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Justin was being, well, distant. Austin wasn’t sure what to make of it, because every time he asked if something was wrong, Justin would get nervous, or start fidgeting, and laughing nervously as he said everything was fine. The brunette was growing curious, but he tried to not think much about it, just like he tried not to think about how a few days ago he and Alan were pushed up against each other, kissing and biting one another like there was no tomorrow. He knew they shouldn’t have gotten carried away so easily, and Austin knew he shouldn’t have given in so easily to his temptations, especially because now he had to wear make-up on his neck to cover the thousands of hickies on his skin that Alan gave him, though he didn’t really mind. They were a daily reminder and Austin didn’t want to forget.
“Hey, you ready to go?” The brunette asked, stopping at Justin’s desk and leaning against it slightly.
“Oh, I’m sorry babe, but I’ve still got a lot of paperwork to go through and it’s got to be done by tomorrow and I’m far behind on it. You go ahead and go,” Justin said, leaving Austin to frown slightly. Justin was never behind on paperwork, he was always well organized and was on top of things, but Austin knew that his boyfriend hadn’t been feeling very well the last couple days, and because of that, he’d left work early one day. Maybe that’s why he was behind.
“Okay, well, just, call me when you get home and I’ll stop by and we can have dinner together, yeah?” Austin said, Justin smiled and nodded as he stood up and pressed a kiss to the brunettes cheek.
Austin left after that, biting down on his bottom lip as he left out of the building. He wasn’t too sure if he wanted to go see Alan or not, because now he knew that he wouldn’t be able to hold himself back, and because he wouldn’t be able to hold himself back, he’d more than likely end up in bed with Alan doing… things that would for sure make the brunette break from guilt afterwards.
But maybe things wouldn’t end up like that. Maybe they’d just have a relaxing rest of the afternoon and watch movies together while being cuddled up beneath fuzzy blankets, or maybe they’d go to the park together and enjoy some time there.
It wasn’t that Austin didn’t want to have sex with Alan, or to be with him romantically in that way, because he did, God he really did, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t bring himself to do that to Justin or Alan. He didn’t want to break their hearts, even though he knew he would somehow, in someway, in the end.
And boy, was it going to be a real train wreck whenever one of them found out about what was going on.
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Austin frowned slightly as he stood outside Alan’s apartment. He gave into his temptations and cravings and headed over to Alan’s apartment- not before heading over to a take out place and getting them something to eat-, because he so desperately wanted to see the ginger, especially now because he was crowding Austin’s thoughts- like he always did.
But Austin stopped in his tracks outside the gingers apartment door, frowning as he heard voices from inside, but the voices didn’t sound like they were coming from a Tv, no, it sounded like Alan was talking to someone and the worst case scenarios ran through the brunettes hair as he unlocked the door and stepped inside.
“Hey Aust,” Alan said from the couch, a big happy smile on his face. Austin’s heart slowed down in his chest, though not by much. Alan was in fact talking to someone, that being Michael- though Austin thought that, for some reason, it would be Justin.
“Hey baby,” Austin greeted, kicking his shoes off. “I brought you something to eat.”
Alan smiled widely as he stood and walked over to where the brunette was stood, taking the bag that contained the take out from his hand before pressing a kiss to his cheek. The ginger wandered off into the kitchen while Austin stayed stood by the door.
“I’m assuming you’re still… you know,” Michael said, his eyes fixated on the brunette.
“I don’t need your judgement,” Austin snapped slightly, because he didn’t, and he never would. Michael scoffed and rolled his eyes, standing up and pulling on his coat.
“I need to head home, Alan,” Michael said, and the ginger came rushing out, a slight pout on his lips.
“You can’t stay for just a little while longer?” He asked. He liked hanging out with Michael, even if Alan only knew him for a short while, he was nice and funny and he told really neat stories that made absolutely no sense, but it was nice and Alan liked Michael- not how he liked Austin, obviously- because of it.
“I would if I could, but I can’t, I’m sorry,” Michael said, leaving Alan to nod sadly. “I’ll text you and we can set up another time to hang out,” Michael promised before he left, leaving Austin to relax and Alan to sigh softly before smiling widely at the brunette.
“I missed you,” the ginger said, walking over to his boyfriend and wrapping his arms around his neck. Austin chuckled and shook his head, his hands instinctively going to Alan’s hips.
“I saw you yesterday morning,” Austin said, grinning and feeling his heart hammering in his chest, though it a lovely type because Alan just had the affect on him.
“I know, but I just…” Alan grinned and shook his head, burying his face in the brunettes chest. He felt overly affectionate and he couldn’t quite explain why, but he loved it. It was nice.
“You’re cute,” Austin muttered. “I missed you too, by the way.” He pressed a kiss to Alan’s head before pulling away and tugging him into the kitchen.
The brunette set the food he had brought out on the counter, his heart swelling at the happy smile Alan gave him as he grabbed a container and went back into the living room, where he plopped himself down on the couch.
“What’d you do toady?” Austin asked as he joined the cute ginger.
“Nothing much, I hung out with Michael pretty much up until you came over,” Alan told him, and Austin couldn’t help but feel jealousy tug at his heart, though he knew there was no reason to be jealous. Michael meant no harm and Austin knew that.
They continued to eat, and afterwards Austin cleaned up, putting away what was left and what they didn’t eat. Suddenly Austin remembered Justin and how he stayed over at work, but it had been two hours since then and the brunette figured that his boyfriend had to be done by now, or so he hoped.
Austin bit down on his lip, holding the phone to his ear after scrolling through his contacts for Justin’s number. He was suddenly thankful that Alan had gone back into his room, deciding to clean up in there, because he didn’t want the ginger questioning who he was on the phone with.
“Hello?” Justin picked up after several rings, his voice sounding heavy and groggy.
“Hey, are you still at work?” Austin questioned, messing with the end of his shirt, rubbing the fabric between his fingers. It was a habit of his and something he found he did when nervous.
“Oh, no, I- I left like an hour ago and went home and crashed, I’m sorry babe,” Justin said, and Austin knew it was wrong of him to feel upset.
“Oh, that’s- that’s okay, I was just worried because you never called. Did you finish up your paperwork?” The boss side of the brunette came out, and he tried to bite it back down, but he was still curious.
“Somehow, yes. Are you at home?” Justin asked.
“No, I’m at Michael’s, he wanted to hang out,” Austin lied, guilt finding its familiar place in his stomach and eating away.
“Maybe we can do dinner tomorrow, okay? I’m sorry that I forgot to call,” Justin said.
“Sure, okay,” Austin said, swallowing the lump in his throat. “I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“Bye babe,” Justin said before hanging up, but Austin never really noticed, nor did he notice the hush whispers coming from Justin and someone else before he hung up.
“Hey, are you okay?” Called a voice and Austin jumped, spinning around quickly to see Alan standing there, grinning goofily and giggling.
“Yeah, I’m… I’m fine, just thinking is all. Do you need something?” Austin rushed out in one breath while trying to calm his rapidly beating heart.
“I was just coming to ask if you were staying the night,” Alan said, biting his lip and walking closer to the brunette.
Austin felt himself nod, he couldn’t help it, just like he couldn’t help it when he wrapped his arms around the gingers waist and pulled him closer and pressed their lips together in a rather heated kiss.
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lol I suck. sorry if this is kinda really bad, I’ve been in such a stump that I can’t figure out what I’m doing with this to be exact and I kind of lost the ability to write anything good :)))
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