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My eyes fade open to see a windshield, as they soon close again. It was hard to hold them open. “Oh my god, please tell me you’re conscious!” An extremely worried voice spoke from the void, which pained me to hear. It was, of course, jason. I tried to mumble an apology, pained about what I had just did. “Please stop, save your energy and try to stay conscious, we’re almost to the hospital.” He said as I felt a sharp turn, and my vision blurred with tears, and I fell back into darkness.
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Blinding white light awoke me. I slowly look around at where I am, in a comfortable white bed. It didn’t take me long to find out im at the hospital. I look over to see Jason’s ginger hair lying on the bed. I put my hand on his head and stared back into space.
“Oh my god, you’re awake! Holy god!” He said as he quickly pressed the button to alert the nurse. He turned back to me and stared into my eyes, which gave me a feeling. I slowly picked my hand up to cup his face and pull him over to my lips, lightly pressing them together.
It wasnt a spark, or an explosion, there wasnt an overwhelming feeling. It just felt like… They belong there. He smelled of his musk, which most people wouldnt like, but I did. I heard the door open and I pull away, telling he didnt want to.
The nurse checked my vitals and fluids, and told me that im lucky to be alive. “Though weve scheduled you to a month in red rivers mental facility.” I just looked over at Jason, which was staring quietly. “Yeah, I guessed that. Just let Jason know when the visiting hours are.” I said as I looked over at jason. She then walked out and Jason lifted his head.
“Why?”
“I dont really know. It wouldnt be the first time.”
“First time?”
“The,” I said as I looked down at my thighs, “The first time I’ve tried to kill myself.”
“What? When? Why?” He said as he looked up at me in pain.
“Well it was last year, and…” I looked down, hesitant to tell him why.
“And?”
“And it was because of you. You were the last dude I cared for, and after all the shit that you said and did, I just stopped caring for myself. I shoved the last of my heart into a bottle of vodka and tried to make myself bleed out. Though it seems the devil isnt fully prepared for when I come home.”
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