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Point Of View
– Trusselle –
I don’t want to cut off the moment but I had to.
I opened my eyes when our lips parted, I was shocked when I saw him in tears.
“Joon? Are you.. w-why are you crying?” I stuttered and hurried to wipe the tears on his face.
“I’m sorry.. please don’t hate me.. Please.” he pleaded, but why?
I can’t help but to have him in my arms, I felt guilty for kissing him.
I hugged him real tight. Was he trying to refer to what just happened?
“I just can’t take it.. I’m sorry Trusselle.” I heard him saying as he was being buried over my chest.
Why was he so sorry? I can hear his silent cry and I did hug him more tight.
I turned my head to my left and saw the window glass being covered by a dark curtain. I can say that it’s still raining so hard.
I didn’t know but it was really hard depending on how it sounds.
I was still staring at the window glass when I felt Joon started to pull himself away from my chest.
“I’m sorry. I w-was not able to control myself.” he mumbled.
“What are you sorry for?” I asked. Yeah we kissed, no! I kissed him. But why was he so sorry? He even cried.
“With the.. w-with, kiss. The kiss.” he replied and put his head down.
I can’t help but to chuckle when I knew his reason. He always took the responsibility yeah? I should be the one guilty here.
“Ohh so you’re sorry? You even sucked my lower lip, right?” I said trying not to laugh harder at what I had said until I was like.. “AAAHHHH!!”
Was all my reaction after being punched on the arm.
That was so hard! Did that just come from him?
“For the first time you hurt me huh?” I said in disbelief while laughing.
Was I happy? Was I feeling happy? This kind of feeling was all new for me. This excitement, this mood, this light feeling and this happiness I was feeling right at this very great moment!
“I was scared. You might avoid me for doing that, the kis-“
I didn’t let him finish what he said and hugged him so tight as I laughed so hard.
He was really like a kid, an innocent kid! I was shaking his body while hugging him very tight.
“I should be the one saying that. You’re so surprising Joon.” I told him, we were moving in a motion like our bodies were dancing.
I stopped the motion when I felt Joon spread his arm and placed it around my waist.
Oh this feeling! It’s driving me crazy! I didn’t feel anything wrong about this feeling. It was like I have been waiting for this.
I did put my hand under his jaw pulling him up to face me and told him not to feel bothered.
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Point OF View
– Third Person’s –
“I want those brownies, get me some please.. mr. cute guy.”
Joon sighed in disbelief after hearing what Trusselle has said.
He was wondering if that’s how clumsy Trusselle was.
After what happened to them, Trusselle became so sweet to him, and a pain in the head as well. He became so sweet to the point that he never cared about what others had to say. Clingy indeed.
“I think you’ll love this. Try this..” Trusselle told him after putting a slice of lemon on his plate. “I knew it you smell this good yeah..” he added as he smelled Joon on his left cheek quickly.
“Trusselle. They might see us.” Joon groaned in Trusselle’s clingy side, but deep inside he was feeling so happy about it.
“What’s wrong with smelling you? You smell good!” he questioned with his eyes curving trying to express his point.
Joon just nodded in defeat. He knew that Trusselle will always win against him.
Wait, was he admitting that Trusselle was his boss? Not relating to work but about them?
“Why? I mean, you’re making me feel so shy..” Joon can’t help but to voice it out, making the other laugh a little harder.
They had been staying in the buffet area for almost 15 minutes now, what’s taking them so long was their silly conversations.
When they were in the room, they talked about the unexpected kiss happened to them. Both of them had the same feeling and it was their first time.
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“He just texted me, telling me that they are now playing games. They are looking for me.” Joon had said after reading the text message sent by John.
Until he felt that his body was being pulled more closer against Trusselle’s.
“15 minutes. 15 minutes more please?”
He smiled after hearing those words from Trusselle. They were staying inside their room for almost 2 hours now after taking lunch.
Trusselle demanded Joon’s presence and time, wanting to be with him alone.
“This is how selfish I am.” he said as he made his hug to Joon more tight.
Couple of minutes had passed and they were still in the same position.
“Trusselle? Still awake?” Joon started when he finally decided to say what’s on his mind.
“Hmm?” was the reply he got from the person hugging him very tightly.
