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I stared out the window watching the tree blow in the wind. It was too hypnotizing not to watch. I felt myself falling but I wasn’t. It’s like that feeling you get when you lay down and your body feels like its about to fall but your not even moving. I saw a flash of light and then it was gone. I concentrated hard on the tree, perplexed by what it was doing to my mind. I saw the flash again and me within it. I felt myself fall but I hadn’t even moved. I opened my eyes…
“Mommie! Mommie!” I looked over the blankets and saw a young child standing in front of me. I picked her up and sat her next to me.
“Daddy says that we’re going to get pizza! He told me to wake you up!” I stared at her in dismay. Did she just say daddy? She called me mommie… I stood up and walked towards the bathroom with the young child following behind.
I looked in the mirror and saw an older version of myself. I had to have been atleast 24. I picked what I assume is my daughter up and set her on the counter.
“What’s today sweetie?” She crossed her arms.
“Mommie, call me by my name. I’m not a baby anymore. Remember? It’s Autumn.” I stared at her and smiled. That name, it was the name that I’d always planned on naming my daughter.
“Autumn what day is it?” She stood there staring at me with big beautiful green eyes. “I like sweetie better and it’s May 4th, 2019. I learned my numbers mommie!” She keeps calling me mommie… I think that’s so cute. I never imagined myself as the girl in the relationship. Wait who am I with!?
“Hurry mommie! Daddies home! Get ready!” I heard the door close and I set Autumn down from the counter. I heard foot steps coming, I ran out of the bathroom door and it was..
“Babe?” I looked away from the tree and over at Johnny. He walked towards me and pulled me away from the window. “You okay? It’s late.” I looked towards the clock. Had I really been standing here for 3 hours? The little girl, her name was Autumn. I was with someone, we had a daughter. She called me mommie. The image of her was trapped in my brain.
Johnny pulled me towards the bedroom while all I could think about was what I saw. A vision? I laid down in my bed and stared at the cieling. There’s always that fear in the back of my mind that I won’t be able to be the same, that I won’t ever be the same. I turned over to find Johnny staring at me.
“Babe your scaring me..” I turned over and held onto him tight. “I’m sorry… I’m just thinking is all.”
He held onto me tight and I could feel how tense he was, I know that this happened to me but it has to be hard on him. It has to be freaking tough. I rubbed my hand on his back up and down, up and down. It was so relaxing to him, he was alsleep within minutes. I felt myself drift into the black.
“Hello?” I screamed into the darkness. There was nothing, no one. I couldn’t even see myself. I began walking into the nothingness hoping to find something. I smacked right into a door.
I knocked on it hoping for an answer, someone to open it or something. “Is anyone in there?” I asked. I heard silence and then a click. I opened the door and walked through it. I walked over a charcoal black ground with a smell of fire around me. I looked around.
It was the park, the one outside of school. but there wasn’t a school or a town. It was a huge land mass of beautiful pity.
Everything that was once alive and green was black, destroyed by a fire. I walked around a little bit longer till I found a patch of green. I sat down on it and felt the grass.
It felt amazing, like peace and happiness. I grabbed some of the flowers and just held them. This little patch that survived all of this destruction was just beautiful. I closed my eyes and then I heard an all two familiar laugh.
“I knew you couldn’t stay away.” I felt myself being dragged away from the patch of green and through the burnt and hot ground. I looked up only to find Ralph dragging me through the inferno ahead.
“No! Please stop!” I kicked and screamed but the more I tried the lower my voice went. It was only a short amount of time before my voice was completely gone. I felt helpless, like nothing was ever going to save me.
“I love you Johnny.” I managed to rasp that out before my voice went completely dead. I saw the sky light up. Ralph picked me up and slapped me.
“What did you do?!” The sunlight engulfed him and he burned up. Everything that was once destroyed began to grow back. I looked around and found the feeling of peace and traquility.
I know that this place still looks torn up and that it’s going to take alot of time before its all green, but its worth the wait. Everything beautiful takes time.
I saw a bright light and looked up. It shined so bright that I had to shut my eyes as it engulfed me.
I opened my eyes only to find Johnny staring at me with a smile. I smiled back at him and kissed him. I know now that everything will be okay. I know that I’m not sure who I was with in the future but I do know what’s going to save me from my pain. Johnny, not just him but his love.
“Johnny. I’m nothing without you. I love you always and forever no matter what. I know that we’ve been through the worse and the best, but I want you to know that I’m not going anywhere. No matter what I’m going to stand by yourside and fight for you. I love you and nothing will ever change that.” I kissed him and he grabbed my hand.
“I love you too David.”
May 4th, 2019
“What’s today sweetie?” She crossed her arms.
“Mommie, call me by my name. I’m not a baby anymore. Remember?” I stared at her and smiled.
“Yes of course. Autumn what day is it?” She stood there staring at me with big beautiful green eyes. “I like sweetie better and it’s May 4th, 2019. I learned my numbers mommie!” I stared into the mirror and let Autumn help me get ready. Not that there was a lot to do.
“Hurry mommie! Daddies home! Get ready!” I heard the door close and I set Autumn down from the counter. I heard foot steps coming, I ran out of the bathroom door and jumped onto Johnny. I kissed him and hugged him tight.
“Who’s ready for pizza?!” He screamed. Autumn ran out of the bathroom screaming off the top of her lungs and we all walked towards the door.
As I was locking it I looked into the house and stared at the pictures. Johnny and I everywhere, most with Autumn. Our engagment, the two of us with our parents and even a picture of him proposing because he let my mother in on it. Our wedding, the ceremony plastered up there with a few photos of the reception. Even our families, but my favorite picture, the family picture of Johnny, Autumn, and I.
This is exactly how it’s suppose to be, always and forever.
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Then end :O OHMYGOD, i wanted to write more to this but hey, I felt like there was nothing more left to say. Everything just fell into place and went together.
I’d love to thank all the readers and fans! I wrote this story to get through things that were really horrible in my life and I got through it! Believe it or not, you guys helped me through it.
I love you all! Thank you for sticking with me this far ^-^ comment !
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