay here.”
Without a second thought, he answers “yes.” Tan moves in to kiss him again but Sven lets go of him “see how easy that was?” Sven asks taking a step back leaving Tan confused “I will say yes to whatever you want Tan but-“
“Can we please not talk about this right now?”
“Fine, then I’m going to school.”
Tan watches as he’s about to leave and tries to figure out a way to stop him, the only way to stop him is to bring out Harris Tan.
There are two sides to Tan, when he’s at school he’s fun high school Tan who hangs out with his best friends and crushes on the hottest boy in Chicago, but when he’s with Harris he’s mature Tan. He’s not afraid to go after what he wants with Harris and right now he wants Sven so he shouldn’t be afraid.
“Are you sure you want to do that?” Tan asks grabbing his arm “because I can think of so many reasons for you to stay,” moving to him Tan runs his hands under Sven’s shirt running his fingers against the boy’s chest and abs. Reaching his lips to Sven’s ear he starts to nibble and kiss it making Sven feel so good
“That’s not going to work Tan” the words barely make it out of his mouth as he stands there with his eyes closed trying to resist Tan’s lips as they lick and kiss his neck.
“Are you sure? Because I think it’s already working.”
They start to kiss and Sven picks him up pinning him to the nearest wall and Tan wraps his legs around the tall boy. Tan is in Heaven getting exactly what he wants.
We all know he should feel guilty, but he’s hurt and to him, this is sticking it to Harris but the truth is Harris leaving is Tan’s opportunity to see where things will go with Sven.
Carrying Tan to the couch Sven sits with Tan on top of him. “Oh, my god Tan you feel so good” Sven moans as Tan grinds on him while they kiss. Sven knows there’s a difference between them right now and what happened on Tuesday, Tan’s acting differently. “Stop wait” he holds Tan by the arms away from him “we should take this slow” Tan smiles “I don’t think we should have sex until you’re sure of what you want” and Tan’s smile is gone.
He climbs off sitting on the other side of the couch crossing his arms “we already had sex Sven”
Sven turns to Tan “and I know that wasn’t enjoyable for you, which kind of makes me feel like I took advantage of you.”
“You didn’t!”
“That’s why I’ve been trying to get you to give us a chance Tan, I like you and I feel things for you” his eyes don’t lie and without knowing it he’s making Tan feel so guilty. “But there’s something holding you from me and sometimes I doubt you’re telling the truth. I think maybe he’s making it up because he actually doesn’t want to be with me”
“I’m not I swear” Tan moves to him pleading. Thinking about it for a moment Tan realizes something, if he admits to lying he won’t have to come up with a reason as to why he can’t be with Sven. Maybe this is how he erases Harris from his high school life, by pretending he doesn’t exist at all, and with Harris gone it’ll be easier to control both his lives. “Wait no you’re right”
“I am?” Sven is confused by Tan’s agreement
“I just wanted this for so long and now that it’s finally happening I think I panicked or I am panicking. Either way, I just didn’t want to ruin it but I guess pushing you away is kind of ruining it, huh?”
“So you were making it all up?” Tan lies nodding “that’s crazy” he chuckles “you’re crazy Tan”
“You make me crazy!” They both laugh and everything isn’t awkward anymore. “I’m sorry I’ve been acting so weird lately, it just scared me how fast everything was moving between us.”
“I understand trust me, which is why I think we should take things slow and not have sex”
“Wow, you’re really not letting up with this not having sex thing?” Sven shakes his head no “fine we won’t have sex, yet, but good luck sticking to that.” Tan reaches over about to grab Sven’s bulge but instead reaches past him and grabs the tv remote “guess we’ll watch some tv.”
Tan and Sven sit on opposite sides of the couch trying to avoid each other knowing all they want to do is kiss all over the couch. Neither are actually interested in what’s happening on the tv. Both boys sneak quick glances and smiles at each other while the other isn’t looking.
“Are you hungry?” Tan breaks the silence turning to Sven
“I think I’m ok. Why? Are you?”
“No, I’m good”
They go back to the tv after the awkward questions.
Another wave of silence passes but then Tan’s phone rings breaking it. He sees Erica calling him Sven looks over at him as he answers “heyyyyy Munch” he answers suspiciously
“Don’t Munch me, Tan! Where are you?”
“Home I don’t feel good”
Erica takes a long pause then replies “I’m not stupid Tan, I guess it’s just a coincidence Sven’s not here either?”
Tan looks over at Sven smiling “he’s not there? That’s weird” they quietly laugh
“I’m gonna kill you” she hangs up
Tan laughs out loud “she’s pissed”
“Who was that, Lin?” He asks laughing along.
Tan’s expression changes as soon as Sven says Lin’s name “no Erica” he puts his phone down.
Sven takes a pause then asks Tan to “come here”
Tan turns to him smiling “why?”
“Just come here” He pulls Tan on top of him “just because we’re not having sex doesn’t mean we can’t kiss,” Sven says as he brings his face to Tan about to kiss him.
“But kissing leads to sex right?” Tan asks innocently chuckling
“Who have you been kissing?” Sven laughs asking as a joke. Tan goes quiet and distant at the obvious question, Sven continues “doesn’t matter” he notices how uncomfortable the question makes him. “It’s you and me now and I like it.”
They both smile at each other “I like it too” Tan replies then they kiss, as their kissing Tan’s phone rings again on the coffee table. “I’m gonna ignore it,” he says between Sven’s lips. But the ringing bother them both so much “I’ll just see who it is” he pulls away grabbing the phone behind him, “it’s my dad!” he sees the screen and panic
“Don’t answer it! Don’t-” Tan covers Sven’s mouth and picks up
“Hi dad” Tan makes a face at Sven as he scolds him under his hand
“Hey Tan I won’t be able to pick you up I have to stay back at work, can you have one of your friends drop you home?”
Tan’s eyes never leave Sven’s “yeah no problem”
“Ok and don’t mention this to your mother all right? Can’t deal with a fight tonight”
“Lips are sealed”
“Good and find something to eat, haven’t seen you eat in days kid.”
“I ate this morning dad” he rolls his eyes as he answers. Tan could’ve moved his hand from Sven’s lips a long time ago but for some reason, he likes it there. “I’m gonna go see you at home”
“Ok bye” they hang up
Tan moves his hand and Sven gasps for air “oh come on you were breathing through your nose” Tan calls his bluff.
“Thanks for almost killing me”
“You’re welcome now can we please keep kissing?”
“Don’t have to ask twice” they move to each other’s lips.
The day goes on and the boys find themselves in Tan’s bed laying in each other’s arms “school’s out” Sven says looking at his watch.
“Yeah?” Tan looks at him
“Can we go out? I want to show you something”
“What?” Tan sits up next to Sven
“Come out with me and I’ll show you”
Tan smiles “or you can tell me now and we can avoid the surprise”
“No, I think you’re gonna like this one” Sven climbs off the bed “come on trust me”
Looking into his eyes Tan couldn’t help but trust him, he knows Sven won’t hurt him and if it makes sense it’s what’s hurting Tan the most. He thinks about how much he can hurt Sven and it makes him sick, “I trust you” Tan stands up going to Sven kissing him “I can’t wait to see what it is.”
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