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The movie has started when he moves closer to get the popcorn from the middle of the couch. Damn Jungkook for leaving us to talk to Jimin. Hoseok makes me so nervous, even his breathing got me some type of way I cannot describe. Hoseok’s hand gets a hold of some popcorn and then he brings it to his lips. I watch as he chews it, my eyes stuck on his bottom lip. I lick my bottom lip and then turn around to watch the movie that I was ignoring.
My breathing starts to become slow and my body is tense. I can no longer enjoy the movie when he is right next to me. My brain is wired up to his every breath. Anything that he does makes me so nervous. Making a sound with my mouth, I switch my position on the couch, crossing my legs over each other. I grab some popcorn and slowly by slowly, I eat each piece so that I don’t have to grab some in a while. I can’t have our hands bump into each other while we both try to get some popcorn.
Hoseok starts to say something and I turn around to look at him. The way his lips move when he tries to talk to me is making me very nervous. I’m trying to watch this movie but his voice makes it really hard to concentrate. I ignore him by getting closer to the arm of the couch. Maybe being closer to the arm of the couch can make me forget that he is here next to me. What he’s saying can’t be that important.
Concentrate! I tell myself over and over. I make myself pay attention. I’ve seen this movie already but this time it feels like I am seeing something different. I am not following what they are saying because I am lost. When I watch a movie, I absorb myself in the plot, in the music. I can’t do that when Hoseok is right next to me, asking me questions, and just being present.
Perfect! A song comes on and I sing a long, trying my best to get myself hyped up. My body starts moving to the rhythm and soon I am shaking my whole body, and I am singing at the top of my lungs. This is one of my favorite Bollywood movies and after the third time watching, I can’t help but fall in love again with the story plot.
I completely forget that he is there, and just let loose. The people dance all around and I just want to be there with them. A dance where everyone is having fun is what I need right now. I should probably start learning it so that I can distract myself from wanting to cut.
“Is this your favorite movie, Taehyung?” Hoseok says with a smile. I mentally roll my eyes. He’s not going to let me watch it, isn’t he? I nod at him, my own smile withering down. I can’t help but let myself down. I can’t let him know that his smile makes me smile even more. And a distraction.
“How many times have you watch it?” He asks againg, his voice even more lovely that I just want to melt. I put three fingers in the air and tell him with a voice I can muster,” Three times. It’s my favorite.”
“Oh, woah. You really do love Bollywood movies, huh? I am not that much in movies. I mostly just go to the dance studio and try to make new choreographies.” He moves his legs together, his hands wrapping around them.
“You are dancer?” I ask, my voice cracking. He’s a dancer? I didn’t even know what profession he did. I jut know him as Hoseok who sometimes baby sits us. I want to learn more about him. I want to see him dance for me.
“Yup. I was training to be a Kpop idol but that wasn’t what I wanted in the end. Dancing is my passion so I decided to be a backup dancer for singers. Right now I am just training myself while attending a school of performing arts.” He says with so much joy in his voice. The way he talks about dancing is so uplifting. He has his love for life. I wish I can be like him.
“When did you start to train?” My full attention is now on him. The movie is completely forgotten and I don’t mind. I want to know his life. His motives. What he loves about life.
“I was 10 when I was scouted. My mother was hesitant because she didn’t want me to move to Korea by myself. My parents couldn’t move with me because they have five children. I pleaded to her so many times that in the end she couldn’t say no.” He chuckles. I smile, moving myself a little closer.
“I trained for four years until I was sick of the lifestyle. I couldn’t eat what I wanted, it was always schedules. School was hard for me over there. My siblings were growing up without me, my parents were getting used to having their son training to be an idol. I wasn’t used to this lifestyle so I told the company that I didn’t want to train anymore so I moved back here and finished high school.”
“Is that when you met your girlfriend?” I say, my throat in knots. My stomach becomes sick at the thought of him with her. He was never mind but his girlfriend having him makes me so jealous. I want him to be jealous.
“Natalie? Yes. She was my first love. We dated until the end of high school when we both broke up because she was moving to another state to start her career life. I couldn’t be with her if she was far away. I knew it couldn’t work out like that.”
“So you guys are no longer together?” I ask in hopes that they are not. My heart could not take it. All my hopes will vanish into thin air. Even if we can’t be together, I want still cling into the thin line of hope. Even if our love can be restricted, I still want to know that we have a chance.
