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Jacob’s POV
I pulled away first, my eyes still closed, and before I was able to open my eyes again, I was pulled into a hug.
“Thank you.” Shawn whispered.
“For what?” I asked.
“This. Everything. I’ve been feeling feelings towards both genders, but I’ve ignored the ones towards guys. But then you come around and change everything. I’ve never felt like this about someone that’s a guy before.” Shawn explained, pulling away from the hug.
I was in shock, I didn’t know what to say or how react. This was all so new to me.
“I don’t deserve this Shawn, I’m just some random fan that met you at a meet and greet, there are so many other people that deserve you.” I said, looking down. Yes, I am grateful to be able to be this close to Shawn, to go on a date with him, and to be whatever we are, but I’ve talked to so many fans online who are much bigger fans than me, like way bigger.
“Jacob, don’t say that about yourself. Yes, there’s so many other fans that I could’ve taken on a date, but I chose you, didn’t I?” Shawn spoke, putting his finger under my chin to make me look up at him.
I nodded, and smiled. He grabbed my hand and started to pull me to wherever he wants to go.
“Now let’s get back home.” Shawn said as we walked to my car together.
-=+=-
“Shawn, I knew going out in the rain was a bad idea.” I said, as I finished wrapping him in a blanket in my bed. I grabbed the wet cloth that was soaking in warm water, and placed it on his head.
“Getting sick was worth being able to spend time with you.” Shawn said, and I smacked his arm.
“Stop trying to hard or I’m gonna leave.” I said as I sat next to a Shawn in a blanket burrito.
“You can’t hit me I’m sick.” Shawn said and I rolled my eyes at him.
“Here, let me grab medicine for you I’ll be right back.” I said and he nodded. I walked into my kitchen, and opened the pantry that held all of our medicine. I tried to find the one for a cold, but I am currently not having any good luck.
“Where are you where are you.” I spoke to myself, “ah! There!” I reached for the box of medicine and opened it, but all that was inside were empty packets where the pills would be. I sighed, knowing that I probably left it in there knowing that I was probably too lazy to throw it away. I grabbed the empty box and threw into the trash and walked back to my room where Shawn was.
“Hello!” Shawn said happily, but then sneezed right after.
“I don’t have anymore medicine, but I can go to the store and grab some really quick!” I said and Shawn nodded, starting to get out of bed, but I quickly jumped on him to stop him.
“What was that for?” Shawn said as I tried to wrap him back up.
“You’re sick, I’m not. You need to sleep and get rest! Just let me go by myself, I’m a big boy.” I explained as I got up and smiled.
“Jacob I’m fi-” Shawn started but I cut him off.
“If you get out of this bed I will personally stab you.” I threatened him, and he just sighed.
“Fine fine.” Shawn grumbled, closing his eyes.
“I’ll be back in like 15 minutes!”
-=+=-
I’m currently at Starbucks right now, waiting for my name to be called. I bought the medicine, but because Shawn is sick, he deserves some green tea to drink it down.
I went on twitter to see something interesting on my timeline.
@ shawnieshawnshawn: @ shawnmendes can someone help me understand what these photos are?
Then, I saw the photos and it was of Shawn and I. Hugging, and holding hands as we were walking. Someone was at the park when we went, what maniac would go to the park when it’s pouring?
“Order for Jacob.” The barista called, and I walked over to pick up the drinks.
“Thank you.” I said as I started walking back to my car. But on my way there, I heard someone calling my name.
“Jacob? Jacob?” I turned around to see a group of girls walking towards me.
“Yeah?” I asked confused because I did not know these people.
“You’re the one in these photos! You were in the older photos and I didn’t believe them, but these new photos show you and him together again!” She explained upset, and I didn’t know what to do.
“Umm, no I think you have the wrong person.” I said trying to defend myself.
“Stop lying, he’s not fucking gay. He’s straight and I have photos to prove it. So you better back the fuck away from him.” Another girl said to me and I felt so small, but I knew I have to defend him somehow, but I don’t know how. No one knows that he has feelings for both men and women.
“What does his sexuality have to do with anything? He’s a human being who makes music, gay or not, all the focus should be on his music not his personal life.” I explained, and the girls just rolled their eyes at me.
“Look, see, he’s hooked up with me before.” The girl explained showing a photo of Shawn shirtless in bed with the sheets all messed up. That sort of made my heart pang with sadness, but this probably is an old photo right? Shawn is a normal person and normal people get the temptation to want to have sex right? I mean he is Shawn Mendes.
