“I♥U”, it’s not a lie! [boyxboy]✔️ - 14 I'm sorry...

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After feeding Elsa and taking a shower, Yibo skipped the usual dinner sandwich and headed straight to the bedroom.
He dropped his tired himself on the bed, cuddled at his chest the warm, purring cat, and started to run behind his closed eyes, the film of that day.

~ Yibo’s POV~

Today I tried again to sway lao lao on telling me the whole truth!
There have already been two weeks since she launched that deadly bomb, and she is still rejecting all my attempts in convincing her to explain herself. 

Each time I’m pressing her with my questions, I get the same kind of answer:
“Bo Bo, be honest, did you like it to witness…Xiao Zh…erm…your br…erm…hating on his mother?
Listen to your old granny, his hatred is not easy to bear, he is actually hurting inside, the poor boy.
And I don’t want for my beloved grandson to experience that same kind of pain, I don’t want to see you hating your parents, or hating me.
It would make no good to you to know all the ugly details, trust me.
Besides, it would make no difference anyway, you two would still be blood relatives.”

“But, you told him, why Zhan has the right to know, but not me?!
I want to know the truth, I deserve to know the truth!
Please lao lao, I promise I will not hate anyone, I promise…”,I begged, tears streaming down my cheeks.

Grandma took my face in her warm hands and wiped my wet cheeks, smiling at me:
“I wouldn’t have told him either, but I had no choice.
He kept calling me, I don’t even know how he got my phone number, and insisted that he doesn’t believe me.
He kept saying that his heart that loves you, knows better than me the truth.
I was scared that he will convince you too, and the both of you will fall in the dangerous trap of forbidden incestuos love.”

“He told you, he loves me?”, I shouted, with my heart thumping like crazy, forgetting for a second that my momentary happiness is forbidden, as forbidden as the impossible love that I still feel for him…for my…probably brother.
He can’t be my father, can’t be my son, so we can only be brothers…
But how could that be?!
How?!
And why?!
Why?!

Today was the last day of filming the CF, and probably the last time to ever see him.
I don’t know how I will keep living starting with tomorrow morning.
It was not easy before either, but at least I got to see him for a few hours every day.

Yes, it was hard to wake up each morning, knowing that I will acknowledge him, once again, turning down all my attempts, each time I would try to speak with him. But at least I was able to see him.
It pained me that it couldn’t be me to comfort him, whenever his best friend was hugging him or wiping a rebel tear away from his beautiful face. But at least I saw him.

I know!
It’s against nature, against any common sense, morality, against anything and everything, to feel like this, but…
I miss him.
I love him.
So, so much.

~End of Yibo’s POV~

Yibo was aware of the ringing doorbell only at Elsa’s annoyed growl.
Who could it be, it’s not that late, but still it’s 9 in the evening, who is it?
It couldn’t be any member of his family, as he spent the whole afternoon at the Wang residence, and Seunggie was busy with her boyfriend.

He wiped his soaked cheeks and red eyes with the hem of his pajama shirt while rushing to the front door, with a grumpy Elsa in tow.

“Hi, were you sleeping?
I’m sorry for disturbing you, but I…”, his late hour guest mumbled weakly , after he opened the door.

Yibo had tried, god knows how hard he did, but just couldn’t…
He just couldn’t stop the tears from running like from a broken water tap.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m…”, the man standing in the door frame, kept chanting in a voice strangled by tears.

Who knows for how long they have both stayed rooted in the spot, just staring at each other, tears rolling down in quietness.

Xiao Zhan was the first to compose himself:
“I’m sorry for disturbing you at this late hour, but I couldn’t come earlier, and also couldn’t wait until tomorrow, as my flight is at 4AM.
I bought a gift for A-Yuan and I wanted to ask you to give it to him.
Also, I stopped by for one more reason. To take goodbye from you, because I don’t know when we will see each other again.”

“I’m sorry for…I…forgive me…please, come inside.”, Yibo managed somehow to bring himself together and show his guest in.

“Your flight to the US?
Do you want something to drink, or eat maybe?”, he asked, while grabbing the clothes and the backpack discarded carelessly on the couch from when he came back home.

“Yes, I’m going home to New York, and no, I don’t want anything to drink or eat.
Or maybe a glass of water would be fine.”, Zhan replied, taking a seat on the couch, and placing the bag he was carrying, next to him.

“Jiùxīng come, come here, I’ve missed you a lot.
Look, I brought a gift for you, too, the pet shop seller said that her kitties customers love to cuddle this teddy the most, I hope you’ll like it.”, Yibo heard him from the kitchen.

