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The room went silent instantly as the words leave Justin’s mouth. ‘He rape me’. The words keep repeating on Ryan’s mind. He couldn’t move, he even stop breathing for a while. Justin didn’t know what to do. He didn’t look up to his shock friend. He knows Ryan is going to go crazy with what he just told him. but he just couldn’t keep it anymore. Ryan always know how crack him, make him tell every little problems he have. They’ve been best friend for so long. Ryan could practically read Justin well.
“Wha..what did you just say?” Ryan ask not believing what his best friend just told him. He didn’t want it to be true actually, he was hoping he heard wrong. Justin look up to his friends with his broken eyes. His eyes started to water again.
“He rape me Ryan!” he yell. “He fucking rape me okay!” he yell again as he pulls at the end of his hair getting frustrated with this situation, he started to feel harder to breath. Ryan noticed that Justin is going to have a panic attack. He engulf Justin in to a warm hug as Justin cry in to his chest.
“Shhh buddy. I’m here. Just let it all out.” He coo. He couldn’t help but to shed a tear thinking about what his best friend have been through. Ryan can’t even think straight. He wanted to asks Justin more on what had happen but he knows he can’t push Justin now, he’s in fragile state. Justin cried for 10 minutes as he keeps repeating ‘I hate it Ry.’ Justin pull back as he sniffle. He wipes his tears stain cheek. His eyes hurts so much from all the crying.
Ryan reached out a tissue and lend it to Justin. He waited for Justin to calm down for a few minutes. He then took a deep breath.
“How long?” he ask making Justin stop his movement of drying his tears. Justin gulp, and look down his lap. “I don’t even know Ry, I don’t remember.” He whisper. Ryan eyes widen.
“You mean he’s done it so many fucking time?!” Ryan yelled loudly. Getting upset, angry and mostly mad.
“Yeah.” Justin whisper again. He didn’t have the strength to talk anymore. He’s tired.
Ryan rub his face in frustration. He took a deep breath as he’s about to lose control any second.
“I’m going to kill that fucking bastard!” he growl as he got up. Justin stood up instantly in front of his upset friend.
“No! You can’t let him know that you know about this.” Justin said shaking his head variously.
“You expect me to act like nothing happen? What the hell Justin? I’m going to end this. That fucking bastard rape you!” he growl.
“You think I don’t know that Ryan?! He rape me! Me! But do you really think I would’ve just let him if I have other choice? I would live this fucking mess up life I have now if I have a choice?” Justin yelled as angry tears stream down his face.
“We can tell the others. They could help Justin. You know they can.” Ryan said softly. He didn’t want to pressure Justin anymore.
“I don’t know Ry. He would hurt my mom. I don’t want that to happen.” Justin sighs.
“He’s just scaring you Justin. We report this to the police and he’ll be in jail in no time.” Ryan said confidently.
“It’s not just simple threats Ryan. He has a gun okay. If he’s not dangerous, he wouldn’t have that carry with him all the time. I’m not risking anyone’s life Ryan. Just another 2 months and the I’ll be out of here, everything will be okay.” He said trying to reassure himself.
“Another 2 months? And then what Justin? Do you really think you could live a normal life after that? Do you really think, it’ll be just another bad dreams to forget? You’d be broken Justin. You’re broken now. Can’t you see it? What makes you think that you going to last that long? You almost killed yourself just now. You’re hating yourself! You think the others didn’t notice how you’ve been so distant, so sensitive and so troubled?” Ryan question.
Justin fall to his knee making Ryan look at him wide eyes. “Please Ryan. I’m begging you. Please don’t tell them, not now. I don’t want anybody to get hurt. Just please Ryan. If you don’t want to speak to me anymore, I understand, as long you won’t tell anybody.” He beg. Ryan kneels down with him.
