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[Armin’s POV]
The tears kept falling as I watched Eren stare at my scared wrists. He’s hates you. He’s only hugging you because the nurse is here. The little voice in my head tells me and this makes me cry harder. Eren holds me tighter and nuzzles his face into my shoulder sniffling and I can feel his tears on my skin.
“Please don’t cry Armin…” is all I hear Eren say through my cries. He rubs my back soothing me as I start calming down knowing Eren is here. The nurse sighs and begins to speak.
“Now, I know you probably don’t want me to tell your grandpa. So I won’t, But you have to promise not to do this anymore. I will be calling you in to my office every now and then to make sure you’re keeping your promise.” I wipe some of my tears and nod.
“I-I promise… Pl-please don’t t-tell him.” I say between small cries and gasps of air. I glance down at Eren and see him smile a little and nuzzle more into my shoulder. I look back at the nurse. “Pl-please let me t-tell him… I w-will eventually.” The nurse just nods and starts cleaning and wrapping all of my wounds and cuts.
~TIMESKIP TO ARMIN’S HOUSE~
My grandpa parks in the small driveway in front of our house. Eren and I get out of the car and walk inside of the house and I bring Eren to my room closing the door behind us. Eren just walks over to my bed and sits. I look at the floor and lean against the door too scared to look at him. He hates you. You should be surprised he even came with you. Why would he like someone like you? The little voice in my head once again talks to me and I tear up again. Then I hear Eren.
“Why Armin? Why would you do something like that? Yes, I haven’t known you long, but I want to know.” He says in a low voice. Tears begin to hit the floor underneath me and I speak in a shaky voice.
“I-I do it b-because I’m w-worthless and no one w-wants me in th-this world! I j-just w-want to d-die!” I raise my voice to Eren and slide down to the floor and break out into tears. You’re such a baby. Crying in front of someone as great as Eren. You’ll never have him you idiot. I sit there and cry.
[Eren’s POV]
“Please don’t cry Armin…” I get up and walk over to him going to pull him into a hug, which I love giving him. Then I am pushed away and my eyes widen in shocked.
“Don’t touch me! You’re just showing me affection so you can break me when we are really close!” I feel a sharp pain in my chest when he says these words. I feel… Hurt… I sit down in front of him.
“That’s not at all what I’m trying to do. I’m doing this because I care. Again, yes, I haven’t known you long but you seem like a great guy. Please just let me help you.” I rest my hand on his shoulder but get it slapped away. I start to get frustrated.
“Just get out! I’m just going to kill myself! Leave me alone!!” He yells my way. I get fed up with this. It’s now or never. I use my strength and pin his arms beside his head earning a surprise expression from Armin.
“Stop! I’m not going to let you kill yourself, ok?! So just stop! I want to help you! I really care! I know we have only been friends for 2 day but I really don’t want you to end a life that may be great! I just want to see your smile that I saw on that first day I met you!” I whisper yell at him as tears roll down my cheeks.
“E-Eren…” I hear him whisper as tears roll down his pale face. I sigh and let go of his wrists and stand up and go to walk out but I feel him grab onto my wrist.
“Please don’t leave… I’m sorry Eren… I’m really really sorry Eren.” I hear him say and I kneel down smiling a little wiping the tears I had, then I wipe his tears.
“Don’t be sorry. It’s ok. Come on, let’s go sit on the bed ok?” I take his hands helping him up and walk over to the bed sitting down. He sits beside me and we both get the same idea and sit back on the bed and lean against the wall. I feel him lean against me and sniffle. I start blushing hard and look down at him to see him blushing hard so I rest my head on top of his.
[Armin’s POV]
I blush harder feeling Eren’s head on mine but I close my eyes then hear Eren speak.
“While I am here, how about we get to know each other a little better. I will go first.” I hear him say in a low and calming voice. Then he begins telling me about himself.
“Well, I have an adopted sister and her name is Mikasa. My dad had disappeared when I was 8 and my mom is depressed about it. So me and my sister help her out and stuff. I had one girlfriend and she dumped me for ‘cheating.’ So she had done a lot of awful things and ruined my life but I got over it and shrugged it off. I’m bi and you’re the only one who knows beside Mikasa. I just feel I can tell you these things because I feel I can trust you.”
He finishes and I smile a little to myself. Eren trusts me and I have a small chance with him! I say to myself cheering up a little. “Now it’s my turn” I say shyly readjusting getting comfy.
“Well, I have been depressed ever since my parents passed away and people at school don’t make it any better. I get made fun of because I’m the smartest in my classes and I look like a girl. I’m also made fun of because… I-I’m gay…” I say quietly knowing he probably hates me now.
“Wow, really? That’s awful and I think liking guys is cool. I actually have a crush on a guy…” I look up at him and see him blushing hard with a cute little smile.
“C-can I know wh-who?” I ask shyly seeing who I have competition with.
“He has blonde hair, wears a sweater, extremely adorable, very smart, and I would like to help him with his depression.” This guy sounds like… Me?!
(A/N I hope you guys liked this chapter. I’m going to try and upload at least one more chapter before Tuesday. Enjoy. Baiiiii ^-^)
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