“Can I tell you something?” he asked grabbing Trusselle’s hand over his tummy.
“Yeah sure.”
Joon let few seconds to pass thinking about what he wanted to say.
“Y-you have changed and honestly I like it. B-but I’m afraid.” he stuttered as he spoke.
He heard Trusselle take a deep breath, he stayed silent waiting for his response.
“C-can you tell me why you are?”
He bit his lower lip, hearing curiosity from Trusselle’s voice.
“Will you stay the same if I tell you I’m not a normal person?” he tried not to stutter and managed to address his words.
His heart started beating a little hard making him tremble.
“H-hey? Why so serious? Why are you feeling so nervous? Joon you’re shaking..”
He heard Trusselle but stayed still and closed his eyes trying to control his feeling.
When he was really thinking about telling his secret it was like he’s in danger, he can’t help but to feel that way.
He didn’t want anyone to hate him because of his secret.
“J-Joon? D-don’t feel like that. I don’t want seeing you like this, y-you’re making me weak. Please stop shaking.”
He opened his eyes and saw Trusselle moving from his back, their eyes met and he gave him a smile.
“T-thank you.” was all he said after seeing how concerned Trusselle was.
“Don’t think anything negative okay? I told you earlier right? I won’t go away, we’ll be happy. Okay?” he nodded.
This person was real good one.
“And one more, if you’re not a normal person? I don’t know what you’re trying to say but yeah I’ll stay the same.. of course! I mean, I mean yeah we’re both men here but I just felt kissing you and.. and I liked it.”
He smiled hearing those words and can’t help but to suppress a laugh for seeing how Trusselle’s face turned red.
He just can’t believe this was happening, the way he talked was real sincere.
His smile grew bigger.
“Are you shy?” he asked grabbing Trusselle’s right hand.
Trusselle didn’t reply but just gave him a kiss on his lips. Both of them stayed still, not making any move and just let their lips against each other.
Joon was the first one to release. They both stared at each other reflecting their mutual feelings.
Trusselle hugged him so tight sniffing over his neck and there was like an electric that ran all over his body.
“Oh why so this kid smells this good?” he heard him asking and he was just laughing at Trusselle’s clingy side.
They spent more time together telling things about each other. As they talked, Joon had something important in his mind that made him feel so scared. He can’t help but to keep on thinking about what Trusselle’s parents will think once they knew about this.
But he tried not to think about it, he can see that Trusselle was very positive about what was going on right now between them and he must do the same thing to be fair.
He was always worried, but he’s not alone for these things. He now got someone and that’s Trusselle.
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“Okaaaaayy!! Just a second and we will be starting this match!” Cindy cheered and all of them shouted in excitement.
Food were all over the long table, over the big leaves of banana.
“Just so you know, here in Philippines we call it Boodle Fight. As you can see there are tomatoes, onions, pork, roasted chicken, lettuce out there, sliced mangoes over there, we have salmon too look, oh see that’s beef, then we got shrimp too and a fried rice in the middle of them all. Did you get it now?” Joon has said.
And turned his head to his right to look at Trusselle who was just staring at him and smiling since he started talking about the food.
“I got it! I think I won’t be needing to worry about everything since I got someone now who can always guide me in everything.”
Trusselle said in a low tone of voice enough just for the both of them to hear.
Joon didn’t reply. He was just so speechless and happy. He can’t help but to secretly hold Trusselle’s hand.
He saw that his smile grew widely as he grabbed his hand.
“Hey Joon? Come over here! Hurry..”
Both of them raised their heads to look who’s calling. It was John, waving at him telling him to come.
“Him again.” Trusselle sighed.
“Is it fine?” Joon asked very smoothly, he didn’t know why Trusselle’s mood always changed whenever he was being called by his colleague.
“Like I have a choice? Anyway I’ll be talking to your manager for a second. So make sure to be back here when we’re about to start eating okay?”
Joon just nodded and he shook his head when he realized that Trusselle was asking for a kiss.
“No.” Joon said in authority when he saw him pouting his lips like a kid.
He can’t help but to smile.
“Ehhh you’re acting like a boss huh? Okay I’ll just make a sweet revenge later then..” Trusselle replied in a husky voice as they walked apart.