He hugged Justin tightly. “I won’t bro. I won’t tell but please Justin, let me always be with you, he wouldn’t dare to do anything with you if someone’s with you. Let me at least do that for you. You’re my brother Justin. It hurts me seeing you like this. I don’t want to force you Jay but I will have too one day. Okay ?” he said softly rubbing Justin’s back as he knows that’s what he need. Comfort.
“Thank you Ryan.” He whispers in Ryan’s shoulder.
Ryan didn’t know what to do. He knows he have to tell the others, get Justin out of this sick old man. But for now, he will try to always be by Justin’s side. It’s the least he could do. For now.
Justin walk to his tour bus slowly as his below hurts. Mark managed to rape him for 10 minutes when Justin was getting ready for one of the show he has to attend in his hometown. It’s been 3 days since Ryan found out and let just say, he kept his word. He visit Justin every single day and he would make Justin have sleep over at his or Chaz house. It took everything in him not to rip Mark’s ball out when he was talking to the old man.
“Justin you alright bud?” Kenny asks concern as he sees Justin was limping a bit. “Yeah, why?” he croak as he clear his throat.
“It’s just you’re limping a bit.” Kenny frowned. Justin stares at Kenny speechless. Thinking of an excuse.
“Umm.. I fell just now. Yeah, nothing to worry about.” He tried to smile taking a seat beside Kenny.
“Are you sure buddy?” Kenny ask not believing. “Yeah. Don’t worry about it okay.” Justin assure again. Kenny sighs as he nod.
“Well, you have to perform 3 songs at that show alright. You can go and discuss with Dan what songs you want perform.” Kenny informed. Justin nod.
“I think I would just sing 3 acoustic songs. What do you think? I mean, I don’t think I can move much, my leg hurts.” Justin said not looking at Kenny. The truth is he has no problem with his legs but he just didn’t have the energy to move a lot.
“I think that would be nice, I mean, your fans love when you sing acoustic anyways.” Kenny said smiling at the younger boy.
“I know right.” He smiled back.
“Kenny?” Justin said softly as he stares out the window. “Yeah bud?” Kenny asks scrolling down his phone.
“Do you think my beliebers would leave me one day?” Justin ask suddenly making Kenny look at him confuse.
“Why do you suddenly ask that Justin?” Kenny asks still looking at Justin. “I don’t know, I mean, I’m maybe look perfect to them now, what if one day I make a mistake or something bad happen, don’t you think they would leave me or be ashamed of me?” Justin asks now looking at Kenny.
Kenny sighs and smiled. “Justin, you can’t always be perfect you know, your human, in fact your still just another teenager, the only different is that you’re a superstar, other than that, you’re allowed to make mistake, that’s where you will learn from it and know life’s better. Your beliebers won’t leave you Justin, your fans maybe. As long that your remember to always show your love to them, they won’t leave you. They’re like your family. Like me and the crew. We’re your family Justin and family don’t leave each other.” Kenny said smiling warmly at the boy. Justin couldn’t help to shed a tear hearing that. He tackled Kenny in to a big hug.
“I love you guys so much.” He said hugging Kenny tightly. Kenny chuckled hugging him back.
“We love you too buddy. We’re always by your side.” Kenny rub his back.
The show went well as he sings with his heart during the show. With what Kenny said to him just now, Justin found a little hope that he’s not alone. He didn’t stop smiling when he sings but when it come to the last song, he tear up a little.
“Umm. Your guys are awesome tonight. Truly.” He said smiling at the crowd.
“But I’m afraid this is the last song for tonight. I’m going to sing a song that I think it’s really special to me. I know a lot of you can relate to it and just know that you’re not alone.” He said as he looks at Dan. Dan nod begin to strum his guitar.
I don’t wanna be left
In this war tonight
Am I alone in this fight?
Is anybody out there?
Don’t wanna be left left in this world behind
Say you’ll run to my side
Something ’bout mary
Never won a pageant
Never felt pretty
Never looked like cameron
Diaz was her last name
Always been abandoned
Keep your head up
Baby girl this is your anthem
There goes hannah
Showin’ off her banner
Rocking that crown
Make them boys go bananas
When you’re insecure about yourself
It’s a fact
You can point a finger
But there’s three pointing back
I can see her crying out, yeah
Is there anybody out there?