“Seems like Elsa missed you, no lesser than you’ve missed her.
I’ve never seen her getting so cozy with someone else that is not me.
I remember how she argued with me when I removed her from your cozy butt.”, he smiled at the memory, noticing too late what he had slipped off.

Yibo pretended to not see Zhan’s huge eyes widening even more, while placing the glass of water on the coffee table.

“Wait, what?
You removed Jiùxīng, ermm Elsa, from my cozy butt?”, the sitting man rose his voice, startling the cat, who jumped down from his lap.

Yibo could have lied, but at that moment he decided to put to a stop this whole mess, generated by lies.

He placed the bag on the coffee table and sat next to him, taking his hand in his.
He swallowed his tears at Zhan’s heavy gasp when their hands touched:
“I suppose brothers are allowed to hold hands.
We have enough time until your flight, I’d like to tell you the whole truth, if you’d want to listen to it.
Zhan Zhan my love, I mean Xiao Zhan, I know that I don’t deserve to have a place in your life, and I’m aware that we probably will never see each other again.
I lied to you so much, but I never lied about my feelings for you.
I still love you my sweet Zhan baobei, I tried but I just can’t lie nor to you, and especially nor to myself that I don’t love you, no matter how talented I thought I was in the lying art.
Maybe it’s good that we will never see each other again, even though I’m bleeding inside at just spelling these hurtful words.
But, please, I need your forgiveness, to keep me alive…
If A-Yuan would not need me, I wouldn’t even care if…”

Zhan pressed his other palm, on their sandwiched hands, after rubbing his teary eyes and whisper-talked:
“My beloved Bo Bo, please, don’t talk foolishly, of course that you must care about your life!
Your life is precious not only to A-Yuan!
So many people love you, your parents, your sister, your amazing lao lao, your best friend, even your uni professors… And me!
Yes me, your brother loves you.
Even though I’m not allowed to the love that my heart demands me to love you with, you will remain forever inlaid in my soul as the person who taught me what love is, what forgiveness is and what family should mean.
You know, the strong love that I feel for you is the reason why I decided to give a chance to listening to my mother, too.
So what if you lied, who in the world has never lied?
Our parents lied to us, your grandmother lied for many years by hiding the truth, and…”

“But you never lied to me, while I…”, Yibo whispered, a blush of shame creeping up his cheeks.

“No, it’s not true.
You do remember that “Kiss me now, meet me later!” experiment?”

“Huh? Oh my god, do you think I could ever forget that?
But what do you mean with that it’s not true?”

“It’s not true that I have never lied to you.
Did you never ask yourself, why I was even in that bowl, when I’m not a student, and only students were accepted?”

“You’re right, amazing how I’ve missed that!
You are the rich heir of an American company, why were you there?”

“Actually, that film production agency belongs to our Company, and I was there for signing some documents.
The office I was in had a dark mirror glass wall, so I could see the exterior, without being seen.
I was talking to the phone, looking at nowhere, when my eyes landed on the most handsome man I have ever seen.
I got extremely intrigued, and even though I thougt that he was accompanied by his girlfriend, I badly wanted to meet him.
I don’t know if you remember that in room number 143, the registration office, it was a dark curtain behind the employee in charge with the ball extraction.
Well, behind that curtain it was standing me, listening to the discussion, and finding out that the handsome man was not the girl’s boyfriend, but even better, he was gay!
I talked with the director of the experiment film and told him that I want a same gender kiss to be inserted in the film.
I informed him that I have accidentally heard that one of the male students is gay, so he would have no trouble to kiss another male.
Also, I told the director that I will offer myself to be his partner in kissing, as the director knew about my sexuality.
Under the condition for the student would never know that the matching balls extraction was not by hazard.
See, I lied, too!”, he chuckled, perking those juicy lips in his signature goofy, baby pout.

Yibo’s heart couldn’t take it anymore and for a moment he forgot about what is allowed and what not.
Unconsciously, he started leaning slowly…
Zhan was not moving at all, they were both like in a trance, teleported into an universe that had nothing to do with the real world.
Bo’s eyes fluttered closed at the hot palm plastered at his nape.
He could feel the other’s breath ghosting his half parted lips, when…Meoooow!

“Thank you Jiùxīng, I didn’t call you with this name (A/n: Savior in Chinese) for nothing.
You saved me, you saved us, once again!
But, I should call you by your real name, Elsa.
Bo Bo, tell me her story, did you buy her from the pet store?”, Zhan smiled, standing up and picking the cat in his arms, trying to talk and act casually like they were not just about making the most outrageous mistake.

“No, I didn’t buy Elsa, but before telling you her story, show me your gift for A-yuan, is it in this big mysterious bag?”, Yibo tried his best to pull the most casual acting, even though his heart was still trembling like a leaf in the wind.   