“Congrats on hooking up with him! You want a ribbon for it?” I asked starting to get annoyed. They just looked at me, with shock. Probably not expecting me to talk back like that. I turned around and made my way to my car. I opened the passenger door and put the drinks inside before closing it.
“We’re not done talking yet!” The girl said walking back to me and I sighed, turning to face them.
“Look, I’m just a friend of Shawn, and you’re just a girl he fucked. Conversation over.” I said and I turned away from them.
She grabbed my arm, and forced me to turn around before smacking me right in the face, which caused me to yelp in pain. The sound echoed and I turned away from them again.
All the confidence I had, vanished, and I felt so small compared to them now.
“Don’t you ever fucking talk to me like that!” The girl explained.
“Listen up, Shawn is straight, and not into faggots like you. He will never, be into you.” Another girl explained before walking off.
I grabbed my face, tears starting to fall. Their words hurt, a lot. It made me think about how Shawn might just be with me for pity. The words he said to me at the park, were they just lies? The kiss, did it even mean anything to him? I mean, he did hook up with one of them, so it’s obvious he’s into women. He probably said he’s into me because he felt bad for me, because I’m just he guy who passed out at his concert and made a huge embarrassment to myself. He probably just felt pity. He’s probably just being my friend for now, and when he leaves I’ll never hear from him again.
I quickly drove back home not wanting to deal with life right now. I was so upset with what happened, that I just want to sleep today away, and pretend it didn’t happen.
Once I got back, I took out two pills, and took Shawn’s tea to my room because I want him to get better. But, I kept thinking about what those girls said. I believe Shawn and what he told me earlier, but what those girls said I feel so confused. I shook those thoughts away, and putting all my focus into making Shawn better, and then I’ll deal with life later.
“Honey, I’m home.” I said as I walked in my room, trying to hide the fact that I cried the whole drive here.
“Hello!” Shawn said and sneezed twice, “I hate being sick.”
I waked over to him and helped him sit up.
“I’m sick, I can set up on my own.” Shawn said laughing, and I smiled slightly.
“Here, take these pills, and drink it down with tea.” I said holding the tea and putting the pills in his hand.
Once he swallowed the pills with the tea, I grabbed the tea, laid it on the table and he laid back down.
“How’d you know I liked green tea?” He asked.
“Shawn, I’m a fan what do you expect.” I said. He smiled and looked at me, before his smile faded, a look of concern taking over, “Jacob are you okay?” He asked and I just nodded.
“Yeah, I’m fine.” I said quietly avoiding eye contact and about to leave the room but he pulled me back, looking at me sternly, “okay, something happened and made me cry, but I’m fine now.”
“No you’re not, I can see it. What happened.” Shawn said, “please tell me, I want to help you.”
“I don’t want to talk about it right now.” I said and he just sighed.
“Why don’t you tell me now. Did I do something wrong?”
No but your fans did.
“No, Shawn you did nothing.” I said looking away, tears threatening to fall again.
“You’re obviously upset over something, tell me, I can tell I have something to do about it because you’re crying.” Shawn said concerned.
“I don’t want to talk about it.” I answered, I can see the sadness on his face but I can’t tell him that his fans are questioning him and I. I can’t tell him that his fan slapped me. He probably doesn’t even know new photos of us got out.
“Will you at least stay here with me?” Shawn asked, and I nodded. He moved to make space for me, lifting the blanket and I laid right next to him and he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer.
Right now, I felt safe, but I also felt guilty. I’m causing drama about him, and he for sure isn’t going to like what’s being said about us.
I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.
-=+=-
Word Count: 1,772
Updated: 07/19/2017
A/N
I updated! I wrote this on my plane back home back to Alaska. Las Vegas and San Diego were great, and it was nice to get out of Alaska.
The concert was amazing, I loved every moment of it and I miss him and Charlie already.
If you don’t listen to Charlie Puth by the way, I highly recommend listening to him! He is such a talented singer, and I’m so happy I got to see him perform at the concert as well!
I didn’t really vlog it, just filmed a few songs that I wanted to because I just wanted to enjoy my short few hours at the concert. If you want to see some of the songs I recorded, plus my loud voice singing badly with him let me know! I know I recorded Roses because duh it’s an amazing song but I don’t remember what I else I recorded to be honest.
This chapter was pretty long because I have a lot of time by doing nothing on the plane so I decided to write and listen to music!
I’ll start writing next chapter on my next flight, which is later on today and I’ll probably upload next week, or in a few days, depending on how many chapters I’m able to write because my phone is dying so I need to charge it during my layover!
As always, your votes and comments are always appreciated!
Until next time, I don’t have a sign off!
-Jacob
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