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Point Of View
– Joon –
“Hi there!”
I cheered when I reached my colleagues. It seemed that we were all waiting for the boodle fight to start.
“O-oh yeah?”
“Joooon we missed you!”
“Oh I can say you’re in a good mood.”
They said as they turned their attentions to me. They even looked around looking for something or someone.
“Oh I thought boss is here. I can’t even approach you and ask how you are doing.” one of them said.
So they were referring to Trusselle.
“Yah Joon how are you? Mam Cindy said you were sick.”
“Are you feeling well now?”
I nodded a yes. I smiled knowing that they cared for me. I felt so grateful.
“I missed you guys.” were all I said after sitting next to John.
I was also thankful to John since he always updated me about what’s going on at the workplace.
I felt his hand over my back, he’s rubbing it gently.
“Ohh I missed this Korean.” he said smiling at me.
Until we managed to make small talks. They had a lot of questions about Trusselle and me, how we became friends and sort of.
I can say that they were all scared of Trusselle’s presence after hearing their thoughts about him.
Of course I defended him. We just started our friendship but I was confident that Trusselle was a good person. But I can’t blame them, he’s not interested in talking to anyone and that explained their thoughts about him.
Few minutes ago and we started the boodle fight. Trusselle was not comfortable and I made sure to take care of him.
I was the one choosing the food he will eat, trying my best to take care of him. We were using our hands and fingers to eat since this was how boodle fight works but Trusselle was using spoon and fork.
I was smiling as we ate, seeing how he’s trying his best to join us. Though he wasn’t talking to them, was he just into the food and me? I exploded.
“Joon try this.”
I raised my head when I heard mam Cindy mention my name.
I saw her extending her hand to me, offering a shrimp meat? Oh not please.
“Joon is the one with the highest standard here I knew that since he makes great frappes!”
“But mam Cindy I don’t eat shrimp.” I said hesitantly.
“Come on it tastes good. Just a try!”
She said excitedly. I knew that they were just clueless.
I smiled weakly and took it. I was chewing it when I felt a sudden force coming from my throat and it made me choke real hard.
The pressure I was having in my throat was really killing me, I could feel that my eyes were getting wet.
“O-oh are you okay?” she said and rushed to me.
“Joon come here, here water..”
I was choking badly!
I turned around and was about to walk to excuse myself when Trusselle patted me gently at my back.
“W-what happened? What did you eat?” he said and it made me scared hearing his tone of voice.
I wanted to explain and tell him I was fine but I couldn’t because I was in pain, everyone can see it.
He’s rubbing my back carefully and he’s concern yes but..
“Next time don’t just give him something he doesn’t eat okay?!”
They all went silent as he spoke in authority.
And that proved my thoughts. I drank the water quickly in order for me to talk and say that I was okay but it was too late when he grabbed me on my forearm.
“Please excuse us.” he told them and pulled me cautiously.
I bent my body over and nodded at them raising my left hand up as a sign that it’s okay and they didn’t need to worry.
..
“Are you okay now?”
Trusselle asked as he closed the door behind him.
“Yes I’m okay. No worries.” I replied assuring him.
It’s good to see that he cared, I felt good.
He walked towards the small fridge. I smiled in my mind.
I went to the kitchen sink to wash my hands.
“Here. Drink more. You need more water.” he said handing me the water.
I turned my head to my left and saw a bottled water in his hand. I followed as he said.
“You’re telling me not to worry huh? How can I do that?”
He said frowning while I was currently taking the water. He walked closer to me and he started rubbing my back smoothly.
“Are you okay now? Don’t you feel anything wrong?” he asked once again and I knew how concerned he was.
After taking the bottled water I placed it to the table next to us and gave him a hug.
“Yes I’m okay, promise.” I mumbled hugging him more tight, leaning my chin over his shoulder was something I never thought would make me feel very comfortable.
“What else you don’t eat? So I can tell people at home what to and not to cook.” I heard him ask.
He’s always making me feel valued and happy, it made me smile.
“That’s too much but thank you, I assure you I’m okay. Please don’t worry.” I replied pulling him more closer against my body.
He took a deep breath and I knew he nodded.
