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Domingo’s POV.
I am so disappointed in him.
How dare he treat me like this, he didn’t give me a moment’s thought. He never gave me the choice to beg him to stay or to decide to follow him. He took that right away from me and he planned on leaving and letting me go as if I was just your average high school crush!
I rang the cinema the next day and cancelled the proposal, they probably thought we had split up or something and I felt ridiculous. I had been so self-assured and cocky hoping that this would be awesome and that Charlie would love it. I had gone to so much effort and now I wasn’t even sure if we would make it through today let alone married.
As the anger dissipated I began to look at it all differently, I began to think about how much Charlie probably had thought about me. He probably didn’t want me to leave my kids behind, thinking I would eventually get over it and move on. Well I won’t!
I can’t even look at him at the moment so I have been avoiding him like the plague. I know I am hurting him I can see it every time I bump into him by mistake but I just can’t deal with him right now. But I was running out of time as our anniversary was next week and he would be gone from my life possibly for good.
I don’t want him to leave me here but I am not going to be selfish this is Charlie’s dream and I won’t stand in the way of that, I refuse to hold him back. If I did that he would eventually grow to resent me and would end up leaving me anyway. I don’t even know if I would fit in in England? The culture is so different, I have always been surrounded by Hispanic people but in England I would probably stick out like a sore thumb.
God that is just pathetic, if that’s the best excuse I can come up with then I don’t deserve Charlie anyway. I don’t know what to do but I can’t see my life without him, so should I be selfish and beg him with everything I have in me to stay or should I go to England and leave my world behind?
I find myself sitting and just staring into to space, thinking back on how long we were friends before we realised our feelings for each other. How everyone seemed to know before we did and how we have been even more inseparable ever since.
I think about our first cuddle, our first kiss, the first time we made love and how scared we were to tell everyone even though they knew. I think about our sneaky kisses when we thought Lucas wasn’t looking during our college years and our trips to Vegas. Our first encounter with homophobes and how happy we were to finally move in together alone at last.
Do I want that to end? I think I have always known the answer to that question now I just needed to tell Charlie I just hoped he could cope with my answer.
Charlie’s POV.
Domingo is avoiding me, he didn’t even give me a chance to beg him to come with me so now he thinks that I was just going to walk away from everything that is us. Every time I try and approach him he leaves the room his face contorted in pain and I am not sure I can take much more of this.
We are wasting precious time together because if he is going to let me go then I will be leaving next week and I wanted to spend every second of it with him. I feel so lonely at the minute without him near me, I am so used to him clinging to me like a second skin and I feel cold without that cloak.
Every time I see those deep brown eyes looking at me filled with sadness I feel so guilty that I am doing this to him, to us. I need this though, this is my dream job and I have worked so hard for this. It is not as if I ever lied to him, since we were kids I told him I always wanted to work for Great Ormond street I just didn’t think it would ever happen.
I thought I would be happy here with him, he could be my new dream. When Dr Finkle told me about this chance though everything that I had settled for just became, well not good enough. That doesn’t include Domingo, just my career. Domingo will always be my forever and I need him to come with me and this internal struggle with my selfishness is getting harder and harder.
I need to stop this silence and talk to him but every time I try he just pulls further away from me. It’s almost like he is trying to get used to us being apart but I won’t allow that, I will not let him go without a fight even if that means I am selfish.
I walked around the flat waiting for him to come home, I had been given the rest of the week off so that I could make arrangements. I had to tell my mum and that didn’t go very well at all, she flipped out screaming at me and when the anger left the disappointment came which was worse.
She wasn’t angry that I was following my dreams just disappointed that I had to move so far from home when I promised I wouldn’t. She was upset for Domingo and for Elliot and Theo. Once she was sure that this was really what I wanted she had kissed me and wished me luck, then she fled from the room in tears.
That didn’t help my situation with Domingo any because his mother must have told him and he looked even sadder that day. I had booked my flight and even paid for a spare ticket in case luck was on my side and Dom decided that he wanted to come with me. I wasn’t holding out any hope for that because he couldn’t even talk to me right now let alone leave his home for me.
I have spent the day packing up my clothes and belongings that I will be taking with me then the rest of my stuff will follow me separately. Now I was running around making sure I hadn’t missed anything while I waited for Dom to come home from school.