She’s really counting on your love
Still struggling uphill
But you act like you don’t care
Right now she could really use a shoulder
Hanging onto the edge til it’s over
She’s crying for your love tonight
Lonely is hard to survive, she said
I don’t wanna be left
In this war tonight
Am I alone in this fight?
Is anybody out there?
Don’t wanna be left in this world behind
Say you’ll run to my side
Is anybody out there? yeah, yeah, yeah
Is anybody out there?
His name was adam
When his mom had him
Dad was a phantom never took a look at him
Grew up mad and antisocial
Hated outdoors, always in playing madden
Adam was lonely
Drugs were the only
Way out of his own life
Now he’s slowly losing his fire
Close to retire
With one last hope he puts his arms up higher
I can see him crying out, yeah
Is anybody out there?
He’s really counting on your love
Still struggling uphill
But you act like you don’t care
Right now he could really use a shoulder
Hanging onto the edge til it’s over
He’s crying for your love tonight
Lonely is hard to survive, he said
I don’t wanna be left
In this war tonight
Am I alone in this fight?
Is anybody out there?
Don’t wanna be left in this world behind
Say you’ll run to my side
Is anybody out there?
If you feel the way I feel
Like you’ve been talking to yourself
Well this one’s for everyone who’s felt invisible
Lonely in a crowded room
Searching for someone like you
Can’t do it all alone
Can’t do it all alone
Is anybody out there?
Is anybody out there?
Is anybody out there?
I don’t wanna be left
In this war tonight
Am I alone in this fight?
Is anybody out there?
He stops as he couldn’t continue it anymore. He didn’t even realize the tears that were falling one by one on his face. Everyone grew quiet and just stare at him.
“Umm. Sorry. Thanks again. Love you guys.” He said quickly and stood up from the seat and walk out of the stage. He wipes his face and walk quickly to the bathroom.
“Justin wait!” Alfredo yelled chasing him from behind. Justin stops on his track not saying anything.
“Are you alright?” he asks instantly. Justin didn’t look at him as he nod his head slowly. He didn’t trust his voice.
“Then why were you crying man? What’s wrong?” Fredo ask concern looking at his young friend. Fredo had notice Justin’s change of attitude these past few weeks. He just didn’t have the time to ask.
Justin shook his head as he tries to walk to the bathroom again. Fredo grab his wrist. “Justin stop! What’s going on with you? I can tell something is bothering you man” Fredo said getting worried than ever.
“Let go please.” Justin said quietly. His head started to feel lightheaded. His body feels tired than ever. Fredo frown but let go of his wrist. Justin starts to walk again but stumble a bit as he hold his head. Fredo’s eyes widen as he sprint to his friend.
“You’re okay man?” he ask frantically. Justin looked at his friend with his tired eyes. “I don’t feel so good.” He whispers as he black out instantly.
Justin POV
I flutter my eyes open. I groaned as I hold the side of my head. What happen? I try to get up but my body was stopping me. I squint my eyes as I look at my surrounding. When did I get to my room? I finally sit up on my bed, leaning my back on the headboard.
“Your awake?” a voice startle me. I look up to see Mark standing at the door glaring at me. I gulp. I look down to my lap. I felt footstep walking towards me and the side of my bed sink. My heart start to beat faster. I close my eyes.
“What are you trying to do huh?” he asks in a low tone. I shivered at that. Suddenly I was push to the headboard as a hand hold my neck. I look up to be met with an evil glare.
“Look at me when I’m talking to you! You did this on purpose. You just had to cry in front of everyone and fainted after that. I know what you’re fucking doing. You’re trying to make everybody worry about you, with that, they would be up your ass to make sure your okay but guess what..” he pause as he smirk. I stare at him feeling frighten than ever.