“Anyway, on Monday I’ll be coming back to my apartment. Your family was a big help, they welcomed me warmly and I don’t know how to thank them.” I added thinking about his family and their home.
Few days stay were enough and it’s time for me to go back to my own place.
He faced me like there was a big WHAT? on his expression.
“Who said you’re going back there? Huh? You’re staying at our house longer, okay longer.” he said giving a firm tone on his last words.
“Why?” I asked curiously almost laughing, because he was like an upset kid.
“Of course! I want to hug you more and to kiss you more!” he stated as if it was the easiest thing to say.
With that, I literally laughed.
How many times did we kiss? Twice yap.
“And I want to know you more.” he said making me silent.
What if he knew my secret, what would happen? Will he accept it?
“I want to protect you.”
That made me think I was safe.
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“Hey my Korean.. wake up, we’re home.”
I was awakened by a soft voice, blurry at first but a nice view afterwards.
It was Trusselle’s face, wearing his smile.
“I fell asleep, yeah?” I said giving a warm smile.
“And I always want to be the first thing to appear in front of those korean eyes.” he almost mumbled while playing his fingers over my eyelashes.
I felt that everything was starting to change now. I knew we’re both happy and I liked it.
..
“No one is in?”
Trusselle was curious as we entered the house. I can say it too since it seemed to be quiet inside.
“Joon, let’s go to my room. Catch some sleep okay? I know you’re tired.” he told me while placing our things next to the couch.
“How about you? You should take a rest too.” I replied, we were having our way upstairs.
I was walking after him, seeing his back made me want to hug him. Like he’s mine.
Was he already mine?
“I’m good! I need to go to my coach’s office, we’ll be talking about the competition next month.”
His reply made me curious.
Coach? Competition?
I would like to ask more about it but I just can’t do it, I can’t be nosy.
“Can’t you stay for a minute so you can take a little rest?” I asked in a quiet voice not wanting to sound pushy.
I knew I was safe when with Trusselle, I felt very safe. I might be selfish for not wanting to be away from him.
After seeing how he reacted last night when I choked during the boodle fight.. well I didn’t even want to see that reaction of him again. I was scared.
“I’m sorry if I want you to stay for a while, I j-just want you to have at least a little rest.” I said with all honesty.
I really didn’t want to sound pushy to him. He might get upset and no way I wanted that to happen.
We were in the middle of the stairs when I saw him stopped and turned around facing me.
“Yes boss. My korean boss.” he said and chuckled.
I found him so cute in those chuckles.
But what did he say? Boss? Well this guy was playing around again.
“Yes boss, I’ll stay and will not be going anywhere. One second, let me give my coach a call.” he smiled at me and took his phone from his pocket putting it up over his ear.
“Hey coach?..” he said after few seconds. “I can’t make it tonight.. yes, great! Let’s talk tomorrow.”
Was he doing this for me? I mean I just can’t help but to feel special. I was new with these things but there was like something inside of me that told me to feel very special.
“Okay settled.” he told me nodding and gave me a hug.
A warm hug like I would be willing to stay like this forever. I loved being inside his arms.
“Can I say thank you?” I replied almost whispering. I felt a little shy.
“Hey Joon.. you don’t have to.” he replied in a soft voice making me smile weakly as we parted from hugging.
“Come on let me show you something..” were his words when his face lit up and grabbed me on the forearm to pull me carefully.
We went to a place I haven’t been, inside the house. We were at the left corner of the house, 2nd floor.
Now we were heading to a door with our hands intertwined.
He opened it and it made me speechless in amazement when I got the full view of the small room.
I inspected the entire room. Full of trophies!
“All are mine. You can check them.” I heard he cheered and I really did take the opportunity to roam around
He’s cute when bragging.
School trophies. Sports trophies. And what caught my full attention was the gold trophy. I read what was written.
“Taekwondo. That’s my first trophy for playing taekwondo.”
He said and a pair of arms wrapped around my waist.
“Are these all yours?” I can’t help but to ask and he simply said yes like it was the easiest thing to say without any effort.
“If I’m a real brother or a family of yours.. I would definitely be proud of you, surely.” I stated grabbing his hands on my tummy.
“Does that mean you’re proud of me?” he asked in disbelief.
