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Alfonso (Alfie) Mendez >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
It has been several weeks since I asked my best friend to be my boyfriend and in all honesty they have been the best weeks of my life so far. Although we still haven’t come out and we have been trying to make things remain the same so that Lucas doesn’t click on. We decided we would have to tell him soon though as he is our best friend and we both feel so guilty keeping this from him.
School started and as usual the three of us are in all the same classes so everything is the same as always with one exception, Theo decided it was pointless to put it off so he started school with us. My mum spoke to the head and gave enough details to ensure that Theo would be in our classes too.
Elliot left for the army on the Monday after his party, he has finished his training and is already in Afghanistan. My mum and dad were beside themselves at first but I am trying to be strong and Theo is helping me to convince them that he will be fine. He has managed to send us a few letters and has called us once to let us know what he has been up to since he arrived and it was really good to hear his voice.
Much to Domingo’s annoyance I stuck to the dare that my, oh so horrible best friend Lucas gave me and I have been kissing a new girl each week since the beginning of September. It is now the beginning of February and I am thoroughly sick of it, Domingo is too and I am planning to back out of the bet but Lucas will be looking for a reason why.
It is not as if Dom thinks I am going to leave him but it can’t be nice to watch your boyfriend kissing a new girl each week. If he was doing it I would be raging, so I decided that I would swallow my pride and tell Lucas I am too chicken to continue and hopefully he would believe me. If not Dom and I decided it might be finally time to come clean, I would have done it before now but I am worried about what he will think.
So I decided there was no time like the present, I went to my locker to drop my bag off then Dom, Lucas, Theo and I head to the cafeteria for lunch.
“Lucas I am not doing my dare this week, I am not doing my dare anymore in fact.” I said.
“Why not?! A dares a dare Charlie.” He retorted.
“Because I don’t want to I am admitting I am a chicken and I am backing out.” I said smiling.
“I don’t believe you something else is up, have you fallen for one of them?” He smirked.
I could feel Dom stiffen beside me and I squeezed his thigh in reassurance, I had not fallen for one of the girls. I had realised as soon as Dom and I admitted how we felt, that the reason I hadn’t been with any girls was not due to my school work like I first thought, but because I was just not aware yet that I was in love with my best friend.
“No I haven’t fallen for one of them.” I replied.
“Please excuse me, despite this being a thrilling conversation I have to meet Alfie for a moment before class.” Theo said and left.
“What is with him hanging around with Alfie loads lately?” Dom asked.
“I don’t know they just seemed to have clicked they might have something in common, Theo won’t talk about it?” I replied.
“Stop changing the conversation you two, Charlie you never back out of a dare so I want the real reason.” Lucas said.
“Lucas.” Dom pleaded.
“No Dom you two are not telling me something and I want to know?!” He snapped now.
“Ok Lucas, let’s go to an empty class I don’t want anyone else to hear this right now.” I said to him.
We jumped up and all walked back out of the cafeteria towards the classrooms, I looked in each one as we passed and then opened the first one that was empty and walked in. Lucas and Dom followed behind me and closed the door, Lucas stood facing me with his arms crossed he looked quite tense.
“Ok, so what is going on?” He asked clearly confused now.
“Look just don’t freak out ok, and remember nothing has changed these past few months. Just remember that ok?” I said.
“Ok.” He replied looking worried.
“Well do you remember Elliot’s leaving party, erm… Dom and I got to talking and well we kind of realised that… well we-“
“We love each other…as more than friends.” Dom finished and grabbed my hand.
We both looked nervously towards Lucas trying to gauge his reaction and I don’t know about Dom but I couldn’t help but breathe a sigh of relief as a smile spread across his face. He walked towards us and pulled us both into a tight hug and slapped us on the back.
“So you’re like together and you have been kissing girls each week since September?” He asked.
“Yes and yes.” I replied. “That’s why I just can’t do it anymore its hurting me and Dom.”
“Why didn’t you just tell me?” He asked his face dropping now.
“Were so sorry Lucas, we just wanted to make sure it was for real and needed to come to terms with it ourselves before we told anyone.” Dom supplied.
“Yes we are really sorry we should have told you at least.” I agreed.
“I guess I can understand but come on it can’t really be that much different to how you two were before?” He asked. “I mean you have always been closer than most people.”
“True but this is a little bit different now, if you catch my meaning?” I asked.
“Oh, you mean sex?” He replied.
“Well kind of but we haven’t gone that far yet, like I said we’ve been taking it slow coming to terms with it.” I repeated.
“Ok well, I suppose I will let you out of your dare then.” He grinned and I hugged him again.
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As the weeks rolled on we got closer and closer to graduation, Lucas had accepted the news about Dom and I really well and we were all just as close as ever. Theo was still Theo, he had neither broken down yet nor come out of his shell, and he was still attending therapy sessions at school and spending a hell of a lot of time with Alfie.
When we questioned him about it he just shrugged his shoulders and walked away, when we asked Alfie he just said they were friends, problem was I noticed that this new found friendship however good it was for Theo was leaving Sofia out more and more.
Exams were due next week and then my parents said I could have everyone over after graduation to celebrate, Dom and I decided that we would come out then. After all it had been nine months now and we were certain that things were not going to change between us anytime soon.
If it was possible we were even closer, so close that I am surprised that no one had noticed yet. Domingo stopped at mine as much as he was allowed and I stayed at his when he wasn’t, we haven’t made love it’s a big step and we wanted to make it special. We mainly just kiss a lot, help each other get off and on the odd occasion we have performed oral on each other. The first time I came, because of Dom was like heaven on earth, I know it sounds cliché but it’s true he makes me feel so good and I know when we eventually do it… well let’s just say I can’t wait to feel that unique bond.
I was a bit scared to come out to my parents and to Domingo’s family, Maria was like a second mum to me and I didn’t want her to think I was corrupting her son. Being Hispanic she was particularly religious but not in the way where she threw it in your face, she just prayed a lot and had a few religious objects around her flat. Being English my family weren’t particularly religious, we all believed in god but we didn’t attend church or preach the bible.
I wasn’t sure how they would react and I didn’t want them to separate us, I couldn’t bare it because Dom was first and foremost my best friend and it would kill me. I really wanted to tell Elliot too but I would have to wait until his next phone call which wasn’t for another month. So far Elliot had managed to keep himself safe but that didn’t stop us all worrying but he is unable to call more often so we rely a lot upon his letters.
As the exams played out I couldn’t think of anything but graduation, I tried to concentrate on my work as I needed to pass these exams for college but I wasn’t managing very well to stay focused. Dom seemed to be suffering just as much as I was and no matter how many times Lucas told us everyone would be ok with it, it didn’t change how much we were worried.
By the end of exam week I was a pure mess, even Dom couldn’t calm me down. I was utterly convinced that we were both either going to be split up and have to leave home to be together or they were just going to simply ignore us in protest. Either one of those scenarios would break my heart because I loved my family very much and I wanted them to accept us.
I guess I would just have to wait and see.
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