“I volunteer myself to take care of you. Making them clear all your schedule for the rest of the month and just maybe your break will be extend. Since you look exhausted than ever. That is such a great idea isn’t it?” he said still smirking.
I shook my head. “No! I’m not letting you.” I croak. He tighten his grip on my neck making me whimper.
“I don’t fucking need your permission you slut!.” He yell as he slap me across the face. “You brought this to yourself, not me!” he growl.
I hold my throbbing cheek as tears whelmed up. “You just have to accept the fact that this will be forever. I’ll get married to your mom and I’ll make sure you end your career and stay home instead. With that, I can have you whenever I want. Sounds like a good plan, don’t you think?” he said chuckling to himself.
I didn’t say anything. I’m tired to take another beating. Just not today. He smile evilly staring at me up and down.
“Why don’t we took this cloths out.” He said as he try to remove my shirt. I slap his hand. I’m not doing this now. I can’t take it for now. My body is still hurting and I don’t think I can take any more pain in my body.
He grip both my wrist tightly. “Don’t you ever do that again you fucking brat!” he growl as he push my body harshly, so I lay down flat on my back. He pin both my hands up and start to pull my pants now. I struggle.
“Stop. Please.. Not..no..now,, please.” I beg as tears clouded my vision. Before I know it, my body was flip to the back so my back face the front. He enters me harshly making me scream. He shoved my faceto the pillow and I keep on screaming to the pillow. He pulls in and out for a few minutes and then he finally finish. I lay there not knowing what to do. I heard movement as my bedroom slam shut.
I sob in to the pillow. ‘When will this ever end?’
I sat on the couch watching tv. Not really concentrating on anything. I’m alone at home. I was just on the phone with mom half an hour ago. Hearing her voice makes me feel safe for a bit that I forgot to cut myself for today. I’ve been cutting everyday now, especially after Mark rape and left me. That’s the only escape I have anyways. I sighs as I stare at the Tv. The door bell startle me as I got up and open the front door slowly, revealing my dad and step siblings. I smile instantly.
“Bieber!” Jazzy yell as she hug my hug my leg tightly. I chuckle and remove her hand from my legs as I bend down slowly and hug her tightly but not hurting her.
“Jazzy!” I coo. She chuckle cutely and kiss my cheek. “I miss you Bieber.” She said. I smile wide. “Miss you more baby girl.” I said as we pull away. I stood up and saw my dad that was holding Jaxon, he was sleeping. I smile.
“Come in guys.” I said as they make their way. “Sorry I didn’t tell you we were coming son. We wanted to surprise you.” Dad said as he makes his way to the children room to put Jaxon on his bed. They come here a lot so I made a special room for them downstairs.
I went and sit down on the couch, Jazzy made her way to me and climb to my lap as she sit there leaning on my chest. She loves to do that, she says it’s comfy. “Ouh, it’s okay dad. I’m glad you guys finally came. I’ve been dreading to see my princess here.” I said as I kiss Jazzy’s cheek. She chuckle as she yawn.
“Tired Jaz?” I ask. She nod. She turns around and hugs my neck. “But I don’t want to sleep yet. I wanna spend time with you.” She said sweetly with her droopy eyes.
“Aww jazzy. We still have tomorrow baby girl. I promise you we’ll spend all day together.” I said kissing the top of her head.
“Promise?” she said while holding out her pinky. I chuckle and lace my pinky with hers.
“I promise.” I said. She hugged my neck tightly with her little hands. “Can you tuck me in Bieber?” she said sleepily.
“Sure sweetie.” I said as I pick her up and carry her to the children room. I saw Jaxon sleeping on his bed and Dad changing his cloths to his pajama. I carry Jazzy to her bed. I lay her down gently and tuck her in as I pull up the blanket. She’s asleep already. I smile and I kiss her cheek.
“Night princess. Love you.”
“Love you too Bieber.” She said while her eyes still closing. I chuckle and got up, walking out the door to the living room. I sat on the couch as I thank god silently for bringing them to the house. I miss them so much and with them being here, I don’t think Mark would do anything right?
