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Peleides POV
I was just waking up when I saw my mom preparing my breakfast and I frowned.
“Mom you don’t have to do that” I said softly but she jumped almost ten feet in the air when I spoke.
“Oh hey honey I didn’t know you were awake” she said after calming down but she didn’t turn around and just kept doing my breakfast.
” Mom? Mom whats wrong?” I asked even tho I already know what is wrong.
” Nothing sweety now I have to go get your doctor so he could tell us what are we doing for this week okay? I’ll be right back” she said still not looking at me.
My mom is a proud mother but she also has a lot of pride and so she is very stubborn. She doesn’t like me to see her cry. Everytime she cries she doesn’t look at me or she goes and gets busy with anything.
” Hey there Peleides” my doctor greeted.
“Hey Doctor Carlson” I greeted.
” Peleides we are going to start a new treatment besides quemo this treatment is called Xalkori, this treatment will help cancel the cancer cells to eliminate and hopefully you will get out of this situation” he explained.
Now you must be like, why aren’t you happy? Well I have always had this instinct that when people aren’t telling me the truth or the whole truth and right now I know he isn’t telling me the whole truth. I looked at him and then to my moms back.
” Tell me the truth” I said staring at the Doctor straight in the eyes making him flinch and sigh.
“The cancer cells have spread to some parts of your body. And this medication will attack those cells and hopefully increase the chances of you living……. but this isn’t always guaranteed because your cancer since it comes from genetics and has evolved into this advance stage we are not sure if this will help you…. or kill you” he finished up.
I looked outside the small window that was a few feet away from my bed no from my cell. I looked as a Morpho Butterfly landed on the bricks outside, my eyes followed the wing movements and I could almost hear the flapping of it. I looked back at my Doctor and then at my Moms back and I could see that she was trembling but I wasn’t. I told them I wanted to be alone and not to come in until I called for them and as they left so did the butterfly. I put my head against the pillow and then I dragged my hand down my chest where my big ugly scar was. When I came in two years ago they did an operation to try and give me a better lung but they didn’t expect for the cancer cells to be so persistent and they infected that lung too. I didn’t cry, I didn’t have anymore tears left. My hope was there but even a dog could see that my end was near but the only thing that pained me is that my Mom would never meet my eyes and that I will leave her alone. I remember when one day she took me to the park. Those were the times when she was never too busy for me and that we could watch movies until we passed out. She took me to the swings and she said ‘You want to know something?’ she asked with a smile and I nodded ‘ Every time you reach the top try to reach up to the sky and its almost as if you could fly’ she pushed me and it did. It did feel like I was flying. But now I don’t even remember when was the last time I even got out of this stupid cell called my bed. I stayed in silent just looking at the white ceiling and that’s when I decided something. I tried to get up and eventually after many failed attempts I did it, I made my way to the desk which was there to put my games in and for me to study and do homework. I looked through the cabinets until I found what I was looking for. I reached inside and grabbed the supplies and dump them all on my bed and then I climbed on. I opened the drawing book and started to draw the park that my mom took me too and thats when she came in and started to panic but stopped when she saw my drawing.
” You still remember this?” she asked.
” It’s the last thing I remember before coming here” I replied softly still drawing.
” I-I should of told you myself” she sighed.
” Mom I’m not upset” I said still drawing.
” I know you never are” she insisted.
” I know and that’s because there is nothing to be upset with” I said and I regret saying that.
” NOTHING TO BE UPSET ABOUT?!!!!? HOW ABOUT THE FACT THAT MY ONLY CHILD THAT I SPEND 17 YEARS TAKING CARE OFF IS DYING AND I CAN’T DO SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING??? HOW ABOUT THE FACT THAT YOUR BASTARD OF A FATHER DOESN’T EVEN BOTHER SHOWING UP? HOW ABOUT THE FACT THAT NOT ALL THE MONEY OR THE TREATMENT THAT THEY GIVE YOU…IT WILL JUST END UP KILLING YOU!!!! DOES THAT NOT QUALIFY TO BE UPSET ABOUT. YOU KNOW HOW MANY NIGHTS EVEN DAYS I HAVE SPENT KNEELING AND PRAYING TO GOD NOT TO TAKE THE ONLY THING I LIVE FOR?!!! HOW MANY TIMES I WISH I COULD TRADE PLACES SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT THE HELL IS OUTSIDE THIS WALLS?!?!? HUH? DO YOU?!?!” she all but screamed trembling and hitting the walls. The Doctors came and took her away but again I couldn’t cry I just…..couldn’t.
” I’m sorry” I whispered as I felt the drugs start to work and putting me into a deep slumber.
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I woke up and looked at the window and seeing it was night already. I looked around the cold dark room and saw the shape of one of the nurses sleeping in a chair. I sat up quietly and walked to the window silently trying my best not to wake up the nurse. I looked up at the night sky and saw a shining star just looking down at me twinkling making me smile. I tangled my fingers together and said…..
” Dear God,
I know I haven’t prayed in so long and I know its wrong of me to ask you this but I need you to do me a favor. I want you send me someone not a family member because I have plenty of love from them, I know this is stupid but I want a lover I want someone who will treat me as a normal human being and not a disease carrying body. Please this is my last and final request.”
I looked at the bright star and as I pulled away from the window I felt a soothing calmness like no other come over me. This time the drugs didn’t work and I went on a blissful sleep.
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Hey guys this is the author yes I exist. I almost freaking cried writing this chapter but I do hope you enjoyed it because something special will start to happen. Did God listen to Peleides Prayers? Maybe or Maybe not. Keep reading and please comment and vote and fan me because I fan back. Love you all bye.
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