“Yeah. I couldn’t seem to be with her when my heart is pumping for someone else. I will always love her, she will always be my first love.” He says with sadness. He looks at me with sorrow. He loves someone else, that’s why he can’t be with her. Who does he love that causes him to not be with his high school sweetheart?
“Who is the one your heart is pumping for?” My heart tightness with hope. A small hope that I am going to desperately hold onto.
By this time, Hoseok and I have gotten closer. His knees are touching my legs, and his mouth is close to mine. He blinks with a cheeky smirk,” You.”
“Me?”I stutter. He likes me? I must of hold that line so tight that hope really turn into reality. “You like me?”
“You have no idea how much I want to kiss you right now?” His voice turns husky, and I can feel his eyes want to devour me, and I am completely ready for it.
“Nobody is stopping you.” I come closer, my eyes looking down to his lips. “Take me as yours.”
He bites his lip, his eyes never leaving me as I climb on top of him. I bring my lips closer to him and peck the side of his lips. He lightly smiles, positioning my hips right on top of his crotch. I come closer, closing my arms around his neck. I tilt my head to the side, he does the same but tilts to the other side. He attacks my lips first, grabbing my hips with his hands and squeezing them.
I grab his hair as our kiss turns into a make out session. I go into his shirt when his hands stops me. He brakes the kiss, my lips left cold, without the heat that his touch brings.
“We can’t do this, Tae tae.” His husky voice that had turn me on a few moments ago is now given me the chills. The way he said was as if it was a mistake. And it wasn’t a mistake to me.
Feeling anger and disappointed boiling inside of me, I get off him, distancing my body away from him.
“Taehyung?” He comes closer, his hand in my thighs.” Leave me alone.” I swat his hand away.
“Taehyung, listen to me. We can’t do this. It’s not right.” He grabs my hand and forcefully turns me around so that I can see him.
“Why not? You said you wanted to kiss me. Do you not like me? Am I this ugly.” I say through my tears. His rejection cuts through my heart, my blood leaking for his love.
“No, Tae tae. You don’t know how much I care for you, and how deeply I am affected by your presence.
I need your soul, your love, your touch. But you’re too young and our love is so forbidden.”
“It doesn’t have to be. We can still be together in secret. Jin hyung and the others don’t have to find out. Please,” I plead to him, getting on my knees while holding on to his hand.
“We can’t.” He removes his hand and turns around. “I want to so bad but we can’t. I can’t take this feeling of abusing you even if my love for you is pure,” he says with hurt in his voice.
He’s not abusing me. His love has always giving me hope for the future even if I was feeling like I didn’t want to live. I don’t see anything wrong with our love.
Fuck the people who ruin the type of love that a person can have with an age gap between the two people that really have genuine feelings for each other.
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Jin’s POV:
I can’t believe what I am hearing. My hand is on the knob, my other hand full with grocery bags. I didn’t expect to see them make out and then confess their love for each other and how they can’t be together.
I’m in the verge of tears seeing how broken they both look. When I started to notice that something was going with them, I never imagined that this was what they were really feeling.
I thought that Taehyung’s attraction for Hoseok was purely attraction and nothing more. Now I see that is more than that. It’s really love that even if you forbid it, it will never go away. That type of love is embedded through their veins, through their beings, and not a soul can take that away from them.
I want to scold them but I can’t. I am starting to see their point of view though I still find it morally wrong. We always follow the law, and as much as I want to keep following it, my heart is telling me that it is the law that is wrong, and not their love.
“If our love is not okay because it’s morally wrong, will you want to kiss me again when I am older?” Taehyung says, this time behind Hoseok, his hand holding onto his wrist.
“I will wait for you until it is morally right. My heart will always be pumping for you. I will gracefully wait until I can fully feel you, until I can claim you as mine. But for now, this is my farewell kiss, our symbol that will seal our eternity until we can be officially become one.” Hoseok turns around, kisses his lip one last time and then kisses him on the forehead.
“Jimin is coming!” I hear Jungkook say from the room and I close the door fast but without making a sound.
My head pounds while I try to stabilize my self and my heart. I mentally prepare myself to act normal and act like I didn’t see their confession. I will keep this a secret, I don’t want to ruin something that wasn’t meant to be seen by me.
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Hey guys another one shot for my bootiful sister, Gelsey. She requested this one shot vhope of my story Kismet. This is also for my vhope shippers.
To the people who requested your favorite ships, I will get to them as soon as I can. Thank you for requesting them. If any others want to request, fill free to do so. Thanks for nine votes too 😉
-Laterz kelsi.
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