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After feeding Elsa and taking a shower, Yibo skipped the usual dinner sandwich and headed straight to the bedroom.
He dropped his tired himself on the bed, cuddled at his chest the warm, purring cat, and started to run behind his closed eyes, the film of that day.

~ Yibo’s POV~

Today I tried again to sway lao lao on telling me the whole truth!
There have already been two weeks since she launched that deadly bomb, and she is still rejecting all my attempts in convincing her to explain herself. 

Each time I’m pressing her with my questions, I get the same kind of answer:
“Bo Bo, be honest, did you like it to witness…Xiao Zh…erm…your br…erm…hating on his mother?
Listen to your old granny, his hatred is not easy to bear, he is actually hurting inside, the poor boy.
And I don’t want for my beloved grandson to experience that same kind of pain, I don’t want to see you hating your parents, or hating me.
It would make no good to you to know all the ugly details, trust me.
Besides, it would make no difference anyway, you two would still be blood relatives.”

“But, you told him, why Zhan has the right to know, but not me?!
I want to know the truth, I deserve to know the truth!
Please lao lao, I promise I will not hate anyone, I promise…”, I begged, tears streaming down my cheeks.

Grandma took my face in her warm hands and wiped my wet cheeks, smiling at me:
“I wouldn’t have told him either, but I had no choice.
He kept calling me, I don’t even know how he got my phone number, and insisted that he doesn’t believe me.
He kept saying that his heart that loves you, knows better than me the truth.
I was scared that he will convince you too, and the both of you will fall in the dangerous trap of forbidden incestuos love.”

“He told you, he loves me?”, I shouted, with my heart thumping like crazy, forgetting for a second that my momentary happiness is forbidden, as forbidden as the impossible love that I still feel for him…for my…probably brother.
He can’t be my father, can’t be my son, so we can only be brothers…
But how could that be?!
How?!
And why?!
Why?!

Today was the last day of filming the CF, and probably the last time to ever see him.
I don’t know how I will keep living starting with tomorrow morning.
It was not easy before either, but at least I got to see him for a few hours every day.

Yes, it was hard to wake up each morning, knowing that I will acknowledge him, once again, turning down all my attempts, each time I would try to speak with him. But at least I was able to see him.
It pained me that it couldn’t be me to comfort him, whenever his best friend was hugging him or wiping a rebel tear away from his beautiful face. But at least I saw him.

I know!
It’s against nature, against any common sense, morality, against anything and everything, to feel like this, but…
I miss him.
I love him.
So, so much.

~End of Yibo’s POV~

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Yibo was aware of the ringing doorbell only at Elsa’s annoyed growl.
Who could it be, it’s not that late, but still it’s 9 in the evening, who is it?
It couldn’t be any member of his family, as he spent the whole afternoon at the Wang residence, and Seunggie was busy with her boyfriend.

He wiped his soaked cheeks and red eyes with the hem of his pajama shirt while rushing to the front door, with a grumpy Elsa in tow.

“Hi, were you sleeping?
I’m sorry for disturbing you, but I…”, his late hour guest mumbled weakly , after he opened the door.

Yibo had tried, god knows how hard he did, but just couldn’t…
He just couldn’t stop the tears from running like from a broken water tap.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m…”, the man standing in the door frame, kept chanting in a voice strangled by tears.

Who knows for how long they have both stayed rooted in the spot, just staring at each other, tears rolling down in quietness.

Xiao Zhan was the first to compose himself:
“I’m sorry for disturbing you at this late hour, but I couldn’t come earlier, and also couldn’t wait until tomorrow, as my flight is at 4AM.
I bought a gift for A-Yuan and I wanted to ask you to give it to him.
Also, I stopped by for one more reason. To take goodbye from you, because I don’t know when we will see each other again.”

“I’m sorry for…I…forgive me…please, come inside.”, Yibo managed somehow to bring himself together and show his guest in.

“Your flight to the US?
Do you want something to drink, or eat maybe?”, he asked, while grabbing the clothes and the backpack discarded carelessly on the couch from when he came back home.

“Yes, I’m going home to New York, and no, I don’t want anything to drink or eat.
Or maybe a glass of water would be fine.”, Zhan replied, taking a seat on the couch, and placing the bag he was carrying, next to him.

“Jiùxīng come, come here, I’ve missed you a lot.
Look, I brought a gift for you, too, the pet shop seller said that her kitties customers love to cuddle this teddy the most, I hope you’ll like it.”, Yibo heard him from the kitchen.

“Seems like Elsa missed you, no lesser than you’ve missed her.
I’ve never seen her getting so cozy with someone else that is not me.
I remember how she argued with me when I removed her from your cozy butt.”, he smiled at the memory, noticing too late what he had slipped off.