I snap out of my mind when my dad came and seat beside me. “You’re okay son?” he asks looking at me.
I smile. “Yeah.” I lied. “Heard what happen today when you were performing and you fainted?” he ask worriedly.
“It was nothing dad. I was just feeling the song and for the faint part, I was just tired, that’s all.” I said trying to convince him.
He nod but he was still frowning. “If that so. Don’t push yourself too much alright. You’re going to make me and your mom worried.” He said concern.
I nod and smile. “I won’t” I answer.
“So, where’s Mark?” he ask suddenly. I didn’t take my eyes off the Tv. “He’s still at work I guess.” I answer.
“Wow. He must be a really hardworking man huh? It’s almost midnight.” He said surprise. I just nod and shrugged.
He suddenly yawned loudly making me look at him and chuckle. “You still laugh whenever I do that don’t you?” he ask shaking his head.
“Well, it is funny.” I said.
“I still don’t understand what’s funny even though you’ve been doing that since you were 6.” He said still shaking his head.
I just chuckle and shrugged. “Well, I’m going to bed now.” He said getting up. I instantly pull his wrist.
“Dad, could you sleep in my room tonight?” I ask nervously. He raised his eyebrows. I don’t want him to sleep at his room. His room is downstairs near Jazzy and Jaxon’s room.
“What? You want me to sleep with you?” he ask confuse. I nod looking at his eyes.
He frowned. “I can’t leave the kids downstairs alone Justin..” he trail off but I cut him off.
“Then, I’ll sleep downstairs too. I don’t mind sleeping with the kids too dad.” I said desperately. Dad looks at me like I was crazy. He nod his head slowly.
“Alright, You just sleep in my room then.” My dad said. I nod and turn off the Tv. On cue, the front door opens revealing Mark. Dad turns around to see who’s at the door. I walk closer to my dad.
Mark locked the door and turn around as he jump looking at Dad. “Ouh hey Mark.” He said friendly. Mark faked a smile.
“Ouh, hey. Didn’t know you were here.” He said trying to sound polite. “Yeah, sorry. It was just a surprise for Justin. Didn’t want anybody telling him but I told Pattie already though.” he said
“Ouh, it’s alright. This is your house too and I know Justin must be missing you a lot don’t you Justin?” he said as he look at me. I didn’t say anything as I advert my eyes to my dad, tucking his shirt a bit.
“Umm. Dad, I’m sleepy. Can we go now?” I whisper. He smile and nod. “Alright then Mark. I’ll see you in the morning. This big baby boy here needs sleep.” Dad teased making me roll my eyes.
“Ouh, you’re sleeping with your dad huh?” Mark said trying to hide his upset tone. I just nod not looking at his eyes.
“Yeah. I guess he misses me too much.” Dad chuckle putting his arm on my shoulder. I try my best not to flinch and I did it.
Mark nod making her way to the stairs. “Alright then. Have a good sleep then.” He said as he smiles at my dad.
Dad dragged me out of the living room to his room. He close the door as I make my way to the king size bed. I went in and pull the blanket covering my body. Dad went in the other side. He dim the light as I scoot closer to him. I lay my head on his shoulder, sighing a bit. He kissed the top of my head as I drift off to sleep. This is the first night in this week I went to sleep without pain, without tears, without nightmares. All I feel now is content and safe. I wish I could feel this way all the time.
Hello guys,
How was it? I hope you love it L
Tried to make it long, I don’t want this tory to end fast so I’m thinking a lot of idea now. Just pray I won’t be running out of ideas. 😉
Anyways,
Fredo start to notice something is wrong with Justin?
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I bring Jeremy and the kids for a reason. You’ll see later.
The song that Justin was singing was ‘Is Anybody Out There by Madilyn Bailey’ not the original singer but I love her version. I post the video on the side. Listen to it when Justin was singing it alright.
Comment and Vote lovelies!
Love you!
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