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Second Father
During the age of nineteen I thought about your father a lot. He was like a second father to me. He always made sure I was comfortable. He always greeted me with open arms. I often wonder what you told him that night when you admitted you were in a relationship with a guy.
I never knew if you were gay or you just liked me because I confessed and you were close to me. I didn’t even know if you liked girls. You never spoke about them to me.
What did your father do to you? Did he get violent with you since he was a single father? He was probably lonely wasn’t he? Could I even feel sympathy for him since he hurt you physically and brainwashed you? I don’t even know.
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At twenty-one I broke my arm from a biking accident so I went to the hospital to get a cast. I caught sight of your father in a hospital room. He was getting ready to leave as we made eye contact.
“Daisuke! Long time!” He said to me. “Do you still hang with Haru?” He asked happily.
You didn’t tell him it was me that you were with did you? That is why he is so happy around me still.
“No sadly. We went separate ways for college.” I lied.
“It was so nice watching you two grow.” He smiled happily. “You two should catch up sometime.” Your father looked so old and tired. However, he still had that sweet genuine smile on his face.
“Why are you here?”
“I have cancer so they are monitoring my health and progression.” He looked a bit sad, but still kept the smile on his face.
I didn’t feel sad that he had cancer. He hurt you in the end. I just felt bad because a part of me can’t hate him either. I knew deep down your father does love me like his very own. I’m awful.
“Sir…I have to tell you something. Please hear me out.” I said as my head turned to the floor. I couldn’t look at him.
“Yeah?”
“I was dating Haru before for five years. I don’t know if he told you. I’m sorry.” I fisted.
“You turned my son gay didn’t you?” I could hear the spite in his voice as I felt a hard impact across my cheek.
I held my cheek as I looked up at him painfully. “I loved him.”
“Get out of my sight. He has a girlfriend now.” He looked furious as he storms out the hospital.
I felt defeated. Maybe I did something wrong. Maybe he will find you and beat you. I wanted to hit you. How could you? How could you get a girlfriend? I didn’t even know about this.
My heart crumbled thinking of you holding another, kissing another, and going home to another. Another that wasn’t me. You hurt me. You betrayed me when I gave you the world.
I’m bitter, but I knew deep down there will be a chance for us to meet again. I know you’ll feel my love still then.
To Be Continued
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