I was going to force him to stay and sit down. I needed him to talk to me and tell me what he was thinking about me right now, I really needed us to separate on good terms. I love him and I need him to know that I never meant to break us, I want him to know that I will always love him.
When I heard the door I raced to meet him so that he couldn’t go into another room and lock the door behind him. I watched as he looked at my cases and his eyes filled when they met mine. He moved to walk away but I blocked his path and grabbed onto him.
“We need to talk please.” I begged.
He just looked at me, it felt like forever because he didn’t say a word to me but then he nodded his head and followed me into the living room. I sat down on the sofa and gestured for him to do the same and thankfully with a big sigh he complied.
“Domingo please look at me.” I pleaded. “I love you and I never meant to hurt you. You didn’t give me a chance to explain the other day but I want you to come with me. I don’t want to be without you and I am so sorry that I am selfish but I really really want this opportunity and I want to experience it with you.
I have been thinking none stop about us. From the moment we met, how everyone knew about us before we did, our first kiss, the first time we made love. I love you. All of you and I can’t, won’t give you up easily. Please Domingo please come with me, I know you have your family and job but I need you. Please don’t let me go.”
He turned his head away without saying anything to me and my breath caught, I looked at him as emotions played across his beautiful face but he said nothing. When he stood up I thought he was going to leave me without another word to me but he began to frantically pace in front of me. He looked tormented like he had something to say but had no idea how to say it and this made me really worried.
He continued to pace for a long time and I sat there in silence, patiently waiting for him to sort his thoughts out and transform them into words. I mentally crossed my fingers in hope that this wouldn’t end bad but the look on his face was anything but positive. Then he began to speak to me in a rush of words, I had to pay very close attention to make them out because he kept flitting in and out of Spanish and never stopped his pacing.
“Charlie…I don’t think you are selfish this is your dream and I have always known that. I am so disappointed that you weren’t going to tell me, weren’t going to give me the opportunity to decide what I wanted to do. Now you sit there saying I didn’t give you the chance to ask me, that you don’t want to leave me and that you want me to come with you?! You should have given me the credit I deserved and told me as soon as you found out about this, do I not mean that much to you?” He asked voice breaking.
“Yes you do Domingo I just didn’t know if I was going to take it or not, the only thing that crossed my mind was you. Always you.” I cried out as he continued to pace.
“Arrgh I should have just done it more simply, I shouldn’t have messed around with Elliot and Lucas making a stupid video when I could have just asked you. I know it wouldn’t have changed you leaving but at least maybe you would have loved me enough to let me know you were going.” He said mostly to himself.
“What are you talking about Domingo?” I asked confused.
“Qué tal enredo!” He yelled.
“Domingo?” I asked again.
He suddenly stopped his pacing and he looked right at me, his eyes brimming with unshed tears. He looked back out into the hallway where I knew my cases were sitting waiting to be taken to England with or without him joining us.
That thought made my tears spill and I quickly wiped them away so that he didn’t choose to come with me out of pity. He knelt in front of me and stopped me, instead using his thumbs to gently wipe them away from my face.
“Charlie will you marry me?”
“What?” I choked.
“I planned to do this on our anniversary, I had an awesome plan but now I realise I didn’t need all that. All I need is you and one simple word. So will you Dr Charles Adams marry me and become my husband?” He smiled through his tears.
“You want to marry me and come with me?” I asked still in shock.
“Si, te amo Charlie.”
“Then yes!”
I jumped up, wrapping my arms around his neck. He lost his balance and fell backwards onto the floor and he huffed and I landed heavily on top of him. Smiling widely he pulled my head down and kissed me hard on the lips and I returned it eagerly.
Domingo Mendez was coming with me to England and he wanted to marry me there! My family would be able to come over for the wedding and we would pay for Maria to join us too. It would be perfect, a new life, a new job and most of all a new Husband to share it all with.
Dr Charlie Mendez has a nice ring to it and I can’t wait to make this happen.
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Well this is it for Book 1. I hope the ending was ok for you guys thanks so much for sticking with me through it 🙂
Book 2 prologue is up chapter one coming very soon
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