“O-of course! I mean this is great Trusselle! Anyone will be proud of you for seeing these.” I replied telling the truth.
I even explained how I feel. We talked about few things, I told him that these things are a like gold by just thinking of their value.
“That’s cool. I feel so nice thinking that you appreciate them. You’re proud yeah? And suddenly I feel the same way too.” he cheered smiling.
We had more talks before we heard her sister’s voice. They arrived.
He pulled me carefully out of the door. I was being hesitant to go, about what we have right now. I mean us.
“I know you’re not ready. Don’t you worry, I won’t tell them until you’re ready.”
He said assuring me and that made me very comfortable.
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“Hi there!”
Trusselle greeted them happily as we made our way downstairs.
“Oh you guys are back! How was the outing?” her mom replied.
I was left speechless not having an idea on how to reply. We can’t say what happened right?
I feel like I abused Trusselle.
“It’s fun. Coffee Bazaar is great. And I feel so grateful that Joon invited me.” his eyes were really bright as he talked.
Can’t help but to smile, I knew it’s because of me.
I parted from Trusselle when we got in the kitchen, they were fixing the bags they brought and I wanted to help.
“Oh come on. How come you enjoyed huh? You don’t like our employees, you don’t like anyone!” Sandra said sarcastically.
“And by the way, tomorrow Trusselle we will be having a meeting with the boarders okay? As a future president I need you to be there.” his dad joined the conversation.
I gulped. So Trusselle had a lot of responsibilities.
“I’m excited to see how Trusselle will kill our employees.” Sandra chuckled.
“Sure. What time tomorrow?” finally Trusselle spoke.
Oh come on guys, I was even missing his voice. Obsessed.
“It will be late though, like 5 in the afternoon until 7 in the evening.” her mom replied.
Well, I felt like I was just an air that they can’t even feel. I decided to keep on working on the bags.
But I was enjoying listening to them. I knew they were always busy but still can manage to eat together. I admired this family.
“Okay. So Joon tomorrow after your shift, go straight to my office.” Trusselle got my attention again.
“Sorry?” I replied right away.
“I want us to go home together. Don’t worry, I’ll ask Greg to give you a ride.” he smiled.
I nodded, I didn’t think he will accept a no for an answer. He’s a boss, the boss.
Until we continued fixing the food they bought.
“Joon? Can you make one strawberry frappe for me? Can I say please?” I turned around and it was their mom who’s smiling at me right now.
“Sure!” I replied assuring her when she looked at his son who’s frowning at her.
I gave Trusselle the same look he gave to her mother making him sighed in defeat.
He’s cute!
I started working on making a strawberry frappe for their mom.
“What’s your schedule for tomorrow?”
I heard him from behind and he’s already standing next to me.
I thought for a moment about what mam Cindy had told me yesterday about my schedule.
“Can you please make it faster? I want to take a rest now.” he demanded like a kid and he got his chin over my shoulder.
“You can go ahead. I’ll just follow once done here.” I replied feeling uncomfortable. “They can see us.” I said, I was worried about him.
If it’s just me it’s fine but I can’t afford seeing him getting hates from his family.
“Ahhh just let me do this. I agreed with your decision for not telling them about this so please just let me do this, at least.”
I can’t help but to smile after hearing what he said. Suddenly I felt comfortable.
He can change my feelings.
“Hmm 2pm to 6pm, my schedule for tomorrow.” I told him and laid my head on his for a quick second.
“Well you’re making me excited to cuddle with you.” his reply that made me shove him over his tummy, he smirked.
“You already saw my body right?” I asked. “Whose abs are better? Yours or mine?” I added thinking about his reaction when I stripped my shirt in front of him.
“Of course mine!” he answered. I laughed. I wouldn’t disagree. He’s an athlete and that’s for sure. I haven’t seen his body though.
But he saw mine.
“Anyway, I’ll be having a meeting with my coach tomorrow so I need to leave early in the morning.” I just nodded, I mumbled a “thank you” for updating me.
“Of course it’s your rights now to know all of my schedule. Just to inform you, I’m a busy person but I’ll make sure to make more time with you than my work.” his assuring tone was something I would always want to hear.