Yibo pretended to not see Zhan’s huge eyes widening even more, while placing the glass of water on the coffee table.

“Wait, what?
You removed Jiùxīng, ermm Elsa, from my cozy butt?”, the sitting man rose his voice, startling the cat, who jumped down from his lap.

Yibo could have lied, but at that moment he decided to put to a stop this whole mess, generated by lies.

He placed the bag on the coffee table and sat next to him, taking his hand in his.
He swallowed his tears at Zhan’s heavy gasp when their hands touched:
“I suppose brothers are allowed to hold hands.
We have enough time until your flight, I’d like to tell you the whole truth, if you’d want to listen to it.
Zhan Zhan my love, I mean Xiao Zhan, I know that I don’t deserve to have a place in your life, and I’m aware that we probably will never see each other again.
I lied to you so much, but I never lied about my feelings for you.
I still love you my sweet Zhan baobei, I tried but I just can’t lie nor to you, and especially nor to myself that I don’t love you, no matter how talented I thought I was in the lying art.
Maybe it’s good that we will never see each other again, even though I’m bleeding inside at just spelling these hurtful words.
But, please, I need your forgiveness, to keep me alive…
If A-Yuan would not need me, I wouldn’t even care if…”

Zhan pressed his other palm, on their sandwiched hands, after rubbing his teary eyes and whisper-talked:
“My beloved Bo Bo, please, don’t talk foolishly, of course that you must care about your life!
Your life is precious not only to A-Yuan!
So many people love you, your parents, your sister, your amazing lao lao, your best friend, even your uni professors… And me!
Yes me, your brother loves you.
Even though I’m not allowed to the love that my heart demands me to love you with, you will remain forever inlaid in my soul as the person who taught me what love is, what forgiveness is and what family should mean.
You know, the strong love that I feel for you is the reason why I decided to give a chance to listening to my mother, too.
So what if you lied, who in the world has never lied?
Our parents lied to us, your grandmother lied for many years by hiding the truth, and…”

“But you never lied to me, while I…”, Yibo whispered, a blush of shame creeping up his cheeks.

“No, it’s not true.
You do remember that “Kiss me now, meet me later!” experiment?”

“Huh? Oh my god, do you think I could ever forget that?
But what do you mean with that it’s not true?”

“It’s not true that I have never lied to you.
Did you never ask yourself, why I was even in that bowl, when I’m not a student, and only students were accepted?”

“You’re right, amazing how I’ve missed that!
You are the rich heir of an American company, why were you there?”

“Actually, that film production agency belongs to our Company, and I was there for signing some documents.
The office I was in had a dark mirror glass wall, so I could see the exterior, without being seen.
I was talking to the phone, looking at nowhere, when my eyes landed on the most handsome man I have ever seen.
I got extremely intrigued, and even though I thougt that he was accompanied by his girlfriend, I badly wanted to meet him.
I don’t know if you remember that in room number 143, the registration office, it was a dark curtain behind the employee in charge with the ball extraction.
Well, behind that curtain it was standing me, listening to the discussion, and finding out that the handsome man was not the girl’s boyfriend, but even better, he was gay!
I talked with the director of the experiment film and told him that I want a same gender kiss to be inserted in the film.
I informed him that I have accidentally heard that one of the male students is gay, so he would have no trouble to kiss another male.
Also, I told the director that I will offer myself to be his partner in kissing, as the director knew about my sexuality.
Under the condition for the student would never know that the matching balls extraction was not by hazard.
See, I lied, too!”, he chuckled, perking those juicy lips in his signature goofy, baby pout.

Yibo’s heart couldn’t take it anymore and for a moment he forgot about what is allowed and what not.
Unconsciously, he started leaning slowly…
Zhan was not moving at all, they were both like in a trance, teleported into an universe that had nothing to do with the real world.
Bo’s eyes fluttered closed at the hot palm plastered at his nape.
He could feel the other’s breath ghosting his half parted lips, when…Meoooow!

“Thank you Jiùxīng, I didn’t call you with this name (A/n: Savior in Chinese) for nothing.
You saved me, you saved us, once again!
But, I should call you by your real name, Elsa.
Bo Bo, tell me her story, did you buy her from the pet store?”, Zhan smiled, standing up and picking the cat in his arms, trying to talk and act casually like they were not just about making the most outrageous mistake.

“No, I didn’t buy Elsa, but before telling you her story, show me your gift for A-yuan, is it in this big mysterious bag?”, Yibo tried his best to pull the most casual acting, even though his heart was still trembling like a leaf in the wind.   

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