I bit my lower lip trying not to smile even widely because he’s really making me crazy lately.
Until I managed to convince him to go to his room and I’ll just follow once done here. We’re both sleepy yeah, so I can say he really needed to rest.
“Joon me too okay? I want mocha for today.” Sandra said and I just nodded smiling at her.
I was glad they liked my works.
Few minutes had passed and finally done. I was about to go upstairs when they stopped me.
“Join us Joon, this pasta is really good. You should try it.” mr. Ellison offered.
And I was like a kid who was so happy for hearing that.
I strode to join them at the table.
“I can feel family.” I whispered to myself once I sat, this really felt great.
Until we ate under comfortable atmosphere. We laughed, we made talks and the best thing was.. they shared some stories to me, that made me feel very welcome to their family.
Trusselle’s parents were great, they were from work and were tired but still managed to make time for one another. Sandra on the other hand, was so cute as she made jokes around them. I wondered how happy could they be if Trusselle was around.
We continued talking, I wished this would not end. I was so happy around them.
“Joon? Aren’t you done? Come on I’m sleepy, let’s sleep!”
We turned our heads to the direction where the voice came from. It was Trusselle, he’s in the middle of the stairs adjusting his head down to see us.
“Hey you can sleep first. He’s eating with us.” Sandra replied.
“She’s right. You can go ahead Trusselle.” his dad.
“We’re having fun here. Don’t disturb us.” her mother.
I smiled weakly seeing them. If I can only tell them that Trusselle really wanted to fall asleep with his face on my neck.
I can remember, during our stay at the hotel last night we slept in that position twice. He even told me that having his face buried over my neck helped him fall asleep comfortably.
“We’re having fun eating and sharing stories here.” Sandra assured her.
I saw that Trusselle’s eyebrows went curved and just started walking upstairs. He was like a kid who just accepted defeat. His footsteps were noisy though.
I stood up and faced them.
“I think I need to follow him.. a-anyway I’m full.” I said unsurely.
“Well, I understand. He’s such a spoiled kid, right mom?” Sandra replied smiling at her mom.
“I agree.” mr. Ellison announced. “And I think you’re also tired. Take a rest, you’ll be back to work tomorrow right?” he added and I just nodded.
“Well a-and I really do appreciate the stories. I can’t even think that I’m really welcome here. Thank you so much.” I told them from my heart, sincerely as I really appreciated everything.
I bent my body over and addressed my goodbye to them, I smiled when Sandra waved his hands.
I strode to upstairs, thinking how Trusselle was doing right now.
I hoped he’s still in a good mood. I decided to follow him even if I had to excuse myself to his family.
I took a deep breath once I reached the door of his room. I knocked once, twice then thrice but no response.
I decided to open it and entered quietly. I locked the door, I just felt to.
My eyes caught Trusselle, he was on the bed. It was so dark but the dim light was enough for me to completely have a vision of him. I was facing his back. He really got a sexy back though, under his shirt.
I knew he’s not sleeping yet. I was hundred percent sure that he’s waiting for me.
I crawled when I reached the bed. I hugged him from his back.
“I’m sorry.” I mumbled hugging him tightly.
I felt so warm and this feeling made me feel safe and very comfortable.
There’s a lot of things about me that has changed.. the moment I met Trusselle.
“Next time don’t knock, just go straight. What is mine is yours know.” I heard him and grabbed my hand.
Hearing those words made me feel emotional. He’s always making me feel like we were one.
I snuggled my nose at the back of his neck. I can’t help but to feel grateful.
“I am so happy seeing you with my family, they like you and they show it.” he said pulling my hands up for him to reach and kiss it.
“I admire them.” I replied, admitting it.
He turned around and faced me.
Our eyes met, I smiled seeing his face glowed under the dim light.
I was having deep thoughts, about myself, about us, about him, about his family.. about everything.
I started moving my head slowly to his, reaching his lips intentionally. I stopped for a moment and took the opportunity to stare at him this close.
Until I had closed my eyes and felt his lips against mine, gently. It’s like everything was in slow motion.
I can’t help but to take the momentum, I didn’t want to use these words to describe what I was about to do but seriously.. I gently sucked his upper lip and we stayed like that as if it will never end.